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I'm looking and I'm hoping and I'm pleading with the universe
For some kind of explanation of my meaning in this universe
Some kinda peace of mind and the ability to understand
Where it is that I belong and peace with that I can't command
And I understand the universe is an infinite mystery
But if I'm going in blind then how can it mean shit to me?
I need some sense of peace and a basic sense of purpose
If there's any kinda karma, what'd I do to deserve this?
Looking for the feelings I see in the people I look up to
A feeling, a foundation, something I can give trust to
A passion and vain of life to make me feel like I'm more
Than an organic machine, nothing less nothing more
Always feeling finite cause time is limited
and every moment feels dead every time I finish
It's harder to connect to the moments I used to cherish
The existential makes me feel like I'm on a path to perish
But I gotta keep going through intense anxiety
Trying to find this soul I once felt was inside of me
I never wanted to die, never wanted to give in
So I gotta believe I'll find the answers if I just keep living

I don't feel, no I don't feel
Oh I don't feel, like the man I used to be
I want to feel, I need to feel
Like it's all real, the things I used to believe

I used to have a sense of spirit and soul
But now it feels comatose and out of control
I feel a little more dead as my social life stagnates
Trying hard to reform the bonds that I had laced
I used to feel closer to a lot of people near to me
I used to believe we connected mentally and spiritually
I think I used to understand my feelings a lot more clearly
But time's made me more alone and it brings a lotta fear to me
A lot of friends leave and a lot of bonds break
And I can't tell if they were numbed and stowed deep away
Or if it wasn't what I thought it was and those deep feelings died
But I've got to keep faith that those feelings are still alive
I don't get out as much as I used to and it might be problem
And maybe if I get out more and exercise my feelings I can solve em
I've tried to appreciate the people around me all I can
To try and soak in the love and even better man
It's hard cause some days I feel like I'm losing touch
It's like I feel more and more every day that I don't feel enough
It seems I feel the most when I try to not think too much
But then the anxiety makes me feel I don't think enough
It's like a parasite trying just to get me to obsess
But I try to fight it off, I gotta give it my best
Because so many people promise me I can find something infinite
And I can't share the journey of enlightenment till I finish it

I don't feel, no I don't feel
Oh I don't feel, like the man I used to be
I want to feel, I need to feel
Like it's all real, the things I used to believe

I don't feel, no I don't feel
Oh I don't feel, like the man I used to be
I want to feel, I need to feel
Like it's all real, the things I used to believe

Description
I'm looking and I'm hoping and I'm pleading with the universe
For some kind of explanation of my meaning in this universe
Some kinda peace of mind and the ability to understand
Where it is that I belong and peace with that I can't command
And I understand the universe is an infinite mystery
But if I'm going in blind then how can it mean shit to me?
I need some sense of peace and a basic sense of purpose
If there's any kinda karma, what'd I do to deserve this?
Looking for the feelings I see in the people I look up to
A feeling, a foundation, something I can give trust to
A passion and vain of life to make me feel like I'm more
Than an organic machine, nothing less nothing more
Always feeling finite cause time is limited
and every moment feels dead every time I finish
It's harder to connect to the moments I used to cherish
The existential makes me feel like I'm on a path to perish
But I gotta keep going through intense anxiety
Trying to find this soul I once felt was inside of me
I never wanted to die, never wanted to give in
So I gotta believe I'll find the answers if I just keep living

I don't feel, no I don't feel
Oh I don't feel, like the man I used to be
I want to feel, I need to feel
Like it's all real, the things I used to believe

I used to have a sense of spirit and soul
But now it feels comatose and out of control
I feel a little more dead as my social life stagnates
Trying hard to reform the bonds that I had laced
I used to feel closer to a lot of people near to me
I used to believe we connected mentally and spiritually
I think I used to understand my feelings a lot more clearly
But time's made me more alone and it brings a lotta fear to me
A lot of friends leave and a lot of bonds break
And I can't tell if they were numbed and stowed deep away
Or if it wasn't what I thought it was and those deep feelings died
But I've got to keep faith that those feelings are still alive
I don't get out as much as I used to and it might be problem
And maybe if I get out more and exercise my feelings I can solve em
I've tried to appreciate the people around me all I can
To try and soak in the love and even better man
It's hard cause some days I feel like I'm losing touch
It's like I feel more and more every day that I don't feel enough
It seems I feel the most when I try to not think too much
But then the anxiety makes me feel I don't think enough
It's like a parasite trying just to get me to obsess
But I try to fight it off, I gotta give it my best
Because so many people promise me I can find something infinite
And I can't share the journey of enlightenment till I finish it

I don't feel, no I don't feel
Oh I don't feel, like the man I used to be
I want to feel, I need to feel
Like it's all real, the things I used to believe

I don't feel, no I don't feel
Oh I don't feel, like the man I used to be
I want to feel, I need to feel
Like it's all real, the things I used to believe