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Published: 2015-09-25 16:00:04 +0000 UTC; Views: 2064; Favourites: 186; Downloads: 0
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For the last few weeks I've been feeling very stressed out, and for the first time in forever the stress is not based on school assignments, but life in general. Right now I am standing before a big change in life. I am turning 18, which makes me "grown up" according to society and I am in my last year of mandatory school. The stress is based on me not knowing what the hell I am going to do with my life when I've finished school. I don't know what I want to do, I barely know who I am. Shall I work? Travel? Keep studying? I have no idea.So, this is what I feel like: standing infront of the entire universe, a world beyond my own,paralyzed. I have all the options to choose between, but that just scares me.
Time: 6-8 hrs
Photoshop cs4
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References:
STOCK - 2014 Arabian Challenge-342 by fillyrox
Boundless moment by Trichardsen
Brushes:
The Grasslands II
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Thank you so much! Yes, I really hope so, it just feels very scary >___<
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I know, that feeling can be overwhelming definitely. In the end it works out and you find yourself. I wish you much luck, you will be fine
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I want to make this my background... ON EVERYTHING.
It's so beautiful!
The mix with the galaxy and A HORSE!
That is beyond GENIUS c:
I absolutely adore it!
The way you shade, and your backgrounds, and your anatomy!
I SWEAR.
You are my top horse idol.
I can't believe you are this amazing....
This is an INCREDIBLE piece...
Once again. ^^
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This is a beautiful piece. I especially like the composition; the grass in the foreground draws your eye in towards the horse, and from the horse to the Milky Way in the sky. It definitely conveys awe and what it's like to feel overwhelmed.
I can relate, because I also felt lost when I graduated from high school; all my classmates knew what and where they were going to study. Me? All I knew was that I was taking a gap year, and had no clue whether I will later study art, photography, or translation. I remember how depressed I was when the school year started then, because I knew that while my classmates were going on with their lives in university, I was stuck at home, still not sure what to do with myself. But around that time, I took a TEFL course to earn a teaching qualification. I wasn't even sure how it was going to help me nor if I would do well as a teacher, but looking back at it, it's the best thing I could've done. Despite being an introvert, I found that I love teaching; I got to experience the "real world", gained financial independence from my parents, developed skills I didn't even know I was capable of, and, in the meantime, discovered that my passion lies in art and that I'll study and dedicate my life to it. Another valuable thing I've learned is that you can be passionate about many things as you grow, and that there are no limits in life.
It's okay to be stressed and not know who you really are or what you will do. If you're still uncertain by the time you graduate, I do suggest that you take a gap year (or even two), but don't spend it idly; do something that will give you experience and develop you as a person. You can travel, work, or volunteer somewhere... it's up to you. Whatever you do, it'll benefit you in some way. As the old saying goes, the world is your oyster: the world is filled with opportunities for you to take.
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Thank you so much for the positive feedback!! 
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No problem, and I'm glad to hear that it helps. 
Anyways, you'll figure it out, don't worry. It takes time, and you may need to do some "exploring", but it's going to be alright in the end.
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I think you're right, thank you once again
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As I am currently in the same situation, turning eighteen and not knowing what to do after school, I really love this piece of art.
Not only it is well drawn, but it also captures the feeling of loneliness and endless opportunity.
Well done
I hope you will find out who you are and what you want to do in your life!
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Thank you so much for your feedback!! Thank you, you too! xx<33
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You are most welcome
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Thank you so much! 
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My pleasure.
Very glad you like my work.
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First I thought this was a photo and then I saw that you submited it.
Wow, this is just amazing *-*
And I know the feeling of not knowing what to do and I graduated last year xD
So, I basically did nothing for one year, felt like the most useless prick ever. i now think that whatever I would've done it would've been better than just do nothing, even if I would've gotten the worst shitty job.
The thing is that you just have to start something and your experiences will make something out of you and get you closer to an idea. I'm sure you will find your way and i wish you lots of luck <3
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Thank you so much! 
