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So I'm just supposed to let us go and be myself, stand on my own two feet but how can I do that when it feels so wrong , it feels as if I don't know who I am any more without you, If this is supposed to be easy well it's not...I have found it impossible to put you in the past and walk away. You don't understand just how hard this is for me....and it makes it worse every time I hear your name, I avoid conversations about us because it hurts to much to remember what we used to be. All the while I am going through hell with this it seems like you don't care or that you would just rather forget and go our own ways but what you don't realize is that I am killing myself trying to get over you, everyday I wake up and it's the same thing, thoughts of you continue to repeat in my mind....its as if your trying to tell me something without saying a word and yet you speak straight to my heart and don't even see it. I want to go back to the happy times between us, I want everything to be okay....even though I know it will never be the same. I miss having you say you love me, I miss the way I felt after getting off the phone with you....and how you had no problem making me feel better just when everything seemed to be crashing down around me and I felt that it would never end and nothing would ever be the same, You used to bring light into my life with everything you did, every word that was spoke......it couldn't get any better, but with one quick move my world was torn away from me and the dance we had shared was abruptly stopped and I turn around and your not there. It's almost as if everything that happened between us never happened and we had never met, like I didn't know you at all, that you were just some stranger I walk past on the street. I want so desperately to go back to when we were happy and everything made sense but I know now that, that is just a dream that will never come true and our love has been laid to rest in the dark shadows of once was. I will always miss the way it used to be between us, I will forever be caught between who I need to be and us. Forever missing what once was, and living with the memories of how it could have been.

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So I'm just supposed to let us go and be myself, stand on my own two feet but how can I do that when it feels so wrong , it feels as if I don't know who I am any more without you, If this is supposed to be easy well it's not...I have found it impossible to put you in the past and walk away. You don't understand just how hard this is for me....and it makes it worse every time I hear your name, I avoid conversations about us because it hurts to much to remember what we used to be. All the while I am going through hell with this it seems like you don't care or that you would just rather forget and go our own ways but what you don't realize is that I am killing myself trying to get over you, everyday I wake up and it's the same thing, thoughts of you continue to repeat in my mind....its as if your trying to tell me something without saying a word and yet you speak straight to my heart and don't even see it. I want to go back to the happy times between us, I want everything to be okay....even though I know it will never be the same. I miss having you say you love me, I miss the way I felt after getting off the phone with you....and how you had no problem making me feel better just when everything seemed to be crashing down around me and I felt that it would never end and nothing would ever be the same, You used to bring light into my life with everything you did, every word that was spoke......it couldn't get any better, but with one quick move my world was torn away from me and the dance we had shared was abruptly stopped and I turn around and your not there. It's almost as if everything that happened between us never happened and we had never met, like I didn't know you at all, that you were just some stranger I walk past on the street. I want so desperately to go back to when we were happy and everything made sense but I know now that, that is just a dream that will never come true and our love has been laid to rest in the dark shadows of once was. I will always miss the way it used to be between us, I will forever be caught between who I need to be and us. Forever missing what once was, and living with the memories of how it could have been.