PikLeee [2015-01-03 00:56:19 +0000 UTC]

I CAN TALK ON THIS ACCOUNT SORRY CAPS OMG HAHAH

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TheShad0wF0x [2014-10-29 02:19:49 +0000 UTC]

Gotchu! It's Shad0w! :3

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PikLeee [2014-10-20 02:44:46 +0000 UTC]

(Afraid you didn't get this, or wont read in notes. Last time I'll bug ya)


Hey, Wesley.
So, it's Salina.
Well, lets make this clear. I changed my mind. I don't want to be back together.
I'm loosing my individuality, as a person. I'm loosing my confidence, my happiness, EVERYTHING that I am. I'm LYING to myself.
I'm a great person, and I can't ever tell myself that. But I know I am. I know I am unique. If I have a love strong enough to stay with someone who has hurt me so much, no matter what, and love them more every day, this just tells me, I DO have a heart. I do have a very STRONG and HUGE heart. And I should be confident with that. I'm not scared anymore to be on my own. I want to be on my own. I want to find myself, I want to expand my goals, FOR ME. I have been living on a platform of building the future of this relationship, and earning nothing in return. And being left alone and resented, being called in the wrong because I'm upset how my boyfriend of almost three years is going around pretending to date someone else. It just shows me you don't know what you want. It shows me you are IMMATURE. It shows me you can not handle a young, but committed relationship. And if you do, I'm not something you do want. 
I'm not mean. I'm not angry. I'm so CHILL, almost as CHILL as a drunk person in real life, I don't even NEED drugs (people sometimes mistake me for being drunk). But yet online when I express my feelings I'm an emotional mess and called the words I don't want to hear "YOU'RE DRAMATIC". When I know I'm not. I know who I am as a person, and I didn't let myself see that. It took me a minute to see "This isn't all just me, I don't EVER act this way to other people." It's both of us. It's US. Everything I used to live by was about us. 
But now, I want to be on my own. I am an independent person, and I know this. I know I can get by on my own. I used to think I needed you.
When I don't.
You're a great person. Our relationship was fun. I may never find a love as deep, I may find loves that split like a chainsaw through a tree with one problem. And not one like air-soft guns shooting through a thousand layers of titanium.
Our love only comes once.
And I'm letting it go.
Sure, I may find someone who treats me like the world, and I may not feel the same back. You know, someone may be able to treat someone like the world, but they may not feel that way back. That may happen to me. I may treat you like the galaxy was just laid in my hands for me to protect it. And I mean, someone may treat me that way but I certainly just don't care about them.
Love is confusing, isn't it?
But I do know this, I loved you. I loved you to the furthest planet (witch is Neptune). And I don't regret it. I will learn from this. I will learn to not let someone take advantage of me, because if you let someone take advantage of you, they will.
I have told myself, I am wrong.
I wasn't. Wesley, when you hurt a girl so much, what do you expect? You're lucky I loved you so much. I would've left you like any other person on the second month of this relationship.
But, ours lasted almost three years.
And it may have been broken, and stupid to you.
It was always beautiful to me.
The day we first met I WILL NEVER REGRET because of this relationship I do not know where I would be now. You where everything to me. And I really, honestly, can't thank you enough for being apart of my life. It was beautiful to me. Maybe not to you, maybe we where never on the same team like we should have been. But I loved you. I loved us. I loved being with you. And the moments we had I will NEVER take back from my life. You where my first love, you may be my last because I don't see HOW I can love someone again like this. My life is shit, you know this, but I may have been the burden to you, you where the light for me.
You MAY have been a dick. We BOTH where dicks. We're both young. And, we may never speak again. And I just want to tell you, I fucking love you. I'd take you back, but I can't.
I want to be my own person.
I want to stop being needy. When I know that isn't who I am.
This may be a dramatic message, this relationship is WORTH being dramatic for. You where the biggest ray of sunshine in my life, even if you didn't feel the same.
I didn't mind. I always dealt with it, because nothing could change my happiness, no matter how many stabs of pain I could have ever received.
How I still love you now?
I don't know.
I don't know how I am able to forgive like this myself. I don't know how I can love people so much like this.
Wesley, I know you loved me. But the love, just, it wasn't enough. It wasn't right. You can't continue love when you continuously go against the person. Thats how you build resentment, although, I managed to never stop resenting you. It's like fighting for something you could never back down. I guess. I don't know.
And, I'm crying. But I'm crying tears of happiness because I'm finally able to let go, something I could never do. But I realized you don't have to stop loving someone in order to let them go. Because I do love you. I love you more than anything.
The fights we had, they worthwhile. Because I was willing to take this pain until death. You're not a bad person. You're not. You just, you're not ready. You may never be ready. You may never under stand that commitment needs to be cherished because there is a 0.1 percent chance of finding someone you could ever imagine dying with, in a world full of hook ups and one night stands. In a word full of divorces and hate. It's rare. And I may never find someone I could imagine just DYING with and going to my grave with again. But it's okay. Because I can make it through life alone. I know I can. It's a fact I can. I have a great sense of individuality but I just am afraid to show it. I'm afraid to be on my own. But I'm not now. I'm not afraid anymore. It just amazes me how we went through all of this, and still never met in person FACE TO FACE. And it just, makes me so happy I had a moment like this. Even if I don't again. But I assure you, we CAN'T date again. We can be friends, if you want. But I don't want a boyfriend. I don't want to rely on others for happiness. I need myself, I need my brain. I know I have one. I know I have a beautiful inside deep in my heart even though my brain may not let me think it. I know I can do anything. Even without the love of my life.
I love you, so much. I never will stop. But I have to listen to my heart. I need to leave. Because you don't feel the same. I never can make you feel the same. And I'm hoping for something that will never happen.
Thank you,
for everything. 
I will look back in 80 years, and smile that I got a chance like this.
Because no one else in the world ever has had something like this. And never will. I will never regret anything. It was like a sense of magic to me. Honestly.
Thank you.
I love you.

