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There are butterflies in my stomach, I am experiencing a normal emotion of guilt and shame. Somehow my mind switches from wanting to deactivate to wanting to stand strong. The same thing happens a lot IRL to, I make a joke, people don't get the joke, I hide in the corner, and then I cry... yes I cry, do YOU cry? Yes, yes you do. Now, don't feel bad for me or try to sympathize with me or anything like that, I just wanted to express that I can feel guilt in my actions, especially my taste in humor! Now, I tend not to think things through before actually... y'know, doing it, often leading to more guilt than I should! So you're telling me that THIS is ok, but THIS isn't? Yea ok, I see where you're coming from here... I'm just gonna pull a Micheal Jackson real quick- JUST LEAVE ME ALOOONE!

Now, this isn't an excuse or anything, but do note that I have autism, not much of it, but I'm on the spectrum nonetheless, and with autism comes the inability to communicate and realizing your mistakes before it's to late. In fact, at this point I hesitate to click the submit button because of what other people may think, I'm insecure, but I pretend not to be and keep up the sassy attitude, which is my way of saying, please stop, you are making me feel healthy emotions that are normal but not nice to experience. Yea yea I know but I'm bias, jokingly bias, and how about YOU just ignore it? If it's really making you feel that upset then just... just go. I don't want to see people upset, especially at me, but the truth is, the reason I've done this, is because I was highly inspired by SolarSands to do it, I was under the impression that if people threw shit at me for making fun of a fetish, that I could still stay strong! And each time that's happened it's always resulted in embarrassment and sickness. Don't tell me to grow up, I'm already learning from my mistakes, and I can't help but say that... I heavly dislike you, and you can't stop that, and if you're telling me that I'm not gonna bring fetishes down, then that means that I'll keep doing it, because it's meant for humor purposes only, and even if nobody's laughing... which makes me feel even more upset than ever... I still try my best to squeeze a little Pingu in there, because Pingu makes me happy, and Pingu gives me hope. Thank you for your time, and if anything didn't make sense to you in this message, just let me know, it's good practice for trying to hold on to my hopes of becoming a comedian of my own tastes.

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There are butterflies in my stomach, I am experiencing a normal emotion of guilt and shame. Somehow my mind switches from wanting to deactivate to wanting to stand strong. The same thing happens a lot IRL to, I make a joke, people don't get the joke, I hide in the corner, and then I cry... yes I cry, do YOU cry? Yes, yes you do. Now, don't feel bad for me or try to sympathize with me or anything like that, I just wanted to express that I can feel guilt in my actions, especially my taste in humor! Now, I tend not to think things through before actually... y'know, doing it, often leading to more guilt than I should! So you're telling me that THIS is ok, but THIS isn't? Yea ok, I see where you're coming from here... I'm just gonna pull a Micheal Jackson real quick- JUST LEAVE ME ALOOONE!

Now, this isn't an excuse or anything, but do note that I have autism, not much of it, but I'm on the spectrum nonetheless, and with autism comes the inability to communicate and realizing your mistakes before it's to late. In fact, at this point I hesitate to click the submit button because of what other people may think, I'm insecure, but I pretend not to be and keep up the sassy attitude, which is my way of saying, please stop, you are making me feel healthy emotions that are normal but not nice to experience. Yea yea I know but I'm bias, jokingly bias, and how about YOU just ignore it? If it's really making you feel that upset then just... just go. I don't want to see people upset, especially at me, but the truth is, the reason I've done this, is because I was highly inspired by SolarSands to do it, I was under the impression that if people threw shit at me for making fun of a fetish, that I could still stay strong! And each time that's happened it's always resulted in embarrassment and sickness. Don't tell me to grow up, I'm already learning from my mistakes, and I can't help but say that... I heavly dislike you, and you can't stop that, and if you're telling me that I'm not gonna bring fetishes down, then that means that I'll keep doing it, because it's meant for humor purposes only, and even if nobody's laughing... which makes me feel even more upset than ever... I still try my best to squeeze a little Pingu in there, because Pingu makes me happy, and Pingu gives me hope. Thank you for your time, and if anything didn't make sense to you in this message, just let me know, it's good practice for trying to hold on to my hopes of becoming a comedian of my own tastes.