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Ciel Phantomhive… Ciel Phantomhive… Ciel Phantomhive, again and again I signed letter after letter… after letter. I let out a deep sigh as I finished the thirteenth letter.
"Sebastian is that the last one? This is starting to get very tedious"
"Yes Bouchan you are quiet finished" My butler replied. I sighed with relief and stretched in my chair.
"Sebastian prepare me my afternoon tea and also bring something sweet for me"
"Yes, my lord" The butler bowed, and then walked at a quick but elegant pace out of the door, then shutting it behind him. I got up from behind my desk in the study and walked towards the window; I stood there with my hands clasped behind my back and stared out onto the landscape.
Many things run through my mind, all day, and all night. I can't rid my mind of worries about things; the contract, keeping up my image, trying to stay sane, being faithful to her highness, the list is endless… I can't distract myself with anything, not the company of Elizabeth or even simply eating cake… nothing rids my mind of worries and problems that I have to solve.

"Bouchan…" I jumped suddenly at the sound of the deep voice. I must have started to daydream.
"I didn't mean to startle you" his voice said smoothly and in a way, trying to reassure me. I turned around to see Sebastian looking at me with a silver tray balanced in his right hand.
"No Sebastian I was just thinking to myself" He nodded and put the saucer and plate on the table in front of the sofa and but he kept the tray in his hand. I walked away from the window and sat on the embroiled sofa, picked up a cup and saucer and sipped at my tea quietly, it tasted different from usual… what am I saying, Sebastian always serves me different tea…
"Earl grey Bouchan…" he said after I placed it back on the table.
What… that's it? My usual early grey… I must be going mad, it's just normal tea…
"Something on your mind Bouchan?" he asked curiously, obviously I had some sort of expressing on my face as I was complaining inside my head.
"No I'm fine" I lied, I pushing my fork into the neatly sliced cake… covered neatly in fruit and cream. I placed a small piece into my mouth and savoured the flavour.
"Charlotte cake" he said as I ate it, I nodded.
I sighed, no… not even cake, the thing I most love to eat can't drive my thought away… not even for a few minutes. I finished my mouthful and mumbled
"You may leave me now Sebastian."
"Yes my lord, but before I leave your presence I have one thing to tell you." he said. I shot my eyes open wider, what is there something wrong today? Sebastian usually tells me news as he pours my tea or just as he walks through the door, not just when I tell him to go…
"What is it?" I asked, trying not to let my tired and impatient tone get through… I failed.
"We have guests this evening Bouchan" he said then smirked
"Who Elizabeth…" I sighed "She'll want me to dance, I am not in a dancing mood today…"
"No Bouchan, not Lady Elizabeth, but Earl Trancy. He and his butler will be staying for a few weeks-"
I stopped him mid sentence and stood up in a rush and slammed my hands on the table.
"WHAT?!"
"Why? Let me guess, Alois is bored so he thought he'd invite himself round? How childish and irresponsible…" I was distresses enough; I didn't need a child like Trancy here.
Sebastian placed one hand on my shoulder, then smiled his wicked smile
"No Bouchan, you invited Earl Trancy, remember my lord…"
Me invite Trancy…
"When he was last at the estate you said he was able to come back and visit for the first few weeks of May"
How utterly illiterate of me, of course I now remember… when he won the chess match at Christmas … and so we agreed my punishment for losing was him residing here at the Phantomhive estate for a few weeks… at the beginning of May. I thought he would have forgotten … but knowing Alois he isn't the sort to forget that sort of thing.
"Sorry Sebastian, I am not hundred percent myself today…" Sebastian removed his hand
"I sensed that, would you like me to cancel this evening's entertainment?" he asked as he raised an eyebrow when he said 'entertainment'. Sebastian wasn't that fond of Trancy… always making a mess and the thing that annoyed my butler the most: putting things behind schedule.
"…No, let him stay, maybe he'll help me feel more like myself… I mean doing nothing all day is Trancy's speciality maybe he can help me stop worrying… no he'll just play his silly games and make fun of me… how is that a good thing… I guess it is form of distraction…" I stopped because I realised I was starting to mumble about unimportant things.
Sebastian smirked then bowed.
"Yes my lord"
As Sebastian left I sighed again, I looked at my tea, took another sip and wondered. Now that I know what tea it is, only now do I recognise the taste… maybe I am doing too much work, I don't get enough sleep knower days… well I won't get any sleep now Trancy's is going to be sleeping on my estate. I shook my head and tried to flush out irritating thoughts, I finished off the rest of my cake and tea, before sitting down beside the window, away from the window enough so I could see out, but so no one could see me inside. It wasn't long before I ended up falling asleep as I tried to distract myself from the hell that I lived in… and all the hell soon to come.

***

I tried to fidget slightly in my chair as I felt my body complaining about being in one position too long, but I couldn't, I felt a heavy weight on top of my lap… a warm heavy weight. It was sitting right on my thighs; it wriggled into my thighs and I felt something crawl around my back as well.
Perplexed, I opened my eyes… to sight which made me regret opening my eyes… Alois Trancy. He was happily straddling my lap and pushing his crotch towards mine. Dressed in his usual whorish attire: short shorts, knee highs, boots, shirt, waist coat and jacket.
"Ciel! Your finally awake!" his eyes wide open with happiness and what also looked like pleasure… well this is Alois Trancy so I shouldn't be surprised that he is getting euphoric sitting on me like this… realising what kind of position we were in, I pushed him off. As he landed on the floor he was taken back for a while, obviously wasn't expecting that.
