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An animated version of this drawing: www.deviantart.com/angry-noob/…
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youtu.be/KgChe8AlcIk
I have very mixed feelings about this song. The instrumental part is simply beautiful, not to say 'haunting'. On the other hand, the lyrics sound as if they had been written by an edgy 14-year-old girl who uses Tumblr way too often.

Anyways, here's a drawing of Tobirama Senju taking a walk in a middle of a summer night. Don't be misguided by his stoic face. Trust me, despite his emotionless facial expression, he is very happy to have this tiny companion on his arm. He is simply not capable of showing his joy properly; yet deep inside his heart a warm feeling is sprouting. The butterfly, such a small thing. yet so powerful. Silent, non-judgemental, light. Won't make you look in its eyes. Will remain your friend regardless of circumstances, your indentity, mental state, wealth, knowledge, past and regardless of how strange you may seem.

TL;DR warning / autism essay

In my headcanon Tobirama is what I call Triple A: albino, asexual, autistic.

Sometimes I like to think that Tobirama was autistic. Many traits of his actually fit the 'Aspie stereotype':

- a lack of facial expression

- a narrow scope of emotions (he is either angry or 'neutral'). Just compare him to Hashirama who is very emotional and highly empathetic. There was a scene in the anime in which their younger brother died in the war against Uchiha. Hashirama was crying and was angry at the same time; their second brother Itama was also crying his heart out, meanwhile Tobirama was just standing there looking straight ahead , being emotionless as ever

- inaccurate responses to specific situations - see above

- lack of empathy and not understanding social norms - I mean, in order to create Edo Tensei he literally had to profane graves and corpes and what is more - he had to kill a living vessel to make this jutsu work. It might as well as give off sociopathic vibes, but I'd never seen Tobirama manipulating people (like Orochimaru, for example), so I don't think he was a sociopath

- speaking of jutsus, I don't think there was another ninja who had created more techniques than Tobirama. So I guess it might be considered as his special interest, obssessive hobby

- he seemed like a huge fan of a structure in any form, rules, that's another big aspie thing

- he was a big loner, he didn't look like someone who like being around people, except for some formal and Village-related reasons

- kinda monotone voice (but that's anime-only), again compare him to Hashirama!

- oh and let's not forget about the biggest Aspie stereotype - being a genius with a lot of a social struggle

Of course, it is mostly my wishful thinking, but hey, this is what headcanons are for, right! Also, Kishimoto is quite open-minded man for a mangaka, so I could actually see him plotting in some ASD characters (the closest to that was Sai, but we know that he was simply traumatised as an ex-Anbu member). You can laugh at me, but a thought of my favorite character being on the spectrum makes me feel kinda secure. And embrance myself better. Now I understand why I like Tobirama so much - I share some traits with him.

I know that once again I'm writing an almost essay on autism. I hope it doesn't annoy you much (and if it does, then it's your problem). It's a positive message though. I'm not complaing, I hate it. Because complaining, besides making people feel pity for you, won't lead you anywhere. I've already gone thru my 'anger phase' after the diagnosis. Now it's a 'coming to terms with myself' stage. Digging deep inside my soul and looking for my true personality which has buried beneath years of masking, in order to 'fit in' with the society. I'm not masking anymore. I'm not forcing myself to maintain an eye contact which was always very tiring. I'm not hiding my stimming behaviour anymore (yay for flappy hands!). I'm not afraid to say that I don't understand something and it doesn't automatically feel stupid, worse. I'm not forcing facial expressions only to satisfy my interlocutor. At the age of 25/26 I have started an insanely transfomative journey and believe me, despite some fluctuations, I'm loving every moment of it. It's a bumpy and still unknown road for me, but a very beautiful one.

