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The last thing I recall was falling asleep in the, what was it called? Infirmary, but as I slowly woke up I felt two arms and that I was carried. Antero? It feels like his arms and the warmth feels alike, but I know that this is just my mind playing tricks on me.

I open them up and saw the white of something, sharpening my vision I notice that this was a clone's armor, but why is a clone carrying me? I don't think we already reached our destination? It only felt like I was sleeping a few hours... Hello what have we here?! It looks like the statues in front of the archive in the cave on Alrauna! Did I really sleep this long?

I returned to my humanoid form, after I yawned and notice that the clone was carrying my bag, so I took it from him. I feel that he appreciates this gesture from me, even if I didn't needed to do that. But that is one of my characteristics and I could make sure that nothing went missing in the meantime, even though I'm sure that no one would of stolen something from it.

I let my eyes run around as I was still carried somewhere, I was so amazed by those halls alone. The structure of this building is so amazing and it made me feel so calm, and that is not only thanks to the calm colours present. The one thing that I noticed that it looked so empty at some points, seems like the duties of this war have kept some Jedi away from their home, I hope all of them are save, dear gods please watch over them.

We reached a door that sprung open and we went inside, it reminded me of the infirmary that Pulse worked in, only difference it looked better equipped and there are so many people here. probably doctors of different species. It made me nervous seeing so many people that are strangers for me.

I was put down and just as the clone left already two doctors came to me, I backed away and embraced my healthy leg, the injured one just hang from the table. But before they could do anything Pulse came in and shooed them away while saying "Stop it you two, you're scaring her. I'll take it from here, since she trusts me already and it will reduce her stress, which would keep her from getting better." With that those two left and I managed to smile at him, he's a doctor too so he knows what's best for his patients. Since I'm completely new to everything it's good that a known face is there for me.

After a few tests Pulse brought me to another room which looked like a bedroom to me, only that it was a hospital room where patients sleep, Pulse had explained that to me. I sat on the one that was near the window, giving me my first glimpse of the planet Coruscant. I still need to get used to all the sounds outside, those things that are flowing, or flying, around in masses, but are too small to be ships and this weird sound that sounds like a horn, but very different. I looked back to Pulse, who was looking at something in his hand, the one that handed it to him said something like "All her medical stats are on the Datapad, some are good, but others are more in the critical area. In this state she won't make it past the surgery, even in risk that her bones might heal faster than we expect and having to break the bones again to operate on it, her stats have to be normal first and that would be the best choice for her now." Even if they were out of range from my view and a normal hearing ability, I heard everything they said. I have to agree, even if I don't understand everything just yet, I do not want to die before my new life began. "Before we can fix your ankle, you need to rest end regain some of your strength. I hope you understand that, it would be to risky now." I nodded at Pulse with an understanding look, I might keep it to me that I heard everything the other doctor told Pulse.

The night came faster than I thought it would and still the city was so alive as it was over day, I think it's even more active now! It will be hard for me to fall asleep like that, but I'll need to get used to it, after all I'm going to be here a long time, probably. I've read the books from the archive, that I brought with me, well the copies that is, and was through with the half of it. I guess I "wasted" much of my free time reading those books, it was one way of shutting out this... This darkness that haunts me.

But laying here gives me the chills from them as I didn't had a strategy to keep them away for a while. My grip on the blanket is so hard my knuckles are white and my claws are making holes in it. I swear they are here, inside this very room just waiting for the right moment to strike, to hurt me just like every time. But I'm scared way more since I have no protection charms and runes, which would of reduce the extent of their “work”.

Just as I thought they would redraw for the first time every something went flying with a loud bang against the wall, followed by other things. I was so scared I couldn't move or scream as the bed was moving around in the room, bashing around and finally I was knocked off it as it was flipped over and this time I screamed loud, thanks to fear and my hurt ankle, I only don't know if I screamed loud enough to anyone to hear.

I was the next thing being thrown around the room making even more noises, thanks to shards all around the room I was cut on different parts of my body, but not only thanks to those, this thing has sharp claws which can cut through my skin like any good knife or sharp teeth could. I already feel many precisely placed wounds, the blood was dripping from those. Why me?!

I heard bashing against the door and just as those beings went away, leaving me curled up in a corner, the door sprung open and two masked figures entered the room along with a doctor. The masked figures wore traditional golden brown Jedi robes with eye-catching gold embellishments, those mask are probably a sign of anonymity, many keys hang from a belt around their waist, a lightsaber in one hand that looked like it had two blades. The doctor kneeled down to my eye level. "What happend? Who did this to you?" She touched my shoulders and I flinched even more as I curled up even more, trying so hard not to cry in front of them, hugging my tail close to me. She looked at one of the masked one and asked if he could get Pulse, he to get him at once.

I let her look over my wounds and let her clean them and bandage them too, more not, I haven't spoken a word to her, I do not trust her enough. But Pulse came soon and as he saw the state the room and I was in he was more than shocked at what he saw. He came to me and said to the others that they should leave at least the room, which they did after a bit argument from the doctor, but she left eventually. "Blue, can you tell me what happened and who did this to you?" I nodded to him after a bit.

"This, is not the first time this happened... After my brother "left" this all started, father never cared about it when I woke up crying or when my whole room was destroyed by this being. I never really had a word for it except darkness, thing or being, it or them mostly came at night for their fun... I could only reduce some damage after I painted protection symbols and hang up carms that would keep any dark being away, but they always found a way around this protection. They had only stop a long time when I was with someone that made me whole again, guess love can even keep your darkness away, but as he died they came back and got worse over time... I'm just so surprised that they found me so early and that they went away as the doctor and those other two came inside. Even on the ship, they didn't came to me or when any of you or the Jedi were there they also kept away." Pulse listen to me while he was finishing on my wounds, from his expression he wasn't sure what to think about it, but he knew I wasn't lying thanks to my wounds. He picked me up "I'll stay with you for the night and tomorrow we'll look at those protection things you mentioned, after all you need to rest up for the surgery." I nodded at him and he brought me to another room, laid me on one bed and sat down on the other smiling at me. "Just try to sleep, I will be here until you wake up, promise." I nuzzled in the soft bed and just at once I fell asleep and maybe I will sleep through again.

The sunlight tickled my eyes and I open them up, looking straight at the window, seems like they really stay away when someone that cares about me is with me, they stay away. But why is that so? Can't they just leave me alone completely? I turned around to face the other side of the room where Pulse probably slept, but he wasn't there. I sniffed the air in this room and from the still strongly scent, I could tell that he have just left 2 minutes prior. Just as I sat up the door open up and Pulse, who held a tray with food, along with Kit came inside the room, I couldn't help but to wag my tail. "How did you sleep, Blue?" Pulse asked as he put down the tray, the food smelled interesting! "Better after you stayed with me. I don't know why it never happens when someone is there with me..." I looked down, I then felt the bed sink next to me and I smelled it was Kit. "Pulse told me what happened last night. It's better if someone you trust stays with you over night along with any symbol you know. But like you, I have no idea what this could be." I nodded to him, took the tray and started eat, after all I need to get stronger to get through the surgery.

After I ate Kit and I looked over the books that held such symbols, Pulse had to go to do other stuff. As I finally found some runes Kit said he needs to get something and left me alone to paint those at specific places, I wonder why master Fisto had so leave so suddenly, but he had his duties and such. At least I don't need to draw them with my own blood, like I had to do every night as father was still alive, whenever I was out he went in my room to search through my stuff, taking anything that would be of value for me, and wash or brush those runes away, he hated me so much he risked of letting this darkness kill me...

"Blue... Your name should of been Hel, no you should've never been born!! If it wasn't for you my dear sweet Elisa would still be alive and my son would still love me... Everything is your fault! "

No... Why now...? Just as I expected to turn around, there he stood. The man I still loved even if he abused me to an amount that anyone would want revenge on the man that put one through it, not me, I still wonder why... His silhouette was clear to me, but I knew all too well that this is not real, HE is not real!! Just ignore him, he will go away when I show I'm not giving him my attention.

"I'm disappointed, you were so much better, you even lost to someone like Arneot. You were 8 and defeated someone twice your size, I thought I teached you better to use your anger! You should of killed him as a sign that no one should of question you, but no you're a coward!! I should of killed you when I had the chance, you're a disgrace that never should of seen the light of the world!!"

Stay calm, I try to stay so... Only hard if your enemy knows your only weakness and how you react to certain things... "GET OUT OF MY HEAD!! YOU'RE DEAD AND THAT SHOULD STAY LIKE THAT. IF YOU EVER SHOW YOUR FACE TO ME AGAIN I WILL MAKE SURE YOUR DAMN SOUL IS WITH THE NIGHTMARE THAT RESIDES IN HELHEIM!!"

Just as he vanished the door open up and there stood a very worry looking Kit, oops... Why do I always have to overact...? "What happened while I was away?" I can't just lie, I need to be honest with him. "Well... How do I put it? My father, who died long ago, appeared in front of me again... And that like always, in a clear, but black foggy silhouette and throwing stuff at my head, saying how much of a disgrace I am and similar things... I guess I got a bit angry and started screaming, sorry I worried you..." My ears fell down again and I felt and heard how he kneeled down next to me "You do not need to be sorry for it, who knows how long it took for you to react this way. How far are you with drawing those symbols?" he even placed a hand on my shoulder. "I just need to put finishing touches to this one and I'm done." I started to draw the last touches to the symbol and that should at least put up one secure barrier, but how long will this hold up...?

"I got something for you, master Kenobi found this under the things of his latest Padawan(Yes, we made Des the Padawan of Obi), he mentioned that it belonged to your brother, saying it was a representation of some kind of guardian god, but he forgot the name of this very god." I turned towards Kit and saw this said statue. "That is Heimdall, the guardian god, he was the god that watched over the rainbow bridge, the so called Bifröst, which is the only way from Midgard to Asgard, and would warn the gods with his horn when Ragnarök would begin. I wonder why my brother would take this with him to Coruscant, but I think this will help too." I let it float to the side table next to my bed.

