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A/N: Human (AU) Names Used! There is a bit of language from the reader. But reader is sad and angry. Will you forgive reader?
I recommend listening to Somewhere Only We Know by Keane when reading this! Just in case you wanna, I don’t know, increase the feels.

    I sighed as I looked through my phone’s history. The only texts I had gotten in the past two weeks were from my mom telling me to do chores and stuff and a girl in some of my classes that calls me her friend but really only uses me for homework help. I hovered my finger over the pictures icon. But I couldn’t bring myself to push it. It was full of pictures of me and my old friends.

    “Screw it all!” I yelled as I threw my phone against the wall, only to have it bounce off into some random corner of my room. I remembered the times when I had friends. I have friends now too, but it isn’t the same. They only use me as someone to get help in school from and complain about their problems to. I go along with it and smile and laugh with them. But I miss my friends. My real friends.

    I curled up into the corner of my room and plugged my headphones in. Now, this is no tragic story about a best friend dying, or moving away, or getting popular, or any of that crap. No, this was the story about a best friend who was too scared to admit his own damn feelings and decided to just walk away. And that made it all the more heartbreaking.

Flashback~!

    “Mattiiieeee!!” I whined to my best friend as he grabbed the bag of popcorn out of my lap. I reached for it but it was no use.

  “Oh, come on [Name]. It is just a little popcorn. Plus, you need to learn to eat less or else you are going to end up like Alfred.” He said in his quiet voice as he stuck his tongue out at me and helped himself to my precious popcorn. I pouted but eventually gave up and focused my attention back to the movie that was playing. After a few minutes I looked back over at Mattie and saw him staring at me.

  “I know I am good looking, but staring is creepy.” I smirked at him as he blushed and looked anywhere but at me.

  “I-I wasn’t s-staring!” He quietly yelled in defense. I chuckled when I heard him stuttering. However well I knew him he was still extremely quiet and nervous.

  “Whatever bro.” I patted his head and in his moment of being distracted I grabbed the popcorn and made a run for it.

  “[Name]!! Come back with the popcorn!!!” I hear Mattie yell after me.

  “Neverrrrrrrrrrrr!!!” I yelled back as I ran laughing up the stairs.

End~

  I sat in the corner and cried until I fell asleep. Unfortunately, this wasn’t a rare occurrence. It actually happened almost every night, but every day was the same routine. Wake up, smile, go to school, smile, eat lunch with my “friends”, smile, go home, smile, eat dinner, smile, do homework, think, cry, sleep, repeat. I know. Pathetic.

Next Day~

  I woke up in the morning feeling like something was going to happen. I couldn’t tell if it was going to be good or bad. Then again, it might just have been the thankfulness of a Friday, looking forward to a weekend alone. Again. I washed my face and made sure my eyes weren’t puffy from crying just like every day. School wasn’t very far so once I was ready I just walked over.

  As I walked into the building I could see pink. Everywhere. Tons of it. People were walking around with balloons and stuffed animals and paper hearts were plastered all over the wall.

  “Oh.” I sighed as I looked around. Now you might be thinking Valentine's day, if you were, you are wrong. Our school does this weird thing where we have 2 days of love and romance and all that stuff that only people who are dating people care about. This one was the first one that happened in the beginning of the year and is supposed to support kindness and friendship throughout the school year. I think. Most people just used it as an excuse to make out in the hallways and ditch class.

  As I walked into my first period class, English, I saw Gilbert and the rest of the BTT (Francis and Antonio). They were surrounded by girls handing them lovey crap who practically had hearts coming out of their eyes. I rolled my eyes at them and took my seat to wait for class to start. I smiled and waved as my “friend” Christy walked in right before the bell rang and took a seat besides me.

  “Sooooooo, have anyone special this year?” She asked winking at me. I rolled my eyes but smiled at her.

  “Hah, no. What about you? I know you have your eye on sooomeeeone *caugh* whomayormaynotbeFrancis *caugh*.” She blushed and turned a shade of bright red before punching me in the arm.

  “Shut up!” She whispered harshly at me. I smiled and shrugged at her before turning back to the front. I knew Francis liked her too. But I didn’t want to spoil it for her. I felt sadness fill me but I kept the smile on my face as I thought of Mattie. To say I liked him was an understatement. To say I LOVED him was an understatement. But it didn’t matter. Not anymore.

