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death. It's such a weird thing, no one knows what happens or how it feels in the after life, but is there even an after life? Yet again no one knows this, apart from those who have passed away.

I always wanted to know what it felt like, to die. I still don't know and I won't get to know any time soon, But you, Alfred know how it feels, I wish I could find some way, some way to communicate with your soul, to know what it feels like, if it even has feeling? would that make you still Alfred? That's another question I ask myself daily; What are we? what is I? Am I even real? What makes us human?

It's too much to think about but yet I still push myself to find out the answers and I always end up in the beginning. I asked someone who they are, they gave me their name, I asked them who they were again and they replied with 'me, I am me, myself' yes but what makes you you? was what I wanted to ponder, but I kept myself shut.

You Alfred, put those thoughts in my head, i never used to think like this until you came into my life and brightened it up and made me actually think about life and the universe, You came to me one Autumn afternoon asking me about what I though we were, I came back with the usual answer 'We are human of course' and you shook your head and chuckled at me, that wonderful but obnoxious laugh, I'll admit I found you quite annoying and all together I wanted to push you away but after many more deep questions.. i grew attached to you.

But back on track, Death, why is it feared by so many? is it the stories that have been told for centuries or is it beliefs that people have been brought up with? Is that not just the same thing? Honestly I am still searching for the answer. My life is filled with only question and not enough answer.

Looking for answers are easy, but getting the accurate answer is something that people look for all the time and isn't so easy as first thought out, Death has been titled with so many things and most of the titles are not so positive, the other day I read something about death, How it's a dark place that's filled with demons and you have to pass so many missions just to feel at peace, but is the dark at all scary? Not for me anyway, I grew up in darkness and I can see how harmless it is, it can't hurt or damage people its just.. darkness.

But Alfred, You never gave me any answers, you only gave me more questions to think of, and I think I know why; I need to find them myself.