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"Neighbourhood Archaeopteryx"
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is this yours?
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You posted this awhile ago, but I'm thankful you asked! Β It is not mine, but I think I know why it looks familiar- my character, Tuk, IS based off of the Halo universe's "Jackals" or whatever they're called. Β Kig-Yar. Β I honestly haven't played much Halo, but had a friend run a Halo-based tabletop game based on before the humans came into play, and since I like to draw my characters, and I think Elite are ugly as sin, I bargained to be able to play a different race. Β I did a few hours worth of research on the race, made some sketches, some story ideas, threw it at my DM, and he said it was awesome, so I ran with it.
After the game had died, I still had a character around, and decided to tweak to design to more closely resemble raptors of the dromaeosaur variety ( I like troodons, specifically ), and that's how I got my Tuk.
Good eye! Β And thank you for your concern for fellow artists, and their art being used respectfully!
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Yes I have downloaded the model and plan to use it but wanted to go over it with the creator first
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Hmm, well what you posted isn't mine. I honestly thought it was a screen grab from one of the Halo games. Seriously, I played some multiplayer on Halo, and that was it. Everything story-related I learned from a handful of obsessed friends. That's an awfully nifty model in that picture you found!
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Thank you very much for the Llama, keep up the great work and stay safe!
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Thank you for gifting me a Llama first. :3 I'll always return a llama badge.
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I'm more than happy to let you have a llama 
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Thank you for the compliment. I feel "staying safe" is a relative observation, though - and far from a guarantee when living outside!
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Woah, you've got some good character designs here! I'm watching you.
Do you do trades?
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Thanks for the watch!
I'd LIKE to do trades, but I don't have reliable enough internet to promise anything right now. If you don't mind waiting indefinitely, though, we might be able to set something up. Send me a note, eh? :3
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I was reading the same post as LanaXx commented on and I wanted to say thank you for writing that. I have felt the same way forever but I have never been able to explain to people what I mean, about how people's grief can only be based on the amount and level of grief they've experienced. <-- Does that even make sense? I'm terrible at explaining what I'm thinking and you've helped me out tremendously. Geesh even if I could explain what I meant it would have never came out as clearly and as thoughtful as you've written it 
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It's funny how many comments I've received in response to that post. At least one a day ( usually more ) since I posted it. I guess it really was something that a lot of people needed to hear, and I'm elated to know that people have been so moved by my own words. Feel more than welcome to use my words to help other people.
I think the more you question yourself on your message, the less power your message has. For instance, what you said about the level of grief someone has makes complete sense as it is, but by questioning it ( asking if it makes sense ) and then down-playing it ( claiming that you're "terrible at explaining" ), the power of the message is lost in your own insecurity of being able to portray it powerfully. In other words, you're leading to your own downfall. If you state things with confidence ( and keep your questioning to yourself ), you'll come across as a lot more sincere and knowledgeable.
If you really are concerned about whether or not your message has come across well, just tack on at the end of your message, "I can expound on anything mentioned above if you have questions," or simply, "If you have any questions, I will do my best to answer them." If you're REALLY uncomfortable with a situation but still want to contribute, you can START a comment with, "I'm no expert about this, but here's my opinion..." That way your insecurity about the topic is already on the table and you won't have to refer back to it at all for the rest of your post. I do that a lot, and since my bases are already covered I don't have to explain myself because it's already stated that what I'm saying is only opinion.
You sound like an extremely knowledgeable person with lots of great things to say, and I strongly encourage you say them! The most help you can be to another person is to stand strong and be compelling, though, which is why it's so important not to belittle your message by questioning yourself. If the person receiving your advice gets it, they get it and that's great. If they don't, then they can ask the questions, no? :3
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I have worried about that before, showing my insecurities opens me up to be attacked about my intelligence and competence. Sometimes I insert lines like "does that make sense" to show I'm not judging someone or like you said to cover myself if I make a mistake and sometimes it is what it is, wondering if what I wrote did in fact make sense. Since childhood people have been frustrated with me because I can't get my thoughts out in a way that other people can understand. Of course you've helped me again
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You're welcome, and I had it the exact same way. I've learned to be extremely detailed in my responses and to try and hit as many bases as I can when explaining something because, as you said, people would become frustrated that my thoughts were so far... everywhere. I ramble and my thoughts wander a lot, but I've been getting better at bringing everything back to the initial point at hand. The way I work anymore is to let my thoughts wander, and then occasionally reel them back into the point at hand.
