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It has been some time since the Jedi master Kit Fisto and the 212th attack battalion had been picked up by the other Jedi, the Kel’Dor, along with his battalion. If only I wasn't such an idiot I probably would be on Coruscant by now...

The night after they left... my nightmares and ‘visions’ got even worse... Even so worse that those things don't need to wait until the night... They even use these two specific persons to make me lose my mind... My father and... Oh gods... He is there looking at me... Antero, my beloved one... I am so sorry I didn't wanted you to die...

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I woke up, again, I’ve lost count at 64 of how often I woke up this whole night, this single night!!

Why are they keeping me from sleeping?! There is so much stuff that goes on in my mind lately, well not like that, the whole time to be more exact...

My duties even kept and are still keeping me from having a normal life and a biorhythms, meaning I’ve lost so much weight that I have reached underweight, I only sleep like 2-3 hours, if I’m lucky...

I managed to hide those things ‘till now, but I'm not sure for how long I can do this...

I have tried to forget the past and the people with it, but the past will always be a part of me, no matter what. I only wish, that the spirits of the dead would leave me be...

The sun started to come into my home as I had decided to read, I knew, if I had tried to fall asleep again, I would wake up again. Tomorrow night, the moon festival would begin, the three moons are almost in their positions. This festival is one way to honour our moon goddess, our dead and the first Lupus that were created by the gods.

I would play the part of the goddess, so I should look if everything is prepared so that I could have most of the time to ‘braid’ my hair...

Finally those idiots did something right!! If only this could be the way every time I demand something from them!

Well then let’s take care of you hair, after I dressed myself correctly. The moon goddess had different looks, which was naturally as probably only certain dragons knows how the gods look.

I picked up the long blue dress that was multi layered and get in it, wrapping this belt like thing around my waist to keep the dress at it's position. shoving the bracelets onto my upper arm and my wrist, the ornaments that I'll place in and on my head layed on the table along with the staff of the goddess. And now... The fun part.... Making my hair right... I wish that mom, my brother or even... Antero, he loved my hair and made so amazing braids.

I was brought back from my thoughts as someone knocked on my door, since I tried to teach some of them the Galactic Basic I called out a "Do come in!" And so I heard the door open up and I could feel two presences, but as I wasn't focused enough I didn't knew so naturally I spoke my mother's tongue "Something the matter? I'm almost finished." I was still trying to make my hair right, but froze up as I heard this voice which I yearned for so long. "It's me again." I turned around and tried to stay calm and collected, I need to keep a cool head as the festival will begin soon. "Oh! Welcome back! I hope your landing this time was more pleasant than last time!" I couldn't help to smile, just seeing this Nautolan made me so relaxed and happy. "Yes, much better. Thank you." After I nodded to him I looked at the human male next to him, he was like 1.82 meters tall, have gray-blue eyes, light coloured skin and light brown hair and a very impressive beard! He also had a lightsaber hanging from his hip, also a very beautiful design. "You're probably here to read the scriptures, am I correct?" my eyes wandered from the man to master Fisto who nodded. "May I introduce, master Obi-wan Kenobi." The Jedi master slightly bowed to me as his name was sat. "A pleasure to meet you. I heard some things about you from master Fisto." I returned his smile and made a soft growling noise. "It meant: 'The pleasure is mine.'" I quickly looked out the window and saw it was almost time and I wasn't finished yet!! So I had to turn around and start on my hair again, I didn't mean it rudely but, traditions are traditions...

"Are you celebrating something?" I looked at the mirror and saw him looking at me and both didn't looked displeased that I have turned around to work on my hair. "It is a festival to honour our moon goddess, our dead and the first Lupus that were created by the gods. I was fighting with my hair all the time, if only it would agree with me more... And yes, the constellation of the moons have something to do with that. Believing the legend, not every species were created at the same time, every god, who would create some of our species, let's say they had a strict timetable of when who would be allowed to bestow his gift onto us." I noticed that those two seemed very interested in those things but I also felt something like... discomfort from them both. "I hope our presence is not disturbing for your festivity." I had to smile at that. "Don't worry, we are very open with our festivals. Which means you are allowed to witness it too." Almost finished, and why is my hair cooperating with me now that the one person, I wished to return, is here now?!

"Are you really sure?" It is actually very nice of them to ask and not do what they want. I nodded at them and master Kenobi stepped forth to answer instead of his fellow jedi colleague "We appreciate your hospitality very much." where the Nautolan nodded with a 'Thank you'. After I said a 'You're welcome' the Jedis went outside to let me finish my damn hair.

Just as I added the finishing touches to it I heard something outside which sounded like scolding in a yelling way, but at least I could say it wasn't anyone from my idiots that was yelling or being yelled at. I'm going to ask later what this was...

I picked up the tiara and placed it on my head and connected a little chain with an ornament in the middle with it, having it hanging on my forehead and with that, I had finished this costume and that just in time!

I quickly went behind the stage to the others that would be in this to dance and sing the story of our people. I hope our dear guests will enjoy this play.

I waited and listens to the ones on the stage that played the poor souls that had to live under the terrors of the Dark Entity and were slaughtered by it's cruel minions. Ah, here comes the part where the remaining survivors are praying and would sacrifice their souls to seal the Darkness, that is my que with others that are also dressed up as gods to get on the stage. Just before they fell over, pretending to have died, they looked peaceful and relieved. Now it was time for the most important battle of this protracted war, the sealing of the Dark Entity, which was naturally also a part of this.

Even if the battle was a show, it was still hard since we had to interpretend this battle and when believing the legends some of the gods almost died and were very weak thanks to it’s powers, so we even did the part, after the sealing, that the gods went to different places to rest a few days, for us only one night, before giving out the gifts to the remaining children of the gods. Since I was the moon goddess and the most important for us Lupus I had to go somewhere out of the village to rest for the night and I choose the cave I showed to Kit Fisto and some of the 212th, a place where I hopefully will sleep the night through...

I stepped inside and went in the corner where the statue of the moon goddess stood, I turned to my animalistic form and laid down right in front of the statue, placing down something very dear to my heart, the old music box that mother left to me after her passing, the only thing I have left off her, father kept the most to him and gave the half of his items to my brother, even this old music box but as he open up the box and saw what mother had craved in the lid of the box, he gave it to me as father was asleep and advised me to hide it from our father.

But since father is dead for a long time I don't need to do that. I rewind the box and open it up in front of me, the one supernatural thing of this box, it played three songs, you need to rewind it in a special way to play one of the other two but I wanted to hear the one mother used to lure us to sleep all those long years ago while she sang a tune she had learned as a child, a Draconian lullaby.

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I tried to remember my mother's voice as she sang the lullaby but even that didn't manage to lure me asleep, even though I'm so weak and tired. I rewind the box in a different way to try to listen to another one to fall asleep, at least I could try.

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Just as I wanted to lay my head down I heard something behind me, so I snapped my head into the direction. There stood the master Jedi Kit Fisto, but why? Did he wanted to take a look at the archive and heard the noise, as I know that to Nautolans music is just are layered sounds, so he looked at what it was.

"Are you alright?" I stayed put as the Jedi came to me. "Yes, I'm alright. This is part of the play that I have to stay outside the village for the night and I'm trying to sleep but even this music box doesn't work at all..." I looked down exhausted at the said box, I felt him sit down next to me "Then I will stay with you here." I only nodded and moved over to him and my head ended on his right leg as he had sit down in a lotus position and it didn't even disturbed him in any way.

