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okay
i hate it that im doing this now but i just feel like writing this somewhere
i just like, have to get these thoughts out of my head because there are not many people i can talk with about it
have you ever tasted the feeling of being all by your own, with no friendly face around you and that everyone is against you
horrible, right?
after holidays im going to the new school, high school and i know it will be one huge shit
and i thought she will be there with me, like you know, best friends forever?
but no, again, i will lose my friends, not only her
my anxiety will become bigger & bigger and at the end i will not be able to say a single word, even to my close friends
because i feel it, i feel that they judge me, they always did, even tho they like me
and now
all these stranger faces' around me and tthe feeling of not being good enough to talk to them
i hate myself for having such "problems", i am scared when i shouldn't be
i dont think i'll enjoy holiday time this year that much
i dont know how to meet new people, i dont know how to act around them, i dont know how to be liked by others
im trying to think positive and telling myself that it will be okay, they will like me and i will have new friends, they wont think that im a weirdo because all i can do is just say 'hi'
but yea
nonono thats enough
im sorry for this, i had to write it somewhere
such a mess in it lol

i disabled comments because i dont want you to have a feeling of umm.. pressure to write something back to me?? Like, really, you dont have to! ^^
i didnt make this to make you feel sorry for me, so seriously, you dont need to write back anything ( :
and sorry for my english rip

Description
okay
i hate it that im doing this now but i just feel like writing this somewhere
i just like, have to get these thoughts out of my head because there are not many people i can talk with about it
have you ever tasted the feeling of being all by your own, with no friendly face around you and that everyone is against you
horrible, right?
after holidays im going to the new school, high school and i know it will be one huge shit
and i thought she will be there with me, like you know, best friends forever?
but no, again, i will lose my friends, not only her
my anxiety will become bigger & bigger and at the end i will not be able to say a single word, even to my close friends
because i feel it, i feel that they judge me, they always did, even tho they like me
and now
all these stranger faces' around me and tthe feeling of not being good enough to talk to them
i hate myself for having such "problems", i am scared when i shouldn't be
i dont think i'll enjoy holiday time this year that much
i dont know how to meet new people, i dont know how to act around them, i dont know how to be liked by others
im trying to think positive and telling myself that it will be okay, they will like me and i will have new friends, they wont think that im a weirdo because all i can do is just say 'hi'
but yea
nonono thats enough
im sorry for this, i had to write it somewhere
such a mess in it lol

i disabled comments because i dont want you to have a feeling of umm.. pressure to write something back to me?? Like, really, you dont have to! ^^
i didnt make this to make you feel sorry for me, so seriously, you dont need to write back anything ( :
and sorry for my english rip