AJtheSENSEI [2014-01-12 22:17:19 +0000 UTC]

Questions:

1) No.

2) No.

3) Sometimes.

4) No.

By the way, I'm pretty sure I AM ALONE, and that everyone else on this site is just an intelligent robot.

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The-Port-of-Riches [2014-01-12 01:47:02 +0000 UTC]

1) No

2) Yes. Suffering from SAD among others, the holidays are the worst. Why are they in December/January?

3) Of course. Music stymied the voices, writing healed the soul (and continues to do so) and animation gives me inspiration.

4)No.

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ClairObscur16 [2014-01-10 18:29:46 +0000 UTC]

 1) No, I have not
 2)  I'm too old to have holidays, but should I had some, I would choose to retreat.
 3)Oh! Yes: plastic arts and music.
 4) Yes, I did!

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Forsaken59 [2014-01-09 17:43:00 +0000 UTC]

1. My friends and I are pretty tight, we don't talk it about it much, I'm usually the one to speak something out. Most of what I had to say was some hardships in my life, but noticeably they could not compare, or know what to say. Some things we go on for hours, and always comes to my surprise that there are still more things that make us comparable, are still undiscovered, or yet to be talked about.

2. Yes, I normally don't explode(except valentines day), I find something to do, or do whatever I can to make the day fly by faster. attend with the family so I don't get questioned on my feelings or actions, and when they're exhausted or when everything get quiet, I go do my own thing.

3. Most defiantly, I've lost my father, fell into drugs and alcohol, unwillingly thrown in rehab( I needed help, yes, but not rehab.)by my mother who never understood me(same as the rehab, only knew my mothers side of things),  left rehab by my own will, became homeless and was told to never return home, fell back into alc/drugs(only cigs, and cannabis), kicked out of 2 homes, got SSC $ for a year, used it to pay rent for my own apt. and after all that I still graduated, without an extra year. I have been pursuing drawing ever since, I left my mothers abusive (mentally) grasp. I want to use it for the rest of my life, and in the careers I want to pursue.

4. I only recently began, an artist "Mark Crilliy" mentioned this site, when I was watching his interview. Since I've entered the site, I feel like I found a community I can come back to and enjoy myself while at it. I deleted my Facebook page, for no one chatted with me, and all I see was drama, and a lot of people making noise on there stance on something, but with little knowledge, no citations, no statistics, just noise and begging for attention. Anything I said or posted, it seemed like no one gave a damn, there would be zero comments, except my only friend who is an artist as well.

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GreyMistandDark [2014-01-07 22:51:17 +0000 UTC]

I understand this it really says my whole life.

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DaringDo3213 [2014-01-07 20:58:09 +0000 UTC]

Woah....

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D-Loos [2014-01-07 15:33:27 +0000 UTC]

 I understand isolation and feeling like your soul is being eaten away. but I do appreciate this message being sent out to me. Its nice to know deep down in my heart that there is someone out there going through the same things I am and at least saying they understand. it may not be what makes me better, but its a heart relief knowing i'm not the only one thats failing. I know that sounds terrible, but  it gives me hope that if there are so many people asking the same question, then theres got to be an amazing answer out there!

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twinstar78 [2014-01-07 00:08:29 +0000 UTC]

oops....let me answer the rest of the questions..

1: My secret passion is my art....among my relatives, Football and basketball are the law. I'm considered a "freak" because I can't understand or relate. I'm like....go watch your game, I'm going to go back to my apartment and draw while my cat naps on my desk...

2:Not really,  I love the holidays.....as long I'm invited and get free food, I'm content. I get a break from cooking.  Also, I have two kids....so as a mom....I try my best to make it special....now of course, I will be terribly jealous and miserable after my coworkers get roses and diamonds on valentines day from their honey boo's....but that feeling will pass....the kids and I will go out and do something fun..

3: I think I answered that question in the previous post...