  The rest of the class passed extremely slowly. I could tell the teacher was getting frustrated with the constant chatter between the students. I was too. All anyone talked about these days was who liked who and who was dating who. Where had the real conversations gone? One may never know. As the bell rang I cleaned up my stuff and waited for Christy so that we could walk to our next class, Math. Christy waved to Francis on the way out the door and I saw him wink back at her, she blushed again. I smirked at her and she mumbled for me to shut up.

  As we made our way into math we met up with Emma, my other “friend”. I helped them with the math homework before class and they talked about whoever their crushes were as I zoned them out. Again class was slow and boring with nonstop chatter. I couldn’t help the sinking feeling in my stomach though. Something was going to suck today. I could just tell. Well, whatever happens today, tomorrow is Saturday so I will have the weekend to forget about it.

  Lunch finally came and as I walked to the cafeteria with Christy and Emma we were stopped by a large commotion in the hallway. Francis was standing there with a bouquet of roses and a giant heart that said some stuff on it. He walked up to Christy and handed her the roses while he kissed her hand and asked to be her boyfriend. It was nice and sweet and all, but not my kind of thing. As everyone was caught up in the excitement I leaned over to Emma.

  “Hey, I forgot to print my History essay. I am going to go do that.” I lied. She nodded at me before turning back to congratulate the new couple and I pushed my way out of the crowd. As I walked down the hallway away from the crowds of people I could see couples holding hands and smiling. The whole thing made my heart hurt. I knew that would never be me. I wasn’t even walking in the direction of the media center where I apparently needed to print my essay.

  Before I knew it I was outside on one of the school’s second floor terraces. It was getting colder outside so no one ate up here anymore. I sat on the ledge and looked down at the front entrance there were a few students coming in and out of the building and I could hear their conversations clearly. I usually payed no mind to the things people talked about, it wasn’t nice to eavesdrop either. But one voice brought me to attention as I strained to hear more clearly.

  “Duuuuude! I got a ton of chocolates and stuff from a bunch of girls but I don’t know what to doooooooo!!!” Alfred. I could recognize that voice anywhere and where there was Alfred….
  “H-how should I know? I’m not p-popular like you are.” The sweet and quiet voice of Mattie traveled through the air. They stopped outside the front doors and seemed like they were going to continue talking. I couldn’t help but listen in, they didn’t know I was there after all.

  “Yeah, yeah. That is just because you don’t talk or anything and I know you like someone!” He teased his brother. I felt my heart sink. So he was over it already? That didn’t surprise me.

  “Sh-shut up! I do not!” He yelled quietly back blushing a little.

  “Fiiine… What about [Name]?” Alfred asked in a more serious tone. He knew we didn’t talk anymore. I don’t think he knew why. The question caused Mattie to pause before answering.

  “You know we aren’t friends anymore…” He trailed in almost a whisper. I could feel my eyes start to water as I heard him say that. I could have left and spared myself the pain. But I continued to listen.

  “Come on Mattie! I know you like-” He was cut off.

  “I said shut up! She doesn’t mean anything to me!! Okay?!?” My heart stopped. There was a silence. Then it shattered. I felt the tears begin to fall as I looked down at Mattie, no, Matthew.

  Matthew Williams. My ex-best friend and the one who stole then shattered my heart. He suddenly looked up to where I was sitting. Shit. I forgot he knew about this spot. We always used to come here together. We made eye contact for a second and I quickly turned around and walked back into the school.

  “Shit, shit, shit. Shit!” I yelled to myself as I walked back inside. He knew I was there. He knew I had heard the entire conversation. I tried to stop the tears from coming out too much and I wiped them away. As I was rubbing my eyes I ran into someone. I looked up and found Christy, Francis, and Emma. They looked at me for a second before Christy began to talk.

  “We were just looking for you! Emma said you went to print your paper. Are you okay?” She asked as she went to grab my hand. I flinched away and nodded.

  “Y-yeah. I am not feeling well though. I am going to go home.” I lied again as I looked at the floor.

  “You do look really ill. That would probably be a good idea.” Emma said as she tried to examine me closer.

  “Yeah. Have a good rest of your day guys.” I said as I began to walk away.

