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I decided to block comments and erase the previous description to avoid any future embarrassment.Though I'd still like to acknowledge ~Snoppies101 , ~3D-BITES , =SilverF1sh , and *WolfehzRock for taking the time to read and type some valuable advice vuv You guys are great friends and I'm so glad to have you in my life. I screenshotted the things you guys wrote because it meant so much :'D I hope that's not creepy.
I do actually REALLY like this drawing, but I hate that I had to get SO SAD and ANGRY to be able to draw this. But whatever. I was able to vent, organize my thoughts, and get a rad picture out of it so it's all good.
Hopefully I won't have to make a similar drawing in the future. I really dislike having such emotions!!!
Art belongs to ~SAVCHENK0
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oh man ;;
I really hope you feel better ;;
I'd just try to avoid the person as much as I can until I feel better. And even when I feel better, I'd keep clear of them.
I'm sorry I can't say too much ;;
I'm not the person you want to go to for advice about things like jealousy ;;
I really hope you feel better, though. <3
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thanks dude ;o; i really appreciate that lolsob
yeah, i mean, they're not so much a bad person as i just don't particularly like being around them, so that's a pretty smart thing to do.
though i'm also not sure if i really dislike them or if i dislike the attention he gives her? i mean... i think i'm trying to tell myself that it's THEM because i don't want to seem like a crazy over-protective girlfriend, but there's nothing wrong with them and i'm fine talking to them (even if it does make me a bit uncomfortable, i can get over that)
man, feelings are confusing.Β
it's fine if you don't give like a like...AMAZING ESSAY ON BEING A HUGE PRIMADONNA.
any words are alright vuv i would even appreciate a quick "i'm sorry man!" or whatever.
thanks again <33 you're so sweet ahhh
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I hope you feel better ;w; I would just try not to think about that person, or vent in your art or to someone, either way,Β I just want you to feel better
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ahh thank you you're too nice man ahh
i think i might have to start doing some more vent art.
maybe not the kind we see ALL THE TIME with the gore or whatever (not that that's a bad thing; a lot of times it's really well-done and cool-looking)
it'll just have a lot more expression in it
but thank you man, that really means a lot to me <3
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hmm, even though you might not think so, there might be a part of you that is actually jealous of this girl and thinks that she WILL take him away from you romantically. She might be really pretty, or just very outgoing and nice. Or both. And you might just be trying not to think so to protect and reassure yourself, since it seems like nobody else is. And I know what you mean when you don't want to dislike someone, but you do anyway and it seems like everything they do is annoying. I've dealt with those kind of emotions before, and I've handled them in two different ways: Ignored the person for a while and focused on my other friends, or I just talked to the person more and hoped that my opinion on them would change. Whether or not those are good ways to handle the emotions is a whole other story, though. orz. Idk if I helped at all, probably not, but you could always talk to me <33
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Yeah, I'm a little bit jealous of the fact that she's so CALM (which is ironic, because i flip out over her and that just makes me MORE dramatic). my boyfriend is a generally chill guy, and, like i said in another comment (which you don't have to bother reading unless you really want to), he tells me to chill a lot and to just control myself and keep in check and all. Like, a reminder sort of way? he doesn't say "hey, remember to think straight!" or anything. i'm confusing myself. that doesn't make any sense LOL sorry about that.
anyway, yeah, she is really pretty, but he seems to have a pretty specific "type", ya know? like, very petite, baby face, big eyes, and curly blond hair. like, a "kawaii" cliche from the 1950s. she doesn't really have any of those features. though she is pretty, and he may think she's pretty, he probably doesn't see her as a potential romantic partner because she doesn't really fill the type. that makes him sound really douchey but everyone has their own type, and his is just more specific. i'm rambling. and she's also nice, but (again, like i said in the other comment that you don't have to read), she's shy and NOT very outgoing. Like, she doesn't really stand up and speak her mind and she doesn't mess around or whatever. she prefers to sit back and keep to herself.Β
a) trust me, I've tried ignoring her. but i dunno it's like i'll be talking to him and i'll be all fine but she walks up and takes him away from me? it's like that reminder is pushed against me and shoved into me and it's very hard to ignore ;v;
b) I've also tried doing that. it's hard for me to talk to her most of the time because of class schedules and all.
thanks for the advice! i realize i sound kind of like a bitch in this reply. i'm just very tired and emotionally and physically drained; this kind of thing can really take a toll on ya! i'm not very good with words when i'm this tired, but i promise i didn't mean any malice against you ;v; thank you for the offer! i might have to take it if this gets bad again <333 you're very sweet ahh
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hmm i can see why that'd bother you. at least he's not a jerk towards you, so that's good. but you shouldn't have to change yourself for other people, just keep that in mind <3
and i'm glad that what i mentioned isn't the case, since that would just be... well, awful to say the least. i'm also glad that he likes your type, and that he even has one lol. boys who go for anything are just... well, i guess "pigs" is a bit harsh but fitting in a way. anyway it's awesome that you fit his standards~ (btw, i don't think boys who have types are douchey haha)Β
have you talked to your boyfriend about this? he might give you some reassurance. i also wouldn't worry about being overprotective, because imho being a little protective just shows how much you care about the person and that you don't want to lose them. when i had a bf i'd talk to him all the time about stuff like this and he didn't mind, as far as i knew. so maybe your bf wouldn't mind either? c:
you really don't sound like a bitch haha trust me i've tried helping people who have been WAY WAY more bitchier lol. it's understandable if you're stressed and come across that way, anyway. and don't mention it, i just hope that i was able to bring some kind of light in this situation aaaaa <333
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that's true, i'll try to keep that with me ;v;
aha, yeah. i mean, it's not just looks, either. it's also a kind of... cool (which i am, according to him) yet also kind of nerdy, someone who can make him laugh (we are both pretty sarcastic/ironic, so, it works), and someone who can talk movie references with him and talk about soccer. i can do all of those things, while this other chick really only fulfills the cool and "make him laugh", even though they don't have the same sense of humour. but whatever, he laughs at a lot of things, just more-soΒ at others.
