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AmiralAesir β The cake is a lie
Published: 2008-02-11 08:30:40 +0000 UTC; Views: 3515; Favourites: 24; Downloads: 28
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Yes it is.I spoke lately with several friends about that difficult subject. Does love exist anymore?
Whatever I truly believe in Love, it seems that it's just a waste of time. Whatever my efforts, all I received is just politics. Sure that's done not to hurt me, but am I that stupid not to notice it's a lie? So I feign not to understand the signs, I prefer to keep a little hope in my heart, to believe in a better future.
But there is no future.
Ok, I can already heard the same leitmotiv given to me may times : "there is one who's waiting for you, you don't have to worry about, there is always a soulmate for everyone and you'll find that person the day when you'll expect the less". Lie.
Lie. Lie. Lie.
Valentine or not, the cake is a lie, like anything else.
... Have a good valentine. I know there is still love in this world. I believe in it. I'm that naive, and I'll continue to believe in Love. Whatever the lies.
Kitsune Bothan Β© Amiral Aesir
Inked the 11th February 2008.
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I don't think it is really a lie except one we feed to ourselves that prince charming is out there and that he will wisk me away on a white horse "Thank you disney!!! (sarcasm)"
Really love is something that is not so much an emotion so much as a duty.
I am planning on getting married in June and my fiance and i have little in common but we are emotionally identical.
So in the end you won't find someone who is just like you or someone you will never argue with.
YOu will find someone who even when they drive you nuts you still couldn't imagine life without them.
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I'm truly glad that you find your soulmate, that gives me hope in that world.
But... I had found that person. That person I couldn't imagine life without, and I ruined it with suspicion.
I suppose I just deserve what I am in.
Anyway, thank you for your comment Moatswimmer, that's truly appreciated.
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your welcome... i know at times too for him he wants me to find someone else to be happy with but i hang onto him.
Love isn't perfect but it really is blind.
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I remember having a spat with my ex about that subject - to find someone else to be happy with.
On one hand, that shows how much he cares about you and want the very best for you. On the other hand, that belittles your current relationship, as if he doesn't trust your love for him.
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yeah that's how he feels... he doesn't know if he can protect me.
That and well he told me not to tell my parents something and i did it anyway and i really hurt him and he said this to me "You want to tear me apart. I should have known from the beginning." He also told me i was like his ex because she would hit him but he said he would rather be hit than have been back stabbed like i did to him. it really hurts and when i said i was sorry he said i wasn't and he said i was uncaring and selfish... it really hurt.
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That's quite contradicting, to say so. He wants to protect you but highly doubt of being able of that, and he hurts you with such sayings? Quite a way to convince you you won't be happy with him as long as he lives with the memories of his ex in his heart...
I'm quite a rookie in love, so I can't provide you any good and wise advices... But as long as you're not the first in his heart - and I don't doubt he's the one in your own heart - you will have to endure some of his self-destructive thoughts and behavior. Courage.
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I know... i know i will have to endure many memories and face them head on.
It was really a blow though yesterday because a few days ago he had a really bad day and a Greek test. Well he stayed after class to finish the test and at one point his teacher came out and he doesn't like me. so he glared at me.
There are a few reasons that he doesn't like me. For one i wear a lot of camoflage... its because of my past and high school. iTs a defence mechanism to make me look a little less squishy because i'm really a big emotional marshmellow. The second is that i wasn't a confurmed lutheran before me and my boyfriend started dating.
I also can't help that i'm 5' 10" and no regular walmart jeans fit me so my fiance gets cheap army jeans and i don't have a problem with camo but now i've only got 3 pair that aren't camo. MOst people are afraid of me because of it.
So we informed his mother of the situation and how frustrated he was and after a day she sent a response basically saying that i shouldn't wear camo to please the man.
Well i'm sorry but i shouldn't have to change to please someone who isn't that important at all to me. He's just a professor.
then she said something about my bra straps showing and i said i can't help it that those shirts are in style and i would rather have bra strap showing than cleavage.
She basically wants me to dress like her and i don't want to look fifty and i don't want to match anyone elses style. I like running around in camo and a t-shirt. I don't see why people won't just leave me and my style alone.
So yeah it really got me crying when she was saying that because over thanksgiving she told me the story of the Old man the boy and the Donkey. Basically the moral is don't try to please anyone because you only get frustrated yourself. Besides that if i'm not myself than who am i???
