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Published: 2010-07-20 05:50:24 +0000 UTC; Views: 359; Favourites: 4; Downloads: 2
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i fucking hate everything.everything, just leave.
your car has it's windows open & it's raining.
it's being towed.
please evacuate the building.
fucking love, how does it work?
not god damn rainbows.
it's like i'm out to get me
chasing myself
everything is my fault.
everything is my fault.
everything is my fault.
everything is my fault.
everything is my fault.
if i were a heroin addict, i could have an excuse.
i'd be prettier.
instead of fake
because i'm fake
i'm fake
fake
fak
fa
f.
vomit is just spilling into words.
or words are spilling out as vomit.
either way it's bile & it's coming from me.
along with bile it's also vile.
despicable despicable.
i think i'm messed up.
because every time i'm alone i think.
fat.
lazy.
slob.
ungrateful.
wretched.
slut.
whore.
cunt.
bitch.
tease.
greed.
look, i can even do a fucking acrostic.
Slut.
Asshole.
Murderer.
not that last one.
what i'm trying to get at is i need help.
someone help me, because i'm drowning.
i've been drowning for weeks, & it's not in my menstruation cycle.
i want to be dead
want to be dead
to be dead
be dead
dead.
i need him.
i need him now more than ever.
i need him to tell me i'm beautiful even though i'm going to deny it.
i need him to tell me that i can explode
because he knows if i hold it back i'll only decay from the inside.
i'm a cavity.
i need batteries.
because fucking life.
life is fucking me in the ass.
it's almost my fucking birthday.
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Comments: 41
God, I love this so much! It's really freaking epic.
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this was a spur of the moment thing.
but thank you, your appreciation means alot :)
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Hahahaha, you dont have to explain. Good art is good art, whether it was conceived in a moment or over a year.
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well either way, thank you very much. <3
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Anytime. =]
You know, its interesting though...what you wrote.
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you mean it? how so?
just curious. people seem to find my rage poems interesting.
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Ha, well for most people rage interests them because they themselves find their own rage interesting. I find this interesting because it looks like rage when its actually hiding depression. Which might seem like a rather obvious observation at first but I find it interesting that the rage is needed to hide the depression at all. For me, that would seem like the speaker is trying very hard to seem simply mad because anger goes while depression is near impossible to heal by yourself. Just a thought.
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damn, man, you hit it right on the nail.
that's pretty fucking crazy.
i mean, when i wrote this, i was depressed.
this wasn't written for a deviation, this was written simply to try to exert my anger/depression into something other than physical harm.
but seriously, you're right. it's almost scary.
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Sorry...I kinda have a talent for reading people...>..> So yeah, you can run away and think I'm a stalker now.
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i like stalkers :D but i like when people can tell how things are written, it interests me because i can't read people worth shit.
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Hahaha, people aren't so hard to read. They're pretty damn simple, they just dont want you to know who they really are. We are taught to believe that it takes years to figure people out, that it is almost impossible and that you need extensive years of schooling and what not, but really its simple. People are very simple and they dont want you to know this because it scares them, because they think that it will give you some kind of power over them if you can understand them down to their core. They believe it makes you arrogant to assume you can understand people when really, its more of a curse than a gift, I assure you.
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if i could read people it'd be easier for me, really. i mean, i don't have friends outside of two or three people then my boyfriend :/ i mean, i guess i CAN read people, but i don't automatically think that i can, considering i don't normally use it for anything.
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Ha, trust me, a lot of friends aren't that great. I only want a few. I wanna open up a cafe, have a few good friends that wanna be writers or whatever and have them work at my cafe in exchange for helping them achieve their dreams. THAT would be my dream life. It would be freakin sweet havin that kinda friendship with just five or six people. Trust me, a lot dont mean happiness.
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i know it doesn't, but being in high school means the more friends you have the less awkward it is.
i'm not one of those "achieving for popularity" kids, but i do like to know who the fuck i'm talking to if i'm invited to a local band a friend is in, you know?
also, a cafe sounds great.
i used to want one, but my friend lost her moral values in bakery.
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Lol, you know what I did? I made my own lunch group. Me and a friend of mine sat down at a table and kids just showed up and sat down. Thats right, i made a clique. 
But seriously though, I know what chya mean. But I dont understand, did your friend become a whore in cooking class or something?
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no, she became a vegan, lolz.
but i like my sugar & gluten & whatever vegans can't put in cupcake icing.
i also happen to love the shit out of steak.
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SAME HERE! I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW ANYONE COULD DO THAT! my GOD, I mean sure, dont raise cows JUST to kill them get milk too, dont waste, but hey, if its gonna die anyway...
Besides, I agree, animals shouldn't be beaten unless they just took a shit all over your house. Other than that, I say let them have their steak and eat it too!
And I have plenty of vegan friends who show me all these animals getting beaten and I'm just like "ok...well lets go kick the fuckin livin shit out of those guys and then we can all go out for a steak, some cream soda and a hell of a lot of candy." (three of my favorite things, good food, cream soda and candy)
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cream soda is AMAZING.
i have a vegan friend who says that ALL MEAT IS MURDER.
i'm like "dude, no it isn't, most vegans spread that propaganda shit around like herpes."
it's ridiculous & pisses me off, but i'm not getting into that.
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Exactly. I prefer pastries and lots and LOTS of soda over steak, but still, steak is like a fucking orgasm if you havent had it in a while.
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i'm having it for my birthday today :D i'm so excited.
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Lol, well happy bday and yeah, that would be excited, its like me swimming through a sea of cream soda only to be washed up on an island of filled twizzler twists...mmm...good dreams tonight...
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damn dude, twizzlers.
did you see the ones that are different colours & you can strip 'em apart & mix them to make new flavours?
mixing the blue & yellow is like, oh my god, mouth orgasm.
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O.O !!! -cue noise made in metal gear solid- SERIOUSLY!?!?! HOLY FUCKING SHIT! WHERE WOULD I GET THOSE! Man, if I had a lifetime supply of those and the filled ones I would never try dating again!
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D: dude they were a limited thing, i think. i got them here in texas so i could snack on them while flying to montana. if i find them, i'll tell you where i got them, but i think they were at target.
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NOOO! My life is over! I might as well jump in front of a truck now! T.T I live for good candy, its like...the only thing in my veins...that and violence...and giant radioactive rubber pants...
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radioactive rubber pants.
[link]
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No, think more giant and more mutanty. They got tentacles and teeth and lots and lots of little oogaly bits that aren't too friendly.
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oh damn, man.
i can't find those on google.
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And THATS what she said.
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implying that i'm a she.
;D
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EL-OH-EL! Well it does say that on your dA..hmmm...or maybe I was reading that with my incorrect glasses again. Man, I should get them fixed. I didn't drink enough smart juice this morning I think...
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you can only get smart juice through adrenacrome.
i can't even spell that.
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Adrenachrome? What?! WHAT IS THIS?!?!? ARE YOU A SPY?!?!?
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no, i just watch crazy ass movies.
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OH, ok. Well then, I dont have to worry -puts away my death ray-. But I am always fully stocked with smart juice, never much caring juice, plenty of sarcastic and grateful juice.
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dude sarcastic juice runs through my veins.
not to mention blood.
i also have alot of hydrochloric acid in my stomach.
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WHAT?!?!? You do?!?! Weird, i got lots of useless junk, like stuff that digests food. Psh, like I need it. I eat food for the taste of it. If food didn't taste good, I wouldn't eat it.
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i can agree with that, brother.
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Amen sistah! Amen.
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