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BasicEternity — Monologue Practice
Published: 2008-12-28 12:13:45 +0000 UTC; Views: 85; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 2
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I didn't think I would live this long. Not in a “I thought I'd have killed myself by now” way. I've only been afraid of killing myself twice and bother were medicationally induced. No, I just thought I'd have died by now. That my body would have given out. One medical problem after another. I almost die at 13, am diagnosed with RA at 15 and with an anxiety disorder at 18. I've had more ear, throat, and nose infections than most. I've had an ulcer, broken bones, burns rashes. When does a body just give up? I tell people when they worry “Well, I've made it this far” but I'm just bluffing. I'm not strong. I'm just waiting. What does that make me? A coward? Probably. But who would blame me? That's the worst part. I can get away with it. Because I'm in pain. I'm broken, thus its ok for me to not work towards anything.That's a bunch of crap. So what can't I get myself to do anything else?
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Heh...whoever s/he is, I can relate. I didn't expect to live this long either. XP
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I like it. It portrays a person that has so many issues they feel hopless. The person asks themself "why should i go on, I am just going to die anyway, what is my point in living?" Very deep into the mind of the troubled, A+ Love it.
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