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You are above and below, you're here and beyond, you're within and without, through and throughout. What you're experiencing in any given moment is your own consciousness painting your reality, painting this world which you perceive as separate from you, but in truth is nothing else but you. When reading this, please know two things: One, that it's totally normal for the mind to oppose and reject that idea. Two, that there's always a greater reality beyond the words which our consciousness explores throughout our lives. The words simply point towards it, but they can never encompass it. At night, within your dreams, there's nothing else and no one else but you, your consciousness creates everything that you're experiencing within a dream, and of course, you wouldn't like to have nightmares would you, yet you do have them. It's because your dreams, just like reality itself, are created not by your 'conscious' thoughts and wishes, but by your fundamental beliefs and your subconscious. They aren't created by the things you say to yourself, the way you strive to be, but by the things you actually feel, and often by the things you refuse to accept about yourself a.k.a. your shadow. If you come to experience your oneness with everything and you come to feel it with each fiber of your being, to feel that you're safe, loved and embraced at any time, that you're carried through this experience by the profound will, the profound energy animating this creation, if this becomes your innermost reality the outer expression of it will inevitably shift into alignment with that. I won't go into the matter of timelines, my basic yet 'backing' understanding of quantum physics, and how reality can change profoundly in the blink of an eye to align with you, but I have some more thoughts and personal experiences I'd like to share with you here. And I wish to thank you for reading this far, I know that such a long read can be a nuisance! Let's say, that you're experiencing suffering, you're experiencing pain, depression, horror and rightfully you'd say 'but I'm a good human being, I don't deserve this, I haven't chosen it'. And here I can only give one reason why: So you can raise above it! It doesn't happen to you, it happens for you! Our souls are here to do some serious work. I'll get really personal here and share some of my experiences in this lifetime and what came out of them, how I raised above them... When I was 12 years old I was raped by a boyfriend much older than me, then when I was 13 years old I was raped by another boyfriend. Both times my mind couldn't handle it and refused to acknowledge it in any way. I then dated a guy who was systemically abusing me mentally and physically for nearly 4 years and ended up almost beating me to death. I had 4 or 5 abortions (not sure about the number) before I was even 18 years old. I had eating disorder and hated my body. My relationship with my parents was another nightmare at the time. I tried ending my life with pills ones and tried cutting my veins multiple times, thankfully none of them successful. Looking back on that now, I see it as being more of an act of self harm, something to shift the focus and 'soothe' me in the pitch black moment rather than to end it all. The guy I was dating was a gypsy, which meant that our relationship, here in my country, was a huge no-no. For it, I was looked down upon as some sort of a 'human abomination'. After we broke up and those judgements started catching up with me, I was ashamed to show my face outside. I had terrible social anxiety and the only thing that was helping in easing it and was allowing me to maintain eye contact and go out socially, was alcohol. I started abusing it and became dependant on it. Essentially it was causing much more harm than good, because all I was doing when I was drunk was accumulating more things to regret and feel ashamed for. For years then, I was making an effort to heal, while in parallel, I was still inflicting harm upon myself, mostly psychological. I was unable to look at the past, it was as if I created an invisible wall that kept me 'safe' from those unprocessed traumas. This created a great dysfunction in my psyche in which I was doing my best to navigate, but I could not resolve it nor move beyond it from my state of consciousness at that time. I hated 'her' the one who did all those things I had to bare the shame for... I couldn't look at 'her'... Until... Someone came along and held space for me, a loving space where nothing was being pushed away and nothing was being judged. This allowed me to finally open up to myself for the first time and share it all. All that which I went through, all that which I was suppressing and was still hurting me every single day. And for the first time as I looked at it all and the words started coming out and the tears started falling down, I began to understand, to truly see it with clear and compassionate eyes. I saw that there was no 'her', there was just me and I wasn't some 'fricking wh*re' but a 12 year old child that knew nothing about anything and had some pretty heavy sh*t happen. The space which that person held for me, became then my inner space and all I wanted to do is look at myself more and understand better. So much healing has happened ever since, so much remembrance, unfolding love and forgiveness, so much gratitude and appreciation... So much that I can not express it in any other way, but embody the peace it carries to my best. I'm deeply grateful for each and every experience, for each and every pain and each joy along the way. I have deep reverence for everyone who has ever given me the gift of pain. I came to forgive them and myself to finally come to understand that there's nothing to be forgiven in the first place. That beyond the conditioned human mind and into the profound music of the universe, into the eternal dance of duality, there's nothing but service. There isn't a being which isn't in service, there isn't a moment in time in which we're not serving. We're serving each other in numerous ways, throughout lifetimes, and sooner or later, each of us comes to see and embrace this service wholeheartedly, to embrace true love and with it, everything just as it is... So, back to us being the creators of our own reality and how this connects to all that I just shared. None of it happened to me, it all happened for me. I have chosen all of it and I wouldn't change a single thing about it. I needed it, I needed it so I can turn it into gold, I needed it to get where I am now. We're eternal and there's no limit to consciousness, the rest is one fricking amazing journey of creation, destruction and discovery! I just felt like sharing and of course, all of this is but my perspective : )

