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Nothing changed, always the same morning, nothing will ever change. Not when I get older, or when I defeat every male in my pack, they will still question me about me being Alpha. I was 8 years old as I had to become Alpha, since my father died that day. Since then I had to fight to at least get some respect from some of my pack, but I can't resent them for it. I mean a 8 year old girl who is an Alpha? It's laughable!

The only way that I get this horde of testosterone controlled idiots under control, is with this power I have, this special ability that I unleashed as I was 5... Since then everyone thought that I was a freak, because it's very strong and I couldn't control it at all... The only people that still got near me were my brother and my mother... But both are gone, forever... The only people that cared about me at all...

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It was sometime in the afternoon as I finally made it out of the village for just some time for me, knowing that those idiots won't destroy everything while I'm away, and could breathe ot of relieve to escape this madness for some time. I still felt the wounds from the last fight, a huge wound was over my whole back, but even so, I continued to walk through the beautiful, illuminated forest, to one of my favourite places, this ancient cave that was long forgotten from everyone. But I rediscovered it by pure accident, but it felt like it had to be fate.
As I reached it I leaned against the entrance of the cave and got something out of my bag, after I removed my bow from my back, and held one of them in my hands. Based of the notes from my father's journal and the books inside the cave, this was called a lightsaber, a weapon from those who are one with the force, they are either called Jedi or Sith, the Jedi were like the light side and the Sith are the dark side of the force.

I wonder what they are like, I never seen a Jedi or Sith, only read about them. I leaned back with a sigh and looked at the sky, but something was very different! The sky wasn't blue, it was red!! At once I jumped up, picked everything up as I looked once more to the sky. Something gigantic fell from the sky and the earth shook as if Gaia was in rage!! After the cry of the earth died down I "whistled" in a hiss-growling-way and only waited for a few seconds as the bushes were moving and out jumped a Palulukan, the most dangerous predator on Alrauna, on the ground at least, but I tamed this beast, this beast which meaned death itself when you stare it in the eye, so I decided to name him Anubis, I heard it was the god who accompanied the dead and he looks like a canine resembling this god Anubis. I'm also not sure how I managed to tame it, probally thanks to my special powers and thanks to the Palulukan some respect came from the others, but sadly only the children and elders, but at least a start!

I climbed on it's back and ran towards where this gigantic thing fell from the sky, while doing so some of my pack members who wanted to know what it was. As we all came to the thing crashed, I have no way of explaining what this could be! All I knew for sure that some weird people came out of the crater, they looked all white, some had weird orange markings, at some parts it looked like a black parts which could resemble a skin and then the weird, shaped black space on their faces, at a bit thinking you mind find it to look like armour! What the hell are those things?! My pack took their weapons in their hands or started to growl in their animalistic forms, a natuarl reaction. But they dropped their weapon like things and were raising their hands to show that they mean no harm and so my people relaxed even more, which was good, I didn't wanted to steep in a bloody mess made by those idiots! As Anibus carried me closer one of them steeped forth, he looked like to be the leader of this ominous group, he had more orange markings and some weird shaped thing over this weird shaped black thing on the front side of his head, almost as it should protect this from the sun. "Are there any medics around? Please, it is very urgent!" I was very suprised as I heard this language, it has been a very long time, the last was when mother teached it to me. No one of the pack seemed to know this language so I urged Anubis to hurry down to them and stopped in between those weird people and mine. As I climbed down from my loyal Palulukan I bossed my people around to get the healers, thankfully they reacted and some ran back to the village to get help. I turned around to the group as the leader came to me and crouched down to my eye level, god... It's not like I'm already that short!! "You can understand us?" He, I thought thanks to his voice that he was male, asked me as he was suprised at it. I mean, it's not like everyday you see someone looking so young to know different languages. "My people understand a lot of different languages, but yours is a rare one in villages like these." His response was a short nod, I believe it was a nod... He thanked me and said something about that their general was badly injuried, naturally I could never ignore a plea of help and was happy as the healers finally arived and quickly looked through the wounded and helped those in critical condition to get on the Pa'li to get them to the village faster, not asking any questions, as they were transported I offered the leader of the white-orange people to ride with me, which he accepted and I decided to ask some more questions, like where they came from and what had happend that they had landed here with this strange thing that looked destroyed. He told me that they had a mission on Vassek, and somehow I knew what this planet was, were the general they joined on this mission was a man named Kit Fisto, who was the injuried one from a heavy battle, while the general they were assigned too, a Obi-Wan Kenobi, had to leave for another solo mission and that ASAP. I looked over this strange man that was this general... A Nautolan, I belive he was. I also never saw one, but read about them in a book, what I also noticed that he was awake for a short time but passed out soon after he took a quick glance around.

Finally we reached the village and the injuried got prober treatment, but I had to be there all the time so that I could translate it and there weren't that little... Oh boy, Blue in what did you get yourself into again...? Just as I thought that I could take a break I was called again from the healer that was tending to the wound of the general, as he saw me however he looked really suprised, either because I was a little girl who has a huge knowledge of different languages or I don't know, but I couldn't ask why because I had to go to another of the students of the healers.

