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"You still have a lot of fight left, as many don't, so GET. UP."

I tell myself everyday, my family tells me too. But.... these words all.... hurt. I don't want to get up sometimes. But I do, because if I don't, I'll be told how lucky I am to have fight left. I KNOW I DO. I know I've got enough fight left unlike others, I KNOW I'm super lucky, I DON'T try to be spoiled, I DON'T try to be self centered. But... I feel like I'm always the side character, that one side character who is hardly on the screen and is just there. AND I KNOW everyone is the main character in the story of their life's. I KNOW I shou,d be happy I've never felt pain others did, but it STILL HURTS. I KNOW people out there are suffering more than me. I KNOW, they need all the attention they can get. I DON'T want to be the attention seeking cry baby. I KNOW everyone has there ups and downs, it's a part of life. I leave it on the inside. Because others need that help more.

But.... what if... the doctor is the one who is sick... But, the doctor wants to keep helping others. So he says it's just a small bit of pain. And he helps others and it makes him feel great. But the pain.... grew. Why did it grow...? Isn't helping others supposed to help you too...? He... tell everyone this amazing and hopeful advice... and they feel better. But when he looks in the mirror and says it to himself, it doesn't work....

Why doesn't it work....? He is telling himself exactly what's happening... He KNOWS how to fix it....

Why can't he fix it...?

(I'm very sorry for this vent, I don't plan on doing another for a long while hopefully. Something just came over me and.... I don't know...)

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"You still have a lot of fight left, as many don't, so GET. UP."

I tell myself everyday, my family tells me too. But.... these words all.... hurt. I don't want to get up sometimes. But I do, because if I don't, I'll be told how lucky I am to have fight left. I KNOW I DO. I know I've got enough fight left unlike others, I KNOW I'm super lucky, I DON'T try to be spoiled, I DON'T try to be self centered. But... I feel like I'm always the side character, that one side character who is hardly on the screen and is just there. AND I KNOW everyone is the main character in the story of their life's. I KNOW I shou,d be happy I've never felt pain others did, but it STILL HURTS. I KNOW people out there are suffering more than me. I KNOW, they need all the attention they can get. I DON'T want to be the attention seeking cry baby. I KNOW everyone has there ups and downs, it's a part of life. I leave it on the inside. Because others need that help more.

But.... what if... the doctor is the one who is sick... But, the doctor wants to keep helping others. So he says it's just a small bit of pain. And he helps others and it makes him feel great. But the pain.... grew. Why did it grow...? Isn't helping others supposed to help you too...? He... tell everyone this amazing and hopeful advice... and they feel better. But when he looks in the mirror and says it to himself, it doesn't work....

Why doesn't it work....? He is telling himself exactly what's happening... He KNOWS how to fix it....

Why can't he fix it...?

(I'm very sorry for this vent, I don't plan on doing another for a long while hopefully. Something just came over me and.... I don't know...)