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I totally get it. That happened to me a little bit when I graduated high school because it seemed like most other people had their lives together with being engaged or pregnant at graduation (funny though literally all of them either called off the engagement or are divorced now - so now I feel stupid for getting so upset about it) or were going off to their careers immediately.
I got it a lot worse when I graduated from college, though. At that point it was getting to be a normal age for people to start getting married, getting their career jobs, having kids, etc. Not that I was in a giant rush for those things, but because other people were jumping into it I always felt like I should be, too. Then I was in grad school and interviewing for jobs and employers were/are like, "Where do you see yourself in 5 years?" "What is your dream job?" And I'm like, "Hopefully something related to what I'm doing, but who knows." (Of course I had to phrase that a little more professionally.) Truthfully I STILL don't have a clear picture in mind, but I know that's okay now. Trying to plan your life out is a stupid idea anyway and I don't know why there's so much pressure on kids to try to come up with one specific thing. I'm working in the field I went to school for and that's already a big accomplishment in today's world. Maybe I'll find I really like it and stick with it. Or I might hate it after a few years. You never know.
So my advice would be to try not to let what other people are doing influence you. Just take the time to figure it out for yourself.
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Thank you for the support! I feel the same as it seems you did, with everyone having their whole life planned out already, and me standing here having no clue about what I am going to do. It feels good to hear someone say that it is okay not knowing what you want! I think I will figure my life out as soon as I get some distance from school, and get to know who I really am. Thank you for your comment
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You're welcome! I didn't figure it out until I went to Antarctica as part of my graduate research and met a ton of people who were 40+ years old and recently did a total career change which led them to working there as camp staff. They didn't have a clear plan and they were okay with it, so I figured, if there are people twice my age like that and loving life, then I have nothing to worry about. haha Most people in the getting married young mindset doesn't think traveling is important, but it really is. You might figure out the kind of life you want to have, which I guess is the enemy for people trying to keep you in your hometown.
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Thank you for sharing your story! And yes, I think you are right, I just have to find out what I like doing and stop listening to every person's opinion -___-
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I know exactly what you mean. For me I went to college and it meant my independence from my family, which was amazing! Until I realized half way that I was striving for the wrong degree and couldn't do anything to stop it because I fell in love with someone and I didn't want to be separated from him by switching degrees or quitting. So now I'm stuck doing a job I don't exactly appreciate and I have no idea what the hell I want to do and I have no idea if I can ever do what I want to do which is art for film. It's a horrible, and like you said, paralyzing feeling. But there are times where it goes away and I just feel like everything is going to be okay.
Maybe take some gen-ed classes in college to get those over with or just take individual classes in things that interests you until you find that one thing you could see yourself making a living doing!
This piece of artwork you've created is absolutely magnificent! And beautiful and moving and it makes me want to look at it forever. You did such an amazing job painting the sky and landscape and everything in this! I'm almost certain you could pursue artwork as a career if you really wanted to and persevered. c: Just know it's scary as all shit becoming an adult, but as you look around you there are so many of us who made it and did it. You can too.
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Oh I see! I've been thinking about taking individual classes in something I like, just for fun until I figure out what I really want! I am sure you are going to be all right too, even if you feel locked in right now.
Thank you so so much for your comment, it actually made me cry, for real, it helped me a lot! It feels so much better to know that I'm not alone! 
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I would love to do some individual classes as well! Especially in good ole art. <3 One day! lol Aww! Thank you! <3 It's always so good to know you're not alone. c:
<---lonely me <---no longer lonely me! cx
Ooo! Don't you cry! *pat pat* I am more than happy to help make you feel better. c: It's a tough world out there and you need people to back you up! We've just gotta stick together. c: And of course my dear! c: It's really a stunning piece. Lots of love and hugs your way! You got this. c;
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I think you should! 
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Stunning. Looks amazing.
I hope you're doing okay
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Thank you so much! 
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