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I've never seen it before in my life
I don't know where it came from,
But I know exactly why it's here.

It's here because it wants to take over
It wants to run me straight into the ground,
And I won't ever let it.

I always thought my scars were invisible
As if no one else could see them,
No one except myself.

I didn't know they were in plain sight
Making confusion where they shouldn't be,
And destroying all I once knew.

They showed up randomly one day
Just to annoy me out of spite,
And I wasn't the only one who saw.

I wish they would disappear
Never to return ever again,
But they won't leave me alone.

They are the one thing I know is true
The only thing I can count on to never fail me,
And the one thing I wish I didn't have.

Now that the walls have been torn down
Fallen like those of Jericho,
They are no longer trapped and hidden.

They stare me down from across the room
Start a tornado spinning in my head,
And then walk out when the going gets tough.

I wish I could make them a neutral party
Just an observer on my life,
But they won't stay out.

They jump in when things look interesting
Step back when I really need them,
And refuse to listen to me.

I don't know if I want them out of my head
Gone forever like they never existed,
Never to bother me again.

I've been told I can change if I wanted
If I even knew how to change,
But I'm in my way.

I can't abandon everything I know
All the safe houses I've built,
But sometimes I want to.

I want to be able to get beyond it all
To find and forge my own path,
Something new and exciting.

I can never find a way to do anything
To get around my haunting past,
And make a new start at the future.

I'm scared that it will all come down around me
That my past will destroy me,
And leave me alone in some ditch to die.

I don't want my future to be the same
As it had always once been,
I want to be able to change.

I want to watch the sunrise every day
To follow my dreams whatever the cost,
And rattle the stars like never before.

Description
I've never seen it before in my life
I don't know where it came from,
But I know exactly why it's here.

It's here because it wants to take over
It wants to run me straight into the ground,
And I won't ever let it.

I always thought my scars were invisible
As if no one else could see them,
No one except myself.

I didn't know they were in plain sight
Making confusion where they shouldn't be,
And destroying all I once knew.

They showed up randomly one day
Just to annoy me out of spite,
And I wasn't the only one who saw.

I wish they would disappear
Never to return ever again,
But they won't leave me alone.

They are the one thing I know is true
The only thing I can count on to never fail me,
And the one thing I wish I didn't have.

Now that the walls have been torn down
Fallen like those of Jericho,
They are no longer trapped and hidden.

They stare me down from across the room
Start a tornado spinning in my head,
And then walk out when the going gets tough.

I wish I could make them a neutral party
Just an observer on my life,
But they won't stay out.

They jump in when things look interesting
Step back when I really need them,
And refuse to listen to me.

I don't know if I want them out of my head
Gone forever like they never existed,
Never to bother me again.

I've been told I can change if I wanted
If I even knew how to change,
But I'm in my way.

I can't abandon everything I know
All the safe houses I've built,
But sometimes I want to.

I want to be able to get beyond it all
To find and forge my own path,
Something new and exciting.

I can never find a way to do anything
To get around my haunting past,
And make a new start at the future.

I'm scared that it will all come down around me
That my past will destroy me,
And leave me alone in some ditch to die.

I don't want my future to be the same
As it had always once been,
I want to be able to change.

I want to watch the sunrise every day
To follow my dreams whatever the cost,
And rattle the stars like never before.