"In the future, would you mind telling me more about your home, your culture and even about those gods? I find it very interesting." While helping me to the bed he asked and I nodded with a smile to him, that would be nice.

A few days have passed since that incident occurred and the darkness has stayed away so far, Pulse stayed with me for a few more nights, but I noticed that he would leave at some part in the night, even so nothing came for me, maybe they have giving me the feeling that there is always someone that will be there for me when anything would happen.

Kit also visited me very often, I really enjoy spending time with the Nautolan Jedi, his company is like my safe haven here, in a unknown place so far, even so, I wasn’t allowed to move anyway so it was nice and he asked me if I would tell him about my people and such. For that he even gave me somethings out of the Jedi Archive that I was able to read, I was happy for it as it gave me even more knowledge of different things.

I was also very excited to meet the Jedi council, but I need to wait. My surgery was more important than meeting someone, well a group of different people at least. I just hope I will be strong soon enough for it.

“Good morning Blue, how are you feeling?” A doctor came inside my room, her name was Rig Nema, I befriended her as Pulse had to go away for a bit and would have time to check on me. She told me she was a Jedi healer and she is a really nice person, even if I have no idea what her species is, but I can care less, she never saw a Lupus neither.

“I’m feeling pretty good Miss Nema!” for me it was only polite to greet her like that, I never asked her age and I’m pretty sure that I’m way younger than her anyway, I mean in human years I would be… 17 to 18 I think? “While you eat I’ll check on your stats, let’s see if the surgery is more in reach now.” I gave a short nod as I tried to move as little as possible while eating, but that those stats get analysed takes a bit.

“I also wanted to tell you Pulse is back. Okay, I’ll leave you now and tell you how your stats are later.” She smiled at me while I returned it “Okay, until later Miss Nema.” And with that she went out the door again. I just hope that it’s time now and it makes me happy that Pulse is back. I turned my head towards my side table where the statue of Heimdall was still, it made me feel sad a bit. It just reminds me of my big brother, I just hope he’s okay and not dead. But how is that still possible, I saw him die, falling to his death while he tried to save me from the Wings of Night. No, stop thinking about that! I don’t want to have a collapse right now, not now!! I need to close this memory for good!! Even so, I could only cry thanks to it, the haunting look on my brothers face as he fell and couldn’t save me. I always had this feeling that a piece of me has died with him since then, but what if it was really him that was a Padawan here? If so, where is he now? Is he alive or did something horrible happened to him before I came here? I just hope he is happy, wherever he is now.

Just as I wanted to pick up another book the door open up and Pulse stepped in my room, he seemed really happy. I sat up and smiled at him “Welcome back Pulse!” my tail wagged at once, I can’t just help myself with it. “I have some good news for you, Blue. Your stats are stable enough for your surgery!” Really? That is very good and it means I'm able to walk soon enough!

"Did you eat breakfast yet?" I nodded, ops have I done something wrong? "Not good, you have to be sober for the surgery, because otherwise it might happen that gastric acid gets into your lungs during the surgery, which would cause very unpleasant problems. Don't worry, we'll do the surgery tomorrow, but you for that you are not allowed to eat or drink until tomorrow. You understand that Blue?" I smiled at him. "I understand, I won't drink or eat anything until then, promise." Pulse ruffled the hair between my ears with a smile. "I'll get everything ready for the surgery, for tomorrow. See you later then, Blue." I smiled once again and he went outside. I'm so happy for tomorrow! Walking on my own and meeting this council just got so close now!

Mostly for this day I was in a quiet reading atmosphere with the books I still have, guess even Kit was very busy today. I would never be angry because of that, I mean he is a member of this Jedi council after all. I wonder how my meeting with this council would go? Another question that came to my mind was, did my brother also went to see this council like I will? To worry about it won't get me anywhere, the only solution would be to ask either master Fisto, master Kenobi or even himself, but I doubted the last option again. I still can’t believe that he was here and alive. How did he even end up here? Desmond didn’t have this ability like I did, well I haven’t noticed it with him. IF he did have it why did he never told anyone and kept it secret? One question is answered and two takes it place, I better stop thinking about those. I should better have a clear mind for tomorrow. I just wish... I would be able to see him once more, his smile, his face, his eyes, his voice... To have back the half I have lost on this night...

I didn’t notice that I fell asleep, but it was morning already! And since I haven’t eaten anything it was my surgery day! Just as I sat up in bed Pulse came in. “Did you sleep good?” like always I smiled with a nod along with tail wags. “I can tell you’re excited for the surgery, so I won’t let you wait longer.” Pulse walked to the bed, tipped in something and it began to float, following him automatically.

While he lead the bed towards the room where there surgery is held in I looked around more, it doesn't really look different at all, but what did I expect from a hospital? We then reached the room and I was placed on the operation table then, getting hooked up at different machines that looked over my vital signs. Miss Nema was there with Pulse, they organised their things and soon were finished with it. Pulse stepped to me with something in his hand, I got nervous all of a sudden. "Don't worry, you won't feel any of this, it's like you're asleep. And you don't need to be afraid or nervous, I will be there and after we're done I'll wake you up, once you woken up I bet you won't feel any pain and your ankle will heal better, but keep in mind, bed rest for at least 1 up to 2 months." I nodded at him and he sent me to sleep while he put a oxygen mask over my mouth and nose.

I open up my eyes and it was a bit dark around me. I stood up and walked around without any pain. I then saw some kind of light and walked towards it and stood in front of a barrier that separated me from a scene that was illuminated. It was a room, looks like the bridge from that cruiser. What made me very confused was that I stood there in different clothes, looks like the one of the Padawans only the robe had a darker purple colour. Next to me stood a clone, his armor had a light blue pattern, a pauldron, I read about it in one book, around his neck, a kama with a blue rim, his helm was on his head which wore a visor attached to it, as he turned to look at the me in this scene, I saw the so called jaig eyes, seemed like he did something very amazing that he earned his jaig eyes somewhere, but who is he? But before I could find out about him the scene disappeared and at another place it reappeared, so I walked towards it. This time it was a planet, but I couldn't tell which... I was there along with the commander looking clone, but this time there was another one, he also had a pauldron, but his visor was like a antenna like thing and his kama looked so different from the other one, was he a so called ARC? His armor was also a light blue colour and I notice a rune which looks like a one from the thunder god's hammer, Mjölnir! How in the god's name got this there?! What is happening in this scene? The "commander" screamed at me with his helmet on and I looked sad but seems like I tried to defend myself while tears gathered in my eyes. He stormed away in rage then as I cried, but the ARC one soon came up to me, he had hid himself from the view of the ones in the scene, and embraced me, trying to comfort me. He even pulled off his helm and I could see his face, this man had dark blue hair that looked messy, brown eyes almost like everyone of the clones and had a scar over his nasal bone.

This scene also disappeared and appeared at some other place. This time it were the three again, walking while I kept my distance from the commander and kept close to the blue haired clone, I literally felt the stare from under the helmet of the commander, towards the ARC and me, it almost feels like anger, jealousy but also regret and sadness. What is all this meaning? As the scene disappeared for another time it didn't came back and it got so bright all around me that I had to shield my eyes from it.

As I open my eyes again, I was back in my room again. I sat up slowly, I felt so dizzy and tired, is this because of this weird dream or sleep? I looked at my foot which was wrapped up and laid on something. I laid back down as it was way to dizzy to concentrate, at least I could move my eyes around and my head only lightly. The door open up and Kit came in with his typical smile "Well, did everything went good?" he said down next to me on the bed. I smiled to him with a simple yes. "I'm glad. I should introduce you to the Council very soon then." I nodded to Kit once more, I just hope this dizziness will go away soon enough...

The door open up once again and in came Pulse along with this Kel'Dor that leads the Wolfpack, in which Pulse is, Kit told me his name is Plo Koon. "So far so good?" Pulse asked me as he looked at my bandaged foot. "Yes, only that I'm dizzy and tired." He stroke my head saying it was normal after an anaesthesia. Good enough, I thought worse at first but I know that Pulse wouldn't put me into any danger.

I then notice that the Kel'Dor was looking at me, then he turned to Kit who was at my side. "You were right with her, my friend." What does he mean? I looked very confused to kit with my head crooked to one side with one ear pointing up. "I just told him somethings about you." Kit said but the Kel'Dor crossed his arms in front of his chest. "He almost talked for more than an hour." I couldn't help but to giggle at that, even Kit laughed a bit with a 'Oops!'

I looked at master Plo Koon after I stopped my giggles "I hope it was not too boring to listen too." The Kel'Dor shook his head with a simple and quick no, a really interesting contemporary.

"Did you come here in order to become a Jedi?" I turned my head towards the Jedi master and looked into his covered eyes, for a Kel'Dor this mask and protection like "sunglasses"(I don't know how do describe them! XD) are essential while being on another planet that has oxygen on it. "I think so, I want to know more what this special ability is that I own and how I control it. I know it's a force, a power, that acts like a balance." He nodded at me "Then I hope the council allow you to become one." but he mumbled one thing that I couldn't understand in my condition, so I could only nod at him. "I've brought copies of the scriptures from the archive, from my homeplanet, with me. I hope these scriptures will help you." I let my bag, where I carried the books inside, float to my side without much concentration. I noticed that both Jedi looked very surprised at that, do they need a higher concentration to just let something move? "I'm sure they will help very much." I smiled at master Plo Koon and took out the Journal of my father, which is not his but actually from someone else. He said I should call him great grandpa, but what confused me and I still don't know why is that he was an old Draconian, a so called wolf dragon! Let's say, I fell on his back as I found the cave spontaneously. I gave the bag with the books to the Kel'Dor "With your permission, I will have these copied." a nod to the Jedi master "Naturally, you have my permission." He gave a short nod "Thank you, I will bring this to the archive." and with that he took his leave.