  “Get better, it is a shame to see someone so sick.” I heard Francis call as I walked away. I laughed sadly to myself. Like they cared. I managed to make it out of the school without being stopped or questioned by anyone and walked home.

  When I reached my house I went straight up to my room and flopped onto my bed. I layed there for at least a couple hours to let the whole thing just sink in. Then when it did, it hit like a nuclear bomb. I burst into tears as I replayed what he said over and over and over. It hurt like hell. But that was life wasn’t it? I decided if I was going to let it out I would let it ALL out. I sat in my corner or depression and got out my phone and forced myself to look at the pictures.

  They were all pictures of Matthew and I starting from when we were little. Some of them had Alfred in them too. As I looked at each picture as we got older and older I just felt worse and worse. What happened? Where did my happiness go? I’ll tell you. I stopped at the last series of pictures. It was Matthew and I taking selfies by our favorite tree in the forest behind my neighborhood. The first was me poking Matthew and him looking surprised, followed by him poking me back, then both of us smiling into the camera, then the last one….. was when he kissed me.

Flashback~

  “Hey Mattie! Come on and sit down!” I gestured to the spot next to me and he quickly sat down and smiled at me. The smile that made my heart flutter and my face heat up.

  “H-hey [Name]. I have something I-I want to tell you.” He whispered to me quietly. I was oblivious of course.

  “Sure Mattie! But first…. Let me take a selfie!” I shouted as I pulled out my phone and began to take awesome pictures of myself. I saw Mattie sigh and face-palm so I decided to include him. I poked him in the side and he jumped up, startled. *click* I laughed at his reaction as he pouted for a second. Suddenly I felt him jab me in the side as I squeaked in surprise. *click* We both burst out laughing. *click*

  “Are you done now?” He laughed lightly looking at me with a smile.

  “One more! Let’s make this one special though!” I said excitedly. I made sure both of us were clearly in the picture and smiling. Right as I was about press the button Mattie turned and kissed me. Right on the lips. It was short, but it was warm and tasted like maple syrup. *click*

  “M-Mattie….. W-what was that for?” I turned to him in surprise and he had a look of fear on his face.

  “I-I’m so s-sorry! I c-couldn’t help it a-and I-I I love you!” He shouted as he quickly scrambled to his feet. He quickly looked down at the ground as a huge blush covered his face. I sat there in shock as joy began to fill me. I slowly stood up to face him.

  “Matt-”

  “-I-I’m sorry! Just.. Just forget I said anything!” He yelled and he looked me directly in the eye. I could see him begin to cry but before I could speak he turned and ran.

  “Mattie!! Mattie wait!!” I yelled after him but he didn’t stop and before long he was out of sight. I sighed and felt a tear make its way down my face.

  “Mattie…. I love you too.” I whispered to myself as I stood under our favorite maple tree. Alone. From that day on he never responded to my texts or calls and he ignored me and avoided me. Eventually I gave up and accepted reality.

End~

    I choked back a couple sobs as the memory came to me. I sat in my corner and cried until I couldn’t cry anymore. I got up and looked out my bedroom window. It was Autumn and the leaves were turning colors and just beginning to fall to the ground. This was my favorite time of the year.

  I walked downstairs and put on a scarf and gloves before heading outside. I needed a walk to clear my mind. It was nearing 4pm and no one else was out. Perfect. I put my headphones back in my ears and began walking. I walked for about 10 minutes before I reached the forest that bordered my neighborhood.

  I sighed and stood there a moment before deciding to go in. I closed my eyes and tried to remember the path to the tree that I always used to take. After tripping and walking into a couple trees and bushes from having my eyes closed, I found the clearing with the maple tree. Our maple tree. It looked exactly like the ones around it. But at the same time, it was different. I sat down against the tree and closed my eyes. It was peaceful here. Peacefull, and quiet, and empty.

  I remembered how Matthew and I first found this tree. When we were younger we had found a maple sapling and decided to plant it somewhere in the forest. Unfortunately the next day we forgot where it was that we planted it. We looked all around until we found this clearing. He insisted it was the baby maple on the left, while I said it was the one on the right. We finally decided on the full grown one right in the middle even though we both knew it was impossible for a tree to grow that fast. We always remembered where this tree was and soon it became our tree. The place we would alway go to meet up and get away from everyone else.

