ChibiMerMer In reply to Booblebobble [2018-05-08 03:03:09 +0000 UTC]

Wow! In... 273 days, you're the first person to contact me about not uploading any more content here! o_o To be truthfully honest, I was curious how long it would take for anyone to show any concern or contact me, if ever! On this account it's been 528 days since I uploaded anything! oO All I've been doing here is add some stuff into my favorites just to have something I can do on this site, that's it. Sometimes I collect stuff just to have something to do, whether it's sound effects, background music, or images.

As to why I haven't posted anything for so long or hadn't tried to make any more N64 animations... well... I could make a big topic about it, but those seem to get overlooked or not much commented on, so instead I'll make it brief.

I don't feel like I'm part of anything and there's basically nothing to motivate me here. Not just deviantART, but anywhere. Like I mentioned earlier, it took about a 3/4 year for someone to come up to me and ask about this, which was you, and I'm quite astonished of receiving this message! =O I would have closed my accounts months ago if it wasn't for wanting to see how long it would take for someone to go "Hey, maybe I should check on him and see what's going on"
During all this time of waiting around do I not remember any notes or comments that showed any concern about me or why I'm not uploading stuff, kind of proofing my point that "A lot of people pretend to care, only to get something out of you, or simply don't care unless you're their friend, which is something you may not be able to achieve unless you live around them".

It's a bit like this town, really. Within 9 months, no one would hire me. I even applied as a cashier for night-shift at freaking Wal Mart, and they would still not hire me just because I'm not from around here. No criminal records, always smiling, yet people are like "I don't know you, so I don't want you near me!" I only got a job here because a distant cousin of my dad put a good word in for a filthy factory job as a night-shift, part-time janitor. I had some pretty bad jobs. My current ones are working electrical with my dad, and cleaning up a bar in the morning that is run by a harassing woman that puts you down and uses you like a tool.

Some girls tried to hit on me too. Not because they like my personality or all the things I could talk with them about, but because I'm shy and quite timid around women, and they know how to exploit that. Despite never having had a girlfriend it doesn't mean these "female friends" didn't try using me and tried to manipulate me. I'm somewhat fortunate and quite unfortunate to have been raised by a manipulative mother and sister, which made me more cautious and identify liars like them better. Can't help but have a lot of trust issues and disorders because of them...

Anyways! I seem to be rambling on... Um, what I'm trying to say is that being confronted with an abundance of negativity and a lack of positive reinforcement is the reason why I'm not motivated of creating more content. Not just me, but is going through the exact same thing (minus the women hitting on him and jobs mistreating him). If users don't care about us or what we do, why should we care about what we do? What's the motivation there? To post more just so people can go "Make more!" and give no real support? And it's not depression that's preventing me from doing stuff. The things mentioned are the reasons content creators may fall into depression, because they feel like they're just wasting their lives to create stuff that hardly any seem to give a damn about. =/ A lot swallow pills or use their content to make money; I don't.

Great... I said I'd keep it brief, yet I keep rambling on.

Well anyways... Unless things will change where some people, like me, would feel included, get invited into some friendly conversations (chat, Discord), or find a place they can call home (forum, website), I don't think I'll ever make another N64 animation. I'm the type that would love to cooperate with some people on creating content, you know? Like a gang of Retro-game animation-makers or whatever. Like I make N64 animations while another does SNES, I don't know. XD

• I tried Spriter's Resource, but their community kind of insulted my work, so I didn't bother posting any.
• I tried uploading the N64 animations and F-Zero GX animations into wikis, yet received no comments or praise in those wikis.
• We (me and virty) tried out forums for Nintendo gamers (Pokemon hacking, Pokemon fan club, etc.) yet they cared so little of anything people made, and their staff just... sucked. I mean, wow! One website is over 10 years behind in its formatting, and another had over 600 errors on their front page! (still does, despite me pointing it out to their staff)
• Virty and I tried to make a combined account and post something there that required some effort to make:
  Entry #1: Extrageometrical Encounters!
  Pokemon Blue / Blau Spritesheet
  But no responses were received. I'm not good in advertising myself, but I would have thought at least that a few people would say SOMETHING to that. -_- But over 200 days later... Still nothing.

