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Please..stop..I should be dead. Why can't I die?
my physical and mental health can't take it..anymore. I was so close..
Just..leave me alone. I am a burden. I jumped. I should be dead. I should be dead...
I can't do this anymore. Please..
The only ones I can trust..are the ones I create...and..they don't like me.
I wish I never came back. Ican't trust anyone...
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Beckitty, i dont know you very well and you dont know me but trust me i would feel terrible if you died, i wish i could be your friend, i care about you, ive favorited every art peice ive seen of yours not because of sympathy but because your art is amazing, your art and yourself just brightens up my gloomy days,without you around all your friends and watchers (including me) would be so upset and depressed, i care beckitty, please dont leave us.....
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Please Becky, we all dearly love you so much and have missed you.
Please don't leave again, please dont try to kill yourself again. Suicide is never the right answer.
I deeply understand what you are going through right now, I've in the same position as you.
We all dearly want to help you out.
We all love you so much and we care so much about you.
I hope you're alright, please don't try suicide again. Its never the answer.
We'll always be here for you.
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Please Becky, don't leave us again, or do not try to kill yourself again TnT we all love you here, we were all worried ToT *give you a hug*Β Β
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I'm so sorry. I can't make any promises. I am emotionally and physically unstable.. It's real life issues that are building up. I am glad people love me..but thy don't know me or how awful I am.. *hugs*
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I think I know your feels... sometime I can be happy like..less than 1 hour... then i become depressed, with a lot of suicidal thoughts... I don't know you in person, but I think you're a good person, you look nice and if I could, I think I would be friend with you... else, did you see a doctor or a ... "Psychologue ( as said in france )" to talk about your problems ? Maybe they can help you... *continue hugs*
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D: I've been so worried about you since that Poll. Are you okay? What do you mean you jumped?
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I'm so sorry. I never meant to make you or anyone else worry. I tried to kill myself, so I jumped off an overpass. But..I didn't die.Β
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Oh wow D: I'm glad you didn't die, I hope that you didn't get too hurt from that. I'm sorry you've been depressed and felt like you should try something like that. Would you want to talk about it? You can note me anytime, anytime you want to talk, about whatever you would want to talk about. I'll listen and try my best to help.
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Bec, i swear.to.fucking.god. DONT KILL YOUR SELF YOUR AMAZING EVERYONE HAS DEPRESSION YOUR NOT ALONE IF YOU EVER NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO JUST TALK TO ME OR TWISTY....im ALWAYS going to be their for you, please stay, it eill kill me and other people if you were to die or leave forever,please, your the only on here i fully trust, please
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I am not amazing and not everyone has depression. I don't only suffer from depression. I suffer from social anxiety, self harm, suicidal thoughts, paranoia and depression. All that never goes away. Some people with depression get it a few times a week and they're fine. But they go through it. Mine never goes away. Ever. I can't remember the last time I actually smiled. I haven't hugged someone in over 8 years. I'm so alone and no one online can fill that loneliness. I can't talk to you or twisty about some of the things bothering me. I tried to get the guts up to talk to her but I choked.Β
I can always just say I'm leaving DA..
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Me and a ton of other people in the world knows and feels the same pain you have, your depressed because instead of fixing problems you run away, you need to be brave and fix them, please, try to solve the problems you have
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No one can feel the same pain. Just because someone has depression doesn't mean they understand how I feel, just as I can't understand how they feel. There are no fixing these problems.Β
I'll spend the rest of my life alone and trying to die. Did anyone ever consider death might be the way to fix it??
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Death is the walking away from your problems, and have you ever thought about how KIDS feel when they get abused, or people that have lost legitiment everything, or even how to solve your own problem? Theirs hard problems in life with simple answers, you need to just look for it
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I am ALWAYS thinking of how others feel about EVERYTHING. That is why I am always in the shadows while other people are having fun. I'm not a spoiled brat who doesn't Understand real problems.Β
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Please don't die Bec, a lot of people love you, and I'd personally hate to see such a wonderful person go like that. Try to stay strong, I know it can be hard and you'll trip and fall, but keep your eyes forward and keep moving hun. Concentrate on something that's going to happen if anything. A small goal you can achieve or a message from a friend. And if that one's done, find a new one. Find something to keep yourself going, no matter how small it may be. But please don't give up. Please keep going and remember to breathe.
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Becky !! ;A; Ive been worried sick over you and just , i feel so powerless because i dont even know how you feel about me, Β but becky, i dont know what to say, your body refused to let you die. . Β it means your meant to be alive becky, becky .. i dont even know if you trust me or not, but im still here for you , , god. . ive been worried sick over you . Β .Your not a burden . . your never a burden to me, no matter how much you think, your not a burden to me, im just, right now im just happy your alive.. Β but Β . the state your in . . makes me feel sad ,Β
Please be safe becky . . . please for the love of god. . . be safe. .Β
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I'm so sorry, I feel so powerless... Not matter as difficult it is for you to believe it, you need to live, you have people who cherish you and would be left with a void in their hearts if something happened to you, they would feel guilty for the rest of their lives for not being able to stop you... I would be one of them. This illness is distorting your perception of reality, that's the only problem, and it's not your fault at all. I still believe in you, you're strong, so strong... I wish I was as strong as you, I really do, I get upset at such silly things, while you overcome so many painful challenges... Please, I beg you, don't give up, I know you can get through this! No matter how much you don't trust me, I'm gonna say it over and over, your life matters, you are wonderful, you can do it! You will get the wonderful life you deserve! I wish I wasn't just an username behind a screen, so I could do more for you...
