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My widower group told me to draw out my feelings and this was all I could get out. I’m so fucking tired. I didn’t want to draw anything but they said it’s good for my brain.
Fuck if I care if it is.
My husband died 12/12/23.
Two weeks after our cat suddenly died from a heart attack.
My heart and soul died with them.

My husband and I cosplayed together, he called me big blue and himself, Burns. Our stories were I was a zabrak that was taken in and raised by tuskens as a baby and then by the mandos when I got lost in the desert at 10 and he was an ex imperial that was taken and healed by my local covert on tatooine after crash landing.

We created art together of our mandos, stories, costumes, props, everything we could. It was our life together.
One night destroyed the life we built for 17 years of friendship, love, and 5 and a half years of marriage.
I know he’s somewhere on the other side. I don’t know where. But he’s there and that’s all that matters.

I hope life is not long for me.

I hope I do not spend decades without my soulmate

When my time comes I’ll finally be whole again and I welcome it with open arms.

Until my body finally gives out.

I’m here
I don’t know what for
But im here.

Description
My widower group told me to draw out my feelings and this was all I could get out. I’m so fucking tired. I didn’t want to draw anything but they said it’s good for my brain.
Fuck if I care if it is.
My husband died 12/12/23.
Two weeks after our cat suddenly died from a heart attack.
My heart and soul died with them.

My husband and I cosplayed together, he called me big blue and himself, Burns. Our stories were I was a zabrak that was taken in and raised by tuskens as a baby and then by the mandos when I got lost in the desert at 10 and he was an ex imperial that was taken and healed by my local covert on tatooine after crash landing.

We created art together of our mandos, stories, costumes, props, everything we could. It was our life together.
One night destroyed the life we built for 17 years of friendship, love, and 5 and a half years of marriage.
I know he’s somewhere on the other side. I don’t know where. But he’s there and that’s all that matters.

I hope life is not long for me.

I hope I do not spend decades without my soulmate

When my time comes I’ll finally be whole again and I welcome it with open arms.

Until my body finally gives out.

I’m here
I don’t know what for
But im here.