I was actually very surprised as I was drifting off into sleep thanks to the music and his presence. I could swear I felt a hand on my head, stroking between my ears.

I open my eyes expecting to wake up in darkness, but no it was peaceful looking landscape. I looked around wondering where I was in this dream, still being on high alert, knowing that everything can still turn to a nightmare. But as long as I waited I only heard the grass softly moving from side to side from the soft breeze, the sound of the ocean waves hitting, probably, a stone cliff. Wait... A stone cliff?! Don't tell me... Why did my dreams sent me here?! Of all the places, it hat do be this one! I walked to the direction of the waves, towards the edge, from where I wanted to throw myself off it. But in the end I didn't, I couldn't, a single jump to end my misery... So a demon did the job of making me fall into the ocean's dark abyss. I was sure I would die from drowning... But he saved me, the one person who gave my life a meaning and the one that was taken from me by others that wanted our relationship to be eliminated, because in their eyes we were sinners... Worthless and disgusting sinners that loved someone from another species. But love is always too complicated to understand or ignore... If there are rules against one, love will always find a way to bend, to break those...

I looked down from the edge, this was the very same edge I wanted to end my life on, I quickly stepped away from the edge and didn't felt anything behind me so there was nothing that would stop me from being thrown over the edge to relive those cursed years once more... But why am I here again, when not thrown into this cursed circle once more? As my eyes wandered over this scene I noticed that everything around this place was pure nothingness, except one path leading down from this cliff and so I decided to walk down. While walking this path it just build up the way and, finally, a landscape in the distance, out of reach.

The path ended at a beach, I knew this one too well. My guess was confirmed when in the distance a cave had materialized, a cave that I know only all to good, my only option was to go towards it.

I pushed the vines covering the entrance to the side and went inside, right as I remember it or as my dreams had shown to me, there it stood under a row of light from an opening on the ceiling, right onto the tombstone I set up. Oh my dear and sweet Antero... I never wanted it to come to that, to your gruesome and painful death... If only I never wanted to kill myself then we wouldn't have met and you would still be alive... It's all my fault...

I fell on my knees and stroke the elflock that still had a faint blue tone decorated with sea shells and other things from the sea, it was a symbol of our bond that connected our souls, we felt the pain and emotions of the other, I had cut it off after I sank his body into the sea and placed it on his tombstone.

"I hope you have found your peace, my love..."

I open my eyes once again as it was morning and I stretch while yawning but came out as a whine. Afterwards I shook myself and almost fell over out of shock "Good morning." I totally forgot about him! Did I really use him as a pillow for the night...? "Good morning, I should return to end the festival." He nodded and stood up from the ground dusting himself off. I started leading him outside and froze right up "Have you been sick in the last few weeks?" Oh boy, I have a bad feeling about this... "No, why do you ask?" I try to keep calm and not to show it, old alpha instinct. "You have lost weight, that's the reason I ask." Is it so obvious even with the fur? "It's okay, that is normal." And walked past him and just as I thought I was victorious with my lie, my paw hasn't touched the ground yet. "And the truth is?" Damn he's good... "I... Have lost some fur..." I even I have to say that this is not really convincing...

He crossed his arms and sighed "Blue... You and I knows this is not the truth." I tried to look at him with my most innocent look and a very innocent "Yes...?"

I turned around to him as he kneeled down to my animalistic eye level "What is the real reason, Blue. You know you can tell me."

I sighed and now I really couldn't lie "Alright... Lately I haven't got any time to really eat something or sleep more than 3 hours." I fell so bad to make him concerned with my problems... "And why not?" He was still so understanding and brought back the emotions from when we first met and as he left.

"I have no time. My duties and challenges from others keep me preoccupied." He nodded at me and was rethinking everything I have just said and sighed "I think you should take a break from all of this." If only this would be so easy! "That would be like a dream, but sadly it doesn't work like this... I can only appoint a deputy if I have a partner and children ..." I was really thinking if I should lose the next fight...

"Do you really have no other options?" He sounded so worried that it broke my heart and I could only shake my head. "Life isn't fair, it never was and will be. There will always be something that will be taken from one and stuff that is demanded from one." He stood up with a nod.

As we came back his companion, Obi-Wan Kenobi was waiting for both of us and Kit apologized to him which he said it was fine since he was meditating. Kit turned to me then "Then go, to at least eat something now." I nodded at him "But I have still time to bring you both to the archive." But he shook his head "I'll find the way. Take care of your well-being." Okay I'm fine with that. "But if anything is wrong come to me at once." After they nod they went off towards the cave and I quickly inside to finish the play.

Phew! That was quick and I managed to get to my house at once to get out of those clothes and into my real ones. And just as I wanted to bite into a fruit my door was almost knocked out of it's holders and, behold, a male challenger!! And of everyone that could be facing me was Arneot, one of the strongest and tallest males in my pack. He hates me very much since he would of been the real successor, since father wanted it be like this but the shamans decided against that. “Only the true heir is allowed to be the alpha after the old one dies. And will lead it until the heir was defeated” that were their words, but as I have watched Arneot over time I have to agree that he would of been a great alpha, I only hope that his hate won't cloud his mind, because... He deserved this more, than I do and I guess everyone would be more pleased with him in charge than me.

I set down the fruit and followed him and all I felt was fatigued, my legs were all wobbly and I knew that I can not win this, even if I want to...

He was circling me but I wasn't in any good condition to do the same, at least not many witnessed this fight and I hope the two Jedi won't be back all to soon. I only felt a grip and teeth at my ankle and everything went black...

The next thing I knew was pain and the cold ground, as I looked around I saw some blood on the ground and then Arneot stood above me and he looked, which surprised me, actually concerned. Why? He should be howling in triumph and not looking concerned over his beaten foe... Arneot picked me up by the scruff of my neck, in such a gentle way, and carried me to the healers. He really is a very good leader, a real alpha. That even takes care of his foes, his challengers that would try to take his place. Father was right with something at least, even if he was an abusive parent to me while he loved my big brother and mom...

I was slightly slipping in and out of consciousness as we reached the house of the healers, or also called shamans by some, resided. The door was barely open and he already went inside, dragging me with him and laying me down on one of the places were they tend to the injured. I couldn't barely understand what they were talking about and then he went out of the very same door. Then I closed my eyes as I was so tired and let them do they work of tending to my wounds, knowing how I will be treated as I have just lost the status of an alpha, it was the only thing that would of granted me very good medical treatment. Losing the alpha position you either end up under the beta, if there is one or even become it, when the situation is good, when not, you will end up at the very end of the list, the omega...

I was called back to the waking world at a knock and a call of my name, I lifted my head up and saw master Fisto standing in the doorway with a worried look that could rival the concerned look from Arneot from before. He saw in what kind of state was and how bad my wounds are and came closer and asked the shamans about me in our language?! How in the world, I haven't teached him anything! Maybe he got the book of the legends and a old translating book in his hands...?

I felt the last sting of the needle through my skin as they were finished with suturing my wounds closed and they picked me up and started to carry me to my house, Kit came to my side then. I could only look at him with my eyes everything felt so heavy...

"A fight for the dominance?" I nodded at him with a very quiet "I lost..." We came to my home and the shamans laid me down, as Kit sat next to my on my bed as they left. "To challenge you in such a condition, is hardly a fair fight." Kit scratched between my ears, seems like he feels my pain and tries to distract me from the very same pain that flows through my veins. "For the males, an alpha has to be ready to fight at all times, to defend his position from others... There's no big difference, or better said no difference at all, in age, gender and constitution..." At least I'm not alone in this pain right now.

