Smoth3rd In reply to susiedrop [2012-12-13 23:01:21 +0000 UTC]

How do I talk to you? How do I even know where to start?

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susiedrop In reply to Smoth3rd [2012-12-14 01:35:40 +0000 UTC]

It's been a really hard past couple of months, honestly. I'm so sorry. I've been broken and have had to repair the pieces bit by bit. It's been so hard. I'm sure you've gone through similar times where you feel so terrible that your heart sinks below you thought possible and you could just quit breathing at any moment just to be a little happier. I've cut off relations with a lot of people just so I can figure my life out. I've neglected my family and some of my closest friends because of how confused I've been. I've changed now. I'm much happier, I see the world in a completely different and shinier light. I used to sit outside in my car waiting to go to the dorm just so I could look up the stars and realize how lucky I am to be alive and how stupid I was for alienating some of the closest people to me.

I'm really sorry. I only hope you'll forgive me and we can try to start over as friends. You do mean a lot to me and I KNOW we can work through it because I've known you for a long time and we still have a lot in common.

I miss you, Christina.

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Smoth3rd In reply to susiedrop [2012-12-14 20:55:48 +0000 UTC]

I just. Jeez girl. You don't even. I can't even. I don't even know what to say. Are you just going to leave again if I let you back in my life? Because I don't think I can handle that again.

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susiedrop In reply to Smoth3rd [2012-12-16 02:21:46 +0000 UTC]

Yes, I think I've gained the maturity and a lot of life experience. I'm seriously sorry for the emotional trauma I've thrown on you. How abut we talk online for awhile and catch up and then maybe we could see each other sometime again? I completely understand if you're skeptical, but my intentions are nothing but good this time, I promise. I know I've messed up in the past, but I know you've been a good friend and I hope you see I'm trying to make up for everything I've done. Let's take our friendship slowly this time and I think it'll be greater than it ever has been.

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Smoth3rd In reply to susiedrop [2012-12-16 07:18:14 +0000 UTC]

Okay. Sure. You're allowed back.
Access granted.
I'll be back in Springfield on Christmas eve. So after Christmas I'll be free 24/7

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susiedrop In reply to Smoth3rd [2012-12-17 01:59:24 +0000 UTC]

Are you on vacation? That really sounds nice right now. I'm ridiculously depressed about things of the religious sort. :\

Sounds good. I have Janterm classes but we can definitely hang out some Saturday or something.

Merry early Christmas, by the way.

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Smoth3rd In reply to susiedrop [2012-12-17 05:53:44 +0000 UTC]

I'm in Independence, MO at my boyfriend's grandmother's house...
Because his mom works tomorrow and we're not allowed to be alone in the house because they're homophobic religious nazis pretty much.
I feel so alone here. I can't wait to go home next week.

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susiedrop In reply to Smoth3rd [2012-12-18 16:41:44 +0000 UTC]

:\ Sounds terrifying. Although I don't get how the homophobic or nazi part would disallow you all to stay in the same house. I'm just kidding though, that sounds legit awful.

So, who's the lucky guy? Someone you met at MSU?

Also Independence. That just reminds me of the fucking Oregon Trail and how you always start there.

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Smoth3rd In reply to 08points [2011-08-18 01:29:33 +0000 UTC]

Anytime! ^^

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Smoth3rd In reply to MadArtMan0817 [2011-08-17 02:35:14 +0000 UTC]

No problem! ^^

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MadArtMan0817 In reply to Smoth3rd [2011-08-17 02:37:43 +0000 UTC]

^^

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Smoth3rd In reply to MadArtMan0817 [2011-08-18 01:29:19 +0000 UTC]

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MadArtMan0817 In reply to Smoth3rd [2011-08-18 01:35:16 +0000 UTC]

Mawwww. ^^

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Smoth3rd In reply to MadArtMan0817 [2011-08-18 21:21:13 +0000 UTC]

You should know that I really appreciate your internet-friendship.
You're a sweet person.

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MadArtMan0817 In reply to Smoth3rd [2011-08-19 03:40:33 +0000 UTC]

Awwww thanks. ^///w///^

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Smoth3rd In reply to MadArtMan0817 [2011-08-19 04:08:03 +0000 UTC]

E-Friendship FTW! Yay!

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MadArtMan0817 In reply to Smoth3rd [2011-08-19 04:15:48 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the flower. ^//////^

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Smoth3rd In reply to MadArtMan0817 [2011-08-19 16:18:54 +0000 UTC]

Not sure what you're talking about...
But, you're welcome!!!!
Thanks for being so friendly!

