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How to bend the bars
of a cage created in my mind?
Holding myself captive,
tormentor and trusted friend,
years of stuggling to keep head above water,
body thrasing against saving hands.
Salt-water stains and puffy skin,
supposed to grow out of these pains
yet here I am,
halfway through life and not yet living.
Words fail me and I am left
with an empty stare
empty bottles
hollow-point thinking,
rifle sitting pretty on the table
fingers tremble with restraint,
that's not for you, my dear.
Intrusive thoughts like peeping toms,
at times I want to peer back but
fear it will be my final scene;
curtain closed on a world
that wasn't meant for me.

Description
How to bend the bars
of a cage created in my mind?
Holding myself captive,
tormentor and trusted friend,
years of stuggling to keep head above water,
body thrasing against saving hands.
Salt-water stains and puffy skin,
supposed to grow out of these pains
yet here I am,
halfway through life and not yet living.
Words fail me and I am left
with an empty stare
empty bottles
hollow-point thinking,
rifle sitting pretty on the table
fingers tremble with restraint,
that's not for you, my dear.
Intrusive thoughts like peeping toms,
at times I want to peer back but
fear it will be my final scene;
curtain closed on a world
that wasn't meant for me.