His hand softly rested on my head "At least you have a break. If you are healthy again you can challenge him once again, right? If this is your plan after your recovery." He has a point, but that is not what I want. "If I win, everything starts from the beginning, plus I have to clean up what the predecessor did. I have to say, I've been thinking about your offer, from last time you've been here." I sensed and smelled his light surprise "Really? Glad to hear that and on what have you decided?"

I collected the strength I needed to lift my head up to look at him "I want to come with you." This time I sensed that happiness came from him "Those are good news, but first you need to rest up a bit." I nodded as I curled up, it was night time after all and I guess I will sleep good, with him here with me. His presence, his aura, is keeping the darkness away at least. To be honest, I can barely wait for my new life to begin. A life that I will try to change from the last one and not having nightmares about a love that has died because of me.

The day came fast as if the sun also couldn't wait for my fresh start! I crawled out of my bed to shake the sleep off my fur and hoping I didn't ripped out any sutures. "Do not rush, we are not in a hurry." I smiled at him and changed back to my humanoid form, thankfully my clothes are only ripped at the places that were wounded and thankfully it wasn't fatal...

"Don't worry. I'm going to pack a few things." I went to my table, where I first put all the documents in one pile, then fetched a bag and stuffed the books, I stacked there, into the bag. "I do not want to leave them here, I have written off all the writings of the archive in my language and the Galactic Basic, also the journal of my father, which contains very interesting information, is included." He nodded at me and then the journal of my father fell out of my hands and it open up at the page where sketches and some instructions of how to build a lightsaber and it's functions. Before I could pick it up master Fisto did it already and held it in his hands as he looked at it. "Is that also from the archive?" I took it from him and put it in the bag "I do not know, my father might of saw this somewhere, he always had this journal with him." He seemed very interested by that. "Really? Very interesting!"

I had to nod and place the bag on the table but didn't closed it, almost forgot something! "And I also just followed the instructions and built something of it." I even made him more interested! I shoved a box out of the way and picked up two lightsabers, probably their technology and design of my people, and showed them to him. He looked at those two. "Very impressive ... do they actually work?" I nodded and activated them, the one with the darker handle had a pure white blade and the other one, with a brighter handle a dark blade. I swore I saw him smile as I held those while they were activated. "Really, very impressive indeed." I deactivated them and placed them in the bag too "Thank you, it took me very long to build these." I always had a bag packed with clothes as I used the force to get it to me.

"Really like that of a Jedi, only that yours bear decorations of your kind." I don't know, but it really surprised me that he said this and made me feel proud and calm. I still checked the bag that had the clothes in it before connecting those two with another. "Can I... Visit one place before we leave? I promise I won't take long." At his nod I went outside along with the bag and walked through the gate to call Anubis one more time.

Naturally he came to me, but looked sad. He probably knows what I’ve decided and this may be the last time we see each other again. Just as I climbed on his back he took off in the direction I wanted to go, he probably felt what I was feeling in the moment.

Soon enough I heard the sea, it always makes me feel sad because I have to think about him, my beloved Antero. He was part of the Balæna. This is a very big tribe so this one had some subclasses and with that he belonged to the Orca tribe, but he was different from the rest, like me, having this curse in us, but I started to see it as a gift, the force was strong with him like it is with me. But there is still one big difference between us, our blood. His mother was an Orca while his father was a water dragon, a Draconian*!! He was a Half-Dragonblood! Dragons, also a word used to describe the Draconian, are very powerful, some have that only a god could have! Antero had healing powers, he made sure that every wound was 100% healed and wouldn't cause any problems for me, he even revived himself from a state of death and saved my life too. I wish that we could still be together or that we both could go to Coruscant to either become Jedi or live on the very same planet were no one knows who we are, where we can just be "husband" and "wife", no alpha from the lupus and no Half-Dragonblood from the Orca tribe. But nothing will ever be that easy, I have to go alone and start new, which means I have to let it go.

Anubis stopped in front of the cave and laid down, I dismounted him and went inside. Just like as every dream has shown me, the tombstone, the writings on the stone and the elflock with it's decorations from the sea. As I touched it a pleased shiver went down my spine, it almost felt like his hand ran down my back. I’ve missed him so much, but right at the moment I’ll leave this cave I need to let go of him, of our love, of our time, of our memories.

“Goodbye my dear love. I hope our paths cross again in the afterlife, in a reborn life, in Valhalla or in whatever place our souls may end up.” My fingers traced his name while I spoke. I stood up and turned around to leave. “Goodbye my dear beloved Blue. May the gods watch over you.” I stood still in the cave entrance, it sounded just like him. I need to snap out of it and hurry back! I climbed onto Anubis and he carried me back, towards their ship.

My heart grew heavy once more as I saw him and everyone else waiting, this can be the last time I might be on my home planet, but it was too late to change my mind. I dismounted Anubis one last time, I pressed his head against me as he was whining, I tried to keep my tears but this time I couldn't and started to shed some of them. After I stopped them from running I wanted to remove everything from him, meaning decorations and such but he screamed at me and stepped back. I then realised something, the bond of rider and animal is strong, no matter what. “You're going to wait for me? To ride once again?” Anubis gave a nod and bowed to me like he did after he accepted me as his rider, then he took off in the forest. I turned around and faced the Jedi masters ‘You're ready to leave now, Blue?” I nodded to Kit and they lead me to the ship, the clones they brought with them, they were the same ones that picked Kit and the 212th up.

I stepped inside and it started to lift itself up into the air, I was trying not to shake with fear at that, I'll probably get used to flying... And I flinched as the doors shot close! Why does it have to be so suddenly? But I guess I will get used to it also...

"All good?" I looked to Kit and nodded to him, no need to make him worry more. I noticed the looks from the clones, while some have already put their helmets on, they looked at me carefully as if I would be a threat, maybe I can change that soon.

I felt that we reached our destination and I guessed so since it became louder too! And the ship landed and the doors open up, giving me a view of the giant room. Other ships, like this one, and other types are stored here and some weird thing with 6 legs and it looks like a saddle only it had a very long pipe out of metal(I mean an AT-TE, but had to describe it differently because Blue has no idea what everything is on board of a Venator-class Star Destroyer). To be honest, I'm quite nervous since everything is so new and foreign. "You're really sure you're alright?" Just as I have thought master Fisto stood next to me and I knew only an honest answer will be good here. "Well, I'm a bit nervous." He placed his hand on my shoulder and smiled at me "There is no need to be nervous. Do you want to accompany me to the bridge?" I nodded, now I was curious. I followed him and managed to not run into anything or anyone as I was staring around in awe at everything, we then entered something, he called an elevator, and were lifted upwards with me almost falling on my face, thanks for my surprise and the weight of my bag.

We then stepped outside and this must be the bridge since it looked like a very high-tech area and so many clones working in a lower area, under a "bridge"? Is this the reason why this is called the bridge? After I was finished looking around I notice Kit talking to a clone, his armor gives me the feelings that he is probably the leader of this clone battalion. I really like the design of his armor, a simple grey tone that makes an interesting pattern, on one of his shoulders is the "emblem" of this battalion, it looks like a wolf. Who knows how he got the idea, but I think it suits him. Even his big scar across his right eye and with that the white eye, which looks so unreal. I haven't spoken a word as I felt all the concentration of everyone here, I try not to do anything wrong on my "first day".