"Owwww-wwa! That hurt Ciel!" he whined rubbing is rear.
"Alois, how discourteous of you. To sit on someone as they sleep!" I moaned at him as I got up from my chair.
"Oh come on Ciel, I know you enjoyed it, 'cause I did…" he winked at me from the floor. I was standing right in front of him as he sat on the floor. He looked forwards towards my crotch and started to laugh.
"…why do you want me to do something for you Ciel? I won't bite… that hard…" I followed his eyes, and snorted in disgust.
"How vile Trancy, get off the floor you're not a dog." I said adjusting were I was standing so he was no longer looking at my crotch. He looked up and smiled
"No Ciel that's you, you're the dog and I'm the spider"
"Just get up…" I sighed and put out a hand so I could help him up, the polite thing to do. He took it, but as he stood up, wrapped his arms around my waist and snuggled into me,
"I missed you Ciel, I haven't seen you in months or received a letter" he complained.
He pushed me back so I was pushed up against my desk he, then pushed his knee between my thighs hitting a soft spot, it also felt oddly pleasurable but my eyes shot open with repulsion. I grabbed his knee pulling it away from me and pulled out of his grasp.
"Don't be so perverse and immature"
He laughed
"Ciel's using big long words, But I thought you'd like it…" he said stressing certain words and then started moving his hand towards my legs, I slapped it away.
"Learn some manners Trancy…"
"Teach me then and I'll pay you with pleasure in return, I know you want me to"
"Get Claude to do it" I spat
"But he's not fun! I don't want Claude, I want you Ciel." I shook my head and walked away,
"If you carry on with this behaviour I will send you home Alois"
"Okay okay, I'll be good" I knew he was lying… this situation is so… Alois. I walked towards the door I knew Alois was following I could hear the footsteps his shoes made.
I lead him toward the library, where I usually entertain guests… like Alois. I walked inside finding Sebastian was setting up tea. I walked over toward Sebastian and whispered viciously in his ear
"Sebastian why did you not wake me up when Trancy arrived!" he smiled wickedly
"I am sorry Bouchan, you seemed tired and it is better for your health if you sleep"
"Don't lie to me, Trancy told you not to wake me didn't he!" Sebastian bowed
"Yes Bouchan, please excuse my behaviour" I wanted to slap his smirking face, but Trancy would only notice, I looked over at him; he was peering cautiously into the 'law' section on one of the many book shelves. Why law?
"Just make sure it doesn't happen again"
"Yes my lord"
Sebastian finished what he was doing and was just about to leave
"Oh Sebastian, where is Claude?" I asked quietly noticing that he wasn't near Alois.
"Bouchan, Claude is preparing Earl Trancy's room"
I just nodded at the answer and sat in the arm chair, crossing my legs and resting my cheek on my fist which was propped up by my elbow. Alois noticed I had seated so he did the same on the sofa next to me, but sat cross legged on the sofa… just like a child.
"You may leave us now Sebastian"
"Yes my lord" Sebastian bowed and left the room quickly and quietly. As soon as he left I interrogated Alois.
"Trancy why did you not only arrive early to my estate but then decide it was a good idea to sit on my lap in a most distorted manor?" Alois leant on both of his elbows on the armrest and then put his cheek in his hands, so his head was at a tilt. He also had his eyes closed ever so slightly, obviously trying to look sexy and attractive.
"Well I was anxious to see you, so we came a little bit earlier." he spoke in an innocent voice, adding to the image he was trying to produce.
"Okay I guess I understand that, but why sit on me like that?" I raised an eyebrow and gestured my head forward slightly so he would speak.
"What you didn't enjoy it?" he asked seductively biting his lip
"Th-that wasn't my question Trancy"
Such a perverted person.
"Hmm let's see, well I saw you sleeping and you looked so adorable and sexy if I must say, but all on your own. So I decided I would look after you and keep you company. So I straddled you, you seemed to enjoy it… until you woke up."
I lowered my eyebrows into a frown.
"When I first got on you and wrapped my legs around your body; you started to wriggle towards me and you even groaned Ciel…" he winked at me and licked his lips
"I don't think so Trancy," I picked up my saucer and sipped quietly at the tea. Chamomile tea… hmm I guess I did just need a small sleep to get back to normal.
"Oh I do, hey we can do again Ciel…" He picked a small cake up and pushed into his mouth, very slowly. Licking and sucked the icing off of his fingers, he even carried on after all the icing had been eaten. I looked away as quick as I could, but I could still see him doing it out of the corner of my eye.
"Alois stop it," I commanded, he stopped and pulled his finger out of his mouth.
"Why can't you handle a bit of teasing Ciel?"
"Just stop it Alois, you've been acting ill-mannered ever since you got here-"
Alois quickly scrambled over to me and straddled me for the second time today.
"Uh Ciel I know you like it, anyway it's just the way I am, so stop complaining!" Before I could push him off he grabbed my wrists and pushed them to the side and then pushed my legs together with his legs, so I couldn't move anything but my head. He leant forward and put his mouth by my ear, I froze as I felt his breath on my earlobe. He licked my ear once, and then twice, then just carries on sucking and pulling on it. I couldn't move he was too heavy.
"Sebas-" He covered my mouth
"That's not the name you should be screaming Ciel…" he injected his tongue into my ear, pushing it in and out, in and out. I felt a shiver of complete pleasure but also utter disgust.
"A-Alois…"
"That's better…" he dug it in deeper and moved even closer.
"G-get, of me!" I shoved at him throwing him onto the floor again. I stood up and wiped off the saliva with a napkin.