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ChibiMerMer In reply to NoOpacityKing [2018-05-08 03:04:41 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome! ^^ Sorry I haven't said anything... I have my reasons... But not to worry, it's not you or anything.

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NoOpacityKing In reply to ChibiMerMer [2018-05-12 21:47:55 +0000 UTC]

Thank you for your kind words they mean a lot to me,what important to me is that i met a cool person like you and i hope we can be friends 

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ChibiMerMer In reply to LazyNekotto [2016-10-30 00:39:11 +0000 UTC]

Oh! You're welcome! o#o Sorry for not responding, I get a little shy to reply on busty drawings. >#> You're really good at drawing them! I kinda suck.

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LazyNekotto In reply to ChibiMerMer [2016-10-30 07:50:05 +0000 UTC]

I understand, boobs can be quite overwhelming.
And thank you once again, it's all about practise in the end. :3

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ChibiMerMer In reply to oakin64 [2016-10-24 19:57:44 +0000 UTC]

Never did, because I doubt I'd be good enough to watch. >_<
Besides, I'm probably better in spriting and N64 rendering than in drawing.

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oakin64 In reply to ChibiMerMer [2016-10-24 19:59:56 +0000 UTC]

I'd love to see your sprites in the future then.

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ChibiMerMer In reply to oakin64 [2016-10-24 20:30:59 +0000 UTC]

Thank you for saying that! Well... what do you think of some of these? =O
merry255.deviantart.com/galler…
(I try to separate a little by having two accounts)

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ChibiMerMer In reply to NikoH [2016-10-02 02:33:46 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome! ^^

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ChibiMerMer In reply to oKendallJTo [2016-04-26 00:35:23 +0000 UTC]

A bit better now... I should probably explain a lot of things, so let me send you a note. Sorry about not replying to stuff in general.

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oKendallJTo In reply to ChibiMerMer [2016-04-26 00:39:31 +0000 UTC]

Hey naw it's cool man~ And sure! Shoot away~

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ChibiMerMer In reply to oKendallJTo [2016-04-26 01:09:02 +0000 UTC]

I added you to my watch because I didn't realize you weren't. oO (also wow, you've been doing a fantastic job on your drawings >#<)
Also sorry for the long note. ._. And I may overreact in it, I'm just still on edge and may phrase things harsher than they are.

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oKendallJTo In reply to ChibiMerMer [2016-04-26 01:59:21 +0000 UTC]

Added you because because =w= and thanks!!!! I'm taking a bit of a hiatus though to practice up. Naw man if you're troubled you make it as long as possible!!!!! Essay it if you have to~ Don't worry man. I understand when something can get under your skin

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ChibiMerMer In reply to oKendallJTo [2016-04-26 02:17:08 +0000 UTC]

hehe and you're welcome ^^ ♥ Practice up? I'm already jealous of how good you are, don't get even better! XDDD I'm so glad you listen. Yeah, I know that you can relate, you've been (are) going through a lot yourself. ^^

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oKendallJTo In reply to ChibiMerMer [2016-04-26 02:46:27 +0000 UTC]

Forgot to say thank you on that last reply. Thanks Merry c: Don't be jealous =w= please don't =w= I gotta get better though. Anatomy is so hard to doooooo!!!! And very very annoying *flips table in spirit*. And yeah I gotta go through stuff every day. I actually don't have internet. I'm using this random wifi that only my computer can connect to...which sucks cuz I wanna play Splatoon =w= I know that's not important but splating someone makes my day QwQ'

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ChibiMerMer In reply to oKendallJTo [2016-04-26 16:03:56 +0000 UTC]

