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Published: 2014-07-27 18:33:56 +0000 UTC; Views: 763; Favourites: 12; Downloads: 0
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The title came from the song '4 And Twenty Blackbirds.' For some reason X( Because there is 4 people here...From the fic 'Lifeforce' Percival Tachyon, and his former foster brothers, Ickabar Locksher and Raymas Lars, and at the bottom, his all-time childhood rival, Fergus Mgive. The most prominent people he'd known in his childhood, and the ones he'd love to forget.
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He sounds desperate...even willing to insult you to try and get you to feel that you're in the wrong.
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I'm so done with him. He says how it's unfair for me to be all happy when he's going through hell, but seriously now I'm telling him about all the things I've done for him and how he never did one single thing for me. He even insulted me on valentine's day and my birthday saying these days dindn't matter. I paid freaking trips for us to see each other. I'm so done with him, I don't even understand how he can dare saying we're meant to be after that.
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He's desperate as I said, I think. He took advantage of all the things you did for him 
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He definitely did. He was a complete jerk to me and he still is. And he literally said he wanted to stalk me at my con, I mean we broke up, that's creepy DX
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Yeah that's way creepy X(
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I said I would block him if he keeps being like that o.o
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The only reason I'm still speaking to him is because I feel guilty for he's feeling that way..
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Yeah but you can't let yourself get too sorry for him...
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Now he's nearly insulting me and saying how I'm missing sometning awesome because he'll be the best boyfriend with the next person he dates. Seriously there is so much wrong with that guy x)
I'm so glad I finally broke up with him o.o
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Yep o.o I'm glad you did and I didn't even see him XD
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All my friends hate him xD
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I need to go to the dentist on Tuesday and I'm terrified T_T
I was kinda okay before I googled things about dentists.
I don't know how it's called in English but I have a black spot that appeared. It doesn't hurt yet so I thought it wasn't so bad. But when I googled it I saw people saying how it didn't hurt for them and they had a part of their tooth removed anyway. I'm so terrified of going now. I have an absolute phobia of everything that's hospital/doctors etc.
To the point that once when I was 15 I had a problem with one of my toes, the nail grew inside the skin and it bled. And I was so terrified of the hospital that I literally hid it for about 6 months before I found the courage to tell my mom about it. The surgeon said I was very lucky that they didn't have to cut my toe for how bad it had gotten. And I can remember how much I've suffered of that after the operation when they had to remove the sewing, I cried and I literally pushed the desk against the doctor so he wouldn't touch me because it hurt so much. I swore to myself that I'd rather die than ever going to the hospital again. Like really it was the worse thing that ever happened in my entire life.
And now that I've read about the fact they might have to cut a part of my teeth (well, remove the inside actually), I'm plainly terrified, I've started shaking and I can't think of anything else. I don't know what to do... The doctor might not have to remove the inside of my tooth but I'm so scared I swear T____T
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Well, for one thing, hiding these things is the most foolish thing possible. Now I know I can't really talk since I've never been that scared, but ignoring it will make it worse. And looking things up online is always a bad idea; internet always assumes the worst.
The denist can be scary, but its only temporary. If a black spot has appeared you need to get it check out; whatever operation your teeth go through will be worse if you leave it. One I literally had a rotten HOLE in my tooth; it kept me up all knight it was that sore.
You shouldn't shake over it. If they have to resort to serious stuff they'll have numbing stuff to make your gums not feel it.
I know why people hate the doctors and dentists, but trust me, it'll be worse if you leave it. Your toe you mentioned- that bad experience with the operation could have been avoided if you dealt with it first hand.
It sounds harsh, but you need you have the tooth looked at. But its not something to be terrified over. It'll work out.
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I did tell my mom to call the dentist, and a I said, I'll be going on Tuesday. I'm just so scared. And I do have a hole too, I can feel it when I pas any tongue on if though it doesn't seem that deep to me. What did they do to you, did they have to remove your tooth ? ._.
And yeah I know the toe thing was dumb. Medical stuffs is just the worse phobia I have. I'd literally rather kill myself than ever undergo surgery again. Like I'll never ever go through that again in my life. The worse was when they took the first bandages off because the blood had stuck onto it and they had to rip it off, even though the woud was still very fresh. It was the worse experience in my entire life. I literally pushed furniture against the doctor and hid under his desk because I couldn't let him touch me, I cried so much I couldn't even breathe properly, and there was no way I could control that.
I know I'll have my tooth healed anyway, but still. That's so scary. And as for my foot I think I would have needed surgery anyway because it grew in a bad way.
I also spoke to a friend who told me he got the root thing removed (which I'm afraid to have) and he said it dindn't hurt Thanks to anesthesy.. It reassured me a bit but I don't think I'll be able to sleep at all because of all that
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Yes, they had to remove my tooth. And by that time I was glad- like I said, the pain kept me up all night. But, they may just put a filling in- like add artificial stuff to it rather than move it (They removed mine as a baby tooth, so they knew another would grow in...)
You need to calm down...like anesthetic will make it easier, and you may no even need it removed. Getting it dealt with now will make it easier, then it will be over with and the problem will be fixed. I'd get it done as soon as possible; waiting makes it worse.
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There's no day before Tuesday possible. I know the anestesy will make it okay but still. Only the needle for it terrifies me beyond reason. I have a needle phobia, and a needle in my mouth is just a thought that's plainly unbearable to me. I remember when I was at the hospital I literally had written my last wills because I thought I was gonna die there. Now I think of it I shouldn't have thought that but it's an uncontrollable fear. And what I'm afraid they'd do isn't remove the teeth (hell I hope it won't go that far...) but remove the root. Maybe they'd just fill the hole.. I don't know. But I can't think of anything but that now.