I'm writing all of this because of two reasons:

1. I promised myself that I will not hide myself from anyone ever again

2. May is a mental health awareness month. Remeber, you're all valid. And beautifully different.

Description
An animated version of this drawing: www.deviantart.com/angry-noob/…
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
youtu.be/KgChe8AlcIk
I have very mixed feelings about this song. The instrumental part is simply beautiful, not to say 'haunting'. On the other hand, the lyrics sound as if they had been written by an edgy 14-year-old girl who uses Tumblr way too often.

Anyways, here's a drawing of Tobirama Senju taking a walk in a middle of a summer night. Don't be misguided by his stoic face. Trust me, despite his emotionless facial expression, he is very happy to have this tiny companion on his arm. He is simply not capable of showing his joy properly; yet deep inside his heart a warm feeling is sprouting. The butterfly, such a small thing. yet so powerful. Silent, non-judgemental, light. Won't make you look in its eyes. Will remain your friend regardless of circumstances, your indentity, mental state, wealth, knowledge, past and regardless of how strange you may seem.

TL;DR warning / autism essay

In my headcanon Tobirama is what I call Triple A: albino, asexual, autistic.

Sometimes I like to think that Tobirama was autistic. Many traits of his actually fit the 'Aspie stereotype':

- a lack of facial expression

- a narrow scope of emotions (he is either angry or 'neutral'). Just compare him to Hashirama who is very emotional and highly empathetic. There was a scene in the anime in which their younger brother died in the war against Uchiha. Hashirama was crying and was angry at the same time; their second brother Itama was also crying his heart out, meanwhile Tobirama was just standing there looking straight ahead , being emotionless as ever

- inaccurate responses to specific situations - see above

- lack of empathy and not understanding social norms - I mean, in order to create Edo Tensei he literally had to profane graves and corpes and what is more - he had to kill a living vessel to make this jutsu work. It might as well as give off sociopathic vibes, but I'd never seen Tobirama manipulating people (like Orochimaru, for example), so I don't think he was a sociopath

- speaking of jutsus, I don't think there was another ninja who had created more techniques than Tobirama. So I guess it might be considered as his special interest, obssessive hobby

- he seemed like a huge fan of a structure in any form, rules, that's another big aspie thing

- he was a big loner, he didn't look like someone who like being around people, except for some formal and Village-related reasons

- kinda monotone voice (but that's anime-only), again compare him to Hashirama!

- oh and let's not forget about the biggest Aspie stereotype - being a genius with a lot of a social struggle

Of course, it is mostly my wishful thinking, but hey, this is what headcanons are for, right! Also, Kishimoto is quite open-minded man for a mangaka, so I could actually see him plotting in some ASD characters (the closest to that was Sai, but we know that he was simply traumatised as an ex-Anbu member). You can laugh at me, but a thought of my favorite character being on the spectrum makes me feel kinda secure. And embrance myself better. Now I understand why I like Tobirama so much - I share some traits with him.

I know that once again I'm writing an almost essay on autism. I hope it doesn't annoy you much (and if it does, then it's your problem). It's a positive message though. I'm not complaing, I hate it. Because complaining, besides making people feel pity for you, won't lead you anywhere. I've already gone thru my 'anger phase' after the diagnosis. Now it's a 'coming to terms with myself' stage. Digging deep inside my soul and looking for my true personality which has buried beneath years of masking, in order to 'fit in' with the society. I'm not masking anymore. I'm not forcing myself to maintain an eye contact which was always very tiring. I'm not hiding my stimming behaviour anymore (yay for flappy hands!). I'm not afraid to say that I don't understand something and it doesn't automatically feel stupid, worse. I'm not forcing facial expressions only to satisfy my interlocutor. At the age of 25/26 I have started an insanely transfomative journey and believe me, despite some fluctuations, I'm loving every moment of it. It's a bumpy and still unknown road for me, but a very beautiful one.

I'm writing all of this because of two reasons:

1. I promised myself that I will not hide myself from anyone ever again

2. May is a mental health awareness month. Remeber, you're all valid. And beautifully different.