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I've been gone, lets get that out of the way i know! I said a few weeks ago i was gonna come back, and now ive finally made up my fucking mind, I cant really say ive been dealing with stress well these last few days / weeks / months / last year and a half!

Ive been fighting depression, anxiety, being sick, helping out my boyfriend leaderofultra ive been trying to keep my head on straight but find myself watching politics when im not looking, I feel like the demon in my head, the perfectionist one is getting better, thats a plus, but im mildly convinced i caused myself a bit of brain damage if not a ton of it from punching and slapping myself in the nogin due to an overabundance of stress, friends of mine are stressed but me and my dumbass keep trying to help everyone, and everytime i do or say or attempt anything, it seems like someone somehow someway has a bone to pick with it, at first i thought i was being crazy about it but no, everyone seems like a hardass on me in one way or another!

Ive been swapping deviantart, twitter (x), itaku, and on and on and on since the da ai shit happened because i didnt feel i had a place to go anymore, and now im back here because the least of all the evils ive seen in my personal op, the fact i had to search the internet for a new home after shitstorm after shitstorm and so on! made me fucking realize what the fuck am i doing? Why am i running? What am i running from? Myself? no, im good right? Im getting better? My past then? Cant be that, im seeing therapy and getting better there too. pain? actually every time i look around im stressing myself out, for one reason or another, Im either watching youtube and feeding into the code with politics i dont need to know, convincing myself knowledge is power or some shit! A video like r/ (fill in the blank) which usually involves someone being stupid and/or an asshole! Or a game called "What crisis did the world shit out today?" And im tired of it!

I tell myself and my boyfriend and friends "Im sick of being sick, and im tired of being tired" not an orginal thought i know but i cant describe it much better than that!

So wheres this leave me? Internet homeless? I dunno, discored is always open, Deviantart is gonna be the default along with itaku for status updates and skecthes!!

Comms will be here soon with artistree, pateron etc, but I dont know how ive managed everything so far! I havent told half of it and im sure this is already a mouthful!

There isnt much reason for me to be bitching about a problem i very well caused, but at least im more willing to work for myself now and have more fun rather than being a horrible overworking boss to myself now, most of the time anyways!

Thanks you all for listening to my rambles, Im back, blah blah blah, if you need my imma go shove my head into a cup of coffee and watch some anime!

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I've been gone, lets get that out of the way i know! I said a few weeks ago i was gonna come back, and now ive finally made up my fucking mind, I cant really say ive been dealing with stress well these last few days / weeks / months / last year and a half!

Ive been fighting depression, anxiety, being sick, helping out my boyfriend leaderofultra ive been trying to keep my head on straight but find myself watching politics when im not looking, I feel like the demon in my head, the perfectionist one is getting better, thats a plus, but im mildly convinced i caused myself a bit of brain damage if not a ton of it from punching and slapping myself in the nogin due to an overabundance of stress, friends of mine are stressed but me and my dumbass keep trying to help everyone, and everytime i do or say or attempt anything, it seems like someone somehow someway has a bone to pick with it, at first i thought i was being crazy about it but no, everyone seems like a hardass on me in one way or another!

Ive been swapping deviantart, twitter (x), itaku, and on and on and on since the da ai shit happened because i didnt feel i had a place to go anymore, and now im back here because the least of all the evils ive seen in my personal op, the fact i had to search the internet for a new home after shitstorm after shitstorm and so on! made me fucking realize what the fuck am i doing? Why am i running? What am i running from? Myself? no, im good right? Im getting better? My past then? Cant be that, im seeing therapy and getting better there too. pain? actually every time i look around im stressing myself out, for one reason or another, Im either watching youtube and feeding into the code with politics i dont need to know, convincing myself knowledge is power or some shit! A video like r/ (fill in the blank) which usually involves someone being stupid and/or an asshole! Or a game called "What crisis did the world shit out today?" And im tired of it!

I tell myself and my boyfriend and friends "Im sick of being sick, and im tired of being tired" not an orginal thought i know but i cant describe it much better than that!

So wheres this leave me? Internet homeless? I dunno, discored is always open, Deviantart is gonna be the default along with itaku for status updates and skecthes!!

Comms will be here soon with artistree, pateron etc, but I dont know how ive managed everything so far! I havent told half of it and im sure this is already a mouthful!

There isnt much reason for me to be bitching about a problem i very well caused, but at least im more willing to work for myself now and have more fun rather than being a horrible overworking boss to myself now, most of the time anyways!

Thanks you all for listening to my rambles, Im back, blah blah blah, if you need my imma go shove my head into a cup of coffee and watch some anime!