HOME | DD

Description
do you like to draw on sheets with your fingers?

i asked you to draw hearts, so you did.
and you said they were tricky.

you have no idea how right you are.

I told you I write poetry sometimes, especially when I'm sad, and you call me cute names and tell me you're going to marry me and if you do, I have to get your name tattooed on my ass. You wrote this down. It makes me nervous.
I told you that you are different
refreshing, like
rain after a long time without water
and you say
that's like poetry
and i say, that's because it is, or it is now.

i have yet to tell you that i turn all of my lovers into things that are pretty.
hold on, i'll name them for you

ashley had spiderweb eyes. i would say she was venomous, and she bit my knuckles until i bled.
sarah was a field, because she was a runner and i like how those things connect. and i ran and ran ran and ran and that's what led me to the ocean
jade was the ocean.
she was full of monsters and cold things that are hideous and painful and will hurt me. and i floated there for too long. my skin, torn, my arteries bleeding, attracting more of the beasts.
and i ended up on shore somehow, looking up, seeing the sky for what felt like the first time.
mandy was the sky. my sweet girl, my blond girl who would only rip my heart out even worse than the others. i gave it to her. again and again, i gave it to her. only to have it ripped to shreds.
i didn't feel anything for a long time after that.
then, there was nicole. i called her a number, twenty-one. i don't know why. i should've named her gasoline. she only added on to my fire. she never hurt me. in fact, she didn't make me feel anything at all.
then there's jazmin. the little one who told me cute things. i never named her. she couldn't earn her name, because she couldn't bring herself to feel anything for me. and that made me sad, but not sad enough to keep trying.

after that, i kept walking for a long time.
i'm tired.
it's like i'm in a desert. blistering anger in the day, and in the night, the cold, stabbing cold comes after me and i shrink.
i've been walking for so long.
i haven't gone near water, no, it just reminds me of the ocean and that scares me.
but then, the strangest thing happened.

clouds formed above me.
and i cowered,
as cowards do
and i hid for a little while, watching the sand and dirt get darker in this thing that i couldn't understand, but this only when on for a few moments,
then i stepped out, and it was like a down pour. a waterfall above me, something warm and comforting and i stare up into it, letting the rain fall over me and consume me.

you're my rain. you're my rain when i needed it most.

you came at just the right time. i almost dehydrated.

i'm going to draw an infinity symbol...like the one on you.

Description
do you like to draw on sheets with your fingers?

i asked you to draw hearts, so you did.
and you said they were tricky.

you have no idea how right you are.

I told you I write poetry sometimes, especially when I'm sad, and you call me cute names and tell me you're going to marry me and if you do, I have to get your name tattooed on my ass. You wrote this down. It makes me nervous.
I told you that you are different
refreshing, like
rain after a long time without water
and you say
that's like poetry
and i say, that's because it is, or it is now.

i have yet to tell you that i turn all of my lovers into things that are pretty.
hold on, i'll name them for you

ashley had spiderweb eyes. i would say she was venomous, and she bit my knuckles until i bled.
sarah was a field, because she was a runner and i like how those things connect. and i ran and ran ran and ran and that's what led me to the ocean
jade was the ocean.
she was full of monsters and cold things that are hideous and painful and will hurt me. and i floated there for too long. my skin, torn, my arteries bleeding, attracting more of the beasts.
and i ended up on shore somehow, looking up, seeing the sky for what felt like the first time.
mandy was the sky. my sweet girl, my blond girl who would only rip my heart out even worse than the others. i gave it to her. again and again, i gave it to her. only to have it ripped to shreds.
i didn't feel anything for a long time after that.
then, there was nicole. i called her a number, twenty-one. i don't know why. i should've named her gasoline. she only added on to my fire. she never hurt me. in fact, she didn't make me feel anything at all.
then there's jazmin. the little one who told me cute things. i never named her. she couldn't earn her name, because she couldn't bring herself to feel anything for me. and that made me sad, but not sad enough to keep trying.

after that, i kept walking for a long time.
i'm tired.
it's like i'm in a desert. blistering anger in the day, and in the night, the cold, stabbing cold comes after me and i shrink.
i've been walking for so long.
i haven't gone near water, no, it just reminds me of the ocean and that scares me.
but then, the strangest thing happened.

clouds formed above me.
and i cowered,
as cowards do
and i hid for a little while, watching the sand and dirt get darker in this thing that i couldn't understand, but this only when on for a few moments,
then i stepped out, and it was like a down pour. a waterfall above me, something warm and comforting and i stare up into it, letting the rain fall over me and consume me.

you're my rain. you're my rain when i needed it most.

you came at just the right time. i almost dehydrated.

i'm going to draw an infinity symbol...like the one on you.