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vent vent vent ventSo a close friend of mine is really starting to get on my nerves. You know my many physical and mental disorders? Well, she doesn't seem to understand them. She wants me to go play kick ball with a bunch of people I don't know, and I tell her I don't want to. She asks why, and I tell her "I just can't" And she starts giving me all this crap about how I never do anything but sit around and that I don't get out enough. Another time I missed a couple of church activities (because of personal issues) and she calls and asks why I'm never there, and I tell her I wasn't feeling good and felt sick. She replies "you're ALWAYS sick! I bet you're faking!"
Uh...no! How can I fake having constant migraines and panic attacks due to the stress of being with so many people? Even the though of going to be with a bunch of people that I KNOW won't even talk to me makes my anxiety rise.
I try to talk to her about how much I can't stand being around so many people, and that my anxiety triggers migraines and a bunch of other crap, and she says, "well then stop worrying about it!" Yeah, um...how can I stop worrying about my number one fear? The whole reason I isolate myself from the world? She just doesn't get how horrifying it is for me to be around people. Even if I know them, if it's more than five, I flip out.
But yeah basically she's just been giving me a bunch of crap about everything I do, even though I can't control it. An athletic, rich, healthy, smart person like her can never understand what it's like to be a girl with asthma, back leg and knee problems, anxiety, social anxiety, depression, and a whole bunch more.
...I just can't see why she doesn't notice the pain I'm constantly in. Despite how hard I try to be happy around my friends, everyone else seems to notice that I'm in pain, but not her. She decides to chuck things at me and "playfully punch me" super hard in the gut to "have fun" But no...it's not fun, it just hurts even more.
So this picture is directed towards her. I doubt she'll ever see this but it feels nice to get it off my chest.
And I used a Poochyena in the pick because she is possibly going to be my new pokesona.
...if anyone read all that crap they get a hug. a BIG hug
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Comments: 112
evilblackbunny [2011-07-24 16:19:35 +0000 UTC]
I have a friend that does stuff like that... she asked me why I can't just 'fix myself'. it sucks that so many people just don't GET IT.
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Anomalous-Blake In reply to evilblackbunny [2011-07-24 16:32:15 +0000 UTC]
wow...I hate when people won't understand
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LotusTwister [2011-07-24 16:18:42 +0000 UTC]
I read it all. It's awful that your friend doesn't understand. ):
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Kittey-Colors [2011-07-24 16:10:39 +0000 UTC]
I had a friend like that. I have an extreme fear of the dark and she used to turn off the lights whenever she left the room to freak me out. My anxiety would sky rocket and I'd run to the light switch and almost hurt myself from trying to turn it on.
Some people just suck, no matter how close they are to you. I wish I could give you a hug I hope your friend gets it threw their skull that you are in pain and that you can't control this.
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Anomalous-Blake In reply to Kittey-Colors [2011-07-24 16:33:10 +0000 UTC]
I hate when people think it's funny to cause you so much pain.
that's true...and thanks for the comfort
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Khystar In reply to ??? [2011-07-24 15:48:29 +0000 UTC]
I know how you feel. I didn't have any problems with me, but my "friend" stopped caring for me after our 2nd year of high school. She met new people and forgot I existed a little more with every day that went by. We're not friends anymore.
Hope you can get this crap sorted our with your friend.
But anyway, it a really nice drawing, and it's really emotional.
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Anomalous-Blake In reply to Khystar [2011-07-24 16:34:12 +0000 UTC]
yeah this has been going on ever since middle school started...and that was two years ago...and now I have finally had it with her...
thanks...I still want to be her friend...so I hope she'll understand eventually
yeah...thanks again
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Khystar In reply to Anomalous-Blake [2011-07-24 18:31:14 +0000 UTC]
Hope she does.
And you're welcome.
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lapras42 [2011-07-24 15:37:51 +0000 UTC]
Damn... Your friends an ass.... I feel so sorry for all the crap you have to go through.
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Anomalous-Blake In reply to lapras42 [2011-07-24 16:34:54 +0000 UTC]
she really is sometimes...but I don't want to stop being friends with her...because we've been friends our whole life...I'm just really pissed off with her right now
it's alright...don't worry
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Rosbelle In reply to ??? [2011-07-24 15:22:53 +0000 UTC]
I know that it's probably not my place considering I don't know you and all, but if you ask me she doesn't so much as SOUND like a very good friend to me >.> Just saying, I mean no offense or anything x_x
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Anomalous-Blake In reply to Rosbelle [2011-07-24 16:36:52 +0000 UTC]
she's a good friend...I mean we've been friends since we were 3...but she's a huge spaz and that's why she won't understand me. she can't take anything seriously. I know she's not trying to hurt me and that she just wants to have fun, but she doesn't get that her fun causes me pain...