  I chuckled to myself as I remembered all the fun we had together here. The day I tried to climb the tree even though Matthew said it was dumb. I ended up falling out of the tree and breaking my arm. But it was totally worth it. Or the time we played pirates and I tied Matthew to the tree until he surrendered all of his “gold”. There was also many times when we just came and talked, or took a nap, or drew in the dirt.

  I looked up and saw the light streaming through the red and yellow maple leaves as a light breeze blew some of them to the ground. It was so nice here. If there was any place I could pick to die and be buried. It would be here. Where no one would bother me.

  I must have been laying there for hours because the sun had begun to set and the sky was turned into a light orange and red color. Just like the maple leaves. I was about to get up and walk home after having cleared my head and come to terms with the fact that I would probably never be that happy again. But before I could move I heard the crackling of leaves. I froze and listened to them coming closer. I started to freak out a little when I thought about the possibility that it could be some murder or person eating animal. I heard it stop on the other side of the maple tree. Then I heard it sigh. Then sniffle. Soon I heard it fall to the ground and burst into sobs. Then I knew what it was. Matthew.

  I sat still and listened for a while, making sure not to make any indication that I was there. Why was he here? I listened to him cry to himself for a little while longer until he began to calm down. I could still hear him sniffling until he began to speak.

  “W-what have I done?” I heard him whisper to no one. His voice was hoarse and full of sadness and regret. I felt bad for being here while he was like this. But I couldn’t leave without him knowing I was here.

  “Why… why did I push her away?” He whispered harshly to himself. I guess whoever he liked rejected him or something. But it wasn’t my place to get involved. He had moved on.

  “Damn it. Damn it! DAMN IT ALL!” I heard him yell. He rarely yelled so whoever it was who rejected him must have been really important. I couldn’t help but feel jealous of whoever this person was as I looked down at my hands.

  “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry…” He went back to quietly talking to himself. I decided I should try to leave as I soundlessly stood up.

  “[Name]...” I froze when I heard him say my name. Crap. Did he know I was here?

  “[Name]... I’m so sorry. This is all my fault. I was such… such an idiot.” I couldn’t move. I just stood there and listen to him begin to cry again. I reached up and touched my face and felt that there were tears falling from my eyes as well. I missed him so much.

  “I was such a jerk to you and I will never forgive myself for it. I-... I still love you.” I couldn’t help it. I felt the tears increase as they made their way down my face. Before I could stop myself I blurted out.

  “I forgive you.” I said it quietly and there was a silence. I thought for a moment that he hadn’t heard me.

  “[N-Name]?” I heard him whisper from the other side of the maple.

  “Mattie.” I replied with a sad smile that I knew he couldn’t see. There was a long silence as we absorbed each other’s presence.

  “So…. you found our maple again?” I whispered to him. I could hear him give a soft laugh.

  “I guess so. It seems you did too.” There was another pause.

  “Yeah.” I didn’t know what else to say. It had been so long since we had talked to each other.

  “I missed you so much.” I hear him sniffle.

  “I missed you too.” I smiled. It felt so good to talk to him again. I slowly began to walk around to the other side of the tree, looking at the ground. I stop in front of Mattie’s figure and look up. He looks into my eyes and I stare into his soft purple ones for what seems like forever. It is obvious that both of us have been crying. He takes a step towards me and hesitates. Then he wraps his arms around me and pulls me close. His embrace is warm and comforting. I never want to leave.

  “I- I still love you [Name]. I just want you to know that.” He whispered as I could feel his warm breath on my ear.

  “If you had stayed long enough to hear my answer, you would have known that I love you too. I always have.” I whisper quietly back as we continue to hug each other. When we pull away we are both smiling and I can once again feel tears leak out of my eyes. He looks worried for a second.

  “[Name]? What’s wrong?” He wipes my tears away with his hand as he holds my hand with the other.

  “Nothing. I am just so happy we are together again.” I say as I smile at him.

  “Yeah, me too.” He says, his quiet voice soothing me. He lifts my chin up so that I am looking him straight in the eyes. We stare into each other for a moment, then he leans down and kisses me. It is sweet and warm, just like before.

Just like maple syrup.

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Alfred = America
Matthew/Mattie = Canada