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Hi. I want to explain why it takes months for me to post anything.
Well...I just don't know why. I want to draw 'n stuff. I just...don't have the motivation during my free time. I just don't know why.
Fear of the execution of my drawing? Most likely. I want to draw good things, not things that look like a five year old would draw.
But I want to get a degree in Multi-Media in college. I made a lot of art in drawing classes in college, just not last semester, as the art classes I had was typography and 3D art (wire sculptures, a shoe made of tape, etc. Though they aren't incredible.).
Media and whatnot just distract me, but I need the money to survive and I don't want to work a minimum-wage job for the rest of my life.

When I was a kid, I loved drawing. It was fun. That, and I took drawing classes in the past. My artistic abilities are pretty decent. The problem is my motivation and my skills. I'm a perfectionist, so drawing things from a reference is quite difficult because I'm like, "No! It has to be like that! No, like this!" And then my eraser erases something I didn't mean to.
That, and I don't get out of my comfort zone to try something new. I'm certain that back when I was a kid, many kids my age knew how to draw a Sonic character and make it look good. Even to the point of making their own OCs. I couldn't. My Sonic's looked like shit. To this day, I still can't draw Sonic, despite owning two of his games, Sonic Colors for the DS (not that good) and Sonic Generations for the 3DS (amazing port) when I was that age (I have more now). That, and I really like Sonic.exe (yes, before the FNF mods started popping up like flies (and no, not the story. I heard it was bad. The games, however, were cool.)), but I can't draw him because Mobians (if that's what they're called) are so hard to draw. Yet I don't want to learn at the same time...

That, and my favorite genre of what I like to draw is...kinda limiting me a bit. Or at least I feel like it. I want to oil up my drawing skills so they're better, but I don't really know if drawing blood, guts, and ghouls will satisfy that. I mean, I still want to draw horror. I love it. Of course, just don't be surprised if I draw something that isn't creepy. Like the Snowman girl I drew last year.

I feel like there's a lot of things that are holding me back from what I could truly be. I could be drawing so many good pieces of art, yet my perfectionism and laziness just won't let it happen.

This drawing is just something I came up with to try to visualize the void I'm in right now. I don't want to leave, for there's darkness there, and who knows what could be lurking there. But going ahead means I end up walking into darkness anyways. With different obstacles waiting for me.

I guess you can call this vent art. Hope I can break out of this shell and draw more on my own soon.

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Hi. I want to explain why it takes months for me to post anything.
Well...I just don't know why. I want to draw 'n stuff. I just...don't have the motivation during my free time. I just don't know why.
Fear of the execution of my drawing? Most likely. I want to draw good things, not things that look like a five year old would draw.
But I want to get a degree in Multi-Media in college. I made a lot of art in drawing classes in college, just not last semester, as the art classes I had was typography and 3D art (wire sculptures, a shoe made of tape, etc. Though they aren't incredible.).
Media and whatnot just distract me, but I need the money to survive and I don't want to work a minimum-wage job for the rest of my life.

When I was a kid, I loved drawing. It was fun. That, and I took drawing classes in the past. My artistic abilities are pretty decent. The problem is my motivation and my skills. I'm a perfectionist, so drawing things from a reference is quite difficult because I'm like, "No! It has to be like that! No, like this!" And then my eraser erases something I didn't mean to.
That, and I don't get out of my comfort zone to try something new. I'm certain that back when I was a kid, many kids my age knew how to draw a Sonic character and make it look good. Even to the point of making their own OCs. I couldn't. My Sonic's looked like shit. To this day, I still can't draw Sonic, despite owning two of his games, Sonic Colors for the DS (not that good) and Sonic Generations for the 3DS (amazing port) when I was that age (I have more now). That, and I really like Sonic.exe (yes, before the FNF mods started popping up like flies (and no, not the story. I heard it was bad. The games, however, were cool.)), but I can't draw him because Mobians (if that's what they're called) are so hard to draw. Yet I don't want to learn at the same time...

That, and my favorite genre of what I like to draw is...kinda limiting me a bit. Or at least I feel like it. I want to oil up my drawing skills so they're better, but I don't really know if drawing blood, guts, and ghouls will satisfy that. I mean, I still want to draw horror. I love it. Of course, just don't be surprised if I draw something that isn't creepy. Like the Snowman girl I drew last year.

I feel like there's a lot of things that are holding me back from what I could truly be. I could be drawing so many good pieces of art, yet my perfectionism and laziness just won't let it happen.

This drawing is just something I came up with to try to visualize the void I'm in right now. I don't want to leave, for there's darkness there, and who knows what could be lurking there. But going ahead means I end up walking into darkness anyways. With different obstacles waiting for me.

I guess you can call this vent art. Hope I can break out of this shell and draw more on my own soon.