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Published: 2015-12-17 18:20:39 +0000 UTC; Views: 8993; Favourites: 40; Downloads: 214
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As some of you know, I'm transgendered and have been transitioning for a few years. The process has been slow for me, for financial and personal processes. But I have been moving forward. I have A-cup breasts and a face that, well, even Jesus doesn't love me.I've been taking 2mg of Estradiol and a 100mg of Spironlactone a day. So far, no serious side effects. But the changes in my hair, skin, and body have been nice, even if I'm far less than perfect. No make-up yet or hairstyling yet.
I just thought I'd show you how I look now and my workstation. I hope for more positive changes into the future, but this process is like a dream come true. I just want bigger boobs, dang it! Oh, boob fairy, when I get my hands on you!
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I think you're great, talented and attractive. Thank you for your great work. I especially enjoy the girl in the hall. I often (including now) set it as my background on my tablet.
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Wow. I appreciate it. I suffer big time when it comes to my gender. My art helps me quite a bit. Thank you so much for your support.
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I'm a 59 year old paraplegic (I broke my back three years ago, while braking a horse) and I've had gender issues since I was at least 2 years old. While I can't Transition myself (because I'd be out on the street) I still see being transgendered as a blessing. It makes us special and we see life from a special perspective. So please find a way to enjoy your life. You are awesome as a person and very gifted. I love your high quality art.
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Thank you for your kind comment and, let me say, I wish you the absolute best (sorry for the late reply).
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Ah I know the feeling when it seems like the transition isn't progressing at all.
Hope everything goes well on your path.
You go girl!
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Yay! There she is! 
I know this is an older picture now, but you look absolutely adorable!
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Don't be hard on yourself, hon. You look great... and you're not even wearing makeup yet! (I encourage you to start experimenting with it. Given your skills with a brush, who knows what you may achieve?!)
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did someone take the picture for you?
I'm so happy to see you and your work area
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Somebody did take this pic for me. Thank you so much for the kind words. Looks like a tornado hit my work area, though, didn't it?
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work places tend to look like that XD
i will have to make a new work place, so it may look nice for a bit, but only for a bit...
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Thanks, James! You're my besty, too.
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I'm a quiet distant besty but a besty is a besty!
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Hey, A-cup is perfectly fine (I would know 
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It's so nice to see you! I'm sorry it took so long for me to see this photo but now that I have I am overjoyed! Proud of you sort of fits how I feel about you. But really it's just happiness.
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Rodolfo, you don't have to apologize for the time it took for you to respond. I've been seeing your art and you've quite busy producing marvelous pieces (I love the way you draw Japanese women). Thank you so much for the support and, while this is a work in progress for me, I thank you for the comment.
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Hey
If you really think that you're not pretty you're wrong. May your face isn't the prettiest. May your body isn't the best looking one. But that doesn't matter. Ive seen a lot of your pictures without knowing how you exactly look like. You're a great person. Look at your pictures... So many people watch them. And they like you exactly as you are. Me included.
And If you want a better body... In YouTube you would find some videos called "Binaural Beats" They are good working. I've tried them and it was fascinating. Some of them give you more muscles, bigger breasts, blonder hair...and so on. You just have to find the right one. My girlfriend has listened one of them (one for a bigger but) for a week once a day. Now she have a really nice one. What I would say.. You're perfect as you are. And never forget this huge community standing behind you.
I wish you all the best,
TG-Caption writer Judoka
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Thank you for the kind words. Entering the world of the female is not easy for me, as I've never been one to have a lot of self-esteem to begin with. But it's what I need.
I've recently got a feminine haircut which I love and I'm saving up for electrolysis and a boob job. I've never heard of "Binaural Beats" but I'll look into them.
I am deeply grateful for your support and commentary.
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I've got many transgender friends... If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here to help you.
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I wish you continued and accelerated success in your transition! May you find the best version of yourself and as much happiness as anyone could hope for. I enjoy your art and hope that it too can continue to be amazing for many years to come.
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Thank you so much for the supportive comment. It is greatly appreciated.
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been following you for years now and i'm glad that you're slowly getting better. there's always time to expand in the future and life will get better
best wishes for the future
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Great to hear things are coming along for you. You look really nice!
You're a great artist and lovely person.
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Very kind of you to say so, Dreamtales. Admittedly, I tend to wince when I look at myself at the mirror. It's odd but I find myself simultaneously attracted to women and filled with sadness at their natural beauty against my own looks. But I thought I'd post this to let people see what I look like in an honest way. I would like to make another with a haircut, make-up, and the clothes. Regardless, I ain't giving up on anything.
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Darn, watching your art for a long time, calling myself a fan, and did not have a clue
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Thank you! I've considered myself for some time the "Ed Wood" of comics, from looking starstruck at other artists right down to wearing women's clothes. I wish I had the resources to make myself look pure female but I go with the flow. I won't quit on drawing nor transitioning.
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It took a lot of courage for me to stop even thinking about university career and focus solely on drawing, but still I can only Imagine how determined you have be. And it's really inspiring how you are dealing with all this, with your sense of humor. We'll see what this new year will bring. I'll drink to that
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Good luck, Zoe. I read somewhere if you yell the name 'Boob Fairy" three times into a hamper full of bras, she will appear with magic wand in hand... just a rumor though, but let me know if it works out!
Ps: Love the drawings!
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Blast it! It didn't work. I'll have to see if they sell "Boob Fairy" traps somewhere. I wonder what they eat.
