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there are so many things...
i want to tell you...
i want you to know...
that which you make me feel...
that which i do not know myself...
i cannot tell you...
for the words are unknown...
and so is my love...

... for these things...
... they come in pairs...
... each accompanied by its opposite...
... its opposite accompanying each...

... you make me feel perpetually stupid...
   ... yet completely wise...
... you make me feel warm and smug...
   ... yet so dreadfully cold...
... you make me feel utterly alone...
   ... yet encapsulated by your presence...
... you make me feel needed and significant...
   ... yet so completely unnecessary and undeserving...
... you make me feel hopless and lost...
   ... yet in your eyes a am found and welcome...
... you make me feel loved...
   ... and i hate it... and love it...

i love these things...
yet i hate them...

my hate and love
are that which draws me
nearer and nearer to you...

to belong...
to exist...
to love...

it is all in vein...
it is all hopeless...
yet it is what life is lived for...
yet it gives hope to the hopeless...
...

i am that
which finds hope and life
and vanity and hopelessness
in these things...

they encapsulate my soul and being...
just as you do...
you are all these things and more...
you are...