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idk where i was going with this design but i think its pretty swiggity uwu

if youve followed me for a while youll know i flopped between bi and pan for a while and tbh for the last 3 years i just felt,,off yknow
i kinda realized i was demi today because looking back i found it kinda weird that i didnt experience attraction to someone that wasnt close to me. i never took relationships seriously because i didnt really know the other person well, or when i thought i had a "crush" on someone i thought was pretty, i couldnt feel anything. i really wanted to! i tried so hard to be like "wow this person is so pretty i think i love them" but i just couldnt get the feeling to come
i also found it kinda odd that i only seemed to develop crushes on people i know, or close friends (not naming names cough cough)
yeah i think ppl can be attractive, but i cant feel much of anything for them if theyre strangers
and calling myself bi/pan for a while felt sort of forced, ever since my freshman year i felt like i was just following a trend, and i seriously wondered if i was actually bi or pan, or if my friends' influence was rubbing off on me. idk it just never felt genuine and i wondered if it was normal to just,,,,,not be attracted to everyone even if i said i was bi/pan. and just for aesthetic reasons, i liked the colors and i thought that meant oh! i must be that! but i realized colors are colors, and i can like pink purple blue and yellow without it meaning anything

so i did some research! and demisexual panromantic best matches whats goin on in this brain hole of mine
ill get to know anyone regardless of what they orientate themselves, but i physically cant be sexually attracted to them until weve formed a bond. its a little strange for me too ill admit, i always thought that "oh i just need to meet the right person" and feelings would jsut Magically Happen, but ha after like 4 attempts i guess thats not the case for me lol

calling myself pandemic
seems fitting

Description
idk where i was going with this design but i think its pretty swiggity uwu

if youve followed me for a while youll know i flopped between bi and pan for a while and tbh for the last 3 years i just felt,,off yknow
i kinda realized i was demi today because looking back i found it kinda weird that i didnt experience attraction to someone that wasnt close to me. i never took relationships seriously because i didnt really know the other person well, or when i thought i had a "crush" on someone i thought was pretty, i couldnt feel anything. i really wanted to! i tried so hard to be like "wow this person is so pretty i think i love them" but i just couldnt get the feeling to come
i also found it kinda odd that i only seemed to develop crushes on people i know, or close friends (not naming names cough cough)
yeah i think ppl can be attractive, but i cant feel much of anything for them if theyre strangers
and calling myself bi/pan for a while felt sort of forced, ever since my freshman year i felt like i was just following a trend, and i seriously wondered if i was actually bi or pan, or if my friends' influence was rubbing off on me. idk it just never felt genuine and i wondered if it was normal to just,,,,,not be attracted to everyone even if i said i was bi/pan. and just for aesthetic reasons, i liked the colors and i thought that meant oh! i must be that! but i realized colors are colors, and i can like pink purple blue and yellow without it meaning anything

so i did some research! and demisexual panromantic best matches whats goin on in this brain hole of mine
ill get to know anyone regardless of what they orientate themselves, but i physically cant be sexually attracted to them until weve formed a bond. its a little strange for me too ill admit, i always thought that "oh i just need to meet the right person" and feelings would jsut Magically Happen, but ha after like 4 attempts i guess thats not the case for me lol

calling myself pandemic
seems fitting