"Do you have any idea how vile that is? Sticking your tongue into people's ears isn't funny, its dirty" Alois pouted,
"But I thought you'd like it Ciel" he mumbled from the floor.
"Who in their right mind would like that?!" I was starting to lose my patients with him and his 'humour'.
You did Ciel, you did. A voice whispered.
I shook my head.
No I didn't… well… NO I DIDN'T!
"I think you did Ciel, I felt you shiver under my body" He stood up and looked down on me; I hate the fact he's taller than me.
"I want you"
"T-to do what?"
"No slut, I want you"
He grabbed my face and went to push his lips against mine, but I moved in time to get out of his grasp.
"What is wrong with you Alois? If anyone's a slut it's you! Don't you know that what you're doing is against the law!"
"I don't care, I want you Ciel. I want you so bad" he giggled childishly… was this just a game?
"Get away from me Alois" I walked quickly towards the door, but before I had a chance to leave Alois ran in front of it and slammed his back to it so I was trapped inside my own library.
"You're not being fair Ciel, I always get what I want and I want you." he laughed then resumed his tarty speech.
"I want you now; on the floor, in the bathroom, on the table. I want to be able to feel you, touch you, and taste you everywhere. I want to explore every inch of your body not just with my hands, but also my mouth, make you moan, make you scream out my name, hit your special spot… fucking hard, suck on my d-" I covered his mouth before I heard another sickening word.
"No Alois! This joke isn't funny anymore"
"But I'm not joking Ciel…" He was being serious but also was acting like a whore at the same time.
"Fuck…"
"Me... Okay then!"
… So much for being serious
"N-no Alois I-"
I blushed bright red with shock.
"Aww Ciel, your blushing" he started to caress my face and pushed himself up against the door with my body sandwiched between.
"Alois stop it, get off of me!" I tried to pull away from him, but he had me cornered.
"Stop complaining"
"You're such a fucking whore"
"Oh why thank you, I know I am"
What?! He's proud of it?!
"Let's play a game Ciel, please play with me."
Before I could say anything, he pushed three fingers against my lips,
"Suck my fingers" I firmly tightened my lips.
"Suck" he said as he tried to push them through my shut lips.
I knew exactly why he wanted me to make his fingers wet, it made me feel sick, but at the same time, deep down, I wanted to suck on them…
"NO!!" I slapped his face, hard.
"I said no and I will always say no Alois" I screamed at him
He let go of me and pulled his body away from mine
"You may say that now, but I'll soon change your mind… I'll make sure of it" he said deviously
He walked towards the table and sat down to the sweets and tea.
"Chess?" he asked like nothing had just happened
"I-I need the bathroom" I said bluntly
I walked out the door and shut it behind me… what was I to do now? I basically had a rapist in my house, no he's more of psychopathic whore, who w-…
I couldn't bring myself to say it,
"Who wanted me" I mumbled inaudibly
Why, why? WHY WAS THIS HAPPENING?! I walked quickly towards the bathroom and locked myself inside; I put my hands on the sink and dropped my head so I was staring down the plug hole.
I am Ciel Phantomhive, I have a fucking demon for a butler, I traded my soul for revenge and yet I'm worried about some childish lunatic… I wish I hadn't woken up this morning… not once did I stop worryi-… wait. Wait. When Alois was being a dick driven lunatic, I didn't once worry about anything, my mind cleared for the first time in months… actually whenever I'm with Alois I stop worrying about things. Oh what, great so my ticket to stop worrying about things is to me fucked up the arse by Trancy?! That's disgusting.
I looked at the mirror and stared at my reflection. All I see is Ciel, Ciel Phantomhive… because that's who I am, nothing else. I pulled off my eye patch. Now I am Ciel Phantomhive… with a soul condemned to be devoured by the bodily form of hell itself: a demon, when the contact expires.
I smirked and remember the day when we made the contract, I then washed my face… and ears. I sighed deeply with some kind of relief and rubbed my face with a towel.
I put my eye patch back on covering up the contract and walked towards the door, as soon as I open it I saw Alois.
"I thought you said you were going to the bathroom… it didn't sound like it" he asked innocently but suspiciously
"Alois I said I was going to the bathroom not the toilet. Anyway I thought you were setting up the chess game" I said calmly
Alois was didn't seem bothered I was acting normal again… or was he bluffing?
"Duh Ciel! I already did it, come on" he gave me a huge smile
"Sure… come on then" as we walked back toward the library I felt ill again, I felt like I was being pulled into the spider web. We walked back in, the room was still a room, and it still smelt the same as it usually does: good.
"I call white!" he sang as we sat down
"Good because I'm black anyway" it matches my heart…
I studied the board.
Chess: a battle between black and white…
"White moves first" I stated. I guess playing chess will make me stop think about what Trancy just did…
"Yes… yes they do" he said, I knew there was a hidden message due to his odd smile
…but in the end evil always succeeds in the end…
***
"Checkmate" I said
"What?! Ah damn it, I didn't see that" Alois whined
Alois was sulking as I summoned my butler. Sebastian walked in followed by Claude, they both bowed to their masters. Claude walked over to Alois and Alois started moaning to him about how he lost.
"Yes my lord" Sebastian asked when he had approached me
"I am starting to get very hungry when will dinner be ready?" I rubbed my forehead with my fingers
"I will have dinner ready in ten minutes Bouchan"
"Very well, thank you Sebastian" he nodded then bowed, we both then noticed Alois whispering to Claude.
Whispering is very rude in front of people, but you can't tell off a house guest, although this is just Alois… but his butler was here so I am unable to tell him off, damn.
