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Published: 2011-10-19 17:42:27 +0000 UTC; Views: 105; Favourites: 2; Downloads: 1
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I have these long, sad arms that are waiting for you.But not me. I don't wait for anyone. It's just my appendages, my arms, that need you. Me, I don't need anyone. I don't need you. I don't need her. I don't even need me.
I just need to be.
and you say 'what is your passion?'
and i want to say
ripping you apart until you cry
setting my hair on fire
tripping balls and
cats
I really like cats.
but i say
nothing.
and this is when i start to cry, because i know i can't live my life with regrets and i can't live off of anyone but myself. i told everyone that when i was thirteen and i've said it ever since. I've always know this would happen. i always knew somebody would say 'it's okay. depend on me. i won't let you down.'
and you will.
because everyone does. and i'm not sad. this is not a fucking pity party,
well,
maybe a little one.
but only for my arms.
i wanted to say 'i don't love you' and 'i really don't think i should ever talk again' because that's the third best way to not get hurt. no words, no expression. and that's okay. because i don't need to express myself. i just need to melt.
and you say 'i'll melt with you.'
No, you won't. you're going to stay a solid forever, because you're real, and me, i'm only real
if you want me to be.
because that's all it ever comes down to, right?
i want you to think. i want you to think long and hard and then you give me one
good
reason
why you think i'm real.
because for all you know,
i'm not.
but maybe my arms are.
