kamf3rraridraws [2017-04-16 07:12:29 +0000 UTC]

Wow, 5 1/2 years and I return yet again to this profile... 

I am returning to leave yet another message for you...

If there is an afterlife or anything better than this world where the souls ascend to, I sure hope there's a way for you to see this new message...

5 1/2 years of pain... Of emotional instability... Of physical torture... Of heartache... Sadness so deep that I could never love another... Has it really been 5 1/2 years already?...

I'm not ready to leave you yet, Oisin... I can't... I feel as if time has stopped right where you and I were just becoming one... My heart stopped right in its tracks and is stuck on you... For good...   

There is so much I want to tell you... So much missing out... So much heartbreak that I feel as I too have gone and am in purgatory and you're somewhere better where I cannot reach you...

Nobody has ever taken your spot and nor will they ever... You were the one...The key to my locked heart that you unlocked... And now that the key is missing for good my heart will no longer open up to anybody else who approaches me...

Oh how I wish I could hold you hand and more... I will still be solo on this cursed world... I will still continue to go it alone until my energy has run out and I can no longer go on... But for you I shall try to keep on... Then again heartbeats don't last forever and one day I shall take my last breath with you on my mind and my heart giving one last pump of my love for you... One last whisper of your name and one last tear and perhaps one day we shall be reunited in beautiful Central Park...   


I shall always be yours until the end of time...    

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FerrariXko214 [2014-08-30 01:39:52 +0000 UTC]

Wow..... I cannot believe this profile i still here....  

Oh Oisin.... It's Kam..... If you ever see this message somehow from the other side, this is what I want to say to you:

I miss you so much..... You have no damn idea how much it hurts still.... Every day I think of you.... Every chance I can get, I think about you and I remember the fun conversations we would have.... The amazing ideas from you and just so much fun and laughter with you..... It's been two and a half years since you've been gone... I am still around.... But if you only knew..... I wish I could tell you all what has happened and what I've been doing.... I just...... My words can't explain..... I've never been with anybody since you've been gone.... That's how much I loved you and still do. No other person is number one but you in my heart still..... I guess you can say I'm ok. Even though I have horrible depression now that turned into PTSD, I am still here and alive. Trying to move forward. But you are still there.... Just know it's not your fault... I guess it was your time... I still have all those messages you sent me on YouTube. I keep them close. And your photo. 
*sighs* God I miss you so much.... I wish you were here still... We'd have so much fun! We'd have a place together in New York City somewhere. It's not the same without you because everywhere I go, especially in the zoo, I think I'm going to see you... Since you left, I've not been the same. I have the proof.... Before I left New York City for a while to ease my mind, I threw my gifts to you in the East River. The  birthday and Valentine's Day cards. The chocolate penguin I bought you and the many other things I had to give you on that special day that was ours. I feel you're still around. And I hope you are. I hope you can see my tears and I hope you can find me and hold me and hug me. I want to feels your hugs and kisses again....  
  Right now I'm just slowing moving ahead and working on my artwork. I hope one day I can become well known for my artwork and maybe one day make it to New York Comic Con and then again to San Diego Comic Con. I hope you're there and you see me and my dream... But then again, nothing is better without you. I try my best and I know I'm not perfect but I sure hope you're still proud of me... I still am of you and I will and I will never forget you....

My last name is now Ferrar because that's how much I love you. I'm still yours until the day I die. Maybe one day we'll see each other again. I just hope you are happy to see me when you do. 


  I love you so much and always will.... When ever I say your name, please come comfort me and hold me. I'd sleep much better at night....


    Always and Forever yours,


        Kam             

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RSPCTtheScience [2012-11-26 19:18:29 +0000 UTC]

Oh Oisin........

If only you were still around...... Kam misses you so much.... She's never been the same......... I miss you as well..... I wish you never had to leave......
deviantART muro drawing

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LordMarukio [2012-08-01 04:47:40 +0000 UTC]

sent an angel to watch over you last night but it came back.
I asked “why?”
The angel said “angels don't watch over angels.”
Twenty angels are IN your world. Ten of them are sleeping, nine are playing, one is reading this message.
Send this to ten friends including me. I guess if I don't get it back I'm not one of them. As soon as you get five replies, someone you love will quietly surprise you.
Please read, not joking. God has seen you struggling with something. God says its over. A blessing is coming your way.
If you believe in God send this message on. Please don't ignore it. You are being tested. God is going to fix two things BIG tonight in your favor. DROP Everything and pass it on. Tomorrow will be the best day of your life. Don't break this chain.
Send to 14 friends in 10 minutes. It's not that hard

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LordMarukio [2012-07-11 18:11:51 +0000 UTC]

Wish we could still chat man

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KKowalski [2012-06-14 21:55:05 +0000 UTC]