I turned my head towards Kit then, I don't know why but in his presence I find something I could call a calm peace. "If you feel fit enough we can introduce you to the others." I gave a nod to him. "But I should wait until Pulse says that I can start to put weight on my foot, I don't want to destroy their work there." While saying it I looked at him. "At least 1 to 2 months bed rest. When going somewhere, either in a wheelchair or being carried there." When I heard the carried part I sweatdropped, not again! "Can I get a wheelchair? I do not want to burden anyone with having to carry me around." I even looked at Pulse with puppy eyes, but I didn't needed to do that actually as he gave me a nod with a smile, I gave him a soft "Thanks." I feel my eyes getting heavy. "Well then everything is cleared for now. I can see and feel that you're still pretty tired, we'll let you rest then." Kit looked at Pulse who nodded and both of them left, after Kit stroke my head and both wishing me sweet dreams. I had watched them go out the door and before it was closed completely I was in the dream land.

Only a few days had passed I already felt much stronger. Pulse or Miss Nema or even both came in to check on me and soon enough the wheelchair got introduced to me, the first time moving in it... I almost landed on my face and I didn't knew what was worse, the face first landing or being scolded from Pulse and Miss Nema. Kit visited often and talked about things that has happened outside, it was interesting. But soon enough I was fit enough that I could meet the council in person! I was almost exploding from excitement but also nervosity! I climbed inside the wheelchair and I grabbed the lightsabers I created and stuffed them in my sleeves, right after that there was a knock on the door and, after I gave the permission to enter, Kit came in to take me to the council. Thankfully he notice my nervosity and decided to push my wheelchair, like that no incidents could happen to me, it would be very embarrassing to be honest. We entered a lift, as he told me, and it took us up somewhere. "Just relax, there is no need to be nervous. Just be yourself and you'll be fine." I gave a nod to him, not trusting my voice in the moment as I feel a lump in my throat. We soon reached our destination and the doors open up and he pushed me forth, through one door and there was a big round room with seats in a circle, I looked around then and I count 12 seats. I was pushed in the middle and Kit took his own seat, and everyone looked at me in silence, my skin prickling. Okay we had Kit, master Plo Koon and master Obi-Wan Kenobi, but I also see another human with dark skin, Cerea he seemed like old one from his species, then a female Tholothian she also had a darker skin colour with blue patches, then a male Ikotch his skin colour had a orange and pink tone, a female Togruta that has a red skin with white markings and gray stripes, another male this time a Iridonian Zabrak with a more tan colour, than a Lannik with a pinker skin and also looks a bit older, a male Zabrak with also a dark colour and looked a bit younger to me and finally the probably oldest member a... What is he?! His skin was green, green-gold eyes, white hair and he seems 0.66 meters tall, I guess?

Then the old one greeted me, which I returned a bit shy, damnit! The human with no hair and darker skin looked at me "What brings you here?" Okay Blue, just breath in and out and be calm. "I've come to know more about this ability I possess and how to use it. And I've often used it to handle things I could not do on my own. I know some things about it from books and stories of the elders." I looked him straight in the eye as he positioned himself in a more comfortable way, folding his hands together. "You are too old to be accepted as a Youngling and as a Padawan your chances are bad." I looked a bit surprised. "And why would that be so?" I turned my head to one side, I forgot to read specific parts, have I? "You need to catch up knowledge from so many years, and which Jedi would want to train you with this specific fact..." Oh I get it... Being force sensitive isn't just enough and even your age matters, very different from the things I got to know over the years. I sighed because of that "I understand what you mean with that. Also my kind is not known to you, that's why I also understand the distrust of all towards me, I believe the only thing that only helps you is my knowledge," with that I brought out my two self-made lightsabers from beneath my sleeves, where I had hidden them, "Then they should go on to two more worthy carriers." He seemed very pleased with my more submissive act. "That's probably the best-" Suddenly a few other masters interrupted him and that so suddenly that I was too surprised, so I couldn't understand what even one said. The one that started the "conversation" leaned back "I can accept this, master. Only who should train her then?" wait, WHAT?! I'm accepted? How did that happened all of a sudden?!

I looked around the room as a awkward silence followed, they also looked at each other not sure what should happen now. "Should she not choose herself? She's grown up." WHAT DID THE JEDI SAID?! Do I really look that old to you now?! In the rangs back home I'm not a grown up yet, but maybe I am in human years, after all I should be about 17 to 18, is that the age you're a grown up for humans? But I don't know any of them well enough, well except for Kit and maybe master Kenobi and I also met master Plo Koon after the surgery, but the rest... I have no idea who or how they are!

"She doesn't know us, she should at least get some time until she chooses one to be her master." Thankfully Kit gave this suggestion and I'm very happy for it! I wonder what would've happened if he was more like that dark coloured human with no hair, I wouldn't have got the company I got from Kit and everything else he has shown me so far. But still I was pretty unsure about this whole deal, I have no idea of how I should get to know them, my heart is beating so fast right now...

The old Jedi looked at me "Unsure, you do not have to be. Meditating with us you can, the force will guide your way." I gave a short nod to him, meditating with members of the Jedi council? I never would of thought that my journey would give me this chance, it's a big honour for me. And thankfully everyone seems to be okay with it. Kit rose from his seat and pushed me out of the room on the wheelchair, I feel my heart rate starting to slow down. As I looked up to him he smiled down at me and I returned it. "Don't worry, the force will show you the right way." I nod to him then, as we entered the lift I looked at him again "What did you all discuss that the one leaned back and accepted it so fast? I could not understand it fast enough because I was so surprised." I just hope I did nothing wrong and I totally need to ask him who was who.

"We disregard the protocol for you, hence only Skywalker had such an aura of the force, and Master Windu bowed to the realization of it." My ears sank, it sounds bad to be honest... "Is that bad because of the protocol and this aura?" But he shook his head "Everything is okay, you don't need to worry about it." I sighed in relief "Then I am reassured." We then reached my hospital room quickly, on the way he told me who the members of the council are, at least I know there names now. He helped me get into bed for which I was thankful "I'll pick you up tomorrow. Rest well 'till then." I gave a nod with a smile to him which he returned and then left, I turned to look at Coruscant through the window. It looks so stunning when the sun falls and let's it's colours run over it for the last time until the moon finishes it's round and the sun rises once more.

I tried to sleep, but seems like it was ignoring me once more... I sat up and looked around, nothing changed except it was night. My eyes stopped on the window, I've only seen it from a distance, but I wonder what Coruscant really is like. Only one way to fight out at the moment. I put my healthy leg next to me while my injuries one is normal and I began to sink into a state of meditation, concentrating more than I'll have to do for other things making everything floating in the room. It feels like my soul leaves my body for this time and is able to move around. Thinking about it I never was in all parts of the temple, now's the chance! And off I went to explore through the temple.

Okay, I was in the archive and was in front of a big door that only a Jedi can open, better stay out of it. I still need a place from where I can get out and have the best view, and the one place I haven't tried to was the room of the council, might try it as well. I was floating towards the lift and went up the way it would go up, why does this tower has to be this tall?

I then came through the door and saw that even some members where there and were also meditating. I went to the windows and looked through them and touched it and my hand went through. Yes, I found my gateway! I turned around and decided to watch them a few seconds, it was like finding out how they are. I noticed Kit there and he looked right at me and winked at me, okay that's actually a bit creepy, no one have noticed me before when I was in this state! I better get going now and look at Coruscant and so I went out my gateway towards the lights of the city. It was so amazing to see, so many different species and shops alike! But I also saw things that I shouldn't of saw... Not going to sleep for a few days now...

It was so different from what I have known, after all I lived in a small village and this, is nothing compared to it!!

I stayed for a few hours before I decided to return to the temple, after I found it... I got lost which isn't a big surprise when being in such a city for the first time.

At least the gateway was still open for me to get in and some looked to where I went in, do they really see me?! Better get away! And with that I went through the floor and somehow ended in a strange chamber. There were weird equipment which held many blue glowing cubes, they seem very important, but I have no idea what they are.

I explored the temple once more before I notice the sun shining through the windows, so late already?! Better get back to my body now.

As I went inside my room I saw Kit waiting for me, oops! I disconnected this connection and everything slowly floated to the ground and I looked at Kit then, stretching some and making my back cracking a bit. "Morning." I looked at him "Morning! I hope I didn't startle you all too much yesterday." But he smiled at me "No, all right, I'm here to pick you up, are you coming?" As an answer I climbed in the wheelchair and he pushed me to the room where they are waiting. And I guessed correct as I saw them all sitting on a round chair like thing that looked actually very comfy, one was in the middle of them all, probably for me. Kit helped me to get on it, damn foot, I hope the month gets over soon.

He went to his own and everyone greeted me as I returned it. "Nothing to fear you have, the force will guide you." The wise master Yoda said to me, I gave him a polite nod and tried to sit cross-legged as good as I could. Everyone fell in their state of meditation and I followed close behind, I could clearly feel every aura from all of them. I wonder, when some of them saw me yesterday, is this also not working or being noticed?

I explored this too, I was able to see memories of others when I focus enough. I can try and if they do not want it then so be it. I decided to try it with master Kenobi, since I think if I'm noticed he's going to be, hopefully, more calm about it. I got in and I felt no resistance, can't they feel it? I looked at some of his memories, his master, his Padawan this Skywalker fellow, fights he has been and other important memories. Since I didn't wanted to dig all too deep I went to someone else, I decided upon Kit next.

But what I saw made my blood turn to ice, it looked like Vassek, but at then it was just flashing past me so quick, but sometimes it slowed down just that I only see a few things, but I clearly could make out the pain and death, Kit's pain the most. I couldn't help but to cry... Which in turn had the effect that it disturbed some of them and they looked at me, I wiped my eyes. Great, not a very good start...

