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I was completely alone in the world, four years without a friend.

And then you came and said hello to me and began a conversation.

This continued for a few months and I thought you would stay.

Most other people left just as soon as they heard my unusual story.

I sent you a bunch of notes and riddles trying to explain my story.

You couldn't understand the riddles and asked me to explain.

I tried to say I couldn't tell you cause it brought back memories.

But you didn't even understand something just as simple as that.

And so I tried to tell you the story even if it was really painful to do.

You asked me a question that brought up the worst memory yet.

And I answered the question so I wouldn't reveal how painful it was.

I kept giving you riddles hoping you would discover the answers.

And by then I could tell you had finally given up on the riddles.

And so I tried explaining more of my story that drove others away.

And by then I had told you enough and you decided not to help.

You dropped me on someone else you knew would listen to me.

But it was painful to know that I had lost someone I could trust.

And so I tried just once more to earn back the friendship I had.

You made it obvious that you didn't want that friendship again.

I gained a friend in who you left me with but I lost you as a friend.

And that was the most painful thing that had ever happened.

It outranked every other painful thing that had happened in my life.

I didn't want my new friend to think I cared that you had left.

And so I hid the pain and sorrow I felt so no one else could see it.

You and everyone else may not know what pain you caused me.

But it is there every day, always threatening to overtake me.

And until the day it does finally decide to rule most of my life.

Until you find and read this poem I wrote while thinking about you.

You will go on with your life as if you were never once my friend.

You will never know what hides behind a front I put on every day.

And you will never find out how much pain I feel when I see you.

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I was completely alone in the world, four years without a friend.

And then you came and said hello to me and began a conversation.

This continued for a few months and I thought you would stay.

Most other people left just as soon as they heard my unusual story.

I sent you a bunch of notes and riddles trying to explain my story.

You couldn't understand the riddles and asked me to explain.

I tried to say I couldn't tell you cause it brought back memories.

But you didn't even understand something just as simple as that.

And so I tried to tell you the story even if it was really painful to do.

You asked me a question that brought up the worst memory yet.

And I answered the question so I wouldn't reveal how painful it was.

I kept giving you riddles hoping you would discover the answers.

And by then I could tell you had finally given up on the riddles.

And so I tried explaining more of my story that drove others away.

And by then I had told you enough and you decided not to help.

You dropped me on someone else you knew would listen to me.

But it was painful to know that I had lost someone I could trust.

And so I tried just once more to earn back the friendship I had.

You made it obvious that you didn't want that friendship again.

I gained a friend in who you left me with but I lost you as a friend.

And that was the most painful thing that had ever happened.

It outranked every other painful thing that had happened in my life.

I didn't want my new friend to think I cared that you had left.

And so I hid the pain and sorrow I felt so no one else could see it.

You and everyone else may not know what pain you caused me.

But it is there every day, always threatening to overtake me.

And until the day it does finally decide to rule most of my life.

Until you find and read this poem I wrote while thinking about you.

You will go on with your life as if you were never once my friend.

You will never know what hides behind a front I put on every day.

And you will never find out how much pain I feel when I see you.