It's alright, you're welcome. Alright, I won't get jealous, I'll just admire your work instead. ^#^ I really love how good you are with anatomy, I still suck at it. Sorry about the internet deal. It really must suck not to be able to play your games online or having to connect to random wifi just to talk to people. >_<
*gives you hugs for going through a rough time*

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oKendallJTo In reply to ChibiMerMer [2016-04-28 06:26:20 +0000 UTC]

Please don't be jealous TTwTT Keep drawing and studying on it and trust me when I say this be be patient with art...it takes a few months or even a few years to get it right =w=

And it's still messed up that I don't have anatomy down pat yet TTwTT I HATE IT!!!! Q^Q

I wanna play Splatoon sooooooooooo badly =w= damn no internet...

*hug*

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ChibiMerMer In reply to GenoRiolu [2016-02-20 20:36:49 +0000 UTC]

Aww! =#D Hehe, I remember that! XP Poor Temmie, now she finally has a real egg to look out for! ^_^
I love the comment! Thanks for submitting it here! >#<

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GenoRiolu In reply to ChibiMerMer [2016-02-21 04:56:35 +0000 UTC]

hmm, nyeah. ^w^ that and after seeing comic of all having left underground, except that one tem who wanted stay until egg hatches, and it still hard boiled. '^' me really wanted help the cutie temmie~ >w<

but thanks mermer~ and you welcome~

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Merry255 In reply to DanXDWolfenburg [2016-02-20 20:35:48 +0000 UTC]

It's okay, I'll forgive you. ^^ I unblocked you on my account, but hope I won't have to block someone again.
Sorry for blocking you in the first place, but some things can offend me quite a lot... not the thing with fetishes, I mean, I'm even writing topics about that now, but "feeling used" and stuff get me upset.

Anyways, you can talk to me again, but it may take a while for me to respond because of my time-consuming job. >_<

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DanXDWolfenburg In reply to Merry255 [2016-02-21 00:16:20 +0000 UTC]

Thanks

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ChibiMerMer In reply to ZengumiTheCandyman [2016-02-20 20:31:57 +0000 UTC]

AWW! Super cute in fact, Zengumi! >#<
Thank you for all the cute stuff in the post! Is so adorable! The redbull glomp may be my favorite... but I don't know how to post it. >#<

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ZengumiTheCandyman In reply to ChibiMerMer [2016-02-20 23:52:14 +0000 UTC]

Daw >//w//< *snuggles the mermer* >w< hehe thanks! >w< and your welcome ^o^/ 

And oh? =3c how to post them? ^o^ Well.. when your typin in the comments theres a button with a plus sign and next to it it say's "Add media" =3c then you'll probalby see a search bar on when ya open it as well as a display of some other emotes =3c i just typed in "hug" or "glomp" or "cute" and well.. Some of this stuff came out! >W<

  Slippery hug owo

 Redbull glomp =3c

 Annoying dog >w<

If ya want another way to do so =0c well all ya gotta do is put ":" <= This quotation and some words like this inbetween =3c : iconslipperyhugplz : Ya gotta ether put "icon" at the first point =3c and/or "plz" at the end of it o3o it usuaully makes icons like the ones displayed 👍: 0 ⏩: 0

ChibiMerMer In reply to virtualboy2558 [2016-02-20 20:28:35 +0000 UTC]

AWW! >#< Thank you, sweetheart!
Feels good to have my account less empty! ^#^
Thanks for putting your bum in here to fill some of that space. .#.

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virtualboy2558 In reply to ChibiMerMer [2016-02-21 06:12:07 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome, me cute cuddly Mermer! ^w^ Me want to fill it up with cute fat chibi bum! >w<

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ChibiMerMer In reply to Chooy64 [2016-02-15 13:34:05 +0000 UTC]

Thank you for awesome image. ^#^
Sorry, quite shy. .#.

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