Sincerely,
Salina

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PikLeee [2014-05-30 14:22:15 +0000 UTC]

yOU'RE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH ME.

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EvilCartoon [2014-05-24 13:06:26 +0000 UTC]

Bae

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EvilCartoon [2014-05-24 13:05:51 +0000 UTC]

Bae I luv u more than u hoes u can be my pimp I'll be ur prostitute

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EvilCartoon [2014-05-24 13:05:19 +0000 UTC]

Hashtag spamming the bae #spammingthebae

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EvilCartoon [2014-05-24 13:04:49 +0000 UTC]

U my bae

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EvilCartoon [2014-05-24 13:04:40 +0000 UTC]

Only I touch bae

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EvilCartoon [2014-05-24 13:04:23 +0000 UTC]

NO BODY TOUCH BAE

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EvilCartoon [2014-05-24 13:04:12 +0000 UTC]

Bae ilu

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EvilCartoon [2014-05-24 13:03:44 +0000 UTC]

BAE, NO
BODY
TOUCH MY BAE

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EvilCartoon [2014-05-24 13:03:20 +0000 UTC]

NO BODY TOUCH MY BAE

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EvilCartoon [2014-05-24 13:03:01 +0000 UTC]

Bae

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-26 23:43:53 +0000 UTC]

:,)   youtu.be/wBqM2ytqHY4

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-25 02:29:23 +0000 UTC]

Salinacrayola2681

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-24 23:47:02 +0000 UTC]

WHY DO YOU DO THIS IM SICK OF ITT!!!! T^T 

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-24 21:51:59 +0000 UTC]

See how you just left me when I replied under a minute.

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-24 21:08:22 +0000 UTC]

I had to make a new textme

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-24 02:23:10 +0000 UTC]

Hi how's life I got a bad sickness bye like you care OMG dies bye

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-23 02:34:19 +0000 UTC]

YOU STILLP HAVENT ANSWERED ME ITS BEEN A DAY T~T I'm so sick of this...

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-20 04:03:50 +0000 UTC]

Ok you know what

We can't

Continue

I'm sorry but

It's just

Your never there

You never care

Your never here and you never try to be here

I can't do this anymore I really love you but your just lying to yourself, you don't love me.

You were online an hour ago

Why didn't you text me what the hell.

Because you don't care

I don't want it to be over but

I completely lost you it's clear to me.

youtu.be/e85z4pF-mTo

We won't work anymore

We can't stand eachother and I need to face it

You fucking hate me.

Bye.

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-17 04:49:46 +0000 UTC]

Text me please I miss you I miss youu

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-17 00:11:36 +0000 UTC]

Coffee please....Please don't go...I need you I fucking swear id change for you I just want you cuddled with me in a blanket happy again. I don't want to loose you T-T...I couldn't ever fall in love, I know for a fact. I could never love a guy again, because the only type of guy I want is YOU! Your the only person I could love...I don't want to loose you...I need you coffee my heart beats everyday for you because your the freaking reason I don't want to die. Like if I didn't have you, I'd be gone, I wouldn't ever have had second thoughts and let it pass like I have since I've been with you...I don't want to leave you..I want to hold you in my arms again I don't want it to be over...I want my life with you I want to grow old with you I want to die with you I want to be with you forever. I want to fix our problems, I want to love you, I need you more than anything...Your my fucking life ok, I don't want and I don't need anyone else. I want YOU I love YOU. I couldn't move on...I swore to you and myself I'd be with you forever...I can't just let that go..I can't let this all go..Please come back..Please just please...Please don't leave...;_;