Master Kenobi looked at me with a sympathetic smile "I can imagine that some would like to know what has upset you so much." And with that all eyes rested on me. I closed my eyes to force this memory of him to slow down even more so that I could see more clearly. "I see fog... Stone walls formed through time, but there is an entrance, a hidden entrance... The corridors are dark, very dark... A man who is not really present but nevertheless he is there, from him I feel a dark aura... I hear screams, painful screams... A room filled with different things from an ancient warrior folk... Then another, filled with mechanical stuff, something hangs from the ceiling, which I can not recognize." I can feel and smell all their confusion and surprise, the strongest from Kit. He probably wonders how I saw probably a memory he has closed off in the deepest parts of his mind. ARG! My head! I thought I mastered it to stop it from hurting, but guess not. I open my eyes, trying to ignore the pain as best as possible. Kit stood up "I'll probably retire better for now." What?! I messed up so har-ARG! I gripped my head tightly with both my hands, trying not to put too much pressure on my claws. I felt all their eyes on me once more, worry was one feeling I was getting out of those gazes. "It's okay... I tried I mastered this a bit more but seems like I haven't... It always happen when I'm taken to deep in one's memory..." I slowly managed to soften this pain, but I heard steps "Forgive me" and there was the door. I wanted to say something and turned my head towards the door but saw it just closing, my ears flopped down. Great... I made everything wrong that I could, again, and it had to be with him... Why do I always mess up?

"You did not do anything wrong. A dark part of his memory you've seen, one he has not yet defeated." I turned my head towards master Yoda by his comforting words. "My curiosity will kill me one of these days ... I shouldn't have digged so deep, even if I can't decide how deep sometimes..." I sighed "A right you have to know us, no mistake it was." He has a point, at least it made me feel better for now. With that we continued and I looked at a few others. I think master Yoda would feel if I came in his head, but I think I can't mess up even more. Since he was one of the old ones I've saw many memories, I swear I almost squealed! He trained many Jedis too and I saw Kit as a child. Almost every child of a species looks so cute! Okay, calm down Blue, not wanting to disturb anyone else! I continued to look at a few "pictures" of different Younglings and their time.

After a few minutes the session ended and master Kenobi was kind enough to bring me back saying that I shouldn't worry too much. I would like to agree with him but I feel because of the thing with Kit, it was so cold of me and I should of known better than to be so careless. I wish I could apologize to him right now but I can't get there or I don't know where he is...

I tried to sleep, but thanks to the guilt I'm feeling, I'll probably sleep when it's cleared between us. Why can't I just be normal...?

I have tried to sleep, but like before, it didn't worked. I climbed inside the wheelchair and rolled inside the bathroom, the least I could do was getting fresh, brush my teeth and my hair. As I finished I rolled back to the patient room and I'll wait to be picked up for the next session, hoping it was Kit that would pick me up. I had my back turned towards the door, having my eyes glued to the window. I heard the door open up and my hopes went up, but as I smelled the air those hopes were crushed, it was master Kenobi's smell. I looked at him and sure I was, no Kit. "Good morning. I hope you feel better than yesterday." He came to me and I nodded at him with a smile, I can't trust my voice right now, fearing it would break.

We reached the room from yesterday and I looked around, I also saw no Kit... I borrowed my sadness with other emotions, not wanting to worry anyone else.

Another day had passed and Kit was still not there, making me feel even more bad for what I did. At least I could focus on all of the other master's memories, making my decision harder since no one seemed to meet my expectations only master Kenobi and master Plo Koon were the ones I think are the most sympathetic with me, but I can't decide now since Kit was missing, but if I take even longer I'll keep the masters from their duties in this war, meaning thanks to me they risk losing battles outside. It was like stones that are falling from the ceiling, burying me under them...

By the third day I didn't got hopes up that Kit would come back, he hates me probably now... I climbed on the seat and could sit in a tailor seat without any pain, at least something.

Before we began the door open up once more making me turn around. Kit just came in, but why... Doesn't he hate me for what I did? My ears only lifted lightly and I looked at him in the most apologetic way I could muster. He gave me the same look, which surprised me even more! He smiled then and gave a short wink with one of his black eyes, he isn't mad?! I gave a soft smile back to him, I feel a happiness rising in my chest, it makes me feel so relieved.

He sat down on his seat and we all began meditating, I breathed in and out, deeply. Since I've seen in all heads of the others I decided to get into Kit's memory.

This time the memory was more clear and not so fast. It was an ocean planet, raining very much, a city was standing above the water, seems like that this was Kamino. Funnily Kamino is a neighbour of Alrauna, a very distant neighbour of Alrauna that is, but we belong to the very same system. Kit was also on this planet, a blue coloured Twi'lek woman, they were investigating some kind of crime with envolved many dead clones, seems like they died because of a weird virus. Seems like one of the Kaminoans worked for the Separatist, just as the traitor wanted to flee both Jedis were fighting against, I guess those were, super battle droids. The blue Twi'lek was pushed off the platform thanks to the blast of the explosion the ship caused as it was destroyed, he jumped after her but right as he dived under the water everything went black... I wonder what happened and why this didn't happen before... It went away soon enough and I saw that the blue Twi'lek was still in some other memories, meaning she survived. I did not want to look any further to find out what has happened there. I saw through other memories of him, to understand more of his character, in addition to the knowledge that I have already collected with the time we have spent together. Now I know... To whom my decision will fall. Not only does my mind tell me that it would be the best decision, but also the hole in my heart say so. The hole that my biological father should have filled out, cries to be finally filled with that... Affection and "love", the fatherly love he has never given to me...

I open my eyes again, there was no need to look into the head of someone else. "Made your choice, have you?" I flinched and looked surprised to master Yoda, since when...? I looked at him while nodding "I have, I also hope that he accepts my choice." "Well chosen you have, I hope." He also gave me a nod. With that we waited until the others finished their meditations, I was grooming the fur on my tail.

As they all came back, I knew that they felt that I have decided. I looked towards Kit who gave me a encouraging smile seems like he thought I looked at him for moral support, with that I gave him a smile with a nod which he thankfully understood, he seemed a bit surprised by it. "Of course only if you agree to."

"It's an honor." I smiled at that "The honor is mine." I looked at master Yoda, like everyone else, there were no protest and with that he gave his agreement. I was happy with that and I feel my tail started to wag, it made some smile and even one laugh a bit, but it only made the wagging worse. He stood up and helped me in the wheelchair "Let's follow the tradition of the temple, Padawan." It made me so proud to hear him say that.

Kit went to get something out of his rooms while I waited in a empty meditation room. Just as I got my tail to stop wagging he came back, in his hands was a small box. I looked at it, my ears pointing up sharply "What is that?" Kit said down next to me "The material that is used to make ornaments for a Padawan braid. It is a tradition that the masters makes these for their Padawans on the first day of training." I looked at the still closed box "Sounds very interesting!" He open up the box and inside were different gems in different colours. "It used to be that the student got a new component for every progress." "That sounds logic! And how is it now?" I looked up from the box towards him. "It is less practiced because of the war." I could only nod at that.

"A braid would be the most traditional, or even in your hair." Sounds good to me "The braid I could do quickly." And wanted to take a few strands of hair into my hands, from the backside of my head. He smiled and took my hands, stopping me "Take it easy, I'll do it." He handed me the box, "Just pick a beginning for the braid." I gave him a nod then with a small 'okay', taking the box and turned around having my back to him and looked at all of them. They looked all so beautiful! I felt him beginning to braid my hair, I have to confess this is so enjoyable, making me feel so relaxed. I managed to get a order of them and with it I gave him the gems, even as he worked them in the braid I got even more relaxed my tail started to wag again.

I was smiling the whole time as he was working on my hair, I managed not to hit him with my tail. "Finished. Is that okay?" I looked at it and pulled it over my shoulder, it was long with the gems at perfect spots, I stroke over it a few times "It's beautiful." He smiled at me and I returned it "Then I'm glad."

"Tell me, how deep did you actually dug in my memories?" I almost knew that this question would come. "Not really deep. I did not want to bring up bad memories again, but sometimes I can't control what happens." Thinking about it, I feel bad. "Vassek was probably the worst of it - at least which hit me the hardest." I couldn't help it but to hug him, I feel so bad for him. I felt him tense up a bit, oh no did I do something wrong again? Just as I wanted to let go he returned it, okay seems like it wasn't that bad. "I'm sorry what happened there." I wish I was there and could of prevent it "It's okay. It just hurts me how pointless the victims of this mission were... " I gave him a nod and let him go then "Does everyone else can do that? Looking into memories?" He shook his head "No, not at all. That's a special gift of yours." Really? It's not common under the Jedi? That's really interesting! "What about as I was rummaging around like a ghost? Is not that also not normal?" "Only the masters can do that, but not alone and even some can't do this." I was surprised by this! "And since I was alone and I do not have much experience, is that also extraordinary?" Kit nodded at me with a smile "Yes, very much. Finally a student who will surpass me." My ears went up once again in worry "Is that good or is that bad?" I have the feeling I worry too much... "Good in my eyes, because that would mean I did my job well." I gave him a smile which he returned it. Finally I can start training, better after I can walk again, and start my new life with my new master.

It has been a few months now. The training had begun, he teached me more control over myself and my emotions through meditating. We even meditate when we had the chance to do, master would always ask me if we want to meditate together, until now I never declined it.

As I could finally start to walk again we started with combat. He is such a patiently master, when I didn't get it right he would show me the move a few times more until I got it right, not rushing me. Master gives me praise when I do something good and it makes me feel so good, so proud to be here and learning under him.

Just as I was allowed to leave the hospital I moved in to my master, we had enough room for us both* and that was fine. I also got to know other kinds of food and it was just amazing.

One thing that is still a bit frightening for me to do was flying a starfighter, it was scary! But at least I have someone that flies with me, an astromech droid R3-A7. He is black and white with a red eye, I gave him the name Amund, it means protector. I gave him the name since he is my protector in a space battle.

So far I’ve avoided crashing down and was getting better with each flight, still it scares me, but I have Amund and master by my side.
I wonder when would be the first time we were sent to a mission.
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*I and Akiala enjoy the idea that the Jedi have like small apartments. And I’ll use it in this story, sure in the actual show you saw what a quarter of a Padawan looks like, but it has so many advantages so.