4: This is my first time on deviant art. normally I never share my art...and I live in big city, we have a lot of artists here, but I'm terribly shy. For me, this I my first attempt to step outside of my comfort zone and connect with other people like me...

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twinstar78 [2014-01-06 23:27:24 +0000 UTC]

art is healing....I have been through a lot of trauma. I could write a book. My journey has not been easy. Art is like a ray of positive light that helps me to break through the negativity that I face. It's the reason why I am divorced. I was told that art is foolish, and a sin. I was told as a woman that I have better things to do with my time than draw or write....but there were nights a vibe would fill my spirit, and I would refuse to come bed. I would draw until 3am. My husband did not understand that what I suppressed in the day time, would burst forth at night. I could not rest until I had expressed the creative ideas in my head. It's calming to create.....maybe he was jealous because he couldn't do it, and that's why he tried to crush my creativity. Who knows....but it came to a point where I had to walk away.

It's pure joy to create something beautiful. It's fun to blend colors together, or work a sketch....it's a form of meditation, where I can find my center in such a noisy, and sometimes negative world.  

I remember in college, I had a friend who commented on picture that I was painting. I wanted to emulate the Japanese print art...to create a scene with gardens and maidens having tea....my friend said, "well, these lines are not straight....it's not perfect"....she completely missed the point of why I create.....

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thegrimreaper123 [2014-01-06 22:06:04 +0000 UTC]

Wow...

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lawando [2014-01-06 11:05:16 +0000 UTC]

very nice

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SkyBoltthepony [2014-01-06 07:12:20 +0000 UTC]

1. Yes, I thought my friends would think I was a freak if I told them I was into a show meant for 7 year old girls. They love the show too  

 2. this year retreat. I didn't feel like I was at home because my family was in a new house it made me feel depressed

  3. no, art is my getaway and makes me feel happy and like I am a whole new world

   4. a little... 

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liyaperfidious [2014-01-06 00:55:22 +0000 UTC]

1. It hasn't happened to me before. Once, when I told my partial secret and this dude ended up cussing at me and we never talked since then.
Life sucks yeah.

2. I retreat and explode.

3. Yes.

4. I try to, but I don't have much people I know.

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nobt [2014-01-05 23:13:58 +0000 UTC]

1.  Yes. I nearly committed suicide in march of 2013. I did not tell my on again/off again girlfriend or my friends at the time. I did, however, cave one night under the immense pressure of my depression, and I cried my eyes out over text message and then skype to my sort of-GF. It did strengthen our relationship, leading to us getting back together for a couple of months.

2. Yes. Loneliness and emptyness are feelings that take my bloods' place during this time of year. Along with the feelings of not fitting in and not being accepted.

3.  Yes, definitely. I write poems, which channel my thoughts and fears.

4. I haven't really. I posted a couple of poems but that's just for my own sake.

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PrincessDragonSoul [2014-01-05 22:37:25 +0000 UTC]

1. Have you ever had a secret you feared would alienate your friends, but only strengthened your friendship when it was revealed?

Well not really, but sometimes I do. Like about suicide and depression. But I know that they might feel sympathetic cause some of them have the same problem as me, well kinda..

2. Do the holidays make you want to retreat or explode?

No there isn't any holidays that me to retreat or explode. And I don't have those church ones.

3. Are arts or making of art a pathway to getting you through tough times?

Yes arts always make me happy again. Like last time I felt sad, or in depression I always drew blood type pictures, or suicidal pictures to let my feelings get through and I don't need to hurt myself, physically. And drawing always make me happy. Cause I'm mostly alone, and I don't want to tell my folks about it, cause they might be mad at me. Which is one of the reasons I get depressed.

4. How have you used the deviantART community to connect during the holidays?

I just normally look through pictures, faving them, cause there so awesome. You people should be proud of yourselves for makings these beautiful/amazing pictures!

