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BleedingHeartstrings — My Pointless Shame
Published: 2005-10-24 21:50:21 +0000 UTC; Views: 558; Favourites: 1; Downloads: 41
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This pain of betrayal... it burns inside of me... I feel unclean, and ashamed because of it... Because I know I didn't do anything wrong... and yet what hurts the most I feel, is knowing that even if you knew what I had done tonight... You wouldn't care like I do...Yeh..... angst....
Based on an rp with Deno... I don't feel like explaining it.. i think the picture and Abyss' throughts are pretty self explanitory at what happened...
Abyss and Icarus= Mine
Hauk and Ravn= Deno's
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Poor baby...*huggles Abyss*
Ravn - Sawwy....-_-;
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Abyss: -huggles back then walks to Ravn and wraps his arms around him tight, kissing his neck softly- I'm so sorry Ravn... I never meant to be ungreatful... I just didn't know how to react to it alll.... I was more ashamed about me and Icarus then me and you... I love you too... you know that right? I don't make love to someone I don't deeply care for... As for Icarus... well... That's just a lot of history... Forgive me... please? I'm really so greatful to you baby... - kisses his cheek again and nuzzles in apology-
Icari: -watching silently- ......
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Pooor Abyss *snuggles him* Love the drawing very much... and... Um... is it wrong now that I want to watch you two roleplay??
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heeeheehee... no... if you're on MSN msgr... you might be able to sometime.... if we're all on at once
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Sweet!! *grins* Note to come with msn info
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Ravn - *blushes and snuggle his fur thankfully* O-okay then. Thank you! ^w^
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Abyss: -smiles softly, still a bit ashamed as he holds Ravn close-
(( haha!!! I drew this!!))
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^^
(( i drew a special picture in the scraps gallery ))
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O.O ... I sooo need to draw that!!! O.O
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XD yay!
*wants to see this scene*
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I already have it done! lmao!! I'll photo it tonight
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Ahhh
I love it! Such great expressions!
Let me guess...
Abyss couldn't stand it and slpept with Ravn or Icarus? o.o and now he feels bad about it because Hauk found out? or maybe he just feels bad because he thinks he betrayed his beloved Hauk...
I love the way Abiss is holding himself... like he wants to cheer himself up..
Or maybe he is standing naked in the cold rain as a self-punishment...
I don't know it, but I love it, because I can alsmost feel how much Abyss is suffering in this picture 
And when he takes it not from Hauk, he feels guilty and dirty, even if he knows that he didn't do anything wrong. He loves Hauk... and this is why he's suffering that much.
As I said: great picture! Ravn looks so adorable X3
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wow, you really hit the nail on the head... but he sleapt with both Ravn and Icarus... and no, Hauk doesn't know... only they do.. well... and Ulvrek... he was there too... but he wasn't 'envolved' so i didn't draw him.... And he's actually in a hot shower right afterwards... but it's because he feels unclean... Even though he knows what he did wasn't wrong...
That's was really good! I'm impressed that ou got all of it!!!
Glad you like the picture too! ^^
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it's easy to get all of it if I just look at the picture for 10-20 minutes^^
(and yes, I did XD)
The expressions are great done!
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lol... awww
and no, Abyss may be easilt depressed... but he's more the silent depressed/ was yourself clean type... not the 'punish myself' self mutilating type...
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good to hear he doesn't hurt himself...
Selfpunishment may help some people... but they will have scars theyr whole life...
I know what I'm talking about.
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so do I... my ex was a cutter... bleg...
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I was one myself... but I kinda made it alone out of there...
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yeh... i don't understand cutters....
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well... *sigh* it's ok... you can't undestand us. =/ because you aren't one..
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I didn't mean for that to sound heartless towards you at all... I didn't mean that I didn't understand cutters, so much as the act of cutting itself... My ex. tried to explain it to me, but I still just can't image things being so bad that self-mutilation is the only answer... You know? Well... no... i guess you wouldn't since you were one... but...
I'm sorry if what i said came across harsh, i didn't mean for it to at all...
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oh no! ^^' sorry.. i didn't mean to say it like this...
I just mean you can't understand because you don't do it...
it's hard to explain... it made me feel better.
But I learned to bear all the pain so I can get over cutting myself.
Well I do so when I feel REALLY bad... but I don't do it that much anymore. MAybe once a mounth...
You didn't sound heartless. I can understand you. All I know couldn't understand why I am doing this...
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Ok... I'm glad I didn't offend you or sound like a total prick... I respect you as a person, so i didn't mean harm by what I said... I'm glad you've stopped for the most part tho.... That's really good! ^^
(( I was gonna I'm glad you've cut back until I realized what a horrible pun that would have been... 
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Aww...
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