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Published: 2011-04-03 22:26:40 +0000 UTC; Views: 234; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 4
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Description Would I be a better person if I were the same person 100% of the time?

I am very concerned because I fear my own willingness and ability to abandon my apparent identity on such short notice and for such a brief period of time, just to avoid something that would have minor negative consequences or result in mild discomfort or inconvenience. I imagined it like this...the idea of burning wood into ashes is to change the wood into ashes. Not into fire.

You do not become the change itself.

I used to know myself so well, but now I feel as though I know so many different versions of myself that I cannot even comprehend which qualities are mine and which are those of people as whom I felt the need to exist. I fear becoming my own volatility.

I sense the need to cease this change, and in doing so I will change.
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Comments: 5

SayoriSakura [2011-05-07 06:10:08 +0000 UTC]

You can do anything. Fear is natural, and using natural abilities to escape that fear is nature.
I'm scared to death of track meets. It's pointless, it's just races. They pass. They hurt but they pass.
still, I try to avoid them. because they scare me.
people's opinions have scared me into fearing them.

If you ever get lost, and loose yourself, know that all you are, is what you are. If you switch from sweet to mean through out a day, It's because you can, and you are both sweet and mean. Know that all you can do, is what you are. The worst thing is to become afraid,
of yourself.

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basicFate In reply to SayoriSakura [2011-05-12 00:52:11 +0000 UTC]

Very beautiful comment, and true. Thank you.

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SayoriSakura In reply to basicFate [2011-05-15 15:51:12 +0000 UTC]

XD I didn't figure you'd reply to it though. I thought you'd just delete it 'cause it was long and weird.

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basicFate In reply to SayoriSakura [2011-06-06 01:55:28 +0000 UTC]

Oh, no, I try to reply to all my messages. Especially the weird ones! Even though it has been taking me days lately....I don't have the internet :l

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SayoriSakura In reply to basicFate [2011-06-06 03:24:27 +0000 UTC]

oh, I'm sorry. I have my own laptop yup. :I

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