I used to question myself all the time, too, so what I said about all of that comes from personal experience. I am glad that I've been able to help you, and I hope that I will continue to be able to help people in the future. Best of luck to you, and feel free to strike up conversation whenever you want.
( See what I did there? 
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You are a smart dude 
*very impressed*
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Thank you! Which rant is that? I've posted several in the past few days. :3
I feel like I've seen your icon around before.
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Hm, I can't remember the name of the topic you posted the rant on, but you spoke about how everyone's problems are important. Because what someone percieves as painful varies from person to person, but every pain is equally real.
I liked that so much!
So I like you , you seem very clever ^_^ and you explain it all in such a nice way!
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Ah yeah. I did like that one. Did you see someone tried to start a flame-war on it, too? I think they must have been calling me out on my claim that bullies must be treated with kindness and respect.
I must admit that it feels really nice to write stuff like that. :3
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Yes, I saw that, that really really suprised me, I was expecting you to get a lot of nice comments for writing that. I mean, you really took your time to help that guy. Hm, I wonder, where do you have all those stuff from? Do you read a lot , or did you just come up with all of it yourself?
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I actually think that in their own way, that was a nice comment. I think they were testing how strongly I believe what I said, and if I would defend it in the manner in which I proclaimed should be taken, or if I would get angry and defensive, thus contradicting myself. I'm actually grateful for it, considering it helped prove my point about dealing with bullies.
I read here and there... not too much, though. I learn like a sponge, but most of my life's philosophy is my own. What I've been writing in the life discussion forums lately has been from within my heart, within my mind, and of my own experience.
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Hehe, you can really twist everything around to be positive! And I am impressed you come up with such smart things on your own
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Anyone can twist an situation to find the positive in it. If we didn't have the Holocaust, women's rights and equality / diversity mentalities wouldn't have come NEARLY as far as they already have. Even in the face of one of the worst horrors our planet has seen as a collective, you can still see that it FORCED humanity to open its eyes and accept everyone else as merely human - no more, no less, just the same as ourselves. Granted, this is a massive generalisation, and it's also hugely different than what you're referring to, but the point is there.
I've had a very, very long time and a very, very tough life. I've been abandon I don't even know how many times, I've been tortured, I've been face-to-face with death more times than I'd care to admit... One day I just decided I could be driven mad by all of this, or I could just simply not let it affect me. I became callous at first, until I realised that was still letting things affect me ( the urge to "grow a shell" in order to "remain safe" is just as much of a reaction as throwing a tantrum or negotiating a situation ). That being said, my outlook, my wisdom, my words are all nothing more than a survival tactic, but sometimes the simplest of things are also the best of things, eh?
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Yes, that is true. Hmm, you say it forces people to open their eyes? I agree. I think it is always the same, bad things happen and then the result of that is that good people take over and make it stop, if it was not so, I think humanity would not exist, because if evil won all the time we would self-destruct.
You have been tortured and near death? That sounds really crazy. Really makes me wonder what happened to you. I also agree with you that we decide ourselves how to feel, I thought of that a while back. I realized that even when I am sad I get some kind of satisfaction from it, I almost feel like anything I felt gives me some kind of satisfaction at the moment. And it is difficult to admit perhaps, but the only way to make it stop seems to be to really decide to stop :/
Sorry for spamming your profile, by the way
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I don't mind. The messages stop being logged on a profile after three or four replies, anyway. Or, they stop showing up on the profile, at least. I want to say that DeviantART does or at least did have an instant messaging feature... but I can't find it... Nah, a quick google search proves me wrong. Ah well, I have a bunch of different instant messaging applications, you're more than welcome to send me a note with what programmes you use, and I'll send you a list of my screen names.