As finally everyone understood each other, I could finally plan some sleeping places for our guests, if only those idiots would listen to me for one moment of their existense! I really didn't wanted to curse around but I was so mad at once, all that frustration that had built up released and thankfully I knew a language that I was sure no one understood and cursed at nothing, just into the air. After I had finished my rant the guy that was the leader, his name was Cody he told me on the way, came to me and asked if everything was alright. My cheeks flared up in a blush as my thoughts raced around, did he just, did he understand me...? I didn't wanted to make him worry over more so I lied but I noticed that thanks to my ears and tail it was clear that it was a lie... What came next suprised me really, he removed his helmet and I could see straight into his face, to be honest, he looks very good for a soldier and I bet woman would fall over heels for a guy like him, even this scar around his eye added to his charm. "No one listens to you, hm?" He sounded so sympathetic, it made me feel even worse to give my worries to him, even if it was a slightest bit! "You got me... Some think that I'm not worthy at all... Even if I'm the daughter of the leader from this village... Everyday there are fight for the dominance, which I have to win..." I looked down with a sigh escaping my lips, while my ears and tail sank down. I sounded so miserable, but was suprised as I felt a hand on my head, right between my ears as he said a single sentence which gave me slight hope and motivation: "Don't worry, you're gonna make it." I managed to smile up at him, being glad that I could just relax a moment with someone who just was chilled with my situation. Sadly the gods must of hate me as one of the biggest males came towards us and barked his challenge, what I found a bit cute was that Cody, out of instinct, took aim at with his weird weapon, I could understand him, when your not used to such a size, he was almost as big as Cody and he didn't looked really friendly with that scared face, but I'm somehow proud of this face, one of my first battles and I almost tore his face apart. I gently laid a hand on his weapon to lower it and smiled at him to calm him, even if he looked asking with his eyes if I was sure about that. I nodded to him in ensuring way and turned to my other form, only that my head reached over his hips, almost sadly... Me and my challenger went to the main point of the village, my pack and even some of Cody's men came and watched. My opponent walked to the right, I to the left, flexing muscles moved under his fur, but it was the same for me, at least in a smaller version. Without a warning we both jumped at each other. Growls, barks, teeth and claws were flying around in our fight, from our wounds blood tripped on the ground but we didn't cared, we only cared of who would win!
At a moment from when I couldn't react in time the teeth of my opponent warpped around my neck and pressed me to the ground. Oh no, I'm not finished yet!! I tried to be limp to trick him, which worked as he wanted to howl in triumph, with my ability my eyes glowed and I pushed him off and on the ground while growling deeply. I smiled as he accepted his defeat and I broke the hold, he got dragged off to the healers while I just laid down panting, I'll probably join him later... As I wanted to close my eyes, it felt like I was lifted up. Wondering what was happening I open up my eyes and saw two of Cody's men caring me, well at least they are so friendly, not like my pack...
As they placed me down I saw that the Nautolan came back too with the help of one of the men, did he just watched the fight, why would he do something like that? The healers tented to my wounds first since I was the alpha, but funnily my wounds were worse than those from Tai, my opponent. As he got patched up he left right at once but I had to stay longer, but I could care less and stood up. But as I looked over to where the Nautolan was, he... He was floating in midair, those lekku or whatever those are called moved around as if he was under water(I read that the tentacles of the Nautolans are called lekku too but in literatur they are not referenced as lekku, but there is no known name for the tentacles. So I stick to lekku, if you have a better idea, do tell!)! I was so amazed that I started staring with an open mouth, which he probably felt it as he open up his big balck eyes, it caused a deep blush to form on my face and I could swear I smelled something, I have no idea why but I would call that it smelled like confusion! I guess my staring had a bigger impact than I hoped to, since he floated to the ground, oh boy what did I do...? My ears went downwards in a slight panic "Please excuse me! I didn't wanted to stare!" 'Why do I panic so much, in the presence of a "stranger"...? And why does this feel like déjà vu? My stange dreams, are you the reason of this feeling...?' But he only smiled at me "No no, that's okay! I didn't mean to scare you." I nodded a bit, still a bit uneasy about the whole situation "Okay, I hope that you are feeling better now. That must of been a really bad wound... My name is Blue, Cody has told me everything what happend on the way and who you are." Nice going Blue, you're an alpha not a weak pup, at least I didn't forgot to introduce me! He returned my nod and mentioned that he is feeling better, if I remember that Nautolans have skin that heals up quickly and since I knew who he was I saved him the time to introduce himself, I don't know why but it feels weird and rude that I saved it from him, why...?

"May I ask... What was the meaning of the fight?" Oh, he did saw it... Damnit! "Well, it's a fight for the dominance, to be the leader of the pack." I scratched my neck in embarrassment "Not my best performance..." I wonder what he felt as he watched the fight, as a Jedi, thanks to Cody I knew who he was exactly, he was a peace keeper and watching something like this... I'm not sure how I would feel if I was in his shoes.

"I was relieved to see that no one was killed." To be honest I made a suprised face at his reaction, but that's probably a common reaction of those who never saw one. "This fight is not about that, it's about to make the other submit to the alpha or in some cases new alpha." He nodded in understanding "So your community works like that of a pack?"

"You could say that, every place has something like a leader and sadly almsot no one listens to me, because I am "too" young and a woman, well more in my case little girl." Great, now I babble about my problems to him too... Way to go... "Have some patience, with the time you will establish yourself yet." And him too, why does they have more sympathy than my own people?!

"I hope so..." and only nodded to him, not really sure about it. He smiled encouragingly to me "You are still young. How about your wounds?" And now he is even concerned about me! Well, he has offically now cared about me even more than my father has ever, as he was still alive... "Had been worse." Showed him an old and rather large scar on my shoulder, "my first fight for dominance." I said since as an alpha, I couldn't show weakness in front of others. He only nodded sligtly and I could tell that it, in some way, displeased him after I had shown him the scar, can't blame him about it.

"I have to thank you for all your help." I smiled at him, it almost feels like I knew him for such a long time, which isn't possible at all. "We seem to have been lucky that we could at least communicate with anyone." Now I had to grin at his sentence, how is it possible that this man make me feel so relaxed and, how do I put it, make me feel so at home? "True, without me you would have to taste your way through the different languages." "Well, we would have stayed in the wreck, since the clones can't speak so many languages." I heard that again, clones... What do they mean with it? I would have to ask them later about it and about understanding languages... "Well, when I cursed Cody understood me word by word ..." I can't belive how embarrassing that was!

"I'll tell you something. The first, and most only thing, that a soldier learns when used in an mission on a new planet are the curses of the natives." Wait, WHAT?! I don't know if I should be shocked or astonished or even worried! "Well Cody mentioned that to me once."
Now I wonder, Cody mentioned that this was the 212th attack battalion, so where there other battalions like his and were they also full of clones? To me, as I had helped to translate while their wounds got looked at, it felt like they all are brothers or treating the others this way, who knows what I might learn when looking directly in their faces, for know I only knew Cody's face, which reminds me... "To be honest, without his helmet he looks friendlier. Do they wear their helmets all the time?" They all seem like great people to get along with, if only I wasn't bound by my duty as an alpha... "Mostly on the missions, yes. Why do you ask?"

"Many are very suspicious thanks to the helmets. Half of our language is based on barking, growling and whimpering, the other on facial expressions and gestures, and since they do not see the faces and their facial expressions, they are nervous and suspicious. Well, at least the part we Lupus use of the Alraunoan language is so." Really, I've seen some of the children and other of my people getting really nervous thanks to those facts.

"I understand that. I will ask them to store their helmets as long we are here." Again, I was very suprised that he understood it, but grateful at the same time. I smiled to him "Thank you, they have nothing to worry about here, I promise." Well at least those soldiers can have a rest while being here, I don't want to thing about what they have been through... "I know, your people are very friendly." Master Fisto nodded lightly and looked out through one of the smaller windows of the house of the healers and I can't just belive how calm I am in the moment, when was the last time I felt like this... As a pup? Well as long as I have the chance of enjoying this calmness, let's chat I guess.

"Hard to imagine that this was a commercial key point. That was millions of years ago. As better planets and systems were discovered our planet went into oblivion, we are only at the end of a huge system." His eyes slightly widen. "Really? It is possible." I still wonder why they said that this was a unknown planet to the... What was it? Republic?