Another thing is that there are a few people in the Art department who know i'm a big marshmellow under it all and they are fine with me.
Granted right now i'm making a coffin for an assignment. but its really not supposed to be that morbid.
So yeah i'm dealing with his mom now and that's no fun.
But of coarse it seems when people align against me and him we are stronger. we work together to face the odds. Its when we are at odds with eachother that things go sour.
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Argh, inch and feet! As far as I convert it, it seems you're kinda tiny (no offence). But I agree with your point of view and your leitmotiv, no way that you have to change for someone who isn't important at all for you. Keep your camo and shirt as long as you're pleased in that. I'm still surprised that you can't find a correct jeans for you. Here in Europe that's not unusual.
... *sighs*
It seems that we all have our specific sizes and all those things. I would kill for an all-over jeans, but I can't find one here, but my ex who was american promised me one day to send me one. Still waiting XD
Don't give up, there's a dawn waiting for you to come
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i know... its just she's really picky because my fiance is trying to be a pastor though he would really rather be a cop. He likes guns far more than the bible.
it seems that he would rather be a teacher anyway.
so yeah he's stuck playing politics and so am i.
how tall are you then?
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I hope not to be wrong, but I'm just average, with a 5'75", wich is 1,75 meter.
The interests of your BF are kinda contradicting, but why not?
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well its only because he doesn't know how to do gunsmithing otherwise he would probably love doing that.
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Reminds me a famous comics here : Soda
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really... yeah its just funny because in a way he reminds me of wolfwood from trigun... he would be really hillarious if he dressed up as him.
However i think he has a bit more in comon with Death the Kid from Soul eater... hes majorly ocd and has to have things put in their right place and symetrical.
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*notes to myself : do not show your appartment unless you want to see him dying from an heart attack*
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oh well he's gotten a lot more slack since me. he doesn't have things anally put away anymore. he is more comfortable in his surroundings.
so yeah his room is a bit messier than usual now.
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Sometime you have to live with the 'opposite' to smoother the deal, or something like that
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yeah it was funny because he was taking a psychology class about relationships and he basically made the paper about how oppisites attract and about our relationship and he said the best thing was after 26 pages there was no solution... as to whether it was right or wrong that is.
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I suppose that you've taken great time to read his paper
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no i haven't seen it. he just told me about it. so yeah it is interesting though.
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Its a very nice picture, I like it alot, lots of details, the color stands out and such. Lots to like.
uhm.. I don't know, the conclusion I have arrived to with is that Love's not such a bad thing as long as it doesn't go obsessive or restraining, should be kept light and not life sustainingly important.
Also having a "somone out there" is rather unrealistic, I mean most will definently meet two or more people they like and very likely break up with them and more gathering more experience with relationship for the future until it works with somone. Its not always about meeting the right person as it is to know how to handle everything.
Though Love has killed many, made many happy and some not been anything special, in the end it just is what you make of it really. Like all things its a neither good nor bad thing, it just has its upsides and downsides.
just my take on it.
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Thanks a lot for your opinion, Nova-Bunny!
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to hell with love! i almost killed myself over it...
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Yes, the cake is a lie.
There's no special person that is waiting for us out there, but there are a lot of other humans like us. Humans that are so imperfect, but that have an amazing capacity to love..We can still get the happy ending. We can still try to love one of those humans, and he or she will try to love us too. But we have got to work really hard on that..
Curiously, my father is a native of Terni, the city that raised and made a saint out of Valentine.
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Wise words, and sadly so truth. Blah. I keep going to believe there's still a special person for me, whatever the cakes -_-'
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Love sucks ass! I once had a crush on some chick in my highschool when I was fresh meat and I made the mistake of arguing with her when I first time I talked to her and now I will never love anyone again. PS I think she hates me but I have really know way of knowing.
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Leo: WTF?? ALRIGHT!! WHO HURT THIS PERSON???
Nightwatch: Leo, hun.
Leo: WHAT!
Nightwatch: Calm down.
Leo: Why?! She's hurt!!!
Nightwatcher: Yes, I know. I read it. But she's right.
Leo: ??? You're siding with her??
Nightwatch: Yes.
Leo: AARRGGHHHH!!!!!!
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Erf oui bientot la saint valentin... encore un jour qui sert Γ rien parmis tant d'autre, nee?
Courage Amiral, sache que des millions de cΓ©libataire sont avec toi !
Et jolie dessin
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