"Dinner will be ready soon, so we shall be moving to the dining room" Sebastian announced, Claude looked up at Sebastian; Claude stopped talking to Alois and gestured for him to get up and follow Sebastian. I got up myself and walked behind Alois… just for safe keeping.
We were already seated as Sebastian and Claude placed the food in front of us
"Fresh water lobster soufflé and roast pigeon, arranged a la Pyrenean and then Lemon Meringue pie for dessert" Sebastian announced.
Alois look at the food, tuned his head slightly to examine it
"Hmm don't think I've ever tasted this before" Alois said curiously
"It is French food Alois" I said as I placed a mouthful into my mouth. Delicious as always… but I'm much looking forward to dessert as usual… at least my pallet hasn't been affected with the bewilderment.
"Thank you Sebastian" he bowed
"Thank you Sebastian" Alois said innocently.
The butlers left us to our food. I wanted to eat in silence, but Alois was unlikely to let me.
"So how are you feeling Ciel?" his voice was more relaxed than usual
"I am just fine thank you"
"Just fine Ciel? Not anything else… no deep pleasurable sensation within you?"
What was he insinuating at now?
"Yes I'm just fine Alois"
"Oh I see…" he smirked, I didn't understand, was he referring to what happened in the library?
He didn't say anything else afterwards; he just left it at that. Thank goodness. We carried on eating in a blissful silence. After we finished the main, Sebastian came in and told us dessert was to be held in the drawing room. I wanted to take my dessert to my bedroom and eat it in the dark… I should really get out of the habit of doing that, but I had guests. So we ate in the drawing room, and relaxed for the evening in there.
Some how Alois managed to keep himself entertained for a couple of hours, which was wonderful for me. I simply ate dessert and read, well tried to read.
"Oh Ciel?" Alois suddenly called. I looked up from my book and look at him laying on the floor on his back staring up at me.
"Yes Alois"
"Is there something wrong?" I think for the first time in his life he was being serious… although how he was sitting didn't help.
"No I'm fine" I lied. The thing was I was worrying about things behind my book, and one of the topics was Alois.
"Oh because you've been staring at the same page of that book for about ten minutes…" he pointed out. I looked at the page… he was right, I had.
"You have something on your mind don't you Ciel?"
I didn't reply
"Is the queen making your life hard? Is she asking too much" Is this really Alois? The real Alois Trancy, he isn't playing games, being sick minded or messing around.
"No Alois, I am fine" I finally lied. He sighed then started to laugh insanely… yes this is definitely Alois…
"I-Isn't it funny, NO, isn't it hilarious when someone is in denial and lies to your face" he giggled, got up and walked over to me, then sat on the armrest.
"You can tell me things you know Ciel… anything" he was putting on a whorish attitude again… great.
"Alois what do you want from me?"
"You know what I want Ciel, and I will make you give it to me" he started to stroke my face again.
"Alois I'm not in the mood for your games, I'm tired"
"Then come to bed..."
"Alois, its 'go to bed', not 'come to bed', you should learn your grammar correctly… no, that wasn't even incorrect grammar… just learn English properly"
"No silly, I meant come to bed, with me. I'll keep your distracted… doing all sorts of breathtaking things" he moved closer. I pulled out of his grasp and I got up.
"I-I'm going to bed… alone" Alois pouted as I placed the book on the table
"But-"
"Alone" I started to walk towards the door
"We'll see about that"
I shut the door behind me and made my way towards my room. Why, why now. I rubbed my forehead, and then dug my fingernails in slightly. There has to be a reasonable explanation for this, why did someone… something like Alois make me feel more relaxed and was able to distract me from my worries… while he was acting like a whore. I felt repulsed by what he did… but deep down I think I enjoyed it because I felt a small amount of satisfaction inside me.
I wanted to be sick, stick my fingers down my throat and throw up everything and hope that somehow his touch left my body too…
"Let's play a game Ciel, please play with me. Suck my fingers"
It rang in my head like church bells, that's vulgar, who could get pleasure out of something like that… I have a fiancée…
but think about it Ciel, are you attracted to her? The voice asked me
N-no
But you are to Trancy, you I know he does things that you're not used, to but you get pleasure from. I felt you shiver… you like his touch, makes you feel good doesn't it?
Shut up,
You can't hide from it Ciel, just wait, you'll be literally begging for it and he'll give it to you, and you'll be in ecstasy and want it more than air that you breath…
The voice finally drowned off as I walked into my room to find Sebastian preparing my bed. I sat on a chair nearby as I was starting to feel dizzy.
"Has earl Trancy worn you out Bouchan?" Sebastian asked as he started to take off my shoes
"You could say that" Sebastian smirked as he unbuttoned my jacket and gestured for me to get up so he was able to get a better reach…
Why is it that everything I think is twisted in such a way so that it sounds erroneous and links itself to Trancy? For example 'for him to get a better reach'… a revolting thought.
I got up and Sebastian undressed the rest of me, and then quickly pulled on my nightgown. I untied the eye patch myself and placed on the cabinet beside my bed. I climbed into bed, and adjusted myself so I was comfortable.
"Good night Bouchan" Sebastian said bowing; I closed my eyes and simply moaned with tiredness at him. He left in silence; with no queries or apprehensions.
I wanted to forget today but I wasn't going to anytime soon, but still maybe I'll get some proper sleep tonight.
Somehow I managed to fall into a deep enough sleep, even though I was worried I was going to get an unexpected visitor in the night…
I was wrong about getting a good sleep… I woke up nearly every hour and then it took me about ten minutes to fall back to sleep after each time I awoke.

