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C-h-a-r-m-o-n-y In reply to Jasmin-Lunio [2015-12-21 11:25:49 +0000 UTC]

What do you think of the background? I wanted to give her a background so I thought; she is the fairy of the night what tells that she could be a good fairy OR a bad fairy She has a good side and a bad side

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Jasmin-Lunio In reply to C-h-a-r-m-o-n-y [2015-12-21 11:29:29 +0000 UTC]

I like the background like this. Like, one part more light, and the other part dark. (Splits de achtergrond in twee)

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C-h-a-r-m-o-n-y In reply to Jasmin-Lunio [2015-12-21 17:26:07 +0000 UTC]

Hahah yes

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C-h-a-r-m-o-n-y In reply to Jasmin-Lunio [2015-12-21 11:18:50 +0000 UTC]

Haha thank you It was a lot of work though But I'm really in love with this drawing

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Jasmin-Lunio In reply to C-h-a-r-m-o-n-y [2015-12-21 13:54:04 +0000 UTC]

You should be!
(Are things a little okay with your ex? Sorry that I ask...)

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C-h-a-r-m-o-n-y In reply to Jasmin-Lunio [2015-12-21 17:25:09 +0000 UTC]

Well.. Not so much  
He broke up with me I told that right? Well... 2 weeks left he had a new one  
So deep was his love for me. I had seen that coming a little bit, because in octobre he started to talk more to that girl (and about that girl to me), lying that he can't take the first bus to school because "his bus comes later on the station" I know that it's just not true! A friend of mine saw that he was on the station and that he could make the first bus.... And I'm often been with him, so I know it!
And we had a lot of arguments... I know I had a lot of stress and I wasn't myself and I know that I can't use that to say that because of that I'm alout to making feud, but that doesn't give him the right to fight back and to make me more angry and then behind my back giving me chances. You don't do that with someone who didn't felt good in her skin He gave me secretly chances... And he admitted that on the phone!
So he was already buzy with her while we were still together That's a really nice tought. Not buzy with kissing and stuff, but buzy with talking, liking, falling in love, ...

I just still don't understand the whole situation And that makes me really mad... 
Oww.. And he ignores me in the class. It feels for me if I just don't excist anymore  Or if I''m a ugly, not smelling good monster where he has to sit more then 10 meters from me.


They are now like a month together, a month and a half I tought And they're still kissing and hugging in front of me when we don't have lessons (she sits in the other class of animalcare so they only see each other after school and during the breaks between the lessons) He's talking almost the whole time about his new girlfriend in the class, so I was thinking.. It's weird by the way but I don't get mad for that, I'm just mad that I don't excist for him anymore But I said I was thinking... haha.. If I'm thinking about how he's doing over her (talking, her name writing on everything, cuddling in front of me, ... ) That looks like he wants to prove that he loves that girl. But if you have a relationship, why do you have then to prove to others that you love her? If I'm together with someone I'm not gonna prove to others that I love him. He knows that I love him, so I don't have to prove anything, just for me... If I know I love him then it's okay for me... 

Maybe he's trying to get me jealous or something? Well, it doesn't work though  
I accept that it's over and that he's not the one and that there are more boys in the world, but I just can't accept what happend... Because I just don't understand. You can see it as math. You know the awnser and you know the calculation, but you don't 'understand' the calculation.  

I just miss everything  
The nice moments... The laughing... The teasing.... The jokes.... I had someone for the first time that really loved me for who I am and someone to lie on Now he left me behind I don't miss him much as my partner, but more as my friend, he was my buddy Ofcourse I will miss him as partner to, but more my buddy who I could laugh with.

Oww... And if I ask something or I say something, normally I got a joke back or something or he laughed... But now the only thing that cames out when I say something is "yes" -_-

Nice right? I never missed that feeling so much... But now that I know how it feels to fall in love with a person I really miss it Especially now it's christmas and I'm alone  



Sorry for the long story haha... 
But how is it with you? And you may always ask me everything I know we're far away from each other and that we only know each other because of deviant, but that doesn't mean that we can't be friends And it feels a little better to tell my story to someone else, who understand me

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Jasmin-Lunio In reply to C-h-a-r-m-o-n-y [2015-12-24 18:20:25 +0000 UTC]

 I don't have any experience with this but... Maybe he misses you too? And he wants to prove to you that he's over it, that he's okay?
It's not great that he ignores you...  Talk to his friends? Ask them what's up with him?
And I'm sure that you will find another one that will make you feel even more special!  

You can always tell me everything, if you want someone else to ''talk'' to, I'll always listen (Well... I'll read)
The Netherlands and Belgium ARE pretty far, but it's nice to be friends!

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C-h-a-r-m-o-n-y In reply to Jasmin-Lunio [2015-12-24 18:35:23 +0000 UTC]

I can't talk to his friends because they don't like me anymore De klas moet ook niet meer sinds het uit is. Ze vonden zelfs dat ik schijnheilig deed over dat het uit was. Ik heb de eerste dag dat ik terug kwam me super misselijk gevoeld, 2 keer uit de klas geweest omdat ik het gevoel had dat ik moest spugen en ik zag er volgens mensen uit als een lijk daarna heb ik gedaan alsof er niks was, een masker opgezet en gelachen en me best gedaan om te laten zien aan de klas dat ik niet zo erg ben als dat ze denken. Maar volgens mij heeft hij iets gezegt tegen de klas over mij, want het kan niet dat zij zomaar uit het niets me niet meer moeten maarja.. Niks aan te doen zeker?

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