I think that "good" and "evil" are very, very relative terms. Mayan peoples, for instance, practised human sacrifice, and it wasn't at all done how it's depicted. Often times the people BEING sacrificed were willing participants in the ritual! Why? Because they honestly believed that it was the "right" thing to do. Why is it considered "good" and "right" to, say... help an old lady across the street? What if all that lady wants is to be left a-fucking-LONE, God damnit? If she is upset and perturbed by someone's insistence to "help", then isn't that person doing more harm than good?
You might argue, "What if a person isn't in the right state of mind to make good decisions on their own?" Well, from a medical point of view, you'd have to ask... is this condition that's forcing them to make bad conditions treatable? Is it permanent, or is it temporary? If it's permanent, then you might as well accept that said person IS that way, even if it's not who they USED to be. That means the decisions they're making are what they want and what they WILL want. If that person wants to do dumb things, there is NOTHING you can do outside of imprisoning them against their will in order to force them not to. By imprisoning them you've taken away their freedom to be themselves, and you've taken away any opportunity they had to learn about why that situation is bad, too.
That being said - that "good" and "evil" are illusions - we must then accept that collective "good" and "evil" behaviours are just as flexible and just as ever-changing as culture itself, because the moral value of an action is based ON culture itself. That's why in so many of my posts in the LD threads I specify "personal morals" or "individual values" - because you have collective morals ( usually called "ethics" - though both words, "morals" and "ethics", can be used as on both individual and collective levels ), and you have your own, personal gauge of right and wrong, which differs between every single human being on the planet.
The Nazis honestly and whole-heartedly believed that what they were doing was good for the whole of humanity. They believed things like that people of colour didn't experience the world as fully as "aryans" did, and therefore killing them was a mercy. They believed that working them to death wasn't actually harmful due to their limited ability to experience the world around them, and that it was a pretty humane way to die. There were disgusting, evil people inside of the Nazi party and lots of grotesque things happened in the name of Nazism, but it was actually all for a good reason.
I think it's less that bad things can't sustain themselves and good people then have to "fix" them... I think it's just that like everything, good and bad things happen in waves, and since nothing is forever, SOMETHING has to come along and change what's happening. Regardless of good or bad, better or worse, something simply has to happen. Something has to change. Whether it was a good or bad change is dependant upon who's viewing it. There's plenty of people TODAY that think the downfall of Nazi Germany was a bad thing, and that the people who stopped it were evil people!
Although it's true to say that I, myself, have almost died, what I meant by "near death" is that I have worked with lots of dying people - and not even "worked" as in, "as a profession". Just... dying things seem to find their way to me. A wild, dying opossum walked up to me on the street one time, so I put it in a kennel and took it home so that it could have a quiet, peaceful death. Stuff like that happens to me ALL the time, and I don't think it'll stop happening any time soon.
No emotion is inherently bad, which is why you feel satisfied to be sad. You have accomplished your sadness, and its task has been fulfilled, thus, satisfaction in a job well done. That's why crying is so therapeutic, because it's a physically engaging way to express sadness, making that "fulfilment" feel so much more real and your accomplishment so much more meaningful than simply being sad and moving on. NEVER ignore your emotions, that's a big thing. ALWAYS allow them the freedom to play out. It might be hard at first, especially with so-called "negative" emotions, but just keep reminding yourself that it's NOT a negative emotion, it's NOT a bad feeling, it's what you DO with it that's good or bad, and there's NOTHING wrong with doing something that's not bringing harm to yourself or someone else.
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Wow, I am very impressed! Though I really agree that morals are individual, and that what is good or evil is relative, I guess what I thought of as evil would be something which is destructive for the human race. But I guess it is really difficult to judge what would and what would not be destructive for the human race.