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Ciel Phantomhive… Ciel Phantomhive… Ciel Phantomhive, again and again I signed letter after letter… after letter. I let out a deep sigh as I finished the thirteenth letter.
"Sebastian is that the last one? This is starting to get very tedious"
"Yes Bouchan you are quiet finished" My butler replied. I sighed with relief and stretched in my chair.
"Sebastian prepare me my afternoon tea and also bring something sweet for me"
"Yes, my lord" The butler bowed, and then walked at a quick but elegant pace out of the door, then shutting it behind him. I got up from behind my desk in the study and walked towards the window; I stood there with my hands clasped behind my back and stared out onto the landscape.
Many things run through my mind, all day, and all night. I can't rid my mind of worries about things; the contract, keeping up my image, trying to stay sane, being faithful to her highness, the list is endless… I can't distract myself with anything, not the company of Elizabeth or even simply eating cake… nothing rids my mind of worries and problems that I have to solve.

"Bouchan…" I jumped suddenly at the sound of the deep voice. I must have started to daydream.
"I didn't mean to startle you" his voice said smoothly and in a way, trying to reassure me. I turned around to see Sebastian looking at me with a silver tray balanced in his right hand.
"No Sebastian I was just thinking to myself" He nodded and put the saucer and plate on the table in front of the sofa and but he kept the tray in his hand. I walked away from the window and sat on the embroiled sofa, picked up a cup and saucer and sipped at my tea quietly, it tasted different from usual… what am I saying, Sebastian always serves me different tea…
"Earl grey Bouchan…" he said after I placed it back on the table.
What… that's it? My usual early grey… I must be going mad, it's just normal tea…
"Something on your mind Bouchan?" he asked curiously, obviously I had some sort of expressing on my face as I was complaining inside my head.
"No I'm fine" I lied, I pushing my fork into the neatly sliced cake… covered neatly in fruit and cream. I placed a small piece into my mouth and savoured the flavour.
"Charlotte cake" he said as I ate it, I nodded.
I sighed, no… not even cake, the thing I most love to eat can't drive my thought away… not even for a few minutes. I finished my mouthful and mumbled
"You may leave me now Sebastian."
"Yes my lord, but before I leave your presence I have one thing to tell you." he said. I shot my eyes open wider, what is there something wrong today? Sebastian usually tells me news as he pours my tea or just as he walks through the door, not just when I tell him to go…
"What is it?" I asked, trying not to let my tired and impatient tone get through… I failed.
"We have guests this evening Bouchan" he said then smirked
"Who Elizabeth…" I sighed "She'll want me to dance, I am not in a dancing mood today…"
"No Bouchan, not Lady Elizabeth, but Earl Trancy. He and his butler will be staying for a few weeks-"
I stopped him mid sentence and stood up in a rush and slammed my hands on the table.
"WHAT?!"
"Why? Let me guess, Alois is bored so he thought he'd invite himself round? How childish and irresponsible…" I was distresses enough; I didn't need a child like Trancy here.
Sebastian placed one hand on my shoulder, then smiled his wicked smile
"No Bouchan, you invited Earl Trancy, remember my lord…"
Me invite Trancy…
"When he was last at the estate you said he was able to come back and visit for the first few weeks of May"
How utterly illiterate of me, of course I now remember… when he won the chess match at Christmas … and so we agreed my punishment for losing was him residing here at the Phantomhive estate for a few weeks… at the beginning of May. I thought he would have forgotten … but knowing Alois he isn't the sort to forget that sort of thing.
"Sorry Sebastian, I am not hundred percent myself today…" Sebastian removed his hand
"I sensed that, would you like me to cancel this evening's entertainment?" he asked as he raised an eyebrow when he said 'entertainment'. Sebastian wasn't that fond of Trancy… always making a mess and the thing that annoyed my butler the most: putting things behind schedule.
"…No, let him stay, maybe he'll help me feel more like myself… I mean doing nothing all day is Trancy's speciality maybe he can help me stop worrying… no he'll just play his silly games and make fun of me… how is that a good thing… I guess it is form of distraction…" I stopped because I realised I was starting to mumble about unimportant things.
Sebastian smirked then bowed.
"Yes my lord"
As Sebastian left I sighed again, I looked at my tea, took another sip and wondered. Now that I know what tea it is, only now do I recognise the taste… maybe I am doing too much work, I don't get enough sleep knower days… well I won't get any sleep now Trancy's is going to be sleeping on my estate. I shook my head and tried to flush out irritating thoughts, I finished off the rest of my cake and tea, before sitting down beside the window, away from the window enough so I could see out, but so no one could see me inside. It wasn't long before I ended up falling asleep as I tried to distract myself from the hell that I lived in… and all the hell soon to come.

***

I tried to fidget slightly in my chair as I felt my body complaining about being in one position too long, but I couldn't, I felt a heavy weight on top of my lap… a warm heavy weight. It was sitting right on my thighs; it wriggled into my thighs and I felt something crawl around my back as well.
Perplexed, I opened my eyes… to sight which made me regret opening my eyes… Alois Trancy. He was happily straddling my lap and pushing his crotch towards mine. Dressed in his usual whorish attire: short shorts, knee highs, boots, shirt, waist coat and jacket.
"Ciel! Your finally awake!" his eyes wide open with happiness and what also looked like pleasure… well this is Alois Trancy so I shouldn't be surprised that he is getting euphoric sitting on me like this… realising what kind of position we were in, I pushed him off. As he landed on the floor he was taken back for a while, obviously wasn't expecting that.