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MadArtMan0817 In reply to Smoth3rd [2011-08-19 17:43:11 +0000 UTC]

X3 No problem. ^^

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Smoth3rd In reply to Countess-Kawaii [2011-08-16 23:44:32 +0000 UTC]

Thanks! dA upgraded!

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Smoth3rd In reply to cellcow [2011-08-09 19:08:51 +0000 UTC]

No, you rock!

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Smoth3rd In reply to jomenvisstduh [2011-08-03 20:19:35 +0000 UTC]

Hope you enjoyed those emotes.

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Smoth3rd In reply to jomenvisstduh [2011-08-02 23:51:01 +0000 UTC]

No problem! You definitely deserve it!!!

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jomenvisstduh In reply to Smoth3rd [2011-08-03 18:18:53 +0000 UTC]

Awesome!
Next part is up now, btw!

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Smoth3rd In reply to jomenvisstduh [2011-08-03 19:32:53 +0000 UTC]

=O YAY!!!!
You're the best person ever.

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Smoth3rd In reply to cellcow [2011-02-25 22:48:17 +0000 UTC]

Lol no!
It's Christina March...

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cellcow In reply to Smoth3rd [2011-02-26 00:05:43 +0000 UTC]

OH. lol

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Smoth3rd In reply to cellcow [2011-02-26 23:01:10 +0000 UTC]

I saw the link on your facebook so I watched ya. XD

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Smoth3rd In reply to demented-inu [2011-01-24 22:50:00 +0000 UTC]

You are quite welcome.

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Smoth3rd In reply to quaint-camera [2011-01-14 17:40:58 +0000 UTC]

Hidden by Owner

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quaint-camera In reply to Smoth3rd [2011-01-14 23:26:50 +0000 UTC]

Hidden by Owner

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Smoth3rd In reply to quaint-camera [2011-01-15 03:05:57 +0000 UTC]

Hidden by Owner

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susiedrop In reply to Smoth3rd [2011-01-18 22:48:26 +0000 UTC]

Hmmm... I feel a bit hurt that I was never really contacted during this conversation that mainly regarded me.

Like, Christina, did you even THINK I might want some input on this at all?

I like the "I never made any advances towards Susan" thing too. Go through your gallery, huh? Go through some of my old journals.
She's not referring to this year.

An the whole "happily in a serious relationship since 2 months after I met Susan" thing?

What about Robert? Was your short-lived relationship so unimportant to you that you want to completely disregard it? When you know I know everything because you TOLD me everything?

I'm not trying to be hurtful here, but when you're calling both me AND Ariel a liar from something I have proof of, it seems a bit hypocritical.

I'm not mad as much as I am upset because you never even asked me about any of this, you just assumed I hated you. Maybe I'm annoyed, but...

Trust me, I can't hate anyone. It's not in my blood.

I'm sorry this turned out this way, but I really wish you would talk to me first before assuming everything Ariel says is right (which, it is, in this instance.)

I don't want you to have any cold feelings towards me, but I really don't believe we can... be friends, from all we've went through. Truthfully, the two fights I've had with you are a thousand times worse than me and Ariel fighting. I don't typically get mad, but I have at three people in my life--my old youth pastor, my mom, and you.

I'm sorry for being so incredibly shy I can't really... express much to some people. Ariel can attest that I'm even shy with her a lot. Confrontations aren't just something I do.

I wish you and Calin the best in your lives, and I hope the rest of the year goes okay for you. Sorry for being such a burden.

Goodbye, Christina. I'd rather you not reply to this. At least, I won't reply again if you do.

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Smoth3rd In reply to susiedrop [2011-01-20 00:06:50 +0000 UTC]

I am through with you anyways.
I see no reason I should put up with your mistreatment any longer.
If I committed some mortal sin by trying to be close to someone I cared about, then God damn me to Hell for that is what I tried to do.

Goodbye, and both of you, stay the hell away from me.

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Smoth3rd In reply to jezabelsorrow [2010-12-05 02:06:53 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome!

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Smoth3rd In reply to MadArtMan0817 [2010-09-07 01:28:01 +0000 UTC]

it's only so I didn't have to memorize your user-name perfectly. JK

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MadArtMan0817 In reply to Smoth3rd [2010-09-07 01:31:35 +0000 UTC]

ok...

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