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-16 23:47:30 +0000 UTC]

youtu.be/tC5IiYpozuE

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-16 23:30:24 +0000 UTC]

youtu.be/ZPpwJdPJ29Q

Finding songs is hard t-t

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-16 23:07:35 +0000 UTC]

youtu.be/KMOOr7GEkj8

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-16 22:54:10 +0000 UTC]

youtu.be/HKeZbbDDVaA

Y-Y

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-16 02:27:13 +0000 UTC]

Nope

Nope I'm not doing this

I'm not taking away myself no I fucking need you. I remember, I told you I don't wanna be anywhere if your not there. So psh. Anyways, how can I fucking just let you slip away from me NO I need you in my Fucking life and I will force smiles on my face if that what it takes to keep you. You know, your my fucking life. This all came to mind while I was looking through last messages of ours before we fought every fucking day. No were not broken completely, I want to fix this. I don't want either of us to fall asleep alone anymore. I need you in my fucking life and you better text me so I can fucking cuddle you. Because loosing you would be to hard, I can't face the earth myself when I'm 20, no, I need you. I don't want to be with anyone else. Ok, I need YOU. Ok. I love you, even though we fight way to much. I'm going to fix it, because you won't. But I need you, coffee. I can't let you slip away, I'll regret it when I'm like 80 and on my death bed if I even lived through my life and didn't already take a knife to my neck. Lol. Yea, I need you in my fucking life. Ok, I'm serious when I say this, I don't want it with anyone else, your irreplaceable. Your the only person I could love truly and deeply. Ok, your 98% of my heart. Kk? Don't leave, I'm not letting myself loose you. Ok, I want to fucking marry you one day, I want to be happy with you one day. I don't want any of this. I don't want anyone else, your the ONLY person in my life I could happily be with. Your perfect to me. I love you, coffee. Please, text me, my new textme is salinanutella2921. But still, your the reason I'm happy. Even though I'm sad sometimes. But I want to fix this, I want to change this. I want to love you, I want us to be like we were. I want you only coffee. Please don't freaking ignore you, I will try to get you back until I'm fucking dead. Even if you move on, I'll still try to get you back. I'll try as hard as I can to try to get you back in my life. I'll change for you, I'll do anything for you. Just please...Don't go...

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-14 21:54:14 +0000 UTC]

Listen, if I'm just making you mad I'm not sticking around. If you can't stand me and not allow me to talk to you then how can I stay with someone who won't let me know they are they for me but instead YOU snap at me harshly showing me that I have issues witch I know but I don't want to stay with you if you can't stand me and don't want to be around me because all I am is crap ok I'm not doing it it just hurts me more ok, I hate the feeling of rejection like I don't know who to talk with at all, I wish you could understand that I have no one in my life who even cares about me. You don't care about me either and you proved it to me. I want to just spill my mind into these words but I can't. That's not love at all, this isn't love, I have to many issues for you to stick with me but you don't get that I can't help it. And you won't stand it you won't show you care you just show that you want me gone why would I stay with you if you hate me. This discussion is over. You don't understand me at all. I'm not sticking with you and continue to just hurt myself. I'm not doing this, I have an issue and I need to EARASE my self because no one will ever love me I'm messed up ;-; don't even try anything please I'm not getting back with you. You can't stand me and face it, you hate me. I know you do. I'm not going to just do this anymore I just need to leave the face of earth I'm a fucking mistake and I knew it from the start I shouldn't have ever fell in love I shouldn't have even tried I should have ignored you the day I met you. I should've never let this happen knowin I'm not capable of keeping my sanity and no one ever likes me because I'm crazy. You just don't understand and you never will. I can't take this pain wow I'm hearing them make out loudly. This is disgusting. Anyways, yea. Bye. Listen I'm just doing what I should've done long ago, I'm not strong enough for this at all. I don't have anyone what is my point everyone hates me.T^T even my own mother hates me like what the living fuck I can't stand this anymore I'm just

I'm getting rid of myself I should've done this a long time ago I don't know why I thought we would last. But now I know we won't. So now I can't do it without leaving anyone behind. I'm crying so bad it hurts so much.

I'll never be happy.

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-13 17:40:28 +0000 UTC]

Salinanutella8354

Last chance

If you fuck up again I'm blocking you AGAIN.

I'm not taking your bullshit anymore. Sorry.

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-12 23:51:03 +0000 UTC]

You e been gone way more than wow

Wow

Ok so you don't care

Ok so it's officially over

Ok...

Whoa

It's really over..

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-12 04:16:11 +0000 UTC]

Are you just ignoring me so I run back to you. Because it's working please don't even do it

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EvilCartoon [2013-10-03 22:59:50 +0000 UTC]

Oh my god I'm worried the fuck about you. I can't text you I don't know your text me OMG OMG fuck fuck fuck.

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Pickleplayer [2013-10-02 02:08:26 +0000 UTC]

Happy birtday c:

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