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  as i look in the mirror, i see what the world sees. an animal that is cornered, a beast with no soul, a monster that needs locked away.
   i have become a worthless soul. a woman broke me for entertainment, for a shot at hurting my father, who lost no sleep over my demise.  i am affraid of my brother not helping me get what i need done, my juditial system has made me affraid to live, and i fear relationships with women who want me physicaly. i have become a sorry little sheeple, afraid that if i put my foot out of line because the authorities will send a big bad wolf after little old me.
   i fear my own failure, that looming doubt in my heart, that i will fail the ones i love. and i am reliant on others to often now, for i am an outcast financially, unabble to feed my self regularly, or provide a roof and clothes.
   i hate my self for this fear, for being beaten. i may have no pride left, but the fury is returning to my soul. and i  have to let it build. for i must not be a sheep. i am the wolf. i forgot this. now i must remember, i must become the man i need to be. forget survival. i will thrive. I AM HAVOC. I WILL LIVE WITHOUT FEAR.