A nod from my side "That is the reason why my people can understand and speak so many and different languages." He crossed his arms infront of his chest "Ah, now that makes sense. One more question, if you would allow it ... Is your whole people force sensitive?" Now that was a hard one! Good that I know what this, the force, is.
"I can only answer for those here. Some said they felt something, but there are very few who say such a thing, let alone admit. For obvious reason, when I triggerd it all the other kids were afraid of me and called me, to put it on your tongue, a freak. Only my brother played with me when we were at the age of puppies." I spoke as I bit into a fungus of the Puffer, there was actually no main name for it we Lupus started to call it like that, but remembering my past I almost crushed this innocent fungus which had nothing to do with it... One of the healers gave us both a cup full of the liquid of the Tawtsngal. While the Jedi master was lightly hesitant I drowned the whole cup, as I wiped my mouth and placed the cup down I looked at him "This liquid has a healing effect and is full of nutrients, I think all the healers gave out this while tending to their wounds." With that he drank the cup too and set it down afterwards.

"With what you have just said, I belive it was your brother that came to us into the temple." I almost let the fungus fall while he spoke, my brother...? He is dead so it can't be possible that it was him, I saw him die, even if the memory is blurry thanks to another one... Mother... "I... Can't remember it clearly when he "disappeared", I think that this memory of mine is blury, probably thanks to my mother's death..." My eyes looked to the ground "My condolences because of your mother." I could only muster a nod to him, as I looked up at him slightly he was looking at the ceiling, for whatever reason he had.

"So you're one of the few who uses the force actually, if I understand correctly?" At his questions I met his eyes again and nod "You're correct on that." I'm not sure where this will go... "Is there any reason why that is so?" A reason? I wish I knew one and there would be! It would explain so much... "I don't know if there is one to be honest..." I looked down once more and stuffed the rest of the fungus in my mouth to chew.

"We will leave, as soon as possible. You are welcome to join us." My eyes got as big as plates and I almost choked on the fungus so I hit my chest to push it down with couching. Right as I wanted to scream yes I was reminded what my duty was... "But I can't ... I have to take care of this place ..." This legacy is a pure curse for me... I looked at his face once more and saw him smiling understandingly "As you say, the offer consists." Why can't I just decide that I really want to... Well It could take a while 'til they have to go, until then I have time to think.

Then I noticed something which rings thousands of small bells in my memory! "The symbol that you all wear, it seems so familiar to me." master Fisto looked lightly suprised at me, beacuse it was logic that I could never knew it, even if it would be fact that my brother, Desmond, was a Padawan. "I think I saw it only recently, near here."
"Are you sure? Where?" Come on... Remember! AH, the cave! "I remember where it was, are you strong enough for a little trip?" I smiled at him, I don't know why, but it felt good to share this with someone! As the master sat up I mentioned that he could take some of the 212th with us and while then I would wait at the outskits of the city, where the forest would start. With a nod from his I went and waited in my animalistic form.

I sat down and waited, but not for long. As I looked over to the Nautolan and the ones he brought with him, now I knew why they called them clones... They all looked the same physically, well except that some had other hair styles, coloures, eye colours, scares, tattoos and even beards! But for me, they looked different from the insides and when I focus on that, it looked like, well for me, that they didn't looked alike, just why...? I see that Kit brought Cody too and smiled at all as a wolf, which was a prefered name for this form of the Lupus, the smile was returned from Cody and Kit which made me squeal with happiness insides, if only I knew why that was so...

"Sorry for the delay." Why did I knew that was the first thing to escape the master Jedi's lips? I just shook it off saying that it was okay "So, where did you see the symbol?"

"I will show you, just follow me." With that I started to walk at a normal pace, no need to rush things. I had to laugh as Anubis jumped out of the glowing flora and startled the poor clones, one even fell on his behind since he tripped. I turned back to my humanoid form to grab Anubis' head softly, rubbing it but scolding softly at the same time. Thinking about it, this must of look funny, a girl that is not the tallest scoldng a creatur that is twice her size! I made Anubis walk slowly to the clones, with a lowered head I spoke while rubbing his head "If you're wondering, I made Anubis apologize to you for scaring you to death. He thought I needed his help, so he came. Don't worry he won't bite your head off, unlike others of his kind when they are untamed... And there aren't many Palulukan that got tamed, logical since the Palulukan are the most dangerous predator on land in Alrauna, but you only encounter them alone and very, very deep in the forest."

I'm not sure if I took all of their fear, but the clone that fell on his butt stood up and lowly, very slowly placed a hand on Anubis' forehead and he stayed calm, only to be tackled by Anubis, were he screamed in fear, can't blame him, and be drowled in his saliva. I started laughing and at the same time I tried to get Anubis to stopp, one of the man from Cody, one with the natural black and a beard was still laughing and grinning while the others calmed themself, well more like grinning from ear to ear "Seems like Anubis likes you Shiny." This "Shiny" got away from Anubis while I managed to hold him "Oh shut it Boil! You're only glad that it was not you!" Everyone were chuckling again while I sent Anubis off. "Care to continue gentlemens?"

While walking I couldn't help but to hum something, it was an old song that mother passed down to me and she sang and hummed to me as she put me to sleep, I could tell that everone was listing closely to me, but it doesn't matter right now. Finally we reached the cave "The cave belongs to the place I want to show you." I looked at the Jedi and saw and smelled his light confusion, but he nodded. I proceed inside the cave that was illuminated by the cystals that must be familiar to him, and he was very suprised as he looked around "I thought that these crystals only exists on Ilum..." I also looked around and took in the sight of the crystals which shined in the colours of blue, green, yellow, red, purple and even white and black.

"Father has also described in his journal that it is a miracle that they are growing here. He said also that there is either a normal explainable reason or is it a work of the moon goddess. These colorful tones are also very strange." A nod came from the master Jedi as he looked around once more, even the clones were speachless "If the Council hears this... I would never have thought that something like this could exist, on such a planet to begin with." I only nodded and lead them further inside, into the "heart". I once more stopped infront of a tunnel "This leads to the heart of the cave and the place I mentioned, don't worry it's a straight tunnel and also illuminated by the brightest crystals of them all.

Said and done, we entered another big space with one statue on the right and left at the end of the room, they looked like a human which was hooded so that their faces couldn't be seen. As they all came out of the tunnel I didn't needed to turn around to see their suprised and slight shocked faces, I could feel them in the bak of my head. I sat down right infront of the door, between the statues, and looking at the switch that was only visible for me, someone that had let me in of the many secrets of this forgotten cave told me that only those who are strong in the force could see it. "This is what I wanted to show to you." And pressed the switch which open up the ancient door to the long forgotten archive.

The room was quite large, the crystals illuminated the whole room in a calm blue-green light, in the middle stood a huge statue of a Jedi, but whose face you could not see thanks to it's hood, alike with the two statues in the vestibule. Many scriptures were kept there and the walls told a story through pictures and ancient texts, as someone had engraved them in the walls a long time ago.

