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I'm losing focus after all the stimulant hits my brain, again and again. I lost consciousness off and on, chemical lobotomy. Medication and pain. Schizophrenic imaginings and ramblings. I hear you say, Come back Adrian. Remember that the mistakes aren't you. You are not yourself. Leave it with me. Believe in yourself. Fuck I love you after all. Your left hand is an ashtray, the scars themselves testify to that. Please, stay with me!! You have not slept a week. I see your eyes tired and red. Her voice echoed away and I have lost more and more control taking more shit up the nose somehow because I am afraid. I stand and look around for you and I think I'm dreaming because the surroundings look different than our flat. I am looking for you in the darkness of a room and looking for a light switch. It's not where it used to be. I rub my eyes and look at a picture on the wall. I look at it more thoroughly and the shock hit me as hard as stone. It is you who are standing in the picture and are looking at something. I looked more and suddenly in this image I found myself lying with my face white as chalk and foam on my lips and my eyes faded as if someone took the pupils and erased them almost. Thats what you where looking at in the picture. Everything starts to fuck with me, cold sweat and shivering won't give me peace. The environment picture is in gives me a blow to my consciousness that this is the future in which I'm living alone. Exactly. The picture faded into some generic bullshit. I hit the floor, seconds farther and the eyes closed and did not open any more.

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I'm losing focus after all the stimulant hits my brain, again and again. I lost consciousness off and on, chemical lobotomy. Medication and pain. Schizophrenic imaginings and ramblings. I hear you say, Come back Adrian. Remember that the mistakes aren't you. You are not yourself. Leave it with me. Believe in yourself. Fuck I love you after all. Your left hand is an ashtray, the scars themselves testify to that. Please, stay with me!! You have not slept a week. I see your eyes tired and red. Her voice echoed away and I have lost more and more control taking more shit up the nose somehow because I am afraid. I stand and look around for you and I think I'm dreaming because the surroundings look different than our flat. I am looking for you in the darkness of a room and looking for a light switch. It's not where it used to be. I rub my eyes and look at a picture on the wall. I look at it more thoroughly and the shock hit me as hard as stone. It is you who are standing in the picture and are looking at something. I looked more and suddenly in this image I found myself lying with my face white as chalk and foam on my lips and my eyes faded as if someone took the pupils and erased them almost. Thats what you where looking at in the picture. Everything starts to fuck with me, cold sweat and shivering won't give me peace. The environment picture is in gives me a blow to my consciousness that this is the future in which I'm living alone. Exactly. The picture faded into some generic bullshit. I hit the floor, seconds farther and the eyes closed and did not open any more.