Master Kenobi came too and walked past me towards Kit and the clone, whereupon both ended their conversation and greeted him, but continued it only with him, while I had my mouth shut. Not talking but looked around once more from my position, trying to read what stood on those mirror like things, I just hope that I won't disturb or annoy anyone while doing so. But thanks to my "snooping around", I felt a great wave of emotions, all of them were distrustful of me. I can't say I'm mad at that, I can totally understand that they feel like this, they do not know much about me after all. I then decided to look the leader of this group into his face, then I noticed the helmet under his arm and there was the same pattern as his shoulder, but more noticeable and still looked really good.

He seemed to notice me almost starring at him as he looked at me, confused I laid my head to the side with one ear pointed, maybe he can understand me good enough since I feel the biggest wave of distrust coming from him. The only thing I got in return was a very intense look. My ears pointed up even more, my tail had a tense pose and I stared back and had my head in an upright position, the reaction I got was a snort from my counterpart, it was like the ones I got in a fight for the dominance, so as an natural and habit reaction I returned it only much louder, then I actually wanted too... I couldn't help it, but as he started to growl in a way that it sounded like that of my kind I returned it and showed my long and sharp predatory teeth. He unconsciously made himself appear bigger than he already is, I'm still shorter than anyone on this ship but I tried the same, but it didn't make a good impression as I was still injured.

As he made sure that both Jedi haven't notice anything from it, he stepped towards me and I stayed put, not backing down. He growled again and it sounded very realistic. He leaned down to me and spoke softly but forcefully, "These are MY Brothers, MY Ship, MY Pack, MY Territory. " My god, he is a hard headed fellow... Seems like he's feeling pressured in his position, almost like an Alpha's thoughts on a new challenger...

"And if, I'm not going to get orders from someone who has not beaten me, I've already gone through struggles for dominance." My words sound as insistent as his damned habits!! "That's all mine and before you touch it, I'll throw you into space, I have to fight for everything I have in every second of my life!" his words had a certain weight, the blood of an alpha has to agree with him, but it makes me angry at one point. "You had time to practice and grow up, my first fight was when I was 8 years old." I gave a snort once more.

He gave me one again "Well, I'm 9**." Wait, WHAT?!? But, but he's a grown up man?? "But you're an adult?" what does this mean...? "I'm a clone. Pumped with hormones and proteins, as well as all our genes are manipulated. They have no time to wait so many years to soldiers." That is... my whole body switched from an attack state to a sad and compassionate state, even my ears disappeared in my hair "That's terrible..." I feel so horrible for the way I acted...

He only shook with his shoulders "My life is too short to let anyone take something from me!" I bit my lip and did something I never thought I would do so quickly, I turned to my animal form and laid on my back exposing my belly. Thankfully he understood what I meant with a nod and showed me with a simple hand sign that I'm tolerated by him and probably by the others of the battalion, I hope this battalion has something with wolf in it's name! I sat down and managed to get at least over his waist and just then Kit turned around to us, I tried to make it look like nothing happened and used my right hind leg to scratch behind my ear.

"Is everything... alright?" I can imagine he felt what had happen, but still I played it off. "Everything alright, only these damn bandages are so itchy!!" And that was no lie! "Do you think new ones would help?" That sounds good. "Probably, since I don't think this was done in a steril way." He nodded at me and with that I stood on my paws "Then come with me. Wolffe, Pulse*** is here, right?" I have to say I already like his name and it explains so much about him and his personality! As Wolffe confirmed that he was there Kit advised me to follow him and I had picked up my bag and just hoped that he won't notice that I didn't really put pressure on my right hind leg, but naturally he bested me. "Does your paw hurts?" and I saw no sense in lying so I nodded. "Should I help you?" I only nodded and put the bag out of my mouth awaiting to be picked up. "I could carry you better if you had the other form. Don't worry, someone will carry the bag." I gave the clone my bag and turned into human, so he picked me up, it's not like it's embarrassing or so... But thankfully the way wasn't so long and we entered the room. As I expected the healer, or in the basic doctor or medic, was a clone, he had a serious burn marks that went under his armor. "Good day Sir." he laid something out of his hand that had something written on it. Kit put me on a flat surface which is probably a kind of treatment table. "Pulse, this is Blue. Blue, may I introduce, the medic of the pack." Now I'm sure the battalion's name is Wolfpack! I nod to him as my ears and tail tip twiched in a happy way. I have to make an interesting picture young girl with many bandages, various scars and too thin for her size. "Where did you get such wounds?" I felt his pity, as he looked over my body. "A fight for dominance, the healers of my village always said that I had luck. The scars are from 199 fights." I heard him sigh as he checked ever bandage and suture. "So, the bandages have to go down and I have to see how clean the wounds are." I nodded and started to scratch at some places and he tried to get me to stop. "I think you should take a bath, you need to relax to heal properly. After that you come back and I'll disinfect your wounds." I nodded and wanted to stand up but Kit stopped me. "Before you bath, you should let your foot get checked." I placed my right leg on the surface and Pulse touched the ankle "Swollen, very swollen... Those wounds seems to be infected as well." I started to feel the actual wound on it, it looked like teeth marks but not like those of Arneot or someone else from my former pack... "What will happen now?" I was unsure as I only know the ways of our healers... Pulse explained to me that I shouldn't walk in the next days or it could get even worse that it already is. "Which means I get carried around more..." I sigh at the pure thought. "Don't worry, in the temple we'll get you crutches or a wheelchair for the time being." Kit had stayed the whole time as Pulse checked my foot. "What are crutches or a wheelchair?" I looked up at him. "These are walking aids for injured people." I nodded at him and looked back to Pulse.

"But like I said, wash all that up first." Kit picked me up and brought me somewhere and placed me inside a tub but I turned to a wolf as I sat inside and watched the water fill it, Kit had left me to relax alone.

I stayed inside it for a bit and jumped outside and shook myself very much to get the water outside my fur. And as I was finished I heard a knock and in came Kit as I made a yes like sound. He grinned as he saw my fur, it was standing in all kind of directions but he picked me up then and as we came back to Pulse he looked very confused. "I'm not a veterinarian!" "That's me... I thought you could reach the wounds better this way..." I was human once more as I sat on the table "It's okay, it's just I'm not an expert with wolves." As I apologized he said it was okay and got something to disinfect. And was back soon enough "This is going to sting a bit..." I nodded at him and as he started to clean my wounds I didn't even twitch, only at the wound on my neck but he was careful at that wound. He even needed to suture some wounds again, Pulse checked my ankle as last. "I'll have to operate on this. Do I have to straighten a bone again. Or do you think you can endure it?"

"What would help the healing process?" I was still nervous about it. "Absolute zero pressure after it has been put into place for at least two months. Without surgery, it could take even longer, moreover, it may not heal properly and cause problems permanently." I don't want that! "Then I wish this operation." He agreed with me and said he will do it when we reached the temple.

Kit explained a bit about the temple to me and I just yawned in front of him. "Want to rest here?" I rubbed my eyes "Only if Pulse is okay with it." With that we both looked at him as he shrugged with his shoulders "If she does not bother anyone."

At that I jumped from the table as wolf, made sure I put no pressure on my leg and curled up in one corner with my bag. I watched Pulse for a bit but soon enough I fell asleep and for once more I slept peacefully, not knowing that I have slept through the whole trip back, the trip to my new home.

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Second chapter finally done! I'm sorry it took so long!

Star Wars isn't owned by me, so are the songs.

I only own the story and my charas.

*Draconian is the word for a dragon that isn't in a royal family, the Draconis are the royals.