I sat down next to the statue as I watched Kit look around in astonishment, the clones looked around but honestly they hardly dared to breathe the air there since they were awestruck thanks to this holy place. "These scriptures... Like the archive on Coruscant! How could this place be forgotten so easily?" I can understand his confusion, so much wisdom left behind, but I could only shrug with my shoulders "I do not know, I have watched over this place, and that's the reason why I speak so many different languages. Because I have read and studied the many scriptures." I turned to him, I gave the promise not to tell the whole truth as to why Ihave this much knowledge, a promise that I'm even going to keep infront of a Jedi master and... I don't know why, but for me he is almost like a father figure to me...
"I can imagine that the council will send some Jedi to study the scriptures and guard this place." Meeting some other Jedi would be really interesting, so I can imagine that this could happen, he seems to know this "council" really good. I only answered with a: 'Probably.'
He walks to the statue next and looked up at it "Before you ask who this is, I do not know, no name, no face." I streched as a wolf and looked at him again. "There are similar statues at the entrance to the temple from where I come from, so maybe it's a general representation of the Jedi?" I answered the same once more but in an other way so I wouldn't sound rude and he continued to look around as I watched.

He took some of the scriptures from their place and looked through them, then put them back right where he took them from, after a while I looked back to the crystals. 'I wonder why he gave me those two crystals, black and white, and the journal were so much wisdom was written down for who knows how long. Still it felt wrong to think of it as my father's journal, but I made him that promise which I will only break if nothing could prevent it.' I was almost completely lost in my thoughts until the Nautolan walked back to me and I look at his face "Thank you for showing me this place, Blue." I smiled to him and replied with a "You're welcome. So should we head back?" which he responded with a nod as I lead them outside of the cave, right as we reached the village the sun had set and pointed out to where the sleep quartes would be and mentioned that I let someone prepare two beds in my house for Cody and Kit since they were the leaders, first they were lightly suprised but followed me to my home. As they made themself comfy I prepared something to eat and gave it to them, it only felt right to care in such a way for my guests.

As I wanted to go to my "office" I saw Kit fiddling with something and I looked over his shoulder, it seemed like he tried to fix something that looks like advanced technology. "What is that? In what kind of state is it as it looks like it's... Broken?" I turned my head sideways in confusion, so confused he turned around to look at me "It is going to be all right." I only nood and finally turned to my work, I still heard him trying to fix it until Cody took it from him and asked him to rest, I could only agree with him! I only Cody will rest up too and that soon.

Documents, over documents, over documents... When was the last time I had slept like I should of had...? But I have to do this, if only I wans't so... Tired... I laid my head on my arms and closed my eyes, a short nap wouldn't hurt...

I felt that someone was shaking me softly, to wake me up, so I lifted my head up and looked at that someone, it was Cody "I apologize, but I wanted to tell you that we're going to be picked up very soon." Oh... I felt sad as he said that, I really didn't wanted them to leave, but they have too, I can't just decide that... "Oh, that are good news." I managed to smile up at him. He nooded "Like the general said, you could come along."

I sighed "Unfortunately, I have too much of a burden on me. Tomorrow someone will come to fight for the dominance... Food supply, etc. There is no one here who is worthy enough of such a task... " I looked down on the desk infront of me, not wanting him to see in my eyes how weak and broken I truly was.

"I understand. Still a pity, the general will be disappointed." Even he seemed disappointed with it... I wonder, when the thing master Fisto mentioned, about my brother, is true, did Cody knew him?

"Promise, when I change my mind, I will find a way to either contact you or to find you." At least I managed to make him a bit more happy, at least something...
I felt my eyes grow heavy once more but I tried to stay awake since he was still there. "The whole thing doesn't look healthy..." Why do they have to leave... I could just cry, throw everything away, cling to him and would let everything out and ran away. But I knew I couldn't do that...
"I know Cody, but I have to go through this." I just wanted to bite the tip of my tongue of for almost sounding rude, to someone that just cared. " If you think so." Great, now I scared him off... "I'm going to catch up with sleep an other time." A last smile, well it felt like a last one that I could offer him in my miseralbe state. I clearly could tell that it displeased him, but he said his goodbyes to me, which I could only return with a "Hopefully we see each other again, sometime in the future." And there he goes to rest until their friends came by. Well, back to work.

Files, documents, requests... Maybe I could just take another... Zzz... Zzz...

I shot up at a strange and loud sound and rushed out of the balcony door, now noticing the blanket that was warpped around me for some reason, but there were some kind of ships I presume, but they looked similar to the Star Cruiser, Cody explained even that to me, only smaller, very smaller!

I wasn't the only one that was awoken by the sound as almost my whole pack had came out of their houses, some in their humanoid forms, other in their animalistic ones. The ships landed and their "doors" open up, other clones with different armour colours and even with something like a pattern, it reminds me of... Seriously, a wolf? If only I had decided to come with them, then I would probably know what this would mean, but no, I have to be an idiot...
I watched as the new clones helped Cody's men inside, then I noticed another man besides Kit, he looked like a Kel'Dor. My eyes were sharper than that of a normal Lupus so I could clearly see the light saber hanging from his side, a Jedi and from the way they interacted they seemed to be good friends. As I wanted to avert my gaze I saw that Kit turned around and walked in the direction of my home, but as he saw me on the balcony he stopped and waved with a smile, I returned the smile and wave and couldn't help but to let out a howl, funnily my pack shut up at once and looked to me, like almost everyone else from the clones. The howl was my way to say goodbye, just as I had ended it the Kel'Dor placed his hand on his shoulder, probably to get him to board the ship. I still watched them get in an he turned around once more but before our eyes could meet the doors closed up once more and the ships started to fly away, fuck it!
I jumped down from the balcony, ran out of the village, jumped on Anubis as fast as possible and we started to follow them for a bit until we had no ground but we were at a high place, but they didn't notice us and I had no chance of getting in. I only could watch as they disappeared between the clouds. I made Anubis turn around and let me get carried to the cave were I dismounted him and went inside running straight of the last corner, looking up at the moon goddess statue in tears. My face rested in my hands as I cried my eyes out "Why... Why do I have to such an idiot?! Please, tell me moon goddess, mother of us Lupus! Why was my mind so blind and ignored my heart's cries? Please, tell me why?! I had the chance to escape this nightmare, but I said no... I beg you, I pray to you, that they return soon enough and let me join them."

"My sweet child, your chance was not wasted, just belive in their return and they will come. Just stop doubting yourself and your abilities."

I looked up still with tears in my now shocked eyes, what was that voice...? It can't be! Mother...? But you're dead...

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Yes! Finally I managed to get the first chapter done! I'm so sorry for the long wait! Sometimes I just wanted to do other things or wasn't motivated enough to write!
So I beg you have read it and hopefully enjoyed it! It's just that I really have the feeling that no one of you, my dear watchers, don't read or enjoy or like my strories... Depending on my mood, your interest, etc. I will continue it.

And incase your wondering, the first part was like a diary entry from Blue.

