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Sometimes I wonder what would've happened if I hadn't gotten the restraining order against you. But odds are, it wouldn't have been a good outcome. It's been months since I've seen you, I wonder where you are and what you're doing, if anything to make sure you aren't dead. I'm more at ease and happy since we're over, but I still, somehow, miss your company, even if when we *were* together I wasn't happy. I'm sure you're just coming to the conclusion that I didn't love you, never did and was just using you. But what you'll never understand is, I did love you. You were the love of my life, the one person in this world who held all the cards to absolutely destroy me, and you did. You broke my heart and soul, so I had to distance myself from you. I hope you one day find happiness.

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Sometimes I wonder what would've happened if I hadn't gotten the restraining order against you. But odds are, it wouldn't have been a good outcome. It's been months since I've seen you, I wonder where you are and what you're doing, if anything to make sure you aren't dead. I'm more at ease and happy since we're over, but I still, somehow, miss your company, even if when we *were* together I wasn't happy. I'm sure you're just coming to the conclusion that I didn't love you, never did and was just using you. But what you'll never understand is, I did love you. You were the love of my life, the one person in this world who held all the cards to absolutely destroy me, and you did. You broke my heart and soul, so I had to distance myself from you. I hope you one day find happiness.