**Not sure if this was correctly, it was part of the RP.
***Pulse is probably also a clone that came to life in the RP.

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It has been some time since the Jedi master Kit Fisto and the 212th attack battalion had been picked up by the other Jedi, the Kel’Dor, along with his battalion. If only I wasn't such an idiot I probably would be on Coruscant by now...

The night after they left... my nightmares and ‘visions’ got even worse... Even so worse that those things don't need to wait until the night... They even use these two specific persons to make me lose my mind... My father and... Oh gods... He is there looking at me... Antero, my beloved one... I am so sorry I didn't wanted you to die...

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I woke up, again, I’ve lost count at 64 of how often I woke up this whole night, this single night!!

Why are they keeping me from sleeping?! There is so much stuff that goes on in my mind lately, well not like that, the whole time to be more exact...

My duties even kept and are still keeping me from having a normal life and a biorhythms, meaning I’ve lost so much weight that I have reached underweight, I only sleep like 2-3 hours, if I’m lucky...

I managed to hide those things ‘till now, but I'm not sure for how long I can do this...

I have tried to forget the past and the people with it, but the past will always be a part of me, no matter what. I only wish, that the spirits of the dead would leave me be...

The sun started to come into my home as I had decided to read, I knew, if I had tried to fall asleep again, I would wake up again. Tomorrow night, the moon festival would begin, the three moons are almost in their positions. This festival is one way to honour our moon goddess, our dead and the first Lupus that were created by the gods.

I would play the part of the goddess, so I should look if everything is prepared so that I could have most of the time to ‘braid’ my hair...

Finally those idiots did something right!! If only this could be the way every time I demand something from them!

Well then let’s take care of you hair, after I dressed myself correctly. The moon goddess had different looks, which was naturally as probably only certain dragons knows how the gods look.

I picked up the long blue dress that was multi layered and get in it, wrapping this belt like thing around my waist to keep the dress at it's position. shoving the bracelets onto my upper arm and my wrist, the ornaments that I'll place in and on my head layed on the table along with the staff of the goddess. And now... The fun part.... Making my hair right... I wish that mom, my brother or even... Antero, he loved my hair and made so amazing braids.

I was brought back from my thoughts as someone knocked on my door, since I tried to teach some of them the Galactic Basic I called out a "Do come in!" And so I heard the door open up and I could feel two presences, but as I wasn't focused enough I didn't knew so naturally I spoke my mother's tongue "Something the matter? I'm almost finished." I was still trying to make my hair right, but froze up as I heard this voice which I yearned for so long. "It's me again." I turned around and tried to stay calm and collected, I need to keep a cool head as the festival will begin soon. "Oh! Welcome back! I hope your landing this time was more pleasant than last time!" I couldn't help to smile, just seeing this Nautolan made me so relaxed and happy. "Yes, much better. Thank you." After I nodded to him I looked at the human male next to him, he was like 1.82 meters tall, have gray-blue eyes, light coloured skin and light brown hair and a very impressive beard! He also had a lightsaber hanging from his hip, also a very beautiful design. "You're probably here to read the scriptures, am I correct?" my eyes wandered from the man to master Fisto who nodded. "May I introduce, master Obi-wan Kenobi." The Jedi master slightly bowed to me as his name was sat. "A pleasure to meet you. I heard some things about you from master Fisto." I returned his smile and made a soft growling noise. "It meant: 'The pleasure is mine.'" I quickly looked out the window and saw it was almost time and I wasn't finished yet!! So I had to turn around and start on my hair again, I didn't mean it rudely but, traditions are traditions...

"Are you celebrating something?" I looked at the mirror and saw him looking at me and both didn't looked displeased that I have turned around to work on my hair. "It is a festival to honour our moon goddess, our dead and the first Lupus that were created by the gods. I was fighting with my hair all the time, if only it would agree with me more... And yes, the constellation of the moons have something to do with that. Believing the legend, not every species were created at the same time, every god, who would create some of our species, let's say they had a strict timetable of when who would be allowed to bestow his gift onto us." I noticed that those two seemed very interested in those things but I also felt something like... discomfort from them both. "I hope our presence is not disturbing for your festivity." I had to smile at that. "Don't worry, we are very open with our festivals. Which means you are allowed to witness it too." Almost finished, and why is my hair cooperating with me now that the one person, I wished to return, is here now?!

"Are you really sure?" It is actually very nice of them to ask and not do what they want. I nodded at them and master Kenobi stepped forth to answer instead of his fellow jedi colleague "We appreciate your hospitality very much." where the Nautolan nodded with a 'Thank you'. After I said a 'You're welcome' the Jedis went outside to let me finish my damn hair.

Just as I added the finishing touches to it I heard something outside which sounded like scolding in a yelling way, but at least I could say it wasn't anyone from my idiots that was yelling or being yelled at. I'm going to ask later what this was...

I picked up the tiara and placed it on my head and connected a little chain with an ornament in the middle with it, having it hanging on my forehead and with that, I had finished this costume and that just in time!

I quickly went behind the stage to the others that would be in this to dance and sing the story of our people. I hope our dear guests will enjoy this play.

I waited and listens to the ones on the stage that played the poor souls that had to live under the terrors of the Dark Entity and were slaughtered by it's cruel minions. Ah, here comes the part where the remaining survivors are praying and would sacrifice their souls to seal the Darkness, that is my que with others that are also dressed up as gods to get on the stage. Just before they fell over, pretending to have died, they looked peaceful and relieved. Now it was time for the most important battle of this protracted war, the sealing of the Dark Entity, which was naturally also a part of this.

Even if the battle was a show, it was still hard since we had to interpretend this battle and when believing the legends some of the gods almost died and were very weak thanks to it’s powers, so we even did the part, after the sealing, that the gods went to different places to rest a few days, for us only one night, before giving out the gifts to the remaining children of the gods. Since I was the moon goddess and the most important for us Lupus I had to go somewhere out of the village to rest for the night and I choose the cave I showed to Kit Fisto and some of the 212th, a place where I hopefully will sleep the night through...

I stepped inside and went in the corner where the statue of the moon goddess stood, I turned to my animalistic form and laid down right in front of the statue, placing down something very dear to my heart, the old music box that mother left to me after her passing, the only thing I have left off her, father kept the most to him and gave the half of his items to my brother, even this old music box but as he open up the box and saw what mother had craved in the lid of the box, he gave it to me as father was asleep and advised me to hide it from our father.

But since father is dead for a long time I don't need to do that. I rewind the box and open it up in front of me, the one supernatural thing of this box, it played three songs, you need to rewind it in a special way to play one of the other two but I wanted to hear the one mother used to lure us to sleep all those long years ago while she sang a tune she had learned as a child, a Draconian lullaby.

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I tried to remember my mother's voice as she sang the lullaby but even that didn't manage to lure me asleep, even though I'm so weak and tired. I rewind the box in a different way to try to listen to another one to fall asleep, at least I could try.

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Just as I wanted to lay my head down I heard something behind me, so I snapped my head into the direction. There stood the master Jedi Kit Fisto, but why? Did he wanted to take a look at the archive and heard the noise, as I know that to Nautolans music is just are layered sounds, so he looked at what it was.

"Are you alright?" I stayed put as the Jedi came to me. "Yes, I'm alright. This is part of the play that I have to stay outside the village for the night and I'm trying to sleep but even this music box doesn't work at all..." I looked down exhausted at the said box, I felt him sit down next to me "Then I will stay with you here." I only nodded and moved over to him and my head ended on his right leg as he had sit down in a lotus position and it didn't even disturbed him in any way.

