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Maybe I need a break.. not from art, but from other stuff- like.. You know how I'm obsessed over countryballs? well, I think I need to stop associating things about it in order to get rid of it.
might not work out due to undiagnosed severe ocd, but you know, I should really try.

but I should just- take a break. break from countryhumans, countryballs, racist stuff, polandball Amino, or even just the internet itsself. It's the reason I'm so mentally aware of what is happening, which is pretty useful but not as good in a opportunity. I mean, why be sad knowing the reality when you can be happy not knowing anything? I mean, I'd figure it all out myself by my age so far anyways. but don't you get what i mean? I've messed up, and maybe taking a break to reach out for self-care could help, I'd be do happy seeing people know "this person is heading out to get help, and I'm proud" because I've never been praised as such before.. i never had anyone be proud at me, and i seriously do need mental help when i involve myself into political and racist shit already. All people my age are enjoying life, playing football and things outside, and I'm just sitting here, being self aware of how racist I am, but just not being able to control it, at all.

yeah.. just seriously, I need help, and this includes a break. a break from everything I've been thinking about, being obsessed over and addicted over shit
so I guess, wish me luck, ol chaps.
guess that's a goodbye for now.

Description
Maybe I need a break.. not from art, but from other stuff- like.. You know how I'm obsessed over countryballs? well, I think I need to stop associating things about it in order to get rid of it.
might not work out due to undiagnosed severe ocd, but you know, I should really try.

but I should just- take a break. break from countryhumans, countryballs, racist stuff, polandball Amino, or even just the internet itsself. It's the reason I'm so mentally aware of what is happening, which is pretty useful but not as good in a opportunity. I mean, why be sad knowing the reality when you can be happy not knowing anything? I mean, I'd figure it all out myself by my age so far anyways. but don't you get what i mean? I've messed up, and maybe taking a break to reach out for self-care could help, I'd be do happy seeing people know "this person is heading out to get help, and I'm proud" because I've never been praised as such before.. i never had anyone be proud at me, and i seriously do need mental help when i involve myself into political and racist shit already. All people my age are enjoying life, playing football and things outside, and I'm just sitting here, being self aware of how racist I am, but just not being able to control it, at all.

yeah.. just seriously, I need help, and this includes a break. a break from everything I've been thinking about, being obsessed over and addicted over shit
so I guess, wish me luck, ol chaps.
guess that's a goodbye for now.