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You are above and below, you're here and beyond, you're within and without, through and throughout. What you're experiencing in any given moment is your own consciousness painting your reality, painting this world which you perceive as separate from you, but in truth is nothing else but you. When reading this, please know two things: One, that it's totally normal for the mind to oppose and reject that idea. Two, that there's always a greater reality beyond the words which our consciousness explores throughout our lives. The words simply point towards it, but they can never encompass it. At night, within your dreams, there's nothing else and no one else but you, your consciousness creates everything that you're experiencing within a dream, and of course, you wouldn't like to have nightmares would you, yet you do have them. It's because your dreams, just like reality itself, are created not by your 'conscious' thoughts and wishes, but by your fundamental beliefs and your subconscious. They aren't created by the things you say to yourself, the way you strive to be, but by the things you actually feel, and often by the things you refuse to accept about yourself a.k.a. your shadow. If you come to experience your oneness with everything and you come to feel it with each fiber of your being, to feel that you're safe, loved and embraced at any time, that you're carried through this experience by the profound will, the profound energy animating this creation, if this becomes your innermost reality the outer expression of it will inevitably shift into alignment with that. I won't go into the matter of timelines, my basic yet 'backing' understanding of quantum physics, and how reality can change profoundly in the blink of an eye to align with you, but I have some more thoughts and personal experiences I'd like to share with you here. And I wish to thank you for reading this far, I know that such a long read can be a nuisance! Let's say, that you're experiencing suffering, you're experiencing pain, depression, horror and rightfully you'd say 'but I'm a good human being, I don't deserve this, I haven't chosen it'. And here I can only give one reason why: So you can raise above it! It doesn't happen to you, it happens for you! Our souls are here to do some serious work. I'll get really personal here and share some of my experiences in this lifetime and what came out of them, how I raised above them... When I was 12 years old I was raped by a boyfriend much older than me, then when I was 13 years old I was raped by another boyfriend. Both times my mind couldn't handle it and refused to acknowledge it in any way. I then dated a guy who was systemically abusing me mentally and physically for nearly 4 years and ended up almost beating me to death. I had 4 or 5 abortions (not sure about the number) before I was even 18 years old. I had eating disorder and hated my body. My relationship with my parents was another nightmare at the time. I tried ending my life with pills ones and tried cutting my veins multiple times, thankfully none of them successful. Looking back on that now, I see it as being more of an act of self harm, something to shift the focus and 'soothe' me in the pitch black moment rather than to end it all. The guy I was dating was a gypsy, which meant that our relationship, here in my country, was a huge no-no. For it, I was looked down upon as some sort of a 'human abomination'. After we broke up and those judgements started catching up with me, I was ashamed to show my face outside. I had terrible social anxiety and the only thing that was helping in easing it and was allowing me to maintain eye contact and go out socially, was alcohol. I started abusing it and became dependant on it. Essentially it was causing much more harm than good, because all I was doing when I was drunk was accumulating more things to regret and feel ashamed for. For years then, I was making an effort to heal, while in parallel, I was still inflicting harm upon myself, mostly psychological. I was unable to look at the past, it was as if I created an invisible wall that kept me 'safe' from those unprocessed traumas. This created a great dysfunction in my psyche in which I was doing my best to navigate, but I could not resolve it nor move beyond it from my state of consciousness at that time. I hated 'her' the one who did all those things I had to bare the shame for... I couldn't look at 'her'... Until... Someone came along and held space for me, a loving space where nothing was being pushed away and nothing was being judged. This allowed me to finally open up to myself for the first time and share it all. All that which I went through, all that which I was suppressing and was still hurting me every single day. And for the first time as I looked at it all and the words started coming out and the tears started falling down, I began to understand, to truly see it with clear and compassionate eyes. I saw that there was no 'her', there was just me and I wasn't some 'fricking wh*re' but a 12 year old child that knew nothing about anything and had some pretty heavy sh*t happen. The space which that person held for me, became then my inner space and all I wanted to do is look at myself more and understand better. So much healing has happened ever since, so much remembrance, unfolding love and forgiveness, so much gratitude and appreciation... So much that I can not express it in any other way, but embody the peace it carries to my best. I'm deeply grateful for each and every experience, for each and every pain and each joy along the way. I have deep reverence for everyone who has ever given me the gift of pain. I came to forgive them and myself to finally come to understand that there's nothing to be forgiven in the first place. That beyond the conditioned human mind and into the profound music of the universe, into the eternal dance of duality, there's nothing but service. There isn't a being which isn't in service, there isn't a moment in time in which we're not serving. We're serving each other in numerous ways, throughout lifetimes, and sooner or later, each of us comes to see and embrace this service wholeheartedly, to embrace true love and with it, everything just as it is... So, back to us being the creators of our own reality and how this connects to all that I just shared. None of it happened to me, it all happened for me. I have chosen all of it and I wouldn't change a single thing about it. I needed it, I needed it so I can turn it into gold, I needed it to get where I am now. We're eternal and there's no limit to consciousness, the rest is one fricking amazing journey of creation, destruction and discovery! I just felt like sharing and of course, all of this is but my perspective : )