I was actually very surprised as I was drifting off into sleep thanks to the music and his presence. I could swear I felt a hand on my head, stroking between my ears.

I open my eyes expecting to wake up in darkness, but no it was peaceful looking landscape. I looked around wondering where I was in this dream, still being on high alert, knowing that everything can still turn to a nightmare. But as long as I waited I only heard the grass softly moving from side to side from the soft breeze, the sound of the ocean waves hitting, probably, a stone cliff. Wait... A stone cliff?! Don't tell me... Why did my dreams sent me here?! Of all the places, it hat do be this one! I walked to the direction of the waves, towards the edge, from where I wanted to throw myself off it. But in the end I didn't, I couldn't, a single jump to end my misery... So a demon did the job of making me fall into the ocean's dark abyss. I was sure I would die from drowning... But he saved me, the one person who gave my life a meaning and the one that was taken from me by others that wanted our relationship to be eliminated, because in their eyes we were sinners... Worthless and disgusting sinners that loved someone from another species. But love is always too complicated to understand or ignore... If there are rules against one, love will always find a way to bend, to break those...

I looked down from the edge, this was the very same edge I wanted to end my life on, I quickly stepped away from the edge and didn't felt anything behind me so there was nothing that would stop me from being thrown over the edge to relive those cursed years once more... But why am I here again, when not thrown into this cursed circle once more? As my eyes wandered over this scene I noticed that everything around this place was pure nothingness, except one path leading down from this cliff and so I decided to walk down. While walking this path it just build up the way and, finally, a landscape in the distance, out of reach.

The path ended at a beach, I knew this one too well. My guess was confirmed when in the distance a cave had materialized, a cave that I know only all to good, my only option was to go towards it.

I pushed the vines covering the entrance to the side and went inside, right as I remember it or as my dreams had shown to me, there it stood under a row of light from an opening on the ceiling, right onto the tombstone I set up. Oh my dear and sweet Antero... I never wanted it to come to that, to your gruesome and painful death... If only I never wanted to kill myself then we wouldn't have met and you would still be alive... It's all my fault...

I fell on my knees and stroke the elflock that still had a faint blue tone decorated with sea shells and other things from the sea, it was a symbol of our bond that connected our souls, we felt the pain and emotions of the other, I had cut it off after I sank his body into the sea and placed it on his tombstone.

"I hope you have found your peace, my love..."

I open my eyes once again as it was morning and I stretch while yawning but came out as a whine. Afterwards I shook myself and almost fell over out of shock "Good morning." I totally forgot about him! Did I really use him as a pillow for the night...? "Good morning, I should return to end the festival." He nodded and stood up from the ground dusting himself off. I started leading him outside and froze right up "Have you been sick in the last few weeks?" Oh boy, I have a bad feeling about this... "No, why do you ask?" I try to keep calm and not to show it, old alpha instinct. "You have lost weight, that's the reason I ask." Is it so obvious even with the fur? "It's okay, that is normal." And walked past him and just as I thought I was victorious with my lie, my paw hasn't touched the ground yet. "And the truth is?" Damn he's good... "I... Have lost some fur..." I even I have to say that this is not really convincing...

He crossed his arms and sighed "Blue... You and I knows this is not the truth." I tried to look at him with my most innocent look and a very innocent "Yes...?"

I turned around to him as he kneeled down to my animalistic eye level "What is the real reason, Blue. You know you can tell me."

I sighed and now I really couldn't lie "Alright... Lately I haven't got any time to really eat something or sleep more than 3 hours." I fell so bad to make him concerned with my problems... "And why not?" He was still so understanding and brought back the emotions from when we first met and as he left.

"I have no time. My duties and challenges from others keep me preoccupied." He nodded at me and was rethinking everything I have just said and sighed "I think you should take a break from all of this." If only this would be so easy! "That would be like a dream, but sadly it doesn't work like this... I can only appoint a deputy if I have a partner and children ..." I was really thinking if I should lose the next fight...

"Do you really have no other options?" He sounded so worried that it broke my heart and I could only shake my head. "Life isn't fair, it never was and will be. There will always be something that will be taken from one and stuff that is demanded from one." He stood up with a nod.

As we came back his companion, Obi-Wan Kenobi was waiting for both of us and Kit apologized to him which he said it was fine since he was meditating. Kit turned to me then "Then go, to at least eat something now." I nodded at him "But I have still time to bring you both to the archive." But he shook his head "I'll find the way. Take care of your well-being." Okay I'm fine with that. "But if anything is wrong come to me at once." After they nod they went off towards the cave and I quickly inside to finish the play.

Phew! That was quick and I managed to get to my house at once to get out of those clothes and into my real ones. And just as I wanted to bite into a fruit my door was almost knocked out of it's holders and, behold, a male challenger!! And of everyone that could be facing me was Arneot, one of the strongest and tallest males in my pack. He hates me very much since he would of been the real successor, since father wanted it be like this but the shamans decided against that. “Only the true heir is allowed to be the alpha after the old one dies. And will lead it until the heir was defeated” that were their words, but as I have watched Arneot over time I have to agree that he would of been a great alpha, I only hope that his hate won't cloud his mind, because... He deserved this more, than I do and I guess everyone would be more pleased with him in charge than me.

I set down the fruit and followed him and all I felt was fatigued, my legs were all wobbly and I knew that I can not win this, even if I want to...

He was circling me but I wasn't in any good condition to do the same, at least not many witnessed this fight and I hope the two Jedi won't be back all to soon. I only felt a grip and teeth at my ankle and everything went black...

The next thing I knew was pain and the cold ground, as I looked around I saw some blood on the ground and then Arneot stood above me and he looked, which surprised me, actually concerned. Why? He should be howling in triumph and not looking concerned over his beaten foe... Arneot picked me up by the scruff of my neck, in such a gentle way, and carried me to the healers. He really is a very good leader, a real alpha. That even takes care of his foes, his challengers that would try to take his place. Father was right with something at least, even if he was an abusive parent to me while he loved my big brother and mom...

I was slightly slipping in and out of consciousness as we reached the house of the healers, or also called shamans by some, resided. The door was barely open and he already went inside, dragging me with him and laying me down on one of the places were they tend to the injured. I couldn't barely understand what they were talking about and then he went out of the very same door. Then I closed my eyes as I was so tired and let them do they work of tending to my wounds, knowing how I will be treated as I have just lost the status of an alpha, it was the only thing that would of granted me very good medical treatment. Losing the alpha position you either end up under the beta, if there is one or even become it, when the situation is good, when not, you will end up at the very end of the list, the omega...

I was called back to the waking world at a knock and a call of my name, I lifted my head up and saw master Fisto standing in the doorway with a worried look that could rival the concerned look from Arneot from before. He saw in what kind of state was and how bad my wounds are and came closer and asked the shamans about me in our language?! How in the world, I haven't teached him anything! Maybe he got the book of the legends and a old translating book in his hands...?

I felt the last sting of the needle through my skin as they were finished with suturing my wounds closed and they picked me up and started to carry me to my house, Kit came to my side then. I could only look at him with my eyes everything felt so heavy...

"A fight for the dominance?" I nodded at him with a very quiet "I lost..." We came to my home and the shamans laid me down, as Kit sat next to my on my bed as they left. "To challenge you in such a condition, is hardly a fair fight." Kit scratched between my ears, seems like he feels my pain and tries to distract me from the very same pain that flows through my veins. "For the males, an alpha has to be ready to fight at all times, to defend his position from others... There's no big difference, or better said no difference at all, in age, gender and constitution..." At least I'm not alone in this pain right now.