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The last thing I recall was falling asleep in the, what was it called? Infirmary, but as I slowly woke up I felt two arms and that I was carried. Antero? It feels like his arms and the warmth feels alike, but I know that this is just my mind playing tricks on me.

I open them up and saw the white of something, sharpening my vision I notice that this was a clone's armor, but why is a clone carrying me? I don't think we already reached our destination? It only felt like I was sleeping a few hours... Hello what have we here?! It looks like the statues in front of the archive in the cave on Alrauna! Did I really sleep this long?

I returned to my humanoid form, after I yawned and notice that the clone was carrying my bag, so I took it from him. I feel that he appreciates this gesture from me, even if I didn't needed to do that. But that is one of my characteristics and I could make sure that nothing went missing in the meantime, even though I'm sure that no one would of stolen something from it.

I let my eyes run around as I was still carried somewhere, I was so amazed by those halls alone. The structure of this building is so amazing and it made me feel so calm, and that is not only thanks to the calm colours present. The one thing that I noticed that it looked so empty at some points, seems like the duties of this war have kept some Jedi away from their home, I hope all of them are save, dear gods please watch over them.

We reached a door that sprung open and we went inside, it reminded me of the infirmary that Pulse worked in, only difference it looked better equipped and there are so many people here. probably doctors of different species. It made me nervous seeing so many people that are strangers for me.

I was put down and just as the clone left already two doctors came to me, I backed away and embraced my healthy leg, the injured one just hang from the table. But before they could do anything Pulse came in and shooed them away while saying "Stop it you two, you're scaring her. I'll take it from here, since she trusts me already and it will reduce her stress, which would keep her from getting better." With that those two left and I managed to smile at him, he's a doctor too so he knows what's best for his patients. Since I'm completely new to everything it's good that a known face is there for me.

After a few tests Pulse brought me to another room which looked like a bedroom to me, only that it was a hospital room where patients sleep, Pulse had explained that to me. I sat on the one that was near the window, giving me my first glimpse of the planet Coruscant. I still need to get used to all the sounds outside, those things that are flowing, or flying, around in masses, but are too small to be ships and this weird sound that sounds like a horn, but very different. I looked back to Pulse, who was looking at something in his hand, the one that handed it to him said something like "All her medical stats are on the Datapad, some are good, but others are more in the critical area. In this state she won't make it past the surgery, even in risk that her bones might heal faster than we expect and having to break the bones again to operate on it, her stats have to be normal first and that would be the best choice for her now." Even if they were out of range from my view and a normal hearing ability, I heard everything they said. I have to agree, even if I don't understand everything just yet, I do not want to die before my new life began. "Before we can fix your ankle, you need to rest end regain some of your strength. I hope you understand that, it would be to risky now." I nodded at Pulse with an understanding look, I might keep it to me that I heard everything the other doctor told Pulse.

The night came faster than I thought it would and still the city was so alive as it was over day, I think it's even more active now! It will be hard for me to fall asleep like that, but I'll need to get used to it, after all I'm going to be here a long time, probably. I've read the books from the archive, that I brought with me, well the copies that is, and was through with the half of it. I guess I "wasted" much of my free time reading those books, it was one way of shutting out this... This darkness that haunts me.

But laying here gives me the chills from them as I didn't had a strategy to keep them away for a while. My grip on the blanket is so hard my knuckles are white and my claws are making holes in it. I swear they are here, inside this very room just waiting for the right moment to strike, to hurt me just like every time. But I'm scared way more since I have no protection charms and runes, which would of reduce the extent of their “work”.

Just as I thought they would redraw for the first time every something went flying with a loud bang against the wall, followed by other things. I was so scared I couldn't move or scream as the bed was moving around in the room, bashing around and finally I was knocked off it as it was flipped over and this time I screamed loud, thanks to fear and my hurt ankle, I only don't know if I screamed loud enough to anyone to hear.

I was the next thing being thrown around the room making even more noises, thanks to shards all around the room I was cut on different parts of my body, but not only thanks to those, this thing has sharp claws which can cut through my skin like any good knife or sharp teeth could. I already feel many precisely placed wounds, the blood was dripping from those. Why me?!

I heard bashing against the door and just as those beings went away, leaving me curled up in a corner, the door sprung open and two masked figures entered the room along with a doctor. The masked figures wore traditional golden brown Jedi robes with eye-catching gold embellishments, those mask are probably a sign of anonymity, many keys hang from a belt around their waist, a lightsaber in one hand that looked like it had two blades. The doctor kneeled down to my eye level. "What happend? Who did this to you?" She touched my shoulders and I flinched even more as I curled up even more, trying so hard not to cry in front of them, hugging my tail close to me. She looked at one of the masked one and asked if he could get Pulse, he to get him at once.

I let her look over my wounds and let her clean them and bandage them too, more not, I haven't spoken a word to her, I do not trust her enough. But Pulse came soon and as he saw the state the room and I was in he was more than shocked at what he saw. He came to me and said to the others that they should leave at least the room, which they did after a bit argument from the doctor, but she left eventually. "Blue, can you tell me what happened and who did this to you?" I nodded to him after a bit.

"This, is not the first time this happened... After my brother "left" this all started, father never cared about it when I woke up crying or when my whole room was destroyed by this being. I never really had a word for it except darkness, thing or being, it or them mostly came at night for their fun... I could only reduce some damage after I painted protection symbols and hang up carms that would keep any dark being away, but they always found a way around this protection. They had only stop a long time when I was with someone that made me whole again, guess love can even keep your darkness away, but as he died they came back and got worse over time... I'm just so surprised that they found me so early and that they went away as the doctor and those other two came inside. Even on the ship, they didn't came to me or when any of you or the Jedi were there they also kept away." Pulse listen to me while he was finishing on my wounds, from his expression he wasn't sure what to think about it, but he knew I wasn't lying thanks to my wounds. He picked me up "I'll stay with you for the night and tomorrow we'll look at those protection things you mentioned, after all you need to rest up for the surgery." I nodded at him and he brought me to another room, laid me on one bed and sat down on the other smiling at me. "Just try to sleep, I will be here until you wake up, promise." I nuzzled in the soft bed and just at once I fell asleep and maybe I will sleep through again.

The sunlight tickled my eyes and I open them up, looking straight at the window, seems like they really stay away when someone that cares about me is with me, they stay away. But why is that so? Can't they just leave me alone completely? I turned around to face the other side of the room where Pulse probably slept, but he wasn't there. I sniffed the air in this room and from the still strongly scent, I could tell that he have just left 2 minutes prior. Just as I sat up the door open up and Pulse, who held a tray with food, along with Kit came inside the room, I couldn't help but to wag my tail. "How did you sleep, Blue?" Pulse asked as he put down the tray, the food smelled interesting! "Better after you stayed with me. I don't know why it never happens when someone is there with me..." I looked down, I then felt the bed sink next to me and I smelled it was Kit. "Pulse told me what happened last night. It's better if someone you trust stays with you over night along with any symbol you know. But like you, I have no idea what this could be." I nodded to him, took the tray and started eat, after all I need to get stronger to get through the surgery.

After I ate Kit and I looked over the books that held such symbols, Pulse had to go to do other stuff. As I finally found some runes Kit said he needs to get something and left me alone to paint those at specific places, I wonder why master Fisto had so leave so suddenly, but he had his duties and such. At least I don't need to draw them with my own blood, like I had to do every night as father was still alive, whenever I was out he went in my room to search through my stuff, taking anything that would be of value for me, and wash or brush those runes away, he hated me so much he risked of letting this darkness kill me...

"Blue... Your name should of been Hel, no you should've never been born!! If it wasn't for you my dear sweet Elisa would still be alive and my son would still love me... Everything is your fault! "

No... Why now...? Just as I expected to turn around, there he stood. The man I still loved even if he abused me to an amount that anyone would want revenge on the man that put one through it, not me, I still wonder why... His silhouette was clear to me, but I knew all too well that this is not real, HE is not real!! Just ignore him, he will go away when I show I'm not giving him my attention.

"I'm disappointed, you were so much better, you even lost to someone like Arneot. You were 8 and defeated someone twice your size, I thought I teached you better to use your anger! You should of killed him as a sign that no one should of question you, but no you're a coward!! I should of killed you when I had the chance, you're a disgrace that never should of seen the light of the world!!"

Stay calm, I try to stay so... Only hard if your enemy knows your only weakness and how you react to certain things... "GET OUT OF MY HEAD!! YOU'RE DEAD AND THAT SHOULD STAY LIKE THAT. IF YOU EVER SHOW YOUR FACE TO ME AGAIN I WILL MAKE SURE YOUR DAMN SOUL IS WITH THE NIGHTMARE THAT RESIDES IN HELHEIM!!"

Just as he vanished the door open up and there stood a very worry looking Kit, oops... Why do I always have to overact...? "What happened while I was away?" I can't just lie, I need to be honest with him. "Well... How do I put it? My father, who died long ago, appeared in front of me again... And that like always, in a clear, but black foggy silhouette and throwing stuff at my head, saying how much of a disgrace I am and similar things... I guess I got a bit angry and started screaming, sorry I worried you..." My ears fell down again and I felt and heard how he kneeled down next to me "You do not need to be sorry for it, who knows how long it took for you to react this way. How far are you with drawing those symbols?" he even placed a hand on my shoulder. "I just need to put finishing touches to this one and I'm done." I started to draw the last touches to the symbol and that should at least put up one secure barrier, but how long will this hold up...?

"I got something for you, master Kenobi found this under the things of his latest Padawan(Yes, we made Des the Padawan of Obi), he mentioned that it belonged to your brother, saying it was a representation of some kind of guardian god, but he forgot the name of this very god." I turned towards Kit and saw this said statue. "That is Heimdall, the guardian god, he was the god that watched over the rainbow bridge, the so called Bifröst, which is the only way from Midgard to Asgard, and would warn the gods with his horn when Ragnarök would begin. I wonder why my brother would take this with him to Coruscant, but I think this will help too." I let it float to the side table next to my bed.