"Owwww-wwa! That hurt Ciel!" he whined rubbing is rear.
"Alois, how discourteous of you. To sit on someone as they sleep!" I moaned at him as I got up from my chair.
"Oh come on Ciel, I know you enjoyed it, 'cause I did…" he winked at me from the floor. I was standing right in front of him as he sat on the floor. He looked forwards towards my crotch and started to laugh.
"…why do you want me to do something for you Ciel? I won't bite… that hard…" I followed his eyes, and snorted in disgust.
"How vile Trancy, get off the floor you're not a dog." I said adjusting were I was standing so he was no longer looking at my crotch. He looked up and smiled
"No Ciel that's you, you're the dog and I'm the spider"
"Just get up…" I sighed and put out a hand so I could help him up, the polite thing to do. He took it, but as he stood up, wrapped his arms around my waist and snuggled into me,
"I missed you Ciel, I haven't seen you in months or received a letter" he complained.
He pushed me back so I was pushed up against my desk he, then pushed his knee between my thighs hitting a soft spot, it also felt oddly pleasurable but my eyes shot open with repulsion. I grabbed his knee pulling it away from me and pulled out of his grasp.
"Don't be so perverse and immature"
He laughed
"Ciel's using big long words, But I thought you'd like it…" he said stressing certain words and then started moving his hand towards my legs, I slapped it away.
"Learn some manners Trancy…"
"Teach me then and I'll pay you with pleasure in return, I know you want me to"
"Get Claude to do it" I spat
"But he's not fun! I don't want Claude, I want you Ciel." I shook my head and walked away,
"If you carry on with this behaviour I will send you home Alois"
"Okay okay, I'll be good" I knew he was lying… this situation is so… Alois. I walked towards the door I knew Alois was following I could hear the footsteps his shoes made.
I lead him toward the library, where I usually entertain guests… like Alois. I walked inside finding Sebastian was setting up tea. I walked over toward Sebastian and whispered viciously in his ear
"Sebastian why did you not wake me up when Trancy arrived!" he smiled wickedly
"I am sorry Bouchan, you seemed tired and it is better for your health if you sleep"
"Don't lie to me, Trancy told you not to wake me didn't he!" Sebastian bowed
"Yes Bouchan, please excuse my behaviour" I wanted to slap his smirking face, but Trancy would only notice, I looked over at him; he was peering cautiously into the 'law' section on one of the many book shelves. Why law?
"Just make sure it doesn't happen again"
"Yes my lord"
Sebastian finished what he was doing and was just about to leave
"Oh Sebastian, where is Claude?" I asked quietly noticing that he wasn't near Alois.
"Bouchan, Claude is preparing Earl Trancy's room"
I just nodded at the answer and sat in the arm chair, crossing my legs and resting my cheek on my fist which was propped up by my elbow. Alois noticed I had seated so he did the same on the sofa next to me, but sat cross legged on the sofa… just like a child.
"You may leave us now Sebastian"
"Yes my lord" Sebastian bowed and left the room quickly and quietly. As soon as he left I interrogated Alois.
"Trancy why did you not only arrive early to my estate but then decide it was a good idea to sit on my lap in a most distorted manor?" Alois leant on both of his elbows on the armrest and then put his cheek in his hands, so his head was at a tilt. He also had his eyes closed ever so slightly, obviously trying to look sexy and attractive.
"Well I was anxious to see you, so we came a little bit earlier." he spoke in an innocent voice, adding to the image he was trying to produce.
"Okay I guess I understand that, but why sit on me like that?" I raised an eyebrow and gestured my head forward slightly so he would speak.
"What you didn't enjoy it?" he asked seductively biting his lip
"Th-that wasn't my question Trancy"
Such a perverted person.
"Hmm let's see, well I saw you sleeping and you looked so adorable and sexy if I must say, but all on your own. So I decided I would look after you and keep you company. So I straddled you, you seemed to enjoy it… until you woke up."
I lowered my eyebrows into a frown.
"When I first got on you and wrapped my legs around your body; you started to wriggle towards me and you even groaned Ciel…" he winked at me and licked his lips
"I don't think so Trancy," I picked up my saucer and sipped quietly at the tea. Chamomile tea… hmm I guess I did just need a small sleep to get back to normal.
"Oh I do, hey we can do again Ciel…" He picked a small cake up and pushed into his mouth, very slowly. Licking and sucked the icing off of his fingers, he even carried on after all the icing had been eaten. I looked away as quick as I could, but I could still see him doing it out of the corner of my eye.
"Alois stop it," I commanded, he stopped and pulled his finger out of his mouth.
"Why can't you handle a bit of teasing Ciel?"
"Just stop it Alois, you've been acting ill-mannered ever since you got here-"
Alois quickly scrambled over to me and straddled me for the second time today.
"Uh Ciel I know you like it, anyway it's just the way I am, so stop complaining!" Before I could push him off he grabbed my wrists and pushed them to the side and then pushed my legs together with his legs, so I couldn't move anything but my head. He leant forward and put his mouth by my ear, I froze as I felt his breath on my earlobe. He licked my ear once, and then twice, then just carries on sucking and pulling on it. I couldn't move he was too heavy.
"Sebas-" He covered my mouth
"That's not the name you should be screaming Ciel…" he injected his tongue into my ear, pushing it in and out, in and out. I felt a shiver of complete pleasure but also utter disgust.
"A-Alois…"
"That's better…" he dug it in deeper and moved even closer.
"G-get, of me!" I shoved at him throwing him onto the floor again. I stood up and wiped off the saliva with a napkin.