His hand softly rested on my head "At least you have a break. If you are healthy again you can challenge him once again, right? If this is your plan after your recovery." He has a point, but that is not what I want. "If I win, everything starts from the beginning, plus I have to clean up what the predecessor did. I have to say, I've been thinking about your offer, from last time you've been here." I sensed and smelled his light surprise "Really? Glad to hear that and on what have you decided?"

I collected the strength I needed to lift my head up to look at him "I want to come with you." This time I sensed that happiness came from him "Those are good news, but first you need to rest up a bit." I nodded as I curled up, it was night time after all and I guess I will sleep good, with him here with me. His presence, his aura, is keeping the darkness away at least. To be honest, I can barely wait for my new life to begin. A life that I will try to change from the last one and not having nightmares about a love that has died because of me.

The day came fast as if the sun also couldn't wait for my fresh start! I crawled out of my bed to shake the sleep off my fur and hoping I didn't ripped out any sutures. "Do not rush, we are not in a hurry." I smiled at him and changed back to my humanoid form, thankfully my clothes are only ripped at the places that were wounded and thankfully it wasn't fatal...

"Don't worry. I'm going to pack a few things." I went to my table, where I first put all the documents in one pile, then fetched a bag and stuffed the books, I stacked there, into the bag. "I do not want to leave them here, I have written off all the writings of the archive in my language and the Galactic Basic, also the journal of my father, which contains very interesting information, is included." He nodded at me and then the journal of my father fell out of my hands and it open up at the page where sketches and some instructions of how to build a lightsaber and it's functions. Before I could pick it up master Fisto did it already and held it in his hands as he looked at it. "Is that also from the archive?" I took it from him and put it in the bag "I do not know, my father might of saw this somewhere, he always had this journal with him." He seemed very interested by that. "Really? Very interesting!"

I had to nod and place the bag on the table but didn't closed it, almost forgot something! "And I also just followed the instructions and built something of it." I even made him more interested! I shoved a box out of the way and picked up two lightsabers, probably their technology and design of my people, and showed them to him. He looked at those two. "Very impressive ... do they actually work?" I nodded and activated them, the one with the darker handle had a pure white blade and the other one, with a brighter handle a dark blade. I swore I saw him smile as I held those while they were activated. "Really, very impressive indeed." I deactivated them and placed them in the bag too "Thank you, it took me very long to build these." I always had a bag packed with clothes as I used the force to get it to me.

"Really like that of a Jedi, only that yours bear decorations of your kind." I don't know, but it really surprised me that he said this and made me feel proud and calm. I still checked the bag that had the clothes in it before connecting those two with another. "Can I... Visit one place before we leave? I promise I won't take long." At his nod I went outside along with the bag and walked through the gate to call Anubis one more time.

Naturally he came to me, but looked sad. He probably knows what I’ve decided and this may be the last time we see each other again. Just as I climbed on his back he took off in the direction I wanted to go, he probably felt what I was feeling in the moment.

Soon enough I heard the sea, it always makes me feel sad because I have to think about him, my beloved Antero. He was part of the Balæna. This is a very big tribe so this one had some subclasses and with that he belonged to the Orca tribe, but he was different from the rest, like me, having this curse in us, but I started to see it as a gift, the force was strong with him like it is with me. But there is still one big difference between us, our blood. His mother was an Orca while his father was a water dragon, a Draconian*!! He was a Half-Dragonblood! Dragons, also a word used to describe the Draconian, are very powerful, some have that only a god could have! Antero had healing powers, he made sure that every wound was 100% healed and wouldn't cause any problems for me, he even revived himself from a state of death and saved my life too. I wish that we could still be together or that we both could go to Coruscant to either become Jedi or live on the very same planet were no one knows who we are, where we can just be "husband" and "wife", no alpha from the lupus and no Half-Dragonblood from the Orca tribe. But nothing will ever be that easy, I have to go alone and start new, which means I have to let it go.

Anubis stopped in front of the cave and laid down, I dismounted him and went inside. Just like as every dream has shown me, the tombstone, the writings on the stone and the elflock with it's decorations from the sea. As I touched it a pleased shiver went down my spine, it almost felt like his hand ran down my back. I’ve missed him so much, but right at the moment I’ll leave this cave I need to let go of him, of our love, of our time, of our memories.

“Goodbye my dear love. I hope our paths cross again in the afterlife, in a reborn life, in Valhalla or in whatever place our souls may end up.” My fingers traced his name while I spoke. I stood up and turned around to leave. “Goodbye my dear beloved Blue. May the gods watch over you.” I stood still in the cave entrance, it sounded just like him. I need to snap out of it and hurry back! I climbed onto Anubis and he carried me back, towards their ship.

My heart grew heavy once more as I saw him and everyone else waiting, this can be the last time I might be on my home planet, but it was too late to change my mind. I dismounted Anubis one last time, I pressed his head against me as he was whining, I tried to keep my tears but this time I couldn't and started to shed some of them. After I stopped them from running I wanted to remove everything from him, meaning decorations and such but he screamed at me and stepped back. I then realised something, the bond of rider and animal is strong, no matter what. “You're going to wait for me? To ride once again?” Anubis gave a nod and bowed to me like he did after he accepted me as his rider, then he took off in the forest. I turned around and faced the Jedi masters ‘You're ready to leave now, Blue?” I nodded to Kit and they lead me to the ship, the clones they brought with them, they were the same ones that picked Kit and the 212th up.

I stepped inside and it started to lift itself up into the air, I was trying not to shake with fear at that, I'll probably get used to flying... And I flinched as the doors shot close! Why does it have to be so suddenly? But I guess I will get used to it also...

"All good?" I looked to Kit and nodded to him, no need to make him worry more. I noticed the looks from the clones, while some have already put their helmets on, they looked at me carefully as if I would be a threat, maybe I can change that soon.

I felt that we reached our destination and I guessed so since it became louder too! And the ship landed and the doors open up, giving me a view of the giant room. Other ships, like this one, and other types are stored here and some weird thing with 6 legs and it looks like a saddle only it had a very long pipe out of metal(I mean an AT-TE, but had to describe it differently because Blue has no idea what everything is on board of a Venator-class Star Destroyer). To be honest, I'm quite nervous since everything is so new and foreign. "You're really sure you're alright?" Just as I have thought master Fisto stood next to me and I knew only an honest answer will be good here. "Well, I'm a bit nervous." He placed his hand on my shoulder and smiled at me "There is no need to be nervous. Do you want to accompany me to the bridge?" I nodded, now I was curious. I followed him and managed to not run into anything or anyone as I was staring around in awe at everything, we then entered something, he called an elevator, and were lifted upwards with me almost falling on my face, thanks for my surprise and the weight of my bag.

We then stepped outside and this must be the bridge since it looked like a very high-tech area and so many clones working in a lower area, under a "bridge"? Is this the reason why this is called the bridge? After I was finished looking around I notice Kit talking to a clone, his armor gives me the feelings that he is probably the leader of this clone battalion. I really like the design of his armor, a simple grey tone that makes an interesting pattern, on one of his shoulders is the "emblem" of this battalion, it looks like a wolf. Who knows how he got the idea, but I think it suits him. Even his big scar across his right eye and with that the white eye, which looks so unreal. I haven't spoken a word as I felt all the concentration of everyone here, I try not to do anything wrong on my "first day".