"In the future, would you mind telling me more about your home, your culture and even about those gods? I find it very interesting." While helping me to the bed he asked and I nodded with a smile to him, that would be nice.

A few days have passed since that incident occurred and the darkness has stayed away so far, Pulse stayed with me for a few more nights, but I noticed that he would leave at some part in the night, even so nothing came for me, maybe they have giving me the feeling that there is always someone that will be there for me when anything would happen.

Kit also visited me very often, I really enjoy spending time with the Nautolan Jedi, his company is like my safe haven here, in a unknown place so far, even so, I wasn’t allowed to move anyway so it was nice and he asked me if I would tell him about my people and such. For that he even gave me somethings out of the Jedi Archive that I was able to read, I was happy for it as it gave me even more knowledge of different things.

I was also very excited to meet the Jedi council, but I need to wait. My surgery was more important than meeting someone, well a group of different people at least. I just hope I will be strong soon enough for it.

“Good morning Blue, how are you feeling?” A doctor came inside my room, her name was Rig Nema, I befriended her as Pulse had to go away for a bit and would have time to check on me. She told me she was a Jedi healer and she is a really nice person, even if I have no idea what her species is, but I can care less, she never saw a Lupus neither.

“I’m feeling pretty good Miss Nema!” for me it was only polite to greet her like that, I never asked her age and I’m pretty sure that I’m way younger than her anyway, I mean in human years I would be… 17 to 18 I think? “While you eat I’ll check on your stats, let’s see if the surgery is more in reach now.” I gave a short nod as I tried to move as little as possible while eating, but that those stats get analysed takes a bit.

“I also wanted to tell you Pulse is back. Okay, I’ll leave you now and tell you how your stats are later.” She smiled at me while I returned it “Okay, until later Miss Nema.” And with that she went out the door again. I just hope that it’s time now and it makes me happy that Pulse is back. I turned my head towards my side table where the statue of Heimdall was still, it made me feel sad a bit. It just reminds me of my big brother, I just hope he’s okay and not dead. But how is that still possible, I saw him die, falling to his death while he tried to save me from the Wings of Night. No, stop thinking about that! I don’t want to have a collapse right now, not now!! I need to close this memory for good!! Even so, I could only cry thanks to it, the haunting look on my brothers face as he fell and couldn’t save me. I always had this feeling that a piece of me has died with him since then, but what if it was really him that was a Padawan here? If so, where is he now? Is he alive or did something horrible happened to him before I came here? I just hope he is happy, wherever he is now.

Just as I wanted to pick up another book the door open up and Pulse stepped in my room, he seemed really happy. I sat up and smiled at him “Welcome back Pulse!” my tail wagged at once, I can’t just help myself with it. “I have some good news for you, Blue. Your stats are stable enough for your surgery!” Really? That is very good and it means I'm able to walk soon enough!

"Did you eat breakfast yet?" I nodded, ops have I done something wrong? "Not good, you have to be sober for the surgery, because otherwise it might happen that gastric acid gets into your lungs during the surgery, which would cause very unpleasant problems. Don't worry, we'll do the surgery tomorrow, but you for that you are not allowed to eat or drink until tomorrow. You understand that Blue?" I smiled at him. "I understand, I won't drink or eat anything until then, promise." Pulse ruffled the hair between my ears with a smile. "I'll get everything ready for the surgery, for tomorrow. See you later then, Blue." I smiled once again and he went outside. I'm so happy for tomorrow! Walking on my own and meeting this council just got so close now!

Mostly for this day I was in a quiet reading atmosphere with the books I still have, guess even Kit was very busy today. I would never be angry because of that, I mean he is a member of this Jedi council after all. I wonder how my meeting with this council would go? Another question that came to my mind was, did my brother also went to see this council like I will? To worry about it won't get me anywhere, the only solution would be to ask either master Fisto, master Kenobi or even himself, but I doubted the last option again. I still can’t believe that he was here and alive. How did he even end up here? Desmond didn’t have this ability like I did, well I haven’t noticed it with him. IF he did have it why did he never told anyone and kept it secret? One question is answered and two takes it place, I better stop thinking about those. I should better have a clear mind for tomorrow. I just wish... I would be able to see him once more, his smile, his face, his eyes, his voice... To have back the half I have lost on this night...

I didn’t notice that I fell asleep, but it was morning already! And since I haven’t eaten anything it was my surgery day! Just as I sat up in bed Pulse came in. “Did you sleep good?” like always I smiled with a nod along with tail wags. “I can tell you’re excited for the surgery, so I won’t let you wait longer.” Pulse walked to the bed, tipped in something and it began to float, following him automatically.

While he lead the bed towards the room where there surgery is held in I looked around more, it doesn't really look different at all, but what did I expect from a hospital? We then reached the room and I was placed on the operation table then, getting hooked up at different machines that looked over my vital signs. Miss Nema was there with Pulse, they organised their things and soon were finished with it. Pulse stepped to me with something in his hand, I got nervous all of a sudden. "Don't worry, you won't feel any of this, it's like you're asleep. And you don't need to be afraid or nervous, I will be there and after we're done I'll wake you up, once you woken up I bet you won't feel any pain and your ankle will heal better, but keep in mind, bed rest for at least 1 up to 2 months." I nodded at him and he sent me to sleep while he put a oxygen mask over my mouth and nose.

I open up my eyes and it was a bit dark around me. I stood up and walked around without any pain. I then saw some kind of light and walked towards it and stood in front of a barrier that separated me from a scene that was illuminated. It was a room, looks like the bridge from that cruiser. What made me very confused was that I stood there in different clothes, looks like the one of the Padawans only the robe had a darker purple colour. Next to me stood a clone, his armor had a light blue pattern, a pauldron, I read about it in one book, around his neck, a kama with a blue rim, his helm was on his head which wore a visor attached to it, as he turned to look at the me in this scene, I saw the so called jaig eyes, seemed like he did something very amazing that he earned his jaig eyes somewhere, but who is he? But before I could find out about him the scene disappeared and at another place it reappeared, so I walked towards it. This time it was a planet, but I couldn't tell which... I was there along with the commander looking clone, but this time there was another one, he also had a pauldron, but his visor was like a antenna like thing and his kama looked so different from the other one, was he a so called ARC? His armor was also a light blue colour and I notice a rune which looks like a one from the thunder god's hammer, Mjölnir! How in the god's name got this there?! What is happening in this scene? The "commander" screamed at me with his helmet on and I looked sad but seems like I tried to defend myself while tears gathered in my eyes. He stormed away in rage then as I cried, but the ARC one soon came up to me, he had hid himself from the view of the ones in the scene, and embraced me, trying to comfort me. He even pulled off his helm and I could see his face, this man had dark blue hair that looked messy, brown eyes almost like everyone of the clones and had a scar over his nasal bone.

This scene also disappeared and appeared at some other place. This time it were the three again, walking while I kept my distance from the commander and kept close to the blue haired clone, I literally felt the stare from under the helmet of the commander, towards the ARC and me, it almost feels like anger, jealousy but also regret and sadness. What is all this meaning? As the scene disappeared for another time it didn't came back and it got so bright all around me that I had to shield my eyes from it.

As I open my eyes again, I was back in my room again. I sat up slowly, I felt so dizzy and tired, is this because of this weird dream or sleep? I looked at my foot which was wrapped up and laid on something. I laid back down as it was way to dizzy to concentrate, at least I could move my eyes around and my head only lightly. The door open up and Kit came in with his typical smile "Well, did everything went good?" he said down next to me on the bed. I smiled to him with a simple yes. "I'm glad. I should introduce you to the Council very soon then." I nodded to Kit once more, I just hope this dizziness will go away soon enough...

The door open up once again and in came Pulse along with this Kel'Dor that leads the Wolfpack, in which Pulse is, Kit told me his name is Plo Koon. "So far so good?" Pulse asked me as he looked at my bandaged foot. "Yes, only that I'm dizzy and tired." He stroke my head saying it was normal after an anaesthesia. Good enough, I thought worse at first but I know that Pulse wouldn't put me into any danger.

I then notice that the Kel'Dor was looking at me, then he turned to Kit who was at my side. "You were right with her, my friend." What does he mean? I looked very confused to kit with my head crooked to one side with one ear pointing up. "I just told him somethings about you." Kit said but the Kel'Dor crossed his arms in front of his chest. "He almost talked for more than an hour." I couldn't help but to giggle at that, even Kit laughed a bit with a 'Oops!'

I looked at master Plo Koon after I stopped my giggles "I hope it was not too boring to listen too." The Kel'Dor shook his head with a simple and quick no, a really interesting contemporary.

"Did you come here in order to become a Jedi?" I turned my head towards the Jedi master and looked into his covered eyes, for a Kel'Dor this mask and protection like "sunglasses"(I don't know how do describe them! XD) are essential while being on another planet that has oxygen on it. "I think so, I want to know more what this special ability is that I own and how I control it. I know it's a force, a power, that acts like a balance." He nodded at me "Then I hope the council allow you to become one." but he mumbled one thing that I couldn't understand in my condition, so I could only nod at him. "I've brought copies of the scriptures from the archive, from my homeplanet, with me. I hope these scriptures will help you." I let my bag, where I carried the books inside, float to my side without much concentration. I noticed that both Jedi looked very surprised at that, do they need a higher concentration to just let something move? "I'm sure they will help very much." I smiled at master Plo Koon and took out the Journal of my father, which is not his but actually from someone else. He said I should call him great grandpa, but what confused me and I still don't know why is that he was an old Draconian, a so called wolf dragon! Let's say, I fell on his back as I found the cave spontaneously. I gave the bag with the books to the Kel'Dor "With your permission, I will have these copied." a nod to the Jedi master "Naturally, you have my permission." He gave a short nod "Thank you, I will bring this to the archive." and with that he took his leave.