I also like your outlook on feelings, it is very different from most things I have heard before. I usually hear that "bad" feelings, at least after a while, should be supressed, and replaced by positive feelings.
Oh, and I use msn sometimes
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Aye, I think you're right. It would be difficult to gauge what's good and bad for us as a whole. I would almost be tempted to say that as we are now, though, is almost worse than just about anywhere we've been before. Depleting resources, greed running rampant within our politics... I think that 2012 prophecy just might be right, but not in the sense of big meteors crashing into Earth, or fire raining from the sky, or the whole world flooding... nothing like that. No, I think that this coming year is going to be a turning point. It's going to be when everything climaxes - the centuries, nay, millennia of corruption taking over our cultures will reach a point where it simply cannot sustain itself, and it will collapse. I don't think the year after next will look much different, but it will certainly FEEL different. I think it will simply be the end of our world as we know it. Nothing more... nothing less. It will give us a wonderful opportunity to pave a new world from the ruins of the last. No more fossil fuels, no more factory farmed animals, no more industrialised living. Maybe we'll be forced to live off of the land once more, and come to peace with it again. Wouldn't that be surreal? Wouldn't it be quite... utopian in a lot of ways? I think it would be beautiful... or at least have the potential to be so.
In the 1950s, after WWII, everyone had a "silent" mindset. This was due to the fact that people saw what happened when people spoke out - unspeakable horrors. Therefore, we must all simply smile and agree, even if we don't want to, simply to keep the peace. The peace MUST be kept. People stopped showing their emotions for fear of stirring something bigger and scarier that could explode into World War III. Everyone was terrified that any controversial word they spoke could ignite the next big conflict. No one wanted to be named as the person who put the idea into people's heads to revolt again.
That mentality has stayed with us into today's culture, though it's evolved since then. We went through the 60s and 70s, when anti-war movements began to unfold and it became ethically wrong to stay quiet about it. The younger generation shouted their voices loudly, believing the silence of the generation prior was what led them to their mess. Mesh together the two cultures, and we get what is essentially the mentality of the 90s, and what has also influenced us today. What that is is that we're being told to be true to ourselves, and speak out for what's right, but to never, EVER push someone ELSE outside of their comfort zone. It's okay to be true to yourself - so long as it doesn't bother or perturb others. That's why we're told to keep sadness, anger, and other "negative" emotions to ourselves - that's why we're told to get it over with, replace with "good" feelings, and to keep others out of it. "Negative" emotions make other people feel uncomfortable, and the cardinal sin of today is forcing upon others situations they don't want to be a part of. After all, if we're allowed to express ourselves, we must respect that others have that same right.
I think this leads to a cognitive dissonance which confuses us, though, because it's quite a double standard. Speak out, but stay silent - that's essentially what that mindframe is telling us. By suppressing our feelings, or "diverting" them, we merely make them more powerful since they're given no appropriate escape, therefore making them more difficult to deal with later! If we're allowed to express our emotions as they are when they are, we let off little puffs here, there... everywhere. To others, we suddenly become more REAL when we do that, too. They see us experiencing life in a way they've only HEARD about in fairy tales - truly, fully... when you respect your own emotional state, you're living life to the utmost... and you'll FEEL better and more stable, too, since with lots of little puffs, you won't have the violent explosions resulted from holding onto and deploying emotions at "appropriate intervals" - as if emotions are predictable enough to schedule!
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I can't see Youtube anymore - and haven't been for quite awhile. laptop died awhile ago, and I only have computer access at school or library.
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Holy shit medic!
... I didn't know you were into Team Fortress?
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/throws jar of urine
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So... that's a yes? >.>
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[link]
"Piece of piss!"
(stayed up late watching retarded Gmod videos again)
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Oh gods, Roger showed that to me.
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So I'll ask again...
Do you play? I haven't played in awhile... >.>
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My Sentry is going to sap your Spy.
derrrrrrrrp
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My medic is a Ghostbuster.
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