Master Kenobi came too and walked past me towards Kit and the clone, whereupon both ended their conversation and greeted him, but continued it only with him, while I had my mouth shut. Not talking but looked around once more from my position, trying to read what stood on those mirror like things, I just hope that I won't disturb or annoy anyone while doing so. But thanks to my "snooping around", I felt a great wave of emotions, all of them were distrustful of me. I can't say I'm mad at that, I can totally understand that they feel like this, they do not know much about me after all. I then decided to look the leader of this group into his face, then I noticed the helmet under his arm and there was the same pattern as his shoulder, but more noticeable and still looked really good.

He seemed to notice me almost starring at him as he looked at me, confused I laid my head to the side with one ear pointed, maybe he can understand me good enough since I feel the biggest wave of distrust coming from him. The only thing I got in return was a very intense look. My ears pointed up even more, my tail had a tense pose and I stared back and had my head in an upright position, the reaction I got was a snort from my counterpart, it was like the ones I got in a fight for the dominance, so as an natural and habit reaction I returned it only much louder, then I actually wanted too... I couldn't help it, but as he started to growl in a way that it sounded like that of my kind I returned it and showed my long and sharp predatory teeth. He unconsciously made himself appear bigger than he already is, I'm still shorter than anyone on this ship but I tried the same, but it didn't make a good impression as I was still injured.

As he made sure that both Jedi haven't notice anything from it, he stepped towards me and I stayed put, not backing down. He growled again and it sounded very realistic. He leaned down to me and spoke softly but forcefully, "These are MY Brothers, MY Ship, MY Pack, MY Territory. " My god, he is a hard headed fellow... Seems like he's feeling pressured in his position, almost like an Alpha's thoughts on a new challenger...

"And if, I'm not going to get orders from someone who has not beaten me, I've already gone through struggles for dominance." My words sound as insistent as his damned habits!! "That's all mine and before you touch it, I'll throw you into space, I have to fight for everything I have in every second of my life!" his words had a certain weight, the blood of an alpha has to agree with him, but it makes me angry at one point. "You had time to practice and grow up, my first fight was when I was 8 years old." I gave a snort once more.

He gave me one again "Well, I'm 9**." Wait, WHAT?!? But, but he's a grown up man?? "But you're an adult?" what does this mean...? "I'm a clone. Pumped with hormones and proteins, as well as all our genes are manipulated. They have no time to wait so many years to soldiers." That is... my whole body switched from an attack state to a sad and compassionate state, even my ears disappeared in my hair "That's terrible..." I feel so horrible for the way I acted...

He only shook with his shoulders "My life is too short to let anyone take something from me!" I bit my lip and did something I never thought I would do so quickly, I turned to my animal form and laid on my back exposing my belly. Thankfully he understood what I meant with a nod and showed me with a simple hand sign that I'm tolerated by him and probably by the others of the battalion, I hope this battalion has something with wolf in it's name! I sat down and managed to get at least over his waist and just then Kit turned around to us, I tried to make it look like nothing happened and used my right hind leg to scratch behind my ear.

"Is everything... alright?" I can imagine he felt what had happen, but still I played it off. "Everything alright, only these damn bandages are so itchy!!" And that was no lie! "Do you think new ones would help?" That sounds good. "Probably, since I don't think this was done in a steril way." He nodded at me and with that I stood on my paws "Then come with me. Wolffe, Pulse*** is here, right?" I have to say I already like his name and it explains so much about him and his personality! As Wolffe confirmed that he was there Kit advised me to follow him and I had picked up my bag and just hoped that he won't notice that I didn't really put pressure on my right hind leg, but naturally he bested me. "Does your paw hurts?" and I saw no sense in lying so I nodded. "Should I help you?" I only nodded and put the bag out of my mouth awaiting to be picked up. "I could carry you better if you had the other form. Don't worry, someone will carry the bag." I gave the clone my bag and turned into human, so he picked me up, it's not like it's embarrassing or so... But thankfully the way wasn't so long and we entered the room. As I expected the healer, or in the basic doctor or medic, was a clone, he had a serious burn marks that went under his armor. "Good day Sir." he laid something out of his hand that had something written on it. Kit put me on a flat surface which is probably a kind of treatment table. "Pulse, this is Blue. Blue, may I introduce, the medic of the pack." Now I'm sure the battalion's name is Wolfpack! I nod to him as my ears and tail tip twiched in a happy way. I have to make an interesting picture young girl with many bandages, various scars and too thin for her size. "Where did you get such wounds?" I felt his pity, as he looked over my body. "A fight for dominance, the healers of my village always said that I had luck. The scars are from 199 fights." I heard him sigh as he checked ever bandage and suture. "So, the bandages have to go down and I have to see how clean the wounds are." I nodded and started to scratch at some places and he tried to get me to stop. "I think you should take a bath, you need to relax to heal properly. After that you come back and I'll disinfect your wounds." I nodded and wanted to stand up but Kit stopped me. "Before you bath, you should let your foot get checked." I placed my right leg on the surface and Pulse touched the ankle "Swollen, very swollen... Those wounds seems to be infected as well." I started to feel the actual wound on it, it looked like teeth marks but not like those of Arneot or someone else from my former pack... "What will happen now?" I was unsure as I only know the ways of our healers... Pulse explained to me that I shouldn't walk in the next days or it could get even worse that it already is. "Which means I get carried around more..." I sigh at the pure thought. "Don't worry, in the temple we'll get you crutches or a wheelchair for the time being." Kit had stayed the whole time as Pulse checked my foot. "What are crutches or a wheelchair?" I looked up at him. "These are walking aids for injured people." I nodded at him and looked back to Pulse.

"But like I said, wash all that up first." Kit picked me up and brought me somewhere and placed me inside a tub but I turned to a wolf as I sat inside and watched the water fill it, Kit had left me to relax alone.

I stayed inside it for a bit and jumped outside and shook myself very much to get the water outside my fur. And as I was finished I heard a knock and in came Kit as I made a yes like sound. He grinned as he saw my fur, it was standing in all kind of directions but he picked me up then and as we came back to Pulse he looked very confused. "I'm not a veterinarian!" "That's me... I thought you could reach the wounds better this way..." I was human once more as I sat on the table "It's okay, it's just I'm not an expert with wolves." As I apologized he said it was okay and got something to disinfect. And was back soon enough "This is going to sting a bit..." I nodded at him and as he started to clean my wounds I didn't even twitch, only at the wound on my neck but he was careful at that wound. He even needed to suture some wounds again, Pulse checked my ankle as last. "I'll have to operate on this. Do I have to straighten a bone again. Or do you think you can endure it?"

"What would help the healing process?" I was still nervous about it. "Absolute zero pressure after it has been put into place for at least two months. Without surgery, it could take even longer, moreover, it may not heal properly and cause problems permanently." I don't want that! "Then I wish this operation." He agreed with me and said he will do it when we reached the temple.

Kit explained a bit about the temple to me and I just yawned in front of him. "Want to rest here?" I rubbed my eyes "Only if Pulse is okay with it." With that we both looked at him as he shrugged with his shoulders "If she does not bother anyone."

At that I jumped from the table as wolf, made sure I put no pressure on my leg and curled up in one corner with my bag. I watched Pulse for a bit but soon enough I fell asleep and for once more I slept peacefully, not knowing that I have slept through the whole trip back, the trip to my new home.

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Second chapter finally done! I'm sorry it took so long!

Star Wars isn't owned by me, so are the songs.

I only own the story and my charas.

*Draconian is the word for a dragon that isn't in a royal family, the Draconis are the royals.

**Not sure if this was correctly, it was part of the RP.
***Pulse is probably also a clone that came to life in the RP.