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PorcelainMalice [2014-01-05 17:10:45 +0000 UTC]

1. Have you ever had a secret you feared would alienate your friends, but only strengthened your friendship when it was revealed?
Not in particular... Certain internal things I wouldnt reveal to most people in my irl friend circle, the ones that know anything about it are the ones I know either accept it, or have the same sort of "secret". I would never reveal anything to a person I know won't accept it, I can always tell if who Im talking to (mostly irl) will get weird on me if I reveal certain things to them or not. But I know a lot of people aren't quite like that, and its often not that simple.

2. Do the holidays make you want to retreat or explode?
Depends which holidays. New Years and Halloween are the two holidays I look forward to all year. The religious holidays irk me though. Everybody constantly asks you if youre going to church or "celebrate", and give you weirdest looks when you tell them you dont celebrate or that youre not going anywhere. Thats one thing thats been pissing me off lately. However, I dont think holidays make me retreat anymore than usual. Im usually a shadow dweller as it is, holidays actually I think make me "come out" a bit more, because people arent constant stressed out assholes during a lot of those times, theyre all happy/preoccupied with their gifts and such.

3. Are the arts or the making of art a pathway to getting you through tough times?
Sometimes. Last time I fell into depression, I came up with two Magic Mushrooms and a large apocalyptic scene, neither of which I have ever done before and thought would be a challenge. Doodling helps sometimes. All depends on the nature and severity of said "tough times". There are some days when it drains the artistic inspiration out of you and even doodling is out of the question.

4. How have you used the deviantART community to connect during the holidays?
Messaging a few friends, commenting on their arts and journals, as well as posting my own art. Nothing too heavy really.

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DonKarnage1 [2014-01-05 16:58:44 +0000 UTC]

I notice that many have answered yes to that question.

Q: Have you ever had a secret you feared would alienate your friends, but only strengthened your friendship when it was revealed?

So that bring me to another question: Do you talk openly on the web, like Skype, a chat room or a forum compare to IRL?

Did you ever see anyone that you talk to on Skype or other place like that IRL?

If yes, are you as open as you are on the internet compare to in real life?

The secret that you keep to you friend(s) like one says he or she was pan sexual, do they kinda affect your friendship? I mean what you keep from your friend(s) Did you keep stuff that where related in a conversation with your friend(s)?

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stars-water [2014-01-05 06:50:15 +0000 UTC]

"-all headed for the same fate - dust." Seriously? Gee, isn't that comforting? Fuck. Like I wasn't already getting my nose rubbed in my mortality. Thanks. That's a perfect thing to read when the anniversary of my traumatic near-death experience has already got me down.

I can't say the holidays are important enough to me to bring me down. No, for me, every potential for the holidays to hold that kind of importance is waisted by the fact that the anniversary of my trauma, of the day I had brain surgery and lost all of my memories, is approaching. That holds too much weight for me to think of much else. On this, I am alone. Even those who know what any of this is like make that feeling worse still because we all tend to be reluctant to talk about any of it with one another.


1. "Have you ever had a secret you feared would alienate your friends, but only strengthened your friendship when it was revealed?"
Yes and no. I once had a secret I feared would further alienate me from my friends if it came to light, but that secret held such importance that I could never bring myself to tell my friends, even though I desperately wanted to. That secret was the fact that I'd been considering suicide.

2. "Do the holidays make you want to retreat or explode?"
Again, the holidays themselves don't do much of anything for me. For New Years, just for one year, I'd like to be standing and cheering with the city crowds, but that's the extent of it. I am a traveler by nature, so I'd say if I didn't have the anniversary getting me down I'd want to do a lot more to celebrate the holidays.

3. "Are the arts or the making of art a pathway to getting you through tough times?"
The making of, yes. Again though, not for the holidays, but the anniversary of my trauma.

4. "How have you used the deviantART community to connect during the holidays?"
Only through sharing my own art, and my stories within.

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perecat1 [2014-01-04 23:23:00 +0000 UTC]

For me, dA is all a great find. Thank you all.  