Thank you for the kind (and funny) comment.
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You're very welcome. Happy hunting!
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One way or the other, we all want bigger boobs
Best wishes for you, Zoe, and I'm glad to finally get to know you.
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So people can see what I look like now, regardless whether my looks have changed from my last photo of myself or not.
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Starting to look girlier there! ^_~
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Well that is two things then.
Why would thou want people to see that,
And why would thou do that to theeself?
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RPHB:
Sorry for this severely late response, but I was just going to say this:
I was born and raised in a strong Christian home. I was never abused in any way, and for the most part, grew up relatively happy, and trust without a doubt in Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. However, I am also transgender, and after 40-years of inner-struggle with it, and trying to live life as the man that everyone expected me to me, I finally accepted myself as transgender. I finally accepted that, regardless of what people told me all of my life, transgender people struggle with an actual physical problem that is NOT just a "choice." (Who would choose to make life so hard for themselves, anyway?) Even with my relationship with Christ, I struggled greatly with depression for years and hatred of my own reflection, and the body my soul inhabited. I knew it was me, but it wasn't ME.
I know it doesn't make sense to people who have not suffered through it. I know it is quick to disregard, saying it is just sinful or whatever. Sure, sin can come from it, just as it can with anyone else through anything. But transgender people are literally people whose brain make-up does not often fit the body they are born with, so as with most any physical ailment, we try to use what is available medically to bring ourselves a happier and higher quality of life. The stress and anxiety of feeling forced to live as something we do NOT feel we are makes about 40% of us suicidal. I've asked my parents, would they rather have a dead son, or a happy and alive daughter?
Thanks for reading, and I hope it makes a little more sense why we do this.
Take care, and God bless you.
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It is not a physical problem it is a mental problem, and far and wide it have to do with a hormone imbalance.
It is easy to say that the body and soul do not match, but the fact is that the body and soul are one.
Yes it is sinful, but beyond that it is sick, especially if thou go so far as to conduct self mutilation.
The fact is that gender is something we are born with, it is not just outside appearance it is hard-coded in the DNA of every single cell in our body.
And as this video explains www.youtube.com/watch?v=aDAU3S…
suicide rates does not go down after a gender mutilation surgery, and some wants to go back afterwards, as it have NOTHING to do with their body and everything to do with their mind.
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It appears that you (as well as that video) are basing your information on outdated information. "Gender Identity Disorder" was reclassified as Gender Dysphoria due to many cases being biological in nature (which is not to say that psychological or behavioral causes don't exist; they are just not the sole reason, and can partially explain why there is such a wide variance to the identities trans people may associate with within the non-binary gender spectrum.)
Simplified video: youtu.be/CsbtQ2-kUwA
More in-depth analysis: www.transgendercare.com/medica…
My own mother suffered for years and was often suicidal due to the pain she experienced with Fibromyalgia. Before she was properly diagnosed, her doctors would tell her she was crazy, and that "it was all in her head." The same I'm sure was once thought about the poor people suffering within the Autism spectrum. COUNTLESS issues that were once thought as a mental or personality disorder have now been proven as an actual PHYSICAL issue. Transgenderism will prove no differently, I'm sure of it.
I was raised as a boy. I had a Christian upbringing. I had completely normal testosterone levels. I wanted to make everyone happy, so I did my best to live as the man I was expected to be. NO ONE suspected that I had been depressed or suffering, as out of fear of rejection I learned to suppress my feelings...that I had secretly wanted to be a girl since I was about 5-6 years old. I just turned 41, and I did everything I could to live as the man I felt everyone wanted me to be. I fell in love, and was married for 9 years. Any "normal man" would have been so happy...but I was secretly miserable and growing more and more depressed every year.
Now, I am 6 months into gender transition, and I can honestly say I have NEVER felt happier.
I have a new relationship with the Lord...a more open and honest relationship with my family.
I feel GOOD...and I hope to keep feeling better as I transition.
Lets say that you willfully ignore the stories of thousands of people who feel much better transitioning, and only look at a couple of way out of the ordinary cases such as the person who "feels like a cat", or "feels like a 6-year-old girl." Lets throw in Michelle Ivey (the girl who feels like a Ninja Turtle), or Eva Tiamat Medusa (the transwoman who is now transitioning again into a "dragoness"). Is it harming anyone else with what they decide to do with their life? Do they have the right to live happy so long as it hurts no one else? Why not?
Back to the original issue I had with your post. Just, don't be a jerk to people who are already going through an extremely difficult emotional time. Please treat others with kindness and love, and if what they are doing with their own life bothers you so much, just don't bring any further attention to it. Besides, I have the feeling you yourself are fighting against something within you with the several pieces of TG-themed art in your favorites list, and a lack of gender marker on your profile. As I'm sure you are aware, there's an old saying that begins, "those who scream the loudest...", which generally ends with the implication that they themselves have the most to hide. I'm not saying that is the case with you, but don't the assumptions of a stranger on how you may feel just suck?
Thanks for reading, and I hope you have a nice day.
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1) Yes as I said, the body and soul are an integrated whole, so of course we can't make a sharp distinction between the mental and the physical, that means that it is theoretically possible to treat people that suffers from gender disorders.
2) gender is binary, there are two and only two, male and female. We are born one or the other and stay like that until death. Thou can pretend to be something other then that which thou art, but that is and can never be anything other then a delusion, and it is never good to support others delusions.
3) the short answer to thy last objection is no I just think they are funny.
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