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BECKKITTY DON'T BE SAD PLZ IF I WAS ABLE TO DO ONE THING.I WOULD GET EVERYONE WHO LOVES YOU AND GIVE YOU THE BIGGEST HUG JUST DON'T FEEL SAD 0^0
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Becky... Please don't give up... We love you too much... You're not a burden to love and life. Can't you see how much you mean to us?Β
We won't leave you alone! We won't leave until you're better! We won't leave even if you are! We'll fight with you!Β
Don't give up! We love you!
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Becky? Hey...I...I didn't actually think this jump poll meant..."that" kind of jump...I thought it was some sort of random silly thing you know? Not that you wanted to...harm yourself...I want you in this world as much as the next guy...you aren't dead because we love you and care for you...and we always will
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Beck, the reason you can't die is because there are many people who still care. I care, and I know there are others who care. It just isn't time for you yet.Β
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Becky... im so sorry we made you feel this way ):
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I don't think I can. Not this.
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You've pulled through a lot before and look at all the people who care about you here
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Yes, but just barely. All the times I made it..it was by chance. I'm too exhausted to try anymore. I just want to go to sleep and let it all stop. What a relief that would be for me. Everyone thinks it's because of haters. No matter how many times I say it's my real life causing this, they just say to ignore the haters. They don't understand.Β
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They were not by chance you made it because of you and the people who helped you, and you may be done but we're not done trying to help you. Yes there are people who don't understand but there are who do and even the ones who don't understand are trying to help.Β
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I'm really sorry you have to go through all this.. it must be terrible.. but, people love you, and support you and motivate you the best they can. You arnt ment to go, because you are talented, kind, pretty, and a great friend. Your future is bright, if you try your hardest. You are capable of creating a great future for yourself. Your friends don't want you to go, you are worth so much to us and you have change our, and my life. You've inspired me to keep drawing and you've taught me a lesson, I've learned to be more sensitive and accepting, thanks to you <3 i hope things get better for you and I'm confident they will, we love you <3
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If-if you die... I... I don't know what'll do...
You're SUCH an inspiration to me... I adore you and your art!
I don't think I can handle you... d y i n g ...
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You know...I'm always glad if I see you uploaded some drawing because then I know, you're still with us.
Please don't do it. I know, everybody says that and I don't know what I could add but please don't try to kill yourself!
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I don't know what to say... Just... even hearing you say this, it's still so mych relief, that you'rew not dead, couse I can assure you: I don't think anybody here woulde want you dead. And I know, that is not enough and you need those words from people you know and love, but there are cuntless people who have so much respect to you and that like you and your art, that it's just unbeliveble to see such a kind person to be hurting so bad. Again, it's not much, but there's loads of Deviants who will always choose your side no matter what and will belive in you. And I know I'm probably feeling the same way as they are. So please, hold on to your hopes and I know that if you do, you'll make it through, becouse you have strengh in you and you can be brave enough to overpower this.
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Please Becky... Β No, you can't die, not on us, please! Β We love you, so so much, we don't want you to leave, suffer, or hurt yourself... Β
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But if I do die..that can end the suffering.Β
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Yes but it'll make us suffer, which sounds selfish for sure, and no matter how much we want to help you, we can't seem to make it better. Β There's tons of people who would've commissioned you if they had a paypal account or something, and one of those people was me. Β I, and a BUNCH of other people, want you to suffer the least amount possible.
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I don't want anyone to suffer. Barely any of these people know me...so I don't understand why it would be such an impact. Some of these people I haven't talked to in a while..
True..but...still. I don't know what to say..
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We all feel like your a friend we can't meet, Becky. Β Most of us, anyway. Β There's just those cruel hearted people out there who don't care.. Β I've been with you for a bit, and before I had a Deviantart, I would get up every morning to see if any of my favorite artists posted anything new, and one of them was you. Β I don't like it how when I finally got a Deviantart, I got to see the depression side of some of these artists. Β I didn't want to come into the dark days, but I'm trying my very best to keep it bright for you all. Β I don't want my idols hurt, or worse...
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if anyone met me..theyd be weirded out. I'd hide or cry.. I am so bad with people, even if I want to meet them. I just can't. I can't even talk on a phone or order my own food.Β
I'm so sorry..I never met to do that.Β
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Some people are just shy, that's all! Β I can't order my own food either, I hate speaking up... Β I'm always afraid I'll do something wrong and get scolded...
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I'm shy..but it's more than that. It's my social anxiety.. It would ruin everything.. Aw, I'm so sorry. I feel the same way.Β
Or..you jumble your words or say it wrong or something and it's embarrassing..
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I can imagine..
Yesss Β that's the worst....
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You can't die because you're not meant to die!
You're meant to live, to be strong and show everyone that you're more than what they think you are!
To show them that you are a beautiful, strong, wonderful, independent woman who can overcome anything!
We all know you can do this! You just have to start knowing this too.
But if you fall, we will be right here to pick you right back up!
So just know that you're not alone, that you are loved and cared for.
And anyone who says you're worthless or weak is wrong!
Don't listen to them, they're stupid and don't know anything about you!
You can do it Becky!Β Stay strong and don't give up!Β We all believe in you!
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Stay strong Becky......please.....you can fight this....
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*hugs* You Can Do This, You Are Strong, You Are Powerful, And With Us We Are Your Army!
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