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Nothing changed, always the same morning, nothing will ever change. Not when I get older, or when I defeat every male in my pack, they will still question me about me being Alpha. I was 8 years old as I had to become Alpha, since my father died that day. Since then I had to fight to at least get some respect from some of my pack, but I can't resent them for it. I mean a 8 year old girl who is an Alpha? It's laughable!

The only way that I get this horde of testosterone controlled idiots under control, is with this power I have, this special ability that I unleashed as I was 5... Since then everyone thought that I was a freak, because it's very strong and I couldn't control it at all... The only people that still got near me were my brother and my mother... But both are gone, forever... The only people that cared about me at all...

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It was sometime in the afternoon as I finally made it out of the village for just some time for me, knowing that those idiots won't destroy everything while I'm away, and could breathe ot of relieve to escape this madness for some time. I still felt the wounds from the last fight, a huge wound was over my whole back, but even so, I continued to walk through the beautiful, illuminated forest, to one of my favourite places, this ancient cave that was long forgotten from everyone. But I rediscovered it by pure accident, but it felt like it had to be fate.
As I reached it I leaned against the entrance of the cave and got something out of my bag, after I removed my bow from my back, and held one of them in my hands. Based of the notes from my father's journal and the books inside the cave, this was called a lightsaber, a weapon from those who are one with the force, they are either called Jedi or Sith, the Jedi were like the light side and the Sith are the dark side of the force.

I wonder what they are like, I never seen a Jedi or Sith, only read about them. I leaned back with a sigh and looked at the sky, but something was very different! The sky wasn't blue, it was red!! At once I jumped up, picked everything up as I looked once more to the sky. Something gigantic fell from the sky and the earth shook as if Gaia was in rage!! After the cry of the earth died down I "whistled" in a hiss-growling-way and only waited for a few seconds as the bushes were moving and out jumped a Palulukan, the most dangerous predator on Alrauna, on the ground at least, but I tamed this beast, this beast which meaned death itself when you stare it in the eye, so I decided to name him Anubis, I heard it was the god who accompanied the dead and he looks like a canine resembling this god Anubis. I'm also not sure how I managed to tame it, probally thanks to my special powers and thanks to the Palulukan some respect came from the others, but sadly only the children and elders, but at least a start!

I climbed on it's back and ran towards where this gigantic thing fell from the sky, while doing so some of my pack members who wanted to know what it was. As we all came to the thing crashed, I have no way of explaining what this could be! All I knew for sure that some weird people came out of the crater, they looked all white, some had weird orange markings, at some parts it looked like a black parts which could resemble a skin and then the weird, shaped black space on their faces, at a bit thinking you mind find it to look like armour! What the hell are those things?! My pack took their weapons in their hands or started to growl in their animalistic forms, a natuarl reaction. But they dropped their weapon like things and were raising their hands to show that they mean no harm and so my people relaxed even more, which was good, I didn't wanted to steep in a bloody mess made by those idiots! As Anibus carried me closer one of them steeped forth, he looked like to be the leader of this ominous group, he had more orange markings and some weird shaped thing over this weird shaped black thing on the front side of his head, almost as it should protect this from the sun. "Are there any medics around? Please, it is very urgent!" I was very suprised as I heard this language, it has been a very long time, the last was when mother teached it to me. No one of the pack seemed to know this language so I urged Anubis to hurry down to them and stopped in between those weird people and mine. As I climbed down from my loyal Palulukan I bossed my people around to get the healers, thankfully they reacted and some ran back to the village to get help. I turned around to the group as the leader came to me and crouched down to my eye level, god... It's not like I'm already that short!! "You can understand us?" He, I thought thanks to his voice that he was male, asked me as he was suprised at it. I mean, it's not like everyday you see someone looking so young to know different languages. "My people understand a lot of different languages, but yours is a rare one in villages like these." His response was a short nod, I believe it was a nod... He thanked me and said something about that their general was badly injuried, naturally I could never ignore a plea of help and was happy as the healers finally arived and quickly looked through the wounded and helped those in critical condition to get on the Pa'li to get them to the village faster, not asking any questions, as they were transported I offered the leader of the white-orange people to ride with me, which he accepted and I decided to ask some more questions, like where they came from and what had happend that they had landed here with this strange thing that looked destroyed. He told me that they had a mission on Vassek, and somehow I knew what this planet was, were the general they joined on this mission was a man named Kit Fisto, who was the injuried one from a heavy battle, while the general they were assigned too, a Obi-Wan Kenobi, had to leave for another solo mission and that ASAP. I looked over this strange man that was this general... A Nautolan, I belive he was. I also never saw one, but read about them in a book, what I also noticed that he was awake for a short time but passed out soon after he took a quick glance around.

Finally we reached the village and the injuried got prober treatment, but I had to be there all the time so that I could translate it and there weren't that little... Oh boy, Blue in what did you get yourself into again...? Just as I thought that I could take a break I was called again from the healer that was tending to the wound of the general, as he saw me however he looked really suprised, either because I was a little girl who has a huge knowledge of different languages or I don't know, but I couldn't ask why because I had to go to another of the students of the healers.