"Do you have any idea how vile that is? Sticking your tongue into people's ears isn't funny, its dirty" Alois pouted,
"But I thought you'd like it Ciel" he mumbled from the floor.
"Who in their right mind would like that?!" I was starting to lose my patients with him and his 'humour'.
You did Ciel, you did. A voice whispered.
I shook my head.
No I didn't… well… NO I DIDN'T!
"I think you did Ciel, I felt you shiver under my body" He stood up and looked down on me; I hate the fact he's taller than me.
"I want you"
"T-to do what?"
"No slut, I want you"
He grabbed my face and went to push his lips against mine, but I moved in time to get out of his grasp.
"What is wrong with you Alois? If anyone's a slut it's you! Don't you know that what you're doing is against the law!"
"I don't care, I want you Ciel. I want you so bad" he giggled childishly… was this just a game?
"Get away from me Alois" I walked quickly towards the door, but before I had a chance to leave Alois ran in front of it and slammed his back to it so I was trapped inside my own library.
"You're not being fair Ciel, I always get what I want and I want you." he laughed then resumed his tarty speech.
"I want you now; on the floor, in the bathroom, on the table. I want to be able to feel you, touch you, and taste you everywhere. I want to explore every inch of your body not just with my hands, but also my mouth, make you moan, make you scream out my name, hit your special spot… fucking hard, suck on my d-" I covered his mouth before I heard another sickening word.
"No Alois! This joke isn't funny anymore"
"But I'm not joking Ciel…" He was being serious but also was acting like a whore at the same time.
"Fuck…"
"Me... Okay then!"
… So much for being serious
"N-no Alois I-"
I blushed bright red with shock.
"Aww Ciel, your blushing" he started to caress my face and pushed himself up against the door with my body sandwiched between.
"Alois stop it, get off of me!" I tried to pull away from him, but he had me cornered.
"Stop complaining"
"You're such a fucking whore"
"Oh why thank you, I know I am"
What?! He's proud of it?!
"Let's play a game Ciel, please play with me."
Before I could say anything, he pushed three fingers against my lips,
"Suck my fingers" I firmly tightened my lips.
"Suck" he said as he tried to push them through my shut lips.
I knew exactly why he wanted me to make his fingers wet, it made me feel sick, but at the same time, deep down, I wanted to suck on them…
"NO!!" I slapped his face, hard.
"I said no and I will always say no Alois" I screamed at him
He let go of me and pulled his body away from mine
"You may say that now, but I'll soon change your mind… I'll make sure of it" he said deviously
He walked towards the table and sat down to the sweets and tea.
"Chess?" he asked like nothing had just happened
"I-I need the bathroom" I said bluntly
I walked out the door and shut it behind me… what was I to do now? I basically had a rapist in my house, no he's more of psychopathic whore, who w-…
I couldn't bring myself to say it,
"Who wanted me" I mumbled inaudibly
Why, why? WHY WAS THIS HAPPENING?! I walked quickly towards the bathroom and locked myself inside; I put my hands on the sink and dropped my head so I was staring down the plug hole.
I am Ciel Phantomhive, I have a fucking demon for a butler, I traded my soul for revenge and yet I'm worried about some childish lunatic… I wish I hadn't woken up this morning… not once did I stop worryi-… wait. Wait. When Alois was being a dick driven lunatic, I didn't once worry about anything, my mind cleared for the first time in months… actually whenever I'm with Alois I stop worrying about things. Oh what, great so my ticket to stop worrying about things is to me fucked up the arse by Trancy?! That's disgusting.
I looked at the mirror and stared at my reflection. All I see is Ciel, Ciel Phantomhive… because that's who I am, nothing else. I pulled off my eye patch. Now I am Ciel Phantomhive… with a soul condemned to be devoured by the bodily form of hell itself: a demon, when the contact expires.
I smirked and remember the day when we made the contract, I then washed my face… and ears. I sighed deeply with some kind of relief and rubbed my face with a towel.
I put my eye patch back on covering up the contract and walked towards the door, as soon as I open it I saw Alois.
"I thought you said you were going to the bathroom… it didn't sound like it" he asked innocently but suspiciously
"Alois I said I was going to the bathroom not the toilet. Anyway I thought you were setting up the chess game" I said calmly
Alois was didn't seem bothered I was acting normal again… or was he bluffing?
"Duh Ciel! I already did it, come on" he gave me a huge smile
"Sure… come on then" as we walked back toward the library I felt ill again, I felt like I was being pulled into the spider web. We walked back in, the room was still a room, and it still smelt the same as it usually does: good.
"I call white!" he sang as we sat down
"Good because I'm black anyway" it matches my heart…
I studied the board.
Chess: a battle between black and white…
"White moves first" I stated. I guess playing chess will make me stop think about what Trancy just did…
"Yes… yes they do" he said, I knew there was a hidden message due to his odd smile
…but in the end evil always succeeds in the end…
***
"Checkmate" I said
"What?! Ah damn it, I didn't see that" Alois whined
Alois was sulking as I summoned my butler. Sebastian walked in followed by Claude, they both bowed to their masters. Claude walked over to Alois and Alois started moaning to him about how he lost.
"Yes my lord" Sebastian asked when he had approached me
"I am starting to get very hungry when will dinner be ready?" I rubbed my forehead with my fingers
"I will have dinner ready in ten minutes Bouchan"
"Very well, thank you Sebastian" he nodded then bowed, we both then noticed Alois whispering to Claude.
Whispering is very rude in front of people, but you can't tell off a house guest, although this is just Alois… but his butler was here so I am unable to tell him off, damn.