I turned my head towards Kit then, I don't know why but in his presence I find something I could call a calm peace. "If you feel fit enough we can introduce you to the others." I gave a nod to him. "But I should wait until Pulse says that I can start to put weight on my foot, I don't want to destroy their work there." While saying it I looked at him. "At least 1 to 2 months bed rest. When going somewhere, either in a wheelchair or being carried there." When I heard the carried part I sweatdropped, not again! "Can I get a wheelchair? I do not want to burden anyone with having to carry me around." I even looked at Pulse with puppy eyes, but I didn't needed to do that actually as he gave me a nod with a smile, I gave him a soft "Thanks." I feel my eyes getting heavy. "Well then everything is cleared for now. I can see and feel that you're still pretty tired, we'll let you rest then." Kit looked at Pulse who nodded and both of them left, after Kit stroke my head and both wishing me sweet dreams. I had watched them go out the door and before it was closed completely I was in the dream land.

Only a few days had passed I already felt much stronger. Pulse or Miss Nema or even both came in to check on me and soon enough the wheelchair got introduced to me, the first time moving in it... I almost landed on my face and I didn't knew what was worse, the face first landing or being scolded from Pulse and Miss Nema. Kit visited often and talked about things that has happened outside, it was interesting. But soon enough I was fit enough that I could meet the council in person! I was almost exploding from excitement but also nervosity! I climbed inside the wheelchair and I grabbed the lightsabers I created and stuffed them in my sleeves, right after that there was a knock on the door and, after I gave the permission to enter, Kit came in to take me to the council. Thankfully he notice my nervosity and decided to push my wheelchair, like that no incidents could happen to me, it would be very embarrassing to be honest. We entered a lift, as he told me, and it took us up somewhere. "Just relax, there is no need to be nervous. Just be yourself and you'll be fine." I gave a nod to him, not trusting my voice in the moment as I feel a lump in my throat. We soon reached our destination and the doors open up and he pushed me forth, through one door and there was a big round room with seats in a circle, I looked around then and I count 12 seats. I was pushed in the middle and Kit took his own seat, and everyone looked at me in silence, my skin prickling. Okay we had Kit, master Plo Koon and master Obi-Wan Kenobi, but I also see another human with dark skin, Cerea he seemed like old one from his species, then a female Tholothian she also had a darker skin colour with blue patches, then a male Ikotch his skin colour had a orange and pink tone, a female Togruta that has a red skin with white markings and gray stripes, another male this time a Iridonian Zabrak with a more tan colour, than a Lannik with a pinker skin and also looks a bit older, a male Zabrak with also a dark colour and looked a bit younger to me and finally the probably oldest member a... What is he?! His skin was green, green-gold eyes, white hair and he seems 0.66 meters tall, I guess?

Then the old one greeted me, which I returned a bit shy, damnit! The human with no hair and darker skin looked at me "What brings you here?" Okay Blue, just breath in and out and be calm. "I've come to know more about this ability I possess and how to use it. And I've often used it to handle things I could not do on my own. I know some things about it from books and stories of the elders." I looked him straight in the eye as he positioned himself in a more comfortable way, folding his hands together. "You are too old to be accepted as a Youngling and as a Padawan your chances are bad." I looked a bit surprised. "And why would that be so?" I turned my head to one side, I forgot to read specific parts, have I? "You need to catch up knowledge from so many years, and which Jedi would want to train you with this specific fact..." Oh I get it... Being force sensitive isn't just enough and even your age matters, very different from the things I got to know over the years. I sighed because of that "I understand what you mean with that. Also my kind is not known to you, that's why I also understand the distrust of all towards me, I believe the only thing that only helps you is my knowledge," with that I brought out my two self-made lightsabers from beneath my sleeves, where I had hidden them, "Then they should go on to two more worthy carriers." He seemed very pleased with my more submissive act. "That's probably the best-" Suddenly a few other masters interrupted him and that so suddenly that I was too surprised, so I couldn't understand what even one said. The one that started the "conversation" leaned back "I can accept this, master. Only who should train her then?" wait, WHAT?! I'm accepted? How did that happened all of a sudden?!

I looked around the room as a awkward silence followed, they also looked at each other not sure what should happen now. "Should she not choose herself? She's grown up." WHAT DID THE JEDI SAID?! Do I really look that old to you now?! In the rangs back home I'm not a grown up yet, but maybe I am in human years, after all I should be about 17 to 18, is that the age you're a grown up for humans? But I don't know any of them well enough, well except for Kit and maybe master Kenobi and I also met master Plo Koon after the surgery, but the rest... I have no idea who or how they are!

"She doesn't know us, she should at least get some time until she chooses one to be her master." Thankfully Kit gave this suggestion and I'm very happy for it! I wonder what would've happened if he was more like that dark coloured human with no hair, I wouldn't have got the company I got from Kit and everything else he has shown me so far. But still I was pretty unsure about this whole deal, I have no idea of how I should get to know them, my heart is beating so fast right now...

The old Jedi looked at me "Unsure, you do not have to be. Meditating with us you can, the force will guide your way." I gave a short nod to him, meditating with members of the Jedi council? I never would of thought that my journey would give me this chance, it's a big honour for me. And thankfully everyone seems to be okay with it. Kit rose from his seat and pushed me out of the room on the wheelchair, I feel my heart rate starting to slow down. As I looked up to him he smiled down at me and I returned it. "Don't worry, the force will show you the right way." I nod to him then, as we entered the lift I looked at him again "What did you all discuss that the one leaned back and accepted it so fast? I could not understand it fast enough because I was so surprised." I just hope I did nothing wrong and I totally need to ask him who was who.

"We disregard the protocol for you, hence only Skywalker had such an aura of the force, and Master Windu bowed to the realization of it." My ears sank, it sounds bad to be honest... "Is that bad because of the protocol and this aura?" But he shook his head "Everything is okay, you don't need to worry about it." I sighed in relief "Then I am reassured." We then reached my hospital room quickly, on the way he told me who the members of the council are, at least I know there names now. He helped me get into bed for which I was thankful "I'll pick you up tomorrow. Rest well 'till then." I gave a nod with a smile to him which he returned and then left, I turned to look at Coruscant through the window. It looks so stunning when the sun falls and let's it's colours run over it for the last time until the moon finishes it's round and the sun rises once more.

I tried to sleep, but seems like it was ignoring me once more... I sat up and looked around, nothing changed except it was night. My eyes stopped on the window, I've only seen it from a distance, but I wonder what Coruscant really is like. Only one way to fight out at the moment. I put my healthy leg next to me while my injuries one is normal and I began to sink into a state of meditation, concentrating more than I'll have to do for other things making everything floating in the room. It feels like my soul leaves my body for this time and is able to move around. Thinking about it I never was in all parts of the temple, now's the chance! And off I went to explore through the temple.

Okay, I was in the archive and was in front of a big door that only a Jedi can open, better stay out of it. I still need a place from where I can get out and have the best view, and the one place I haven't tried to was the room of the council, might try it as well. I was floating towards the lift and went up the way it would go up, why does this tower has to be this tall?

I then came through the door and saw that even some members where there and were also meditating. I went to the windows and looked through them and touched it and my hand went through. Yes, I found my gateway! I turned around and decided to watch them a few seconds, it was like finding out how they are. I noticed Kit there and he looked right at me and winked at me, okay that's actually a bit creepy, no one have noticed me before when I was in this state! I better get going now and look at Coruscant and so I went out my gateway towards the lights of the city. It was so amazing to see, so many different species and shops alike! But I also saw things that I shouldn't of saw... Not going to sleep for a few days now...

It was so different from what I have known, after all I lived in a small village and this, is nothing compared to it!!

I stayed for a few hours before I decided to return to the temple, after I found it... I got lost which isn't a big surprise when being in such a city for the first time.

At least the gateway was still open for me to get in and some looked to where I went in, do they really see me?! Better get away! And with that I went through the floor and somehow ended in a strange chamber. There were weird equipment which held many blue glowing cubes, they seem very important, but I have no idea what they are.

I explored the temple once more before I notice the sun shining through the windows, so late already?! Better get back to my body now.

As I went inside my room I saw Kit waiting for me, oops! I disconnected this connection and everything slowly floated to the ground and I looked at Kit then, stretching some and making my back cracking a bit. "Morning." I looked at him "Morning! I hope I didn't startle you all too much yesterday." But he smiled at me "No, all right, I'm here to pick you up, are you coming?" As an answer I climbed in the wheelchair and he pushed me to the room where they are waiting. And I guessed correct as I saw them all sitting on a round chair like thing that looked actually very comfy, one was in the middle of them all, probably for me. Kit helped me to get on it, damn foot, I hope the month gets over soon.

He went to his own and everyone greeted me as I returned it. "Nothing to fear you have, the force will guide you." The wise master Yoda said to me, I gave him a polite nod and tried to sit cross-legged as good as I could. Everyone fell in their state of meditation and I followed close behind, I could clearly feel every aura from all of them. I wonder, when some of them saw me yesterday, is this also not working or being noticed?

I explored this too, I was able to see memories of others when I focus enough. I can try and if they do not want it then so be it. I decided to try it with master Kenobi, since I think if I'm noticed he's going to be, hopefully, more calm about it. I got in and I felt no resistance, can't they feel it? I looked at some of his memories, his master, his Padawan this Skywalker fellow, fights he has been and other important memories. Since I didn't wanted to dig all too deep I went to someone else, I decided upon Kit next.

But what I saw made my blood turn to ice, it looked like Vassek, but at then it was just flashing past me so quick, but sometimes it slowed down just that I only see a few things, but I clearly could make out the pain and death, Kit's pain the most. I couldn't help but to cry... Which in turn had the effect that it disturbed some of them and they looked at me, I wiped my eyes. Great, not a very good start...