I still want to be friends...but until she can calm down and understand all the crap I'm going through, I just want her to back off and leave me alone
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Rosbelle In reply to Anomalous-Blake [2011-07-24 16:41:21 +0000 UTC]
Ah, understandable. I read that you tried to talk to her about it right? And that she didn't really understand, if memory serves correct. Well I can see her as not being able to fully understand how you feel considering that she's never really experienced it herself, or something like that.
It's good to still be friends with her, especially after such a long time. But maybe trying to make her understand more would be better then just letting it go? (I have no idea if I even put that the right way, so sorry if it's confusing x_x)
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Anomalous-Blake In reply to Rosbelle [2011-07-24 16:47:55 +0000 UTC]
yeah I can see how she couldn't understand...but it still pisses me off that she continues to try and "play" with me by jabbing and hitting and "tickling" me even though I've told her that I absolutely hate it when she does that and that it hurts really bad...
maybe I should...it's just that it's been almost three years and she still doesn't understand...I'm finally starting to crack from the pain...
*sigh*
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Rosbelle In reply to Anomalous-Blake [2011-07-24 17:42:54 +0000 UTC]
Yeah, that's really not a good kind of "playing". Not to anyone really.
Well, I hate to see friends stop being friends, especially if they've been so for so many years. So if I were you, I would at least try and work things out with her. I wish you much luck with her. Hopefully she'll understand some time soon.
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Anomalous-Blake In reply to Rosbelle [2011-07-24 18:41:55 +0000 UTC]
yeah. but she finds it funny for some reason
yeah, I'll do my best...thanks for the advice
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Rosbelle In reply to Anomalous-Blake [2011-07-25 02:39:23 +0000 UTC]
Well, I wouldn't think that it's so much as funny >_>;....
And it's no problem
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Anomalous-Blake In reply to Rosbelle [2011-07-25 17:05:17 +0000 UTC]
yeah, but she's a spaz.
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Rosbelle In reply to Anomalous-Blake [2011-07-25 21:46:32 +0000 UTC]
Well, you know her best xD
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aButteredBanana [2011-07-24 15:22:44 +0000 UTC]
Well that's just shiz... What she's NOT seeing .__. I felt that way once but I got over it... Not quickly though... I hope she will see it soon
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Anomalous-Blake In reply to aButteredBanana [2011-07-24 16:37:43 +0000 UTC]
yeah it is...I'm trying my best to make her understand...and hopefully my anxiety will decrease and I'll have an easier time being with her and doing the activities she wants to do
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aButteredBanana In reply to Anomalous-Blake [2011-07-25 02:00:04 +0000 UTC]
Wel I really hope she starts to see the big picture and if stuff keeps getting hard talk to a friend who's close or maybe a relative...? It helped me when I talked to a relative about it
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Anomalous-Blake In reply to aButteredBanana [2011-07-25 17:05:40 +0000 UTC]
I talk to my parents about it...and that kind of helps
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KaptainKatz In reply to Anomalous-Blake [2011-07-26 21:11:00 +0000 UTC]
man, i don't see how you can still be her friend
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Anomalous-Blake In reply to KaptainKatz [2011-07-27 16:36:32 +0000 UTC]
I still want to be friends, but right now I'm just really pissed if with her
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KaptainKatz In reply to Anomalous-Blake [2011-07-28 14:55:11 +0000 UTC]
i understand, because you're one of those people who can't play sports because of medical conditions, and your knees i think, and she's one of those sports fanatics who doesn't understand your conditions
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KaptainKatz In reply to Anomalous-Blake [2011-07-28 20:47:30 +0000 UTC]
she just needs to calm down and leave you alone
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Blackfeather2 In reply to ??? [2011-07-23 16:28:33 +0000 UTC]
-Likes reading so read the whole thing-
There there, KH. It's just the beginning
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punkkitty123 In reply to Anomalous-Blake [2011-07-23 21:33:32 +0000 UTC]
AAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! I don't get it! WHY ARE PEOPLE SO IGNORANT!*ahem* sorry,but it's not right! but you can do it! you've got us
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Leafscatter In reply to ??? [2011-07-23 14:18:39 +0000 UTC]
that must soo suck. I'd be really upset if my friends didn't understand how I feel.
Good drawing though!
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Zanerus [2011-07-23 08:32:37 +0000 UTC]
Also I won't insult the friend because others have trouble understanding what they do not experince.
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Anomalous-Blake In reply to Zanerus [2011-07-23 16:44:23 +0000 UTC]
yeah...but it almost seems like she's insulting me for the problems I have
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Zanerus In reply to Anomalous-Blake [2011-07-24 20:03:25 +0000 UTC]
Flick her so hard she flies to da moon!
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Zanerus In reply to ??? [2011-07-23 08:32:07 +0000 UTC]
I read it all and I hate friendly punches, hugs are so much nicer.
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