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cartoondiller300 [2014-01-04 22:55:04 +0000 UTC]

breathtaking ... that's all i have to say 

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fanime1 [2014-01-04 19:59:00 +0000 UTC]

1) Actually yes, and it showed me how good my friends really are.
2) A bit of both. I love the holidays. I love giving gifts. I love looking at decorations, even in stores. But once the holidays come and I have to spend time with my (external) family, I find I don't have much to say. At college I have lots of friends, but I'm not very social with my family.
3) I do use art to express myself, but honestly, I talk to my friends and bf to get through hard times more.
4) I look at holiday themed pictures and comment and that's about it, so I guess I don't use DA to connect during the holidays that much. I'm more into spending time with people in person.

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royshideler [2014-01-04 08:47:25 +0000 UTC]

     Thank you, such wonderful inspiration for my spirit, for it has been weighed down as I struggle to carry forth fantastic news and try to rekindle the feeling of purpose unto others and instill into those I can touch that the time is now. 

     Now is the time all life on Earth must cast aside our hatred and selfish behavior. To join hands and fill our hearts with compassion as we forgive those who have harmed us. As civilizations before us have perished, we too will be but ancient artifacts of interest to the next civilization unless we regain control of our future. The handful of people that have been controlling us, and the wars, the economics, and in short, our world, have brought us to the point where with the next generation to be born, effectively doubling the number of mouths to feed, Earth will no longer be able to provide food for us nor climatic conditions in which to maintain our current level of food production. 

     THE FANTASTIC NEWS is we really can avoid disaster, we will have to act swiftly and with purpose. There is not enough time left to be wasted on killing each other, nor lying, stealing or corruption by those we have placed in positions of decision making. 

     The vast resources that have been used to fund the business of war must be used to fund the people of Earth. The Banks and the 1% can keep their paper. It is of imaginary value anyway. I believe that we can succeed if, as individuals we make a personal commitment to do what is right and honorable, be genuine in your compassion and bathe in the indescribable feeling of your own self worth when you extend a hand to help those not as fortunate as yourself. Engage yourself in the affairs of your community, country and your home, Earth. 

     There is technology in renewable energy production that has been stolen and unjustly kept secret from the people of Earth by a group of evildoers for over 50 years. They and their crimes have been exposed and no longer do we have to pollute the atmosphere, oceans or soil from burning fossil fuels or mismanaged nuclear fuel. Our homes, transportation and industry will be powered cleanly and if done correctly, cheaply.

     Yes it is also true that we are not alone in this universe, we never have been. This wonderfully amazing absolutely unbelievable and undeniable truth has been kept a secret from the general population of the United States as well. All because of the Business of War. The idea of space travel is no longer a dream, and the day that we, people of Earth, begin colonizing space in mass is less than 50 years away. I am sure we will be at peace with our new friends and neighbors, because will not be able to pull the same shit we did with the American Indians, it will be us holding the bows and shooting the arrows this time.

    I used to think of how exciting it would be to meet someone from outer space, go for a ride in their space ship and discover all the wonderful things I only dreamed of as a child. But to be totally honest with myself, right now I doubt if I could go, maybe even hide. I would be utterly embarrassed and ashamed to introduce myself as a member of Earths current population. Unsurprisingly, the Armed Forces of the United States, starting in the mid 1940's, tries to chase and shoot down any thing in the sky that it does not recognize or confirm as friendly and continues to do so. So far we have not hit one, thank God! They have not fired upon us!!! Ever! What in the hell do the damn fools think is going to happen if they did shoot one down? Form a circle around the Earth and surrender??????

     Any way, all of this is the truth. 

     FYI, I am not religious, I do not need attention or praise of others, I like myself, enjoy my own company and keep myself entertained or engaged in study, inventing or working on neat stuff. I love my work, and I am in the much longed for position of not needing to work but do so because I enjoy it. I am a single 57 male European descent. Married and divorced four times. I sired four boys and love them dearly.  I have smoked for 43 years and my chest hurts a lot. I do not belong to any political or social groups.

I very rarely write things of this nature or speak publicly, at all! I felt that this was the place and now was the time to speak. 