i've mentioned it once for sure, possibly a couple times? i can't remember. i ask him a couple other questions related to it (like another girl he can't get over that i SOMEHOW am not annoyed with, even though i'm so annoyed with this particular person) and he says things like "why do you care?" or like "i don't see why it should matter; i still like you a lot more" etc etc. that ALSO makes him sound kind of douchey, but i think he might be annoyed with me "not trusting him". i do trust him, but he might not think so because i get curious about this stuff ;v; i doubt he'd mind if i voiced my legitimate worry, but i'm really bad at talking about this kind of things with him, and it always comes out really weird :'D
oh, that's good! i was afraid my wording was a little off, aha. you definitely DID help me with this! a lot, actually. like, not just with your advice, but being able to talk has helped me organize my thoughts a little. like i told another person, i don't know if i dislike this PERSON so much as i just dislike my boyfriend talking to her. it's like i'm lying to myself because i don't want other people to think of me badly.Β
i think i'm just gonna try to move on. i mean, he's been pretty close (in this way) to the person before we were going out. if he liked her instead, he would have asked her out. rather, he singled me and chose me instead. i don't know why i keep forgetting that.
but again, thanks so much!!! you're a big help and huge sweetie!!!!<333333
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oh gosh
the best thing to do is maybe have a chat or two with this person, become their friend or learn to get along with them
if you can't do that just tell your boyfriend how jealous you get or something
I hate that really popular girl in school who's really nice but for some reason my mind keeps telling me she's a (for lack of a better term) bitch. I mean, everyone else loves her, but i just hate her so much. But idk if I'm even helping so I'll stop here pff
If you need anyone to talk to you have me <33
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yeah, i've talked to them a couple times, and they seem alright, yet i can't help but feel really negative about them. i keep telling myself "no matter how much he likes this person, he still LOVES me" (i mean, it's kind of obvious, not just because he's my boyfriend); that calms me down for a while and i feel a WHOLE lot better, but my mind looses track and the negative feelings return. and he knows i get jealous, like, i even had a breakdown in front of him last year after math class. it was horrible but hysterical and i was laughing at myself and crying of embarrassment. he kind of makes a "dude, chill" face at me. sometimes he even says "dude, chill", hahaha.
it's not even like this person is super popular though; they're kind of shy and don't really get up and make a statement about themselves. this person is just well-liked among the people they know. they're super nice and very calm about everything.Β
it's alright; honestly, hearing other people relate makes me feel a lot better ;v;
thanks babe, you're too sweet <333
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yeah, there's just some people we hate no matter what we do. I remember I got super jealous when the guy I liked had a conversation about whether he should ask me out or this other girl and my friend over heard it and told me. I now hate that girl so much. I don't really get breakdowns or cry or anything but I get angry and it kinda shows
kinda
I'm glad I've made you feel better <33
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SIGHS LOUDLY
i want to be a hippie but a clean hippie
like i want to love everybody man that'd be so great
LOL OK THAT REMINDS ME i was talking to my mom about this once and she said she used to get SO MAD when her old boyfriend would even TALK to another girl. i'm not THAT bad, at least. i don't even get upset when another girl is trying to go after him. it's really just this one person.
i wouldn't cry usually, but my anger just get SO INTENSE and i dislike throwing FULL RAGE TEMPER TANTRUMS so i just cry it out.Β
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I want to love everyone too
I'm going to be like your mom, I get REALLY jealous
and it's bad
I get angry and it's like I'm so angry I end up crying from anger
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Oh man
but that's ok because my mom is cool
you guys can be cool 2gether
YES ME SAME
WHY CAN'T I HULK SMASH MY ANGER AWAY
never mind i'd accidentally hurt a lot of people
maybe i can hulk smash a deserted island
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i am your mom
I WOULD HULK SMASH MY ANGER AWAY
BUT WAIT I AM TOO WEAK TO EVEN THINK ABOUT THAT
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i thought we were twins
what
OH THAT'S TRUE TOO I'M SO FUCKING LITTLE
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i am your mom twin
I CANT EVEN LIFT UP 80 POUNDS IM SO WEAK
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MOM ???TWIN
NO IT'S OK I CAN ONLY LIFT LIKE 20
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I AM BOTH
I CAN LIFT A 50 THATS IT
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hot damn kaede sure is ripped
this didn't work as well as i thought it would
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wow kaede
no it didn't
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