As finally everyone understood each other, I could finally plan some sleeping places for our guests, if only those idiots would listen to me for one moment of their existense! I really didn't wanted to curse around but I was so mad at once, all that frustration that had built up released and thankfully I knew a language that I was sure no one understood and cursed at nothing, just into the air. After I had finished my rant the guy that was the leader, his name was Cody he told me on the way, came to me and asked if everything was alright. My cheeks flared up in a blush as my thoughts raced around, did he just, did he understand me...? I didn't wanted to make him worry over more so I lied but I noticed that thanks to my ears and tail it was clear that it was a lie... What came next suprised me really, he removed his helmet and I could see straight into his face, to be honest, he looks very good for a soldier and I bet woman would fall over heels for a guy like him, even this scar around his eye added to his charm. "No one listens to you, hm?" He sounded so sympathetic, it made me feel even worse to give my worries to him, even if it was a slightest bit! "You got me... Some think that I'm not worthy at all... Even if I'm the daughter of the leader from this village... Everyday there are fight for the dominance, which I have to win..." I looked down with a sigh escaping my lips, while my ears and tail sank down. I sounded so miserable, but was suprised as I felt a hand on my head, right between my ears as he said a single sentence which gave me slight hope and motivation: "Don't worry, you're gonna make it." I managed to smile up at him, being glad that I could just relax a moment with someone who just was chilled with my situation. Sadly the gods must of hate me as one of the biggest males came towards us and barked his challenge, what I found a bit cute was that Cody, out of instinct, took aim at with his weird weapon, I could understand him, when your not used to such a size, he was almost as big as Cody and he didn't looked really friendly with that scared face, but I'm somehow proud of this face, one of my first battles and I almost tore his face apart. I gently laid a hand on his weapon to lower it and smiled at him to calm him, even if he looked asking with his eyes if I was sure about that. I nodded to him in ensuring way and turned to my other form, only that my head reached over his hips, almost sadly... Me and my challenger went to the main point of the village, my pack and even some of Cody's men came and watched. My opponent walked to the right, I to the left, flexing muscles moved under his fur, but it was the same for me, at least in a smaller version. Without a warning we both jumped at each other. Growls, barks, teeth and claws were flying around in our fight, from our wounds blood tripped on the ground but we didn't cared, we only cared of who would win!
At a moment from when I couldn't react in time the teeth of my opponent warpped around my neck and pressed me to the ground. Oh no, I'm not finished yet!! I tried to be limp to trick him, which worked as he wanted to howl in triumph, with my ability my eyes glowed and I pushed him off and on the ground while growling deeply. I smiled as he accepted his defeat and I broke the hold, he got dragged off to the healers while I just laid down panting, I'll probably join him later... As I wanted to close my eyes, it felt like I was lifted up. Wondering what was happening I open up my eyes and saw two of Cody's men caring me, well at least they are so friendly, not like my pack...
As they placed me down I saw that the Nautolan came back too with the help of one of the men, did he just watched the fight, why would he do something like that? The healers tented to my wounds first since I was the alpha, but funnily my wounds were worse than those from Tai, my opponent. As he got patched up he left right at once but I had to stay longer, but I could care less and stood up. But as I looked over to where the Nautolan was, he... He was floating in midair, those lekku or whatever those are called moved around as if he was under water(I read that the tentacles of the Nautolans are called lekku too but in literatur they are not referenced as lekku, but there is no known name for the tentacles. So I stick to lekku, if you have a better idea, do tell!)! I was so amazed that I started staring with an open mouth, which he probably felt it as he open up his big balck eyes, it caused a deep blush to form on my face and I could swear I smelled something, I have no idea why but I would call that it smelled like confusion! I guess my staring had a bigger impact than I hoped to, since he floated to the ground, oh boy what did I do...? My ears went downwards in a slight panic "Please excuse me! I didn't wanted to stare!" 'Why do I panic so much, in the presence of a "stranger"...? And why does this feel like déjà vu? My stange dreams, are you the reason of this feeling...?' But he only smiled at me "No no, that's okay! I didn't mean to scare you." I nodded a bit, still a bit uneasy about the whole situation "Okay, I hope that you are feeling better now. That must of been a really bad wound... My name is Blue, Cody has told me everything what happend on the way and who you are." Nice going Blue, you're an alpha not a weak pup, at least I didn't forgot to introduce me! He returned my nod and mentioned that he is feeling better, if I remember that Nautolans have skin that heals up quickly and since I knew who he was I saved him the time to introduce himself, I don't know why but it feels weird and rude that I saved it from him, why...?

"May I ask... What was the meaning of the fight?" Oh, he did saw it... Damnit! "Well, it's a fight for the dominance, to be the leader of the pack." I scratched my neck in embarrassment "Not my best performance..." I wonder what he felt as he watched the fight, as a Jedi, thanks to Cody I knew who he was exactly, he was a peace keeper and watching something like this... I'm not sure how I would feel if I was in his shoes.

"I was relieved to see that no one was killed." To be honest I made a suprised face at his reaction, but that's probably a common reaction of those who never saw one. "This fight is not about that, it's about to make the other submit to the alpha or in some cases new alpha." He nodded in understanding "So your community works like that of a pack?"

"You could say that, every place has something like a leader and sadly almsot no one listens to me, because I am "too" young and a woman, well more in my case little girl." Great, now I babble about my problems to him too... Way to go... "Have some patience, with the time you will establish yourself yet." And him too, why does they have more sympathy than my own people?!

"I hope so..." and only nodded to him, not really sure about it. He smiled encouragingly to me "You are still young. How about your wounds?" And now he is even concerned about me! Well, he has offically now cared about me even more than my father has ever, as he was still alive... "Had been worse." Showed him an old and rather large scar on my shoulder, "my first fight for dominance." I said since as an alpha, I couldn't show weakness in front of others. He only nodded sligtly and I could tell that it, in some way, displeased him after I had shown him the scar, can't blame him about it.

"I have to thank you for all your help." I smiled at him, it almost feels like I knew him for such a long time, which isn't possible at all. "We seem to have been lucky that we could at least communicate with anyone." Now I had to grin at his sentence, how is it possible that this man make me feel so relaxed and, how do I put it, make me feel so at home? "True, without me you would have to taste your way through the different languages." "Well, we would have stayed in the wreck, since the clones can't speak so many languages." I heard that again, clones... What do they mean with it? I would have to ask them later about it and about understanding languages... "Well, when I cursed Cody understood me word by word ..." I can't belive how embarrassing that was!

"I'll tell you something. The first, and most only thing, that a soldier learns when used in an mission on a new planet are the curses of the natives." Wait, WHAT?! I don't know if I should be shocked or astonished or even worried! "Well Cody mentioned that to me once."
Now I wonder, Cody mentioned that this was the 212th attack battalion, so where there other battalions like his and were they also full of clones? To me, as I had helped to translate while their wounds got looked at, it felt like they all are brothers or treating the others this way, who knows what I might learn when looking directly in their faces, for know I only knew Cody's face, which reminds me... "To be honest, without his helmet he looks friendlier. Do they wear their helmets all the time?" They all seem like great people to get along with, if only I wasn't bound by my duty as an alpha... "Mostly on the missions, yes. Why do you ask?"

"Many are very suspicious thanks to the helmets. Half of our language is based on barking, growling and whimpering, the other on facial expressions and gestures, and since they do not see the faces and their facial expressions, they are nervous and suspicious. Well, at least the part we Lupus use of the Alraunoan language is so." Really, I've seen some of the children and other of my people getting really nervous thanks to those facts.

"I understand that. I will ask them to store their helmets as long we are here." Again, I was very suprised that he understood it, but grateful at the same time. I smiled to him "Thank you, they have nothing to worry about here, I promise." Well at least those soldiers can have a rest while being here, I don't want to thing about what they have been through... "I know, your people are very friendly." Master Fisto nodded lightly and looked out through one of the smaller windows of the house of the healers and I can't just belive how calm I am in the moment, when was the last time I felt like this... As a pup? Well as long as I have the chance of enjoying this calmness, let's chat I guess.

"Hard to imagine that this was a commercial key point. That was millions of years ago. As better planets and systems were discovered our planet went into oblivion, we are only at the end of a huge system." His eyes slightly widen. "Really? It is possible." I still wonder why they said that this was a unknown planet to the... What was it? Republic?