If you desire more information, Sirius Disclosure / You Tube, is a good place to start.

I wish the best of what life has to offer, to us all. 

Always do the best that you can, failing is not failure.

Roy  

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dubstepkitty5 [2014-01-04 03:21:26 +0000 UTC]

beautiful

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MikuChanFan39 [2014-01-04 03:17:57 +0000 UTC]

Wow...........!!!!!

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Asa-kuuki [2014-01-04 01:04:29 +0000 UTC]

Today I started to write here on DA my feelings down and one of those are fear and lonelyless because no one understand my situation and how I feel. I hope I will find some people who will understand or learn to undertsand, when I write my journey down and show them a part of how I fight and try to not giving up to death. And so your writing was maybe a sign to be on the right way here on DA.

Thank you so much!  

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Ennaejyenrab [2014-01-04 00:19:27 +0000 UTC]

All I can think right now is that I am so grateful for your message about "You are not alone." A situation manifested itself today when I was already in a "bad place" that threw me. Your words and pictures put  my mind at ease. Thank you!

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KasaiTheFox [2014-01-03 22:58:32 +0000 UTC]

Thank you~

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Sarah-L-S [2014-01-03 22:04:27 +0000 UTC]

1. somewhat. I do have a secret some friends know. One of them eventually tried using it against me needlessly to say we are not friends now. With another friend however it brought us closer.

2. Usually neither I do enjoy spending time with family though. I do have autism though and there were many changes to my routine so was starting to find it a little hard but I managed in the end and enjoyed myself.

3. Definitely yes. Three years ago I was going through a rough time and while I was doing art before this it was only during that period I developed a passion for art. My life now is a lot happier but I draw more often to relax myself, go to an art group every week..it helps me when I'm down but regardless of what mood im in it makes me happy.

4. I've just been doing the usual so nothing in particular. But I did make some artwork for some of my friends and watchers from here.

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Moodlie [2014-01-03 21:30:45 +0000 UTC]

Tnx!!! Amazing message...

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nettlemettle [2014-01-03 20:26:04 +0000 UTC]

thanks so much for this message. I too think art is about healing. Especially when I am upset or otherwise unbalanced I like to draw and it always makes me feel better. But it is a process and it never stops.

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paleindian10 [2014-01-03 19:18:44 +0000 UTC]

preety cool, I must admit

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acesart92 [2014-01-03 18:27:58 +0000 UTC]

This is a beautiful message, a masterpiece. We are not alone-people need each other. This world could be paradise if we realized who we really are.

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Dark-Arctic-Fox [2014-01-03 17:59:39 +0000 UTC]

All have their own loneliness...

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The-Living-Sketch [2014-01-03 17:18:03 +0000 UTC]

1) I never really got super close to anyone but two people. And the other two who I consider to be best friends. I have only shared it with people I know my life can be depended upon. Someone who won't tell, and can handle it. I think it definitely strengthened our bonds though.

2) Maybe last year and this one, yes. 2013 was a year where I found out so much about myself, but that also added a lot of confusion. Christmas was really hard for me with a lot of this confusion floating around in my mind, but I hope 2014 will be better in understanding. I really thought I lost it for awhile.

3) I normally don't do art when I am upset, but when I do, it cheers me up, realizing that art is something I am good at, and have to keep working at. 

4) I really haven't, but as I get better in my art, and get more watchers, I hope to put some art up that will say thanks during the Holidays, and maybe give back some experiences to help anyone in a similar situation to me that may be hurting.

Happy Holidays! 

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Cyberlitabot [2014-01-03 17:11:40 +0000 UTC]

In someways yes. Art is an emotional therapy. 

Its my air.

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AlwaysGreenDayS [2014-01-03 16:08:53 +0000 UTC]

This post made me think very much. It's wonderful! Thanks.

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Smudgefactor [2014-01-03 15:52:44 +0000 UTC]

I appreciate what you say here and how you said it.  It was helpful.

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