"Dinner will be ready soon, so we shall be moving to the dining room" Sebastian announced, Claude looked up at Sebastian; Claude stopped talking to Alois and gestured for him to get up and follow Sebastian. I got up myself and walked behind Alois… just for safe keeping.
We were already seated as Sebastian and Claude placed the food in front of us
"Fresh water lobster soufflé and roast pigeon, arranged a la Pyrenean and then Lemon Meringue pie for dessert" Sebastian announced.
Alois look at the food, tuned his head slightly to examine it
"Hmm don't think I've ever tasted this before" Alois said curiously
"It is French food Alois" I said as I placed a mouthful into my mouth. Delicious as always… but I'm much looking forward to dessert as usual… at least my pallet hasn't been affected with the bewilderment.
"Thank you Sebastian" he bowed
"Thank you Sebastian" Alois said innocently.
The butlers left us to our food. I wanted to eat in silence, but Alois was unlikely to let me.
"So how are you feeling Ciel?" his voice was more relaxed than usual
"I am just fine thank you"
"Just fine Ciel? Not anything else… no deep pleasurable sensation within you?"
What was he insinuating at now?
"Yes I'm just fine Alois"
"Oh I see…" he smirked, I didn't understand, was he referring to what happened in the library?
He didn't say anything else afterwards; he just left it at that. Thank goodness. We carried on eating in a blissful silence. After we finished the main, Sebastian came in and told us dessert was to be held in the drawing room. I wanted to take my dessert to my bedroom and eat it in the dark… I should really get out of the habit of doing that, but I had guests. So we ate in the drawing room, and relaxed for the evening in there.
Some how Alois managed to keep himself entertained for a couple of hours, which was wonderful for me. I simply ate dessert and read, well tried to read.
"Oh Ciel?" Alois suddenly called. I looked up from my book and look at him laying on the floor on his back staring up at me.
"Yes Alois"
"Is there something wrong?" I think for the first time in his life he was being serious… although how he was sitting didn't help.
"No I'm fine" I lied. The thing was I was worrying about things behind my book, and one of the topics was Alois.
"Oh because you've been staring at the same page of that book for about ten minutes…" he pointed out. I looked at the page… he was right, I had.
"You have something on your mind don't you Ciel?"
I didn't reply
"Is the queen making your life hard? Is she asking too much" Is this really Alois? The real Alois Trancy, he isn't playing games, being sick minded or messing around.
"No Alois, I am fine" I finally lied. He sighed then started to laugh insanely… yes this is definitely Alois…
"I-Isn't it funny, NO, isn't it hilarious when someone is in denial and lies to your face" he giggled, got up and walked over to me, then sat on the armrest.
"You can tell me things you know Ciel… anything" he was putting on a whorish attitude again… great.
"Alois what do you want from me?"
"You know what I want Ciel, and I will make you give it to me" he started to stroke my face again.
"Alois I'm not in the mood for your games, I'm tired"
"Then come to bed..."
"Alois, its 'go to bed', not 'come to bed', you should learn your grammar correctly… no, that wasn't even incorrect grammar… just learn English properly"
"No silly, I meant come to bed, with me. I'll keep your distracted… doing all sorts of breathtaking things" he moved closer. I pulled out of his grasp and I got up.
"I-I'm going to bed… alone" Alois pouted as I placed the book on the table
"But-"
"Alone" I started to walk towards the door
"We'll see about that"
I shut the door behind me and made my way towards my room. Why, why now. I rubbed my forehead, and then dug my fingernails in slightly. There has to be a reasonable explanation for this, why did someone… something like Alois make me feel more relaxed and was able to distract me from my worries… while he was acting like a whore. I felt repulsed by what he did… but deep down I think I enjoyed it because I felt a small amount of satisfaction inside me.
I wanted to be sick, stick my fingers down my throat and throw up everything and hope that somehow his touch left my body too…
"Let's play a game Ciel, please play with me. Suck my fingers"
It rang in my head like church bells, that's vulgar, who could get pleasure out of something like that… I have a fiancée…
but think about it Ciel, are you attracted to her? The voice asked me
N-no
But you are to Trancy, you I know he does things that you're not used, to but you get pleasure from. I felt you shiver… you like his touch, makes you feel good doesn't it?
Shut up,
You can't hide from it Ciel, just wait, you'll be literally begging for it and he'll give it to you, and you'll be in ecstasy and want it more than air that you breath…
The voice finally drowned off as I walked into my room to find Sebastian preparing my bed. I sat on a chair nearby as I was starting to feel dizzy.
"Has earl Trancy worn you out Bouchan?" Sebastian asked as he started to take off my shoes
"You could say that" Sebastian smirked as he unbuttoned my jacket and gestured for me to get up so he was able to get a better reach…
Why is it that everything I think is twisted in such a way so that it sounds erroneous and links itself to Trancy? For example 'for him to get a better reach'… a revolting thought.
I got up and Sebastian undressed the rest of me, and then quickly pulled on my nightgown. I untied the eye patch myself and placed on the cabinet beside my bed. I climbed into bed, and adjusted myself so I was comfortable.
"Good night Bouchan" Sebastian said bowing; I closed my eyes and simply moaned with tiredness at him. He left in silence; with no queries or apprehensions.
I wanted to forget today but I wasn't going to anytime soon, but still maybe I'll get some proper sleep tonight.
Somehow I managed to fall into a deep enough sleep, even though I was worried I was going to get an unexpected visitor in the night…
I was wrong about getting a good sleep… I woke up nearly every hour and then it took me about ten minutes to fall back to sleep after each time I awoke.