Oh the love of my life..... How you truly pushed me to be who I am today... I know I still don't believe you're gone. The pain is still there and my heart still burns with loneliness and sadness.. I can't face the fact that you're gone. :,( It's so heart breaking. I go to the Central Park Zoo every time I get the chance, sit on the same bench and wait for you as if youre still alive waiting for you to come up to me and hug me.... <='(
I don't know if any family members will read this but if they do, I still think about him every day...
For you Oisin, I did get a tattoo in rememberence of you. On my right wrist it says "Ferrari" in script letters... I look it every day and think of you and always will think of you and STILL love you no matter what.. I honestly know youre around me as Ive experience your presence and caught you in my room. Im not afraid of you in the afterlife. I suppose I am happy because youre still around me but I want you to always know that I do and will never stop loving you
The card I was suppose to give you on Valentine's Day, I buried in the Central Park Zoo. I hope you can find it. And flowers I put in the same spot every time <='(

I......I want to read the poster poem I at least made for you that I never got to give you.... <='( Its hrd to type it but I know you will be happy..

~To My Love~
Our friendship is the never ending road to eternity!
Intelligence is your main attraction and
Sunrays through your soul of sweetness.
I cherish your heart and soul every step of the way and
Never will there be another with your aspects.
For you, all my one and only, souly forever.
Everything that makes you whole makes you perfect!
Reveling to me your true reality, my heart
Reners with love, care and affection towards you.
Always will I have you in my heart and mind.
Richer will our lives become closer! For
I will never love another like I do you...

*sighs* Not a day goes by that I don't think of you.. I've got your photo in a nice frame and still hve your chocolate penguin as well... I wish you never hsd to go.... < I stopped all loving after you passed because I am still with you....
But I know that I will be with you SOON and meet you there in the Central Park Zoo and waiting on tht bench for you to come up to me and hug me....

And when that day comes...... I sure hope you remember me.... <='}
I leave you rest in peace with the song that was ours and will be until the end of time... [link]

Love you forever and for always <='}

Kam <3<3<3<3

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LordMarukio [2012-04-08 21:42:42 +0000 UTC]

Dear Oisin ,
I would to say Rest in Peace. I will never forget our conversations that we had. I know that you cared about me and I care for you. I wish that you didn't die but at least you're not suffering anymore. I love so much.
Love,
Alejandra Vasquez

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KKowalski [2012-02-15 15:24:00 +0000 UTC]

Oh Oisin..... I'm so worried about you v... Wondering where you are at....
Wondering if I will ever see or hear from you ever again... I'm crying my heart out right now... I don't think I can move on without you.....

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KKowalski [2011-12-28 22:13:29 +0000 UTC]

At least I still have you on THIS site right?

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KKowalski [2011-12-01 22:10:43 +0000 UTC]

Hey there love1

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Supercooper17 [2011-11-30 01:12:11 +0000 UTC]

hey thanks for the 7 comments. much apreciated. my channel isnt as popular as Alexes

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LordMarukio [2011-11-16 15:01:37 +0000 UTC]

Aaron:*sings*oooh baby give me one more chaaance! to show you that I love you! Won't you please let meee back in your heart!
I WANT YOU BACK!!
[link]

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meownyo [2011-11-11 22:28:12 +0000 UTC]

thanks for the fav
I hope you enjoyed my piece as much as I did creating it. please continue to support my page because I can happily say that theres many more pieces that I feel that you may enjoy plus there's a lot more yet to be posted. I create many pieces with many styles, these are mainly manga, fan arts and even just random doodles, so please feel free to check it out.

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KuroiSenshi [2011-11-11 21:04:28 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the fav. <3

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moonwolf03 [2011-11-09 19:35:52 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the fav!

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quamp [2011-11-08 21:43:20 +0000 UTC]

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Fankowala95 [2011-10-22 16:14:03 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the

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LordMarukio [2011-10-18 02:22:14 +0000 UTC]

hey there.

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luneves [2011-10-16 20:04:33 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for faving!

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Supercooper17 [2011-10-11 19:25:05 +0000 UTC]

thanks for watching me

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LordMarukio [2011-10-10 17:06:12 +0000 UTC]

Hey how about joining my group

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LordMarukio [2011-07-21 04:59:43 +0000 UTC]

nice icon

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oOoVollmondoOo [2011-03-18 20:17:07 +0000 UTC]

Your an idiot ,
End of story ♥

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oOoVollmondoOo [2011-02-27 21:52:13 +0000 UTC]

U BEEN HUGGED!!!
RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 6 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!
6- If you get hugged back you do not need to redo this

Send This To All Your Friends, And Me If I Am 1.
If You Get 7 Back You Are Loved!

1-3 you're a bad friend
4-6 you're an ok friend
7-9 you're a good friend
10-& Up you're a great friend

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HenlyWingship [2011-02-23 13:16:49 +0000 UTC]

Come out come out where-ever you are.....
Sphinx: >:3 Sphiiii...

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