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I've been struggling with depression for most of my life. It's a constant struggle, and has gotten so much worse within the past 5 years because of a tragedy in my personal life. It's been such a roller coaster and sometimes it's really hard to see the point in life. Sometimes I feel insane. Like I'm living in a world of fiction. That my depression is fake, my anxiety is fake to the world outside my mind.

So I keep it to myself for the most part.

I'm scared to be open with others, for the fear of being hurt once more. to be invalidated and to be ostracized from society. To have people shun me and paint me out to be crazy, or worse, a liar. I don't want to lose myself in the shame. And most of all, I don't want to burden others. Everyone has their own problems and I don't wish to add to that.

I'm lucky to have a supportive family. Others don't get that luxury.
Even still, life is hard.
My mother doesn't understand even though she tries very hard, and sometimes get frustrated and yells, sending me into a panic attack.

That's why I love art so much. It acts as an outlet for my emotions when I cannot express them to another. It allows me to be free of the chains the world has given me, and maybe even connect with another soul, and let them know that they're not alone in this journey.

That is why I do art. And that's why I'm still here to this day.
Art makes this world just a little more bearable <3

Description
I've been struggling with depression for most of my life. It's a constant struggle, and has gotten so much worse within the past 5 years because of a tragedy in my personal life. It's been such a roller coaster and sometimes it's really hard to see the point in life. Sometimes I feel insane. Like I'm living in a world of fiction. That my depression is fake, my anxiety is fake to the world outside my mind.

So I keep it to myself for the most part.

I'm scared to be open with others, for the fear of being hurt once more. to be invalidated and to be ostracized from society. To have people shun me and paint me out to be crazy, or worse, a liar. I don't want to lose myself in the shame. And most of all, I don't want to burden others. Everyone has their own problems and I don't wish to add to that.

I'm lucky to have a supportive family. Others don't get that luxury.
Even still, life is hard.
My mother doesn't understand even though she tries very hard, and sometimes get frustrated and yells, sending me into a panic attack.

That's why I love art so much. It acts as an outlet for my emotions when I cannot express them to another. It allows me to be free of the chains the world has given me, and maybe even connect with another soul, and let them know that they're not alone in this journey.

That is why I do art. And that's why I'm still here to this day.
Art makes this world just a little more bearable <3