A nod from my side "That is the reason why my people can understand and speak so many and different languages." He crossed his arms infront of his chest "Ah, now that makes sense. One more question, if you would allow it ... Is your whole people force sensitive?" Now that was a hard one! Good that I know what this, the force, is.
"I can only answer for those here. Some said they felt something, but there are very few who say such a thing, let alone admit. For obvious reason, when I triggerd it all the other kids were afraid of me and called me, to put it on your tongue, a freak. Only my brother played with me when we were at the age of puppies." I spoke as I bit into a fungus of the Puffer, there was actually no main name for it we Lupus started to call it like that, but remembering my past I almost crushed this innocent fungus which had nothing to do with it... One of the healers gave us both a cup full of the liquid of the Tawtsngal. While the Jedi master was lightly hesitant I drowned the whole cup, as I wiped my mouth and placed the cup down I looked at him "This liquid has a healing effect and is full of nutrients, I think all the healers gave out this while tending to their wounds." With that he drank the cup too and set it down afterwards.

"With what you have just said, I belive it was your brother that came to us into the temple." I almost let the fungus fall while he spoke, my brother...? He is dead so it can't be possible that it was him, I saw him die, even if the memory is blurry thanks to another one... Mother... "I... Can't remember it clearly when he "disappeared", I think that this memory of mine is blury, probably thanks to my mother's death..." My eyes looked to the ground "My condolences because of your mother." I could only muster a nod to him, as I looked up at him slightly he was looking at the ceiling, for whatever reason he had.

"So you're one of the few who uses the force actually, if I understand correctly?" At his questions I met his eyes again and nod "You're correct on that." I'm not sure where this will go... "Is there any reason why that is so?" A reason? I wish I knew one and there would be! It would explain so much... "I don't know if there is one to be honest..." I looked down once more and stuffed the rest of the fungus in my mouth to chew.

"We will leave, as soon as possible. You are welcome to join us." My eyes got as big as plates and I almost choked on the fungus so I hit my chest to push it down with couching. Right as I wanted to scream yes I was reminded what my duty was... "But I can't ... I have to take care of this place ..." This legacy is a pure curse for me... I looked at his face once more and saw him smiling understandingly "As you say, the offer consists." Why can't I just decide that I really want to... Well It could take a while 'til they have to go, until then I have time to think.

Then I noticed something which rings thousands of small bells in my memory! "The symbol that you all wear, it seems so familiar to me." master Fisto looked lightly suprised at me, beacuse it was logic that I could never knew it, even if it would be fact that my brother, Desmond, was a Padawan. "I think I saw it only recently, near here."
"Are you sure? Where?" Come on... Remember! AH, the cave! "I remember where it was, are you strong enough for a little trip?" I smiled at him, I don't know why, but it felt good to share this with someone! As the master sat up I mentioned that he could take some of the 212th with us and while then I would wait at the outskits of the city, where the forest would start. With a nod from his I went and waited in my animalistic form.

I sat down and waited, but not for long. As I looked over to the Nautolan and the ones he brought with him, now I knew why they called them clones... They all looked the same physically, well except that some had other hair styles, coloures, eye colours, scares, tattoos and even beards! But for me, they looked different from the insides and when I focus on that, it looked like, well for me, that they didn't looked alike, just why...? I see that Kit brought Cody too and smiled at all as a wolf, which was a prefered name for this form of the Lupus, the smile was returned from Cody and Kit which made me squeal with happiness insides, if only I knew why that was so...

"Sorry for the delay." Why did I knew that was the first thing to escape the master Jedi's lips? I just shook it off saying that it was okay "So, where did you see the symbol?"

"I will show you, just follow me." With that I started to walk at a normal pace, no need to rush things. I had to laugh as Anubis jumped out of the glowing flora and startled the poor clones, one even fell on his behind since he tripped. I turned back to my humanoid form to grab Anubis' head softly, rubbing it but scolding softly at the same time. Thinking about it, this must of look funny, a girl that is not the tallest scoldng a creatur that is twice her size! I made Anubis walk slowly to the clones, with a lowered head I spoke while rubbing his head "If you're wondering, I made Anubis apologize to you for scaring you to death. He thought I needed his help, so he came. Don't worry he won't bite your head off, unlike others of his kind when they are untamed... And there aren't many Palulukan that got tamed, logical since the Palulukan are the most dangerous predator on land in Alrauna, but you only encounter them alone and very, very deep in the forest."

I'm not sure if I took all of their fear, but the clone that fell on his butt stood up and lowly, very slowly placed a hand on Anubis' forehead and he stayed calm, only to be tackled by Anubis, were he screamed in fear, can't blame him, and be drowled in his saliva. I started laughing and at the same time I tried to get Anubis to stopp, one of the man from Cody, one with the natural black and a beard was still laughing and grinning while the others calmed themself, well more like grinning from ear to ear "Seems like Anubis likes you Shiny." This "Shiny" got away from Anubis while I managed to hold him "Oh shut it Boil! You're only glad that it was not you!" Everyone were chuckling again while I sent Anubis off. "Care to continue gentlemens?"

While walking I couldn't help but to hum something, it was an old song that mother passed down to me and she sang and hummed to me as she put me to sleep, I could tell that everone was listing closely to me, but it doesn't matter right now. Finally we reached the cave "The cave belongs to the place I want to show you." I looked at the Jedi and saw and smelled his light confusion, but he nodded. I proceed inside the cave that was illuminated by the cystals that must be familiar to him, and he was very suprised as he looked around "I thought that these crystals only exists on Ilum..." I also looked around and took in the sight of the crystals which shined in the colours of blue, green, yellow, red, purple and even white and black.

"Father has also described in his journal that it is a miracle that they are growing here. He said also that there is either a normal explainable reason or is it a work of the moon goddess. These colorful tones are also very strange." A nod came from the master Jedi as he looked around once more, even the clones were speachless "If the Council hears this... I would never have thought that something like this could exist, on such a planet to begin with." I only nodded and lead them further inside, into the "heart". I once more stopped infront of a tunnel "This leads to the heart of the cave and the place I mentioned, don't worry it's a straight tunnel and also illuminated by the brightest crystals of them all.

Said and done, we entered another big space with one statue on the right and left at the end of the room, they looked like a human which was hooded so that their faces couldn't be seen. As they all came out of the tunnel I didn't needed to turn around to see their suprised and slight shocked faces, I could feel them in the bak of my head. I sat down right infront of the door, between the statues, and looking at the switch that was only visible for me, someone that had let me in of the many secrets of this forgotten cave told me that only those who are strong in the force could see it. "This is what I wanted to show to you." And pressed the switch which open up the ancient door to the long forgotten archive.

The room was quite large, the crystals illuminated the whole room in a calm blue-green light, in the middle stood a huge statue of a Jedi, but whose face you could not see thanks to it's hood, alike with the two statues in the vestibule. Many scriptures were kept there and the walls told a story through pictures and ancient texts, as someone had engraved them in the walls a long time ago.

