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You can't even save yourself, how do you expect to save me?

Not that I need saving. I'm perfectly fine here, in my grave. I'll lay and feel the earth melt when the rain comes, and I'll feel the weight shift when you get up and leave, just like everyone else. That's when the dirt will fill my lungs and I'll never breathe again.
But that ceased long ago.

I'm not afraid of anything. I say this to myself three times a day, every day. If I say it enough, it will become true. But today, the second time I said it, it changed.
I am not afraid of anything, except myself
and at first I thought
This is ridiculous
and then I though
this is true.

Because I have an overactive imagination, you see, but it is used against me in my own head to create horrible monsters and metaphorical monsters, but mostly just real fake ones with sharp teeth and wickedly long legs.
and no eyes.

I hate the emotionally unstable, and girls who talk to much. also, heavy steps.
i am the person who will not say anything throughout an entire conversation, and feel that it is the proper response.
this is because i feel so closely connected to you, i think you know my answers and you know how i feel, and nothing has to be said.
but

this is usually one sided.
which is why i am called
emotionally
dead.
and also
an asshole

because i felt close to you
and sometimes i wish
i didn't feel close to anyone

(i wished it too much, and now it has come true)

i'm finding that it's better to be alone because nobody
hurts you
or expects anything from you
and you don't have to open up
to anyone.

it's better to fuck and leave
than fuck and cry and hold onto some one,
right?

because that's why i'm called
emotionally dead.

it's not like i need you. it's not like i need anyone. i just want you, but i usually end up alone, and you find this hard to understand. it's because everyone is the same, sweetie. every person is the fucking same. we are selfish, evil monsters, with sharp corners and we have lost our eyes.
people never see anything anymore.

we are all born blind
and most of us will die blind.

i don't need saving.

Description
You can't even save yourself, how do you expect to save me?

Not that I need saving. I'm perfectly fine here, in my grave. I'll lay and feel the earth melt when the rain comes, and I'll feel the weight shift when you get up and leave, just like everyone else. That's when the dirt will fill my lungs and I'll never breathe again.
But that ceased long ago.

I'm not afraid of anything. I say this to myself three times a day, every day. If I say it enough, it will become true. But today, the second time I said it, it changed.
I am not afraid of anything, except myself
and at first I thought
This is ridiculous
and then I though
this is true.

Because I have an overactive imagination, you see, but it is used against me in my own head to create horrible monsters and metaphorical monsters, but mostly just real fake ones with sharp teeth and wickedly long legs.
and no eyes.

I hate the emotionally unstable, and girls who talk to much. also, heavy steps.
i am the person who will not say anything throughout an entire conversation, and feel that it is the proper response.
this is because i feel so closely connected to you, i think you know my answers and you know how i feel, and nothing has to be said.
but

this is usually one sided.
which is why i am called
emotionally
dead.
and also
an asshole

because i felt close to you
and sometimes i wish
i didn't feel close to anyone

(i wished it too much, and now it has come true)

i'm finding that it's better to be alone because nobody
hurts you
or expects anything from you
and you don't have to open up
to anyone.

it's better to fuck and leave
than fuck and cry and hold onto some one,
right?

because that's why i'm called
emotionally dead.

it's not like i need you. it's not like i need anyone. i just want you, but i usually end up alone, and you find this hard to understand. it's because everyone is the same, sweetie. every person is the fucking same. we are selfish, evil monsters, with sharp corners and we have lost our eyes.
people never see anything anymore.

we are all born blind
and most of us will die blind.

i don't need saving.