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It's hard to explain it to my mom and dad. Despite them not even understanding I can try to express it here... If it is worth a shot, that is.
So after all of the drama, I did some things before that were bad which I do regret. But even though I learn from my mistakes, it feels like they don't want to give me a second chance anymore.
This isolation they put me in just... It's hard to say because in all honesty, I only put harm on myself. Every time I go to a certain place I am familiar with including my grandparents house on Christmas. All of that trauma keeps flooding towards me. I do want to be a good person but, every time I tell them it's feels like they just take it as an excuse. I don't know if I am right anymore, even starting to question myself for being in this world too. And every time I wake up, I still feel the same like before, sad and lonely. Even though I want to seek help, my autism makes it difficult to say it out loud to my parents...

Everything is just moody for me now. And it feels irreversible for me to do after all of the drama. Idk if I am destined to have friends anymore... Because I don't deserve it, don't I...?
So I hope you can understand from this, and take it as you will... I'm, sorry if this was hard to hear or even swallow...

Description
It's hard to explain it to my mom and dad. Despite them not even understanding I can try to express it here... If it is worth a shot, that is.
So after all of the drama, I did some things before that were bad which I do regret. But even though I learn from my mistakes, it feels like they don't want to give me a second chance anymore.
This isolation they put me in just... It's hard to say because in all honesty, I only put harm on myself. Every time I go to a certain place I am familiar with including my grandparents house on Christmas. All of that trauma keeps flooding towards me. I do want to be a good person but, every time I tell them it's feels like they just take it as an excuse. I don't know if I am right anymore, even starting to question myself for being in this world too. And every time I wake up, I still feel the same like before, sad and lonely. Even though I want to seek help, my autism makes it difficult to say it out loud to my parents...

Everything is just moody for me now. And it feels irreversible for me to do after all of the drama. Idk if I am destined to have friends anymore... Because I don't deserve it, don't I...?
So I hope you can understand from this, and take it as you will... I'm, sorry if this was hard to hear or even swallow...