I sat down next to the statue as I watched Kit look around in astonishment, the clones looked around but honestly they hardly dared to breathe the air there since they were awestruck thanks to this holy place. "These scriptures... Like the archive on Coruscant! How could this place be forgotten so easily?" I can understand his confusion, so much wisdom left behind, but I could only shrug with my shoulders "I do not know, I have watched over this place, and that's the reason why I speak so many different languages. Because I have read and studied the many scriptures." I turned to him, I gave the promise not to tell the whole truth as to why Ihave this much knowledge, a promise that I'm even going to keep infront of a Jedi master and... I don't know why, but for me he is almost like a father figure to me...
"I can imagine that the council will send some Jedi to study the scriptures and guard this place." Meeting some other Jedi would be really interesting, so I can imagine that this could happen, he seems to know this "council" really good. I only answered with a: 'Probably.'
He walks to the statue next and looked up at it "Before you ask who this is, I do not know, no name, no face." I streched as a wolf and looked at him again. "There are similar statues at the entrance to the temple from where I come from, so maybe it's a general representation of the Jedi?" I answered the same once more but in an other way so I wouldn't sound rude and he continued to look around as I watched.

He took some of the scriptures from their place and looked through them, then put them back right where he took them from, after a while I looked back to the crystals. 'I wonder why he gave me those two crystals, black and white, and the journal were so much wisdom was written down for who knows how long. Still it felt wrong to think of it as my father's journal, but I made him that promise which I will only break if nothing could prevent it.' I was almost completely lost in my thoughts until the Nautolan walked back to me and I look at his face "Thank you for showing me this place, Blue." I smiled to him and replied with a "You're welcome. So should we head back?" which he responded with a nod as I lead them outside of the cave, right as we reached the village the sun had set and pointed out to where the sleep quartes would be and mentioned that I let someone prepare two beds in my house for Cody and Kit since they were the leaders, first they were lightly suprised but followed me to my home. As they made themself comfy I prepared something to eat and gave it to them, it only felt right to care in such a way for my guests.

As I wanted to go to my "office" I saw Kit fiddling with something and I looked over his shoulder, it seemed like he tried to fix something that looks like advanced technology. "What is that? In what kind of state is it as it looks like it's... Broken?" I turned my head sideways in confusion, so confused he turned around to look at me "It is going to be all right." I only nood and finally turned to my work, I still heard him trying to fix it until Cody took it from him and asked him to rest, I could only agree with him! I only Cody will rest up too and that soon.

Documents, over documents, over documents... When was the last time I had slept like I should of had...? But I have to do this, if only I wans't so... Tired... I laid my head on my arms and closed my eyes, a short nap wouldn't hurt...

I felt that someone was shaking me softly, to wake me up, so I lifted my head up and looked at that someone, it was Cody "I apologize, but I wanted to tell you that we're going to be picked up very soon." Oh... I felt sad as he said that, I really didn't wanted them to leave, but they have too, I can't just decide that... "Oh, that are good news." I managed to smile up at him. He nooded "Like the general said, you could come along."

I sighed "Unfortunately, I have too much of a burden on me. Tomorrow someone will come to fight for the dominance... Food supply, etc. There is no one here who is worthy enough of such a task... " I looked down on the desk infront of me, not wanting him to see in my eyes how weak and broken I truly was.

"I understand. Still a pity, the general will be disappointed." Even he seemed disappointed with it... I wonder, when the thing master Fisto mentioned, about my brother, is true, did Cody knew him?

"Promise, when I change my mind, I will find a way to either contact you or to find you." At least I managed to make him a bit more happy, at least something...
I felt my eyes grow heavy once more but I tried to stay awake since he was still there. "The whole thing doesn't look healthy..." Why do they have to leave... I could just cry, throw everything away, cling to him and would let everything out and ran away. But I knew I couldn't do that...
"I know Cody, but I have to go through this." I just wanted to bite the tip of my tongue of for almost sounding rude, to someone that just cared. " If you think so." Great, now I scared him off... "I'm going to catch up with sleep an other time." A last smile, well it felt like a last one that I could offer him in my miseralbe state. I clearly could tell that it displeased him, but he said his goodbyes to me, which I could only return with a "Hopefully we see each other again, sometime in the future." And there he goes to rest until their friends came by. Well, back to work.

Files, documents, requests... Maybe I could just take another... Zzz... Zzz...

I shot up at a strange and loud sound and rushed out of the balcony door, now noticing the blanket that was warpped around me for some reason, but there were some kind of ships I presume, but they looked similar to the Star Cruiser, Cody explained even that to me, only smaller, very smaller!

I wasn't the only one that was awoken by the sound as almost my whole pack had came out of their houses, some in their humanoid forms, other in their animalistic ones. The ships landed and their "doors" open up, other clones with different armour colours and even with something like a pattern, it reminds me of... Seriously, a wolf? If only I had decided to come with them, then I would probably know what this would mean, but no, I have to be an idiot...
I watched as the new clones helped Cody's men inside, then I noticed another man besides Kit, he looked like a Kel'Dor. My eyes were sharper than that of a normal Lupus so I could clearly see the light saber hanging from his side, a Jedi and from the way they interacted they seemed to be good friends. As I wanted to avert my gaze I saw that Kit turned around and walked in the direction of my home, but as he saw me on the balcony he stopped and waved with a smile, I returned the smile and wave and couldn't help but to let out a howl, funnily my pack shut up at once and looked to me, like almost everyone else from the clones. The howl was my way to say goodbye, just as I had ended it the Kel'Dor placed his hand on his shoulder, probably to get him to board the ship. I still watched them get in an he turned around once more but before our eyes could meet the doors closed up once more and the ships started to fly away, fuck it!
I jumped down from the balcony, ran out of the village, jumped on Anubis as fast as possible and we started to follow them for a bit until we had no ground but we were at a high place, but they didn't notice us and I had no chance of getting in. I only could watch as they disappeared between the clouds. I made Anubis turn around and let me get carried to the cave were I dismounted him and went inside running straight of the last corner, looking up at the moon goddess statue in tears. My face rested in my hands as I cried my eyes out "Why... Why do I have to such an idiot?! Please, tell me moon goddess, mother of us Lupus! Why was my mind so blind and ignored my heart's cries? Please, tell me why?! I had the chance to escape this nightmare, but I said no... I beg you, I pray to you, that they return soon enough and let me join them."

"My sweet child, your chance was not wasted, just belive in their return and they will come. Just stop doubting yourself and your abilities."

I looked up still with tears in my now shocked eyes, what was that voice...? It can't be! Mother...? But you're dead...

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Yes! Finally I managed to get the first chapter done! I'm so sorry for the long wait! Sometimes I just wanted to do other things or wasn't motivated enough to write!
So I beg you have read it and hopefully enjoyed it! It's just that I really have the feeling that no one of you, my dear watchers, don't read or enjoy or like my strories... Depending on my mood, your interest, etc. I will continue it.

And incase your wondering, the first part was like a diary entry from Blue.