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c-commies — yeah so im basically dead
Published: 2018-07-25 23:36:26 +0000 UTC; Views: 231; Favourites: 23; Downloads: 0
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heres smthg i drew like a year ago. anyways i've pretty much given up on art/animation because i fee; like whatever opportunity i had to profit from it i missed it. like idk i put so much effort into these sites when i was younger and got no gain from it. as conceited as it sounds i feel like my shit deserves more attention than it's ever gotten like ive seen people with my style or a lesser style get so much fame and get paid to draw and animate and i dont know what im supposed to do to get that like jesus fu. so i kind of just fucked off because i felt like i wasn't going anywhere or getting what i deserved llike god that sounds douchey but. i started animating like 6 years ago and drawing on here like a year later but no one knows me?? no one would pay for my stff?? yea so anyways i left and focused on my real life and joined 2 sports and made new friends and started working out and im better for it then when i was 10 and spending my entire summer on a computer trying to get better at art but everytime i see an extremely successful artist who honestly doesnt deserve it i still get a little bitter. uhhh and thats the tea ig thanks for coming to my ted talk i rly just found this on google photos and was gna post this with a 8 word caption butRelated content
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okay big mood
like not even kidding, that was how i felt about my art
originally I began my digital art hobby on Colors! 3D on the 3DS and I left that app/site because I felt like I didn't get the attention I deserved. we were given stars in place of favorites or likes, and 5 stars would give us a silver star, 25 a golden, 100 a super sweet nice red and gold star, etc. etc.
it got to a point where I was making fake accounts to give myself more stars. i never got a golden star. not once, but artists with shittier quality (note: since it was on the 3DS, it was mostly young kids so most of the art was pretty bad) could easily rack up one.
and then I went to DA because I thought I could get more viewership, and I did get more viewship
but the same old habits started to resurface. I was angry that my friends who had similar or worse styles did better than me, had more friends, had more commissions
I went through a lot of stylistic changes, trying to conjure the best one which would make people recognise me and want my art
it was frustrating, and it felt like I was wasting my time, and it was worse when I saw mediocre art on the DA frontpage and it's like "wait but??/?" like especially the super cartoony art which isn't hard to replicate
and so I left DA, and for a while too, I left art
but instead of being productive and joining sports or something, I turned my attention to video games :^))
eventually, I came back to art because of roleplay and just drawing characters n stuff. and then I started making a social life and do sports, too, and that was pretty neat
I don't post my stuff online anymore, sometimes I don't even show it to anyone but myself
I want to post it n stuff, but then I remember the anxiety I'd feel and how much I would compare myself to other people. the only person i compare myself to now is the artist i used to be, like holy shit my art is fucking fabulous compared to what i used to draw
and what makes me happy and motivated to keep drawing is that it makes me feel real fuckin good to see my ideas on paper and being able to show to people what exactly i envision, or to be able to look back and see what was going through my head
also like, if you want moneys, go to furaffinity and draw weird furry fetish porn. it works i swear
k thnx bai.
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hey i love u man i know it's been so long but ur like my oldest friend on here and honestly i feel like we're that 1 meme where its like "it's getting late haha see u tomorrow" and then its like last online 9 years ago but thank u for this after all this time. At this point I use art as strictly a stress reliever and for my personal happiness and that's enough for me. I feel like sites like this are like what instagram is for self image. it bacame too toxic for me and too time consuming and i don't think i'll ever come back besides posting occasionally. At this point, art is too time consuming and I'm just glad I left instead of making it a priority over everything else. ur a good one my friend I hope ur doing well, if you want to keep in contact u can hit me with a note and I'll give u my personal ig or something i actually use
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hnnnn feb 28. it's august.
yeah, no, I get that. I can't upload art anymore because it's stressful
I just make stuff for friends n shit and whatever makes me feel good
man I miss you.
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also you can tell im dead on DA because this was submitted july 25 and i only saw it now haha
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