And did it hurt when they removed your tooth..?
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Well I didn't feel them removing the tooth. I won't lie, the needle did hurt, but it only hurt for just a moment, and that was because I was younger- When I was older I took jags much better.
I know its scary, but its just for a moment. Focus your mind on something, like gripping the chair...
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Yeah.. What I'm also afraid of is that I'd have a nervous reaction and like give a big head movement that would make the needle stab me or something. I know it's dumb but it's scary when you know you're so terrified that you can't control your reactions ...
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I know what you mean...I doubt you can truly prepare yourself. Just focus on the fact that it WILL be over, quickly.
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Quickly ? A root treatment thing can take two hours :/ I'll have to go through it anyway but still..
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I meant the needle. The needle will be over quickly, then your gums go all numb for the rest...
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Ah yeah.. I really hope so :/
I know I have five days to wait too, it doesn't hurt at all for now but I really hope it won't start hurting. I can't go before because tomorrow is my last day of school before a week of vacations, then comes the week end and the dentist is closed. On Monday my mom takes my granddad to the hospital and maybe the dentist wasn't even available on Monday. I wonder if there are stuffs to do to prevent pain from happening. I was willing to stop eating until Tuesday but a frien told me it would weaken my immune system and make it worse :/
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Stopping eating...I do not see that as logical. It'll make you feel worse to not eat anything. The pain of the needle will only be a few seconds.
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The stop eating part was because I'm scared eating would put more things in the hole :/
Like I can feel the hole with my tongue and it scares me to think the pain could come at any time...
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Ohh I see...try chewing on one side of your mouth ^^
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I'll do that yeah. How long did it take for your tooth to hurt as bad as you said ? I only noticed my hole yesterday but I it's already that big I'm sure it means it was there before :/
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Well it took a long while..gradually getting worse. I'd get bouts of toothache now and again. It varies with teeth.
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Ahh I see. I hope it won't get to the worse in 5 days. It's gonna be the five longest days of my life to wait in fear x)
I wish it could just be done tomorrow so it would be over quickly...
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Yeah...but you shouldn't be in fear. Its unpleasant, but a dentist job isn't as bad as some other things...
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Yeah. It's that and also the fear my tooth would hurt before I can go. And honestly medical stuffs are the worse thing on earth to me x) That and bugs. Like I could be paid a million to do that I would never eat a bug in my life like they do in some countries .. XD
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Oh XD Well its not as bad as you think it is, dental stuff...
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I actually never went through any dental thing, probably why I'm so stressed out too x)
The only thing they did once was put sometning on my teeth to protect them, but it wasn't even something that required a needle. I haven't been to the dentist for so many years o.o
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I see ^^' Well it isn't as bad as it seems, really. It'll be over and done with soon.
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Yeah I hope so. Thanks for the words anyway. I just freak our so easily with these things, I know I shouldn't but yeah x)
My mom's so mean with me about that. I can't control my phobias but she makes me feel so bad about them, she literally yells at me when I'm having panic attacks due to these things...
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She isn't helping, at all...she clearly doesn't get phobias or panic attacks.
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Yeah she definitely doesn't. I remember for my toe surgery, the sewing was supposed to go away by itself but it dindn't, and it hurt really bad because it was started to get in the skin. And I remember how my mom yelled at me saying I was a good for nothing for not bearing any pain and she threatened to cut the threads herself the hard way, though fortunately my dad defended me and he went to get a cream to stop the pain and took me to the hospital where a surgeon used a scalpel to remove the threads...
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She sounds...well, kinda awful ^^'
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She is x) I was so glad I moved to another city for my studies mainly because I knew I would be away from her. I think when I grow up and move I'll want to stop having any contact with her at all to be honest
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Whoa...that's bad X<
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I just hate her so much x)
She does good stuffs for me sometimes but she can be such a horrible person sometimes. That day I remembered how I literally begged my dad to stop her from forcing me to cut the threads, I was in tears and my mom just yelled at me. I'm actually worried that she'll be the one taking me to the dentist too. I really hope she won't be in the room with me because I know I'll probably have a panic attack there and I know she'll only make it worse if she's there
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She sounds like she wanted to get things done, but she has a bad way of going about them...
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She definitely does. Like when I was in the beginning if mid school (so I was like, 12 maybe, or 11), she made me go to a beauty saloon to have my eyebrows epilated (they were really thick at the time and everyone made fun of me for that back then. Partly why I only draw them now x) ). And I remember how much it hurt the first time you do that, because well your skin's young and sensitive and the first time it always hurts a lot, especially because it's on the face. And I had cried so much and she had yelled at me all along then and said how much she was ashamed of me. and she kept saying how I should keep epilate them in a right shape, or she'd criticize my haircut too ... I just plainly hate her for all these things x)
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I think she wanted to do good by you...but she seems to not be able to be 'soft'...
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I really don't see how forcing a 12 years old girl to be epilated is any good at all..
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Its not... :< I haven't really had my eyebrows done, like once or twice, but my skin's really hypersensitve and I just leave them XD They're kinda bushy. XD
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Mines were very brushy and dark black too, I hated them x)
My skin used to be sensitive but it isn't anymore. Now I just literally take every single hair of them off. I draw with those make up pencils made for that, so I can change the color/shape whenever I want, in function of my hair color too. and I was just tried of my mom saying how they weren't the right shape. Besides, deep black Is just a really bad color I think, because any hair color I have it looked fake because of my eyebrows x)
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I guess you grow used to it, I was too chicken to do it myself XDĀ
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I use those long stuffs that stick to your skin, then you pull at once o.o
It hurts really bad at first it's true, but the more you do it the less sensitive your skin gets
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