Master Kenobi looked at me with a sympathetic smile "I can imagine that some would like to know what has upset you so much." And with that all eyes rested on me. I closed my eyes to force this memory of him to slow down even more so that I could see more clearly. "I see fog... Stone walls formed through time, but there is an entrance, a hidden entrance... The corridors are dark, very dark... A man who is not really present but nevertheless he is there, from him I feel a dark aura... I hear screams, painful screams... A room filled with different things from an ancient warrior folk... Then another, filled with mechanical stuff, something hangs from the ceiling, which I can not recognize." I can feel and smell all their confusion and surprise, the strongest from Kit. He probably wonders how I saw probably a memory he has closed off in the deepest parts of his mind. ARG! My head! I thought I mastered it to stop it from hurting, but guess not. I open my eyes, trying to ignore the pain as best as possible. Kit stood up "I'll probably retire better for now." What?! I messed up so har-ARG! I gripped my head tightly with both my hands, trying not to put too much pressure on my claws. I felt all their eyes on me once more, worry was one feeling I was getting out of those gazes. "It's okay... I tried I mastered this a bit more but seems like I haven't... It always happen when I'm taken to deep in one's memory..." I slowly managed to soften this pain, but I heard steps "Forgive me" and there was the door. I wanted to say something and turned my head towards the door but saw it just closing, my ears flopped down. Great... I made everything wrong that I could, again, and it had to be with him... Why do I always mess up?

"You did not do anything wrong. A dark part of his memory you've seen, one he has not yet defeated." I turned my head towards master Yoda by his comforting words. "My curiosity will kill me one of these days ... I shouldn't have digged so deep, even if I can't decide how deep sometimes..." I sighed "A right you have to know us, no mistake it was." He has a point, at least it made me feel better for now. With that we continued and I looked at a few others. I think master Yoda would feel if I came in his head, but I think I can't mess up even more. Since he was one of the old ones I've saw many memories, I swear I almost squealed! He trained many Jedis too and I saw Kit as a child. Almost every child of a species looks so cute! Okay, calm down Blue, not wanting to disturb anyone else! I continued to look at a few "pictures" of different Younglings and their time.

After a few minutes the session ended and master Kenobi was kind enough to bring me back saying that I shouldn't worry too much. I would like to agree with him but I feel because of the thing with Kit, it was so cold of me and I should of known better than to be so careless. I wish I could apologize to him right now but I can't get there or I don't know where he is...

I tried to sleep, but thanks to the guilt I'm feeling, I'll probably sleep when it's cleared between us. Why can't I just be normal...?

I have tried to sleep, but like before, it didn't worked. I climbed inside the wheelchair and rolled inside the bathroom, the least I could do was getting fresh, brush my teeth and my hair. As I finished I rolled back to the patient room and I'll wait to be picked up for the next session, hoping it was Kit that would pick me up. I had my back turned towards the door, having my eyes glued to the window. I heard the door open up and my hopes went up, but as I smelled the air those hopes were crushed, it was master Kenobi's smell. I looked at him and sure I was, no Kit. "Good morning. I hope you feel better than yesterday." He came to me and I nodded at him with a smile, I can't trust my voice right now, fearing it would break.

We reached the room from yesterday and I looked around, I also saw no Kit... I borrowed my sadness with other emotions, not wanting to worry anyone else.

Another day had passed and Kit was still not there, making me feel even more bad for what I did. At least I could focus on all of the other master's memories, making my decision harder since no one seemed to meet my expectations only master Kenobi and master Plo Koon were the ones I think are the most sympathetic with me, but I can't decide now since Kit was missing, but if I take even longer I'll keep the masters from their duties in this war, meaning thanks to me they risk losing battles outside. It was like stones that are falling from the ceiling, burying me under them...

By the third day I didn't got hopes up that Kit would come back, he hates me probably now... I climbed on the seat and could sit in a tailor seat without any pain, at least something.

Before we began the door open up once more making me turn around. Kit just came in, but why... Doesn't he hate me for what I did? My ears only lifted lightly and I looked at him in the most apologetic way I could muster. He gave me the same look, which surprised me even more! He smiled then and gave a short wink with one of his black eyes, he isn't mad?! I gave a soft smile back to him, I feel a happiness rising in my chest, it makes me feel so relieved.

He sat down on his seat and we all began meditating, I breathed in and out, deeply. Since I've seen in all heads of the others I decided to get into Kit's memory.

This time the memory was more clear and not so fast. It was an ocean planet, raining very much, a city was standing above the water, seems like that this was Kamino. Funnily Kamino is a neighbour of Alrauna, a very distant neighbour of Alrauna that is, but we belong to the very same system. Kit was also on this planet, a blue coloured Twi'lek woman, they were investigating some kind of crime with envolved many dead clones, seems like they died because of a weird virus. Seems like one of the Kaminoans worked for the Separatist, just as the traitor wanted to flee both Jedis were fighting against, I guess those were, super battle droids. The blue Twi'lek was pushed off the platform thanks to the blast of the explosion the ship caused as it was destroyed, he jumped after her but right as he dived under the water everything went black... I wonder what happened and why this didn't happen before... It went away soon enough and I saw that the blue Twi'lek was still in some other memories, meaning she survived. I did not want to look any further to find out what has happened there. I saw through other memories of him, to understand more of his character, in addition to the knowledge that I have already collected with the time we have spent together. Now I know... To whom my decision will fall. Not only does my mind tell me that it would be the best decision, but also the hole in my heart say so. The hole that my biological father should have filled out, cries to be finally filled with that... Affection and "love", the fatherly love he has never given to me...

I open my eyes again, there was no need to look into the head of someone else. "Made your choice, have you?" I flinched and looked surprised to master Yoda, since when...? I looked at him while nodding "I have, I also hope that he accepts my choice." "Well chosen you have, I hope." He also gave me a nod. With that we waited until the others finished their meditations, I was grooming the fur on my tail.

As they all came back, I knew that they felt that I have decided. I looked towards Kit who gave me a encouraging smile seems like he thought I looked at him for moral support, with that I gave him a smile with a nod which he thankfully understood, he seemed a bit surprised by it. "Of course only if you agree to."

"It's an honor." I smiled at that "The honor is mine." I looked at master Yoda, like everyone else, there were no protest and with that he gave his agreement. I was happy with that and I feel my tail started to wag, it made some smile and even one laugh a bit, but it only made the wagging worse. He stood up and helped me in the wheelchair "Let's follow the tradition of the temple, Padawan." It made me so proud to hear him say that.

Kit went to get something out of his rooms while I waited in a empty meditation room. Just as I got my tail to stop wagging he came back, in his hands was a small box. I looked at it, my ears pointing up sharply "What is that?" Kit said down next to me "The material that is used to make ornaments for a Padawan braid. It is a tradition that the masters makes these for their Padawans on the first day of training." I looked at the still closed box "Sounds very interesting!" He open up the box and inside were different gems in different colours. "It used to be that the student got a new component for every progress." "That sounds logic! And how is it now?" I looked up from the box towards him. "It is less practiced because of the war." I could only nod at that.

"A braid would be the most traditional, or even in your hair." Sounds good to me "The braid I could do quickly." And wanted to take a few strands of hair into my hands, from the backside of my head. He smiled and took my hands, stopping me "Take it easy, I'll do it." He handed me the box, "Just pick a beginning for the braid." I gave him a nod then with a small 'okay', taking the box and turned around having my back to him and looked at all of them. They looked all so beautiful! I felt him beginning to braid my hair, I have to confess this is so enjoyable, making me feel so relaxed. I managed to get a order of them and with it I gave him the gems, even as he worked them in the braid I got even more relaxed my tail started to wag again.

I was smiling the whole time as he was working on my hair, I managed not to hit him with my tail. "Finished. Is that okay?" I looked at it and pulled it over my shoulder, it was long with the gems at perfect spots, I stroke over it a few times "It's beautiful." He smiled at me and I returned it "Then I'm glad."

"Tell me, how deep did you actually dug in my memories?" I almost knew that this question would come. "Not really deep. I did not want to bring up bad memories again, but sometimes I can't control what happens." Thinking about it, I feel bad. "Vassek was probably the worst of it - at least which hit me the hardest." I couldn't help it but to hug him, I feel so bad for him. I felt him tense up a bit, oh no did I do something wrong again? Just as I wanted to let go he returned it, okay seems like it wasn't that bad. "I'm sorry what happened there." I wish I was there and could of prevent it "It's okay. It just hurts me how pointless the victims of this mission were... " I gave him a nod and let him go then "Does everyone else can do that? Looking into memories?" He shook his head "No, not at all. That's a special gift of yours." Really? It's not common under the Jedi? That's really interesting! "What about as I was rummaging around like a ghost? Is not that also not normal?" "Only the masters can do that, but not alone and even some can't do this." I was surprised by this! "And since I was alone and I do not have much experience, is that also extraordinary?" Kit nodded at me with a smile "Yes, very much. Finally a student who will surpass me." My ears went up once again in worry "Is that good or is that bad?" I have the feeling I worry too much... "Good in my eyes, because that would mean I did my job well." I gave him a smile which he returned it. Finally I can start training, better after I can walk again, and start my new life with my new master.

It has been a few months now. The training had begun, he teached me more control over myself and my emotions through meditating. We even meditate when we had the chance to do, master would always ask me if we want to meditate together, until now I never declined it.

As I could finally start to walk again we started with combat. He is such a patiently master, when I didn't get it right he would show me the move a few times more until I got it right, not rushing me. Master gives me praise when I do something good and it makes me feel so good, so proud to be here and learning under him.

Just as I was allowed to leave the hospital I moved in to my master, we had enough room for us both* and that was fine. I also got to know other kinds of food and it was just amazing.

One thing that is still a bit frightening for me to do was flying a starfighter, it was scary! But at least I have someone that flies with me, an astromech droid R3-A7. He is black and white with a red eye, I gave him the name Amund, it means protector. I gave him the name since he is my protector in a space battle.

So far I’ve avoided crashing down and was getting better with each flight, still it scares me, but I have Amund and master by my side.
I wonder when would be the first time we were sent to a mission.
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*I and Akiala enjoy the idea that the Jedi have like small apartments. And I’ll use it in this story, sure in the actual show you saw what a quarter of a Padawan looks like, but it has so many advantages so.