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I can't find any other way to express that life feels like an absolute fucking fuckfest right now.
Well, not without making everyone in my close vicinity feel irritated at least.

I feel that everyday a new problem pops up for me, adding another bunch of dead braincells from stressing myself over it.
The school makes us purchase shitton of expensive student's books, and then we get punished when we don't have the finances to do so anymore.
We have a teacher who doesn't seem to understand that human brain is not an inflatable pocket universe with unlimited amount of space, and is capable of scolding you like a preschool kid,
and giving you an F for not knowing a single obscure factoid, that you would have zero chance of knowing,
unless you've been living in the head of Josef Kajetán Tyl himself for the last fucking twenty years of his life.
I developed chronic headaches, and my head physically feels as if it is about to explode because of all the worthless shit we have to learn in school, only so that we'll have to forget it and never use it again after graduation or in any practical part of life whatsoever. Even better. I feel that because of this, I actually started to forget the information that actually is important for me.
.
.
.
Seriously, at which fucking point in my life will I need to know what an epizeuxis is?

I feel like I am torn between two decisions, first one being graduating, but getting permanent brain/nerve damage from all this shit,
or not graduating, keeping what is left of my sanity, but most likely ending up on streets and ending up dead eventually anyway.

I honestly somedays really just feel like jumping in front of a car or just hope that I'll stop breathing in my sleep, so that I don't have to worry about any of this anymore.

But hey. People never gave a shit about students or their wellbeing. It doesn't matter how much burden you shove onto them. They'll get over it.
After all, we're all just a bunch of spoiled kids who don't have any "real" problems, and just don't want to take responsibility over anything.

Anyway. Enough of my crap.
Here is the interactive thingy that inspired this sobfest of mine -> Adventures With Anxiety! - by Nicky Case

Description
I can't find any other way to express that life feels like an absolute fucking fuckfest right now.
Well, not without making everyone in my close vicinity feel irritated at least.

I feel that everyday a new problem pops up for me, adding another bunch of dead braincells from stressing myself over it.
The school makes us purchase shitton of expensive student's books, and then we get punished when we don't have the finances to do so anymore.
We have a teacher who doesn't seem to understand that human brain is not an inflatable pocket universe with unlimited amount of space, and is capable of scolding you like a preschool kid,
and giving you an F for not knowing a single obscure factoid, that you would have zero chance of knowing,
unless you've been living in the head of Josef Kajetán Tyl himself for the last fucking twenty years of his life.
I developed chronic headaches, and my head physically feels as if it is about to explode because of all the worthless shit we have to learn in school, only so that we'll have to forget it and never use it again after graduation or in any practical part of life whatsoever. Even better. I feel that because of this, I actually started to forget the information that actually is important for me.
.
.
.
Seriously, at which fucking point in my life will I need to know what an epizeuxis is?

I feel like I am torn between two decisions, first one being graduating, but getting permanent brain/nerve damage from all this shit,
or not graduating, keeping what is left of my sanity, but most likely ending up on streets and ending up dead eventually anyway.

I honestly somedays really just feel like jumping in front of a car or just hope that I'll stop breathing in my sleep, so that I don't have to worry about any of this anymore.

But hey. People never gave a shit about students or their wellbeing. It doesn't matter how much burden you shove onto them. They'll get over it.
After all, we're all just a bunch of spoiled kids who don't have any "real" problems, and just don't want to take responsibility over anything.

Anyway. Enough of my crap.
Here is the interactive thingy that inspired this